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i could add a few more stages to grief if they let me

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Adolf von Becker (1831 - 1909) - The Cat on the Pillow. Oil on canvas.

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ringed seals on a rock.

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@important-cat-pics

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viewing queer identities as “this is the label that makes me happy and feels most accurate now” rather than “this is who I am, was, and always will be” will definitely take the pressure off, friends. changing your mind is proof that you have one.

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man, I love this character so much! [fills them with a deep and inescapable yearning which they don’t know how to fill or even name]

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Being demisexual and bi is funny to me. Anyone can hit it but you must suffer The Gauntlet first

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idk if i told the full story on here but i signed up for a research study where they were testing a new opioid, and it was supposed to be up to 5 injections increasing the dose to see what people could tolerate

i got the first dose and almost immediately fainted. they had to call in a whole medical team and it was a huge fucking deal

i was kicked out of the study and got a phone call later where they were supposed to tell me what the drug was, so i could avoid it in the future. they told me it was saline water. a placebo. i fainted from the placebo effect.

anyway, it's been a few months and i just got an email from the same department asking me to be a research participant in a new study: testing the effects of open-label placebo.

open label placebo is when the subjects and the researchers all know it's a placebo. they're testing the power of my mind. my power to imagine anything.

i like to think that they chose me for this specifically based on their past experience with me. "get the guy who fainted like a little bitch boy from saline water." anyway i just submitted all my info and i'm looking forward to getting started.

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i have no idea what this means but my dad is the only valid ally

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