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“And I know that if he asked me if I loved him, I would say yes. I would knock down the walls I had spent so long building and run light fingers over the small wrinkle between his eyes. I would kiss the corners of his mouth which were tugged down in distress, and I would watch the hope refill his eyes as I told him again and again that I’m obsessed with dark hair and hazel eyes and a heart bigger than I deserve. But I watch as a veil falls over his face and it’s not my walls separating us now but his. And I know that he loves me and I love him, but he’s too afraid to ask and I’m too afraid to say. And so it’s silence that keeps us apart as he turns around, jaw clamped in a way that tells me he’s trying hard not to fall apart in front of me. And it’s silent when he walks away, but it’s a war inside my head. My ears are roaring and my head is spinning but all he hears is silence.”

— H.L. // excerpt from a book I’ll never write #6 // hush, hush, do you hear that?

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writing a high school sweathearts second chance garvez fic and can't get get over luna's teen parents luke & penny

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softer prompts

“  i’m not going anywhere.  ” “  you make me feel safe.  ”   “  i think i might be in love with you.  ” “  i just like seeing you happy.  ” “  just let me take care of you.  ” “  you’re my family.  ” “  i can stay, if you want.  ” “  you make me feel alive.  ” “  you’re captivating.  ” “  i want you to know i’ll always be here for you. whatever you need.  ” “  you don’t have to tell me anything, we can just sit here.  ” “  i trust you. more than anyone else.  ” “  you have a beautiful soul.  ” “  i feel like i could watch you all day. everything you do has a touch of magic to it.  ” “  i hope i see you in my dreams.  ” “  do you trust me?  ” “  you don’t ever have to pretend. not with me. not ever.  ” “  i love you, every part of you. even the parts you don’t like.  ” “  you make everything a little easier.  ” “  will you just…hold me? please.  ” “  just tell me everything’s gonna be okay.  ” “  you’re enough. you’re more than enough.  ” “  you have my heart in your hands. be gentle with it.  ” “  i wanna be the one you go to. the first one you tell when there’s something good. the shoulder to cry on when it’s bad. and every mundane thing in between. i want to share it all with you.  ” “  i have faith in you.  ” “  i’ve never met anyone quite like you.  ” “  knowing you is like…coming home. like i’ve finally found something that’s been missing all this time.  ” “  every hard thing in my life feels worth it. it all led me to you.  ” “  i feel like i could endure anything as long as i have you to come home to.  ” “  i can tell something’s bothering you.  ” “  what can i do to help?  ” “  come on. let’s get out of here.  ” “  i’m taking you somewhere special.  ” “  where are you taking me?  ” “  i don’t need grand gestures or declarations of love. i just need you. all of you.  ” “  you make me feel like i’m worthy.  ” “  you deserve good things.  ” “  i want to be your home.  ” “  loving you is like something holy.  ” “  i made you something.  ” “  come back to bed.  ” “  stay the night with me.  ” “  are you sure you’re okay?  ” “   you wanna talk about it?  ” “  did you wanna tell me something?  ”  “  you’ll always have me.  ” “  i’m proud of you.  ”   “  i need you.  ” “  thank you. for always being there for me.  ” “  don’t ever let anyone make you doubt your worth.  ” “  i’m not leaving you. not ever.  ”   “  you have kind eyes.  ”   “  sleep, my love. i’ll keep the nightmares away.  ”   “  there’s so much light in you.  ” “  i want you here.  ”  

ACTIONS: 

❀ for a forehead kiss ✦ for our muses to hold hands ❉ for one muse to nap against the other ✱ for one muse to surprise the other ✸ for our muses to cuddle  ❄ for our muses to enjoy the first snow of winter  ♛ for my muse to teach yours something new ☂ for our muses to stargaze  ♡ for one muse to wake the other with breakfast in bed ♤ for a kiss on the palm ☁ for our muses to get caught in the rain without an umbrella ☀ for one muse to surprise the other with a home-cooked meal  ☾ for one muse to hug the other without explanation  ♞ for one muse to give the other a massage  ✞ for one muse to give the other flowers ✔ for one muse to caress the other’s face ✚ for our muses to shower/bathe together  ＄for one muse to catch the other staring lovingly 

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saw a penny edit to pushing it down & praying comparing derek & luke this morning & it still has me like this

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❛ oh - ❜ she perks up at jitters but waits , as patiently as she can , her hands in her lap as she watches henry go through his bag . she worries if she reacts before she's supposed to he'll change his mind , but once she's got the flyer in her hands she can't help the wide , excited smile that spreads across her lips . ❛ oh , henry ! this is so amazing ! of course , i'll be there ! & don't you worry that perfect blond head of yours i am going to make so sure that the entire family can see it ! even if i have to beg steal or borrow the boss , this is more important than anything ! i mean , we'll record it of course but - wait , how small ? because once we get this ball rolling there's your mom & dad & michael & me , i guess if push comes to shove we don't have to invite luke but he'll definitely want to come ! & i'm sure matt & kristy could find a babysitter for their eighteen kids & we can send them the video because they'll want to see it too . & i mean , it's up to you babe , but they'll all want to go , i know it ! ❜

@baukitten hey sorry this is late…

pausing from rifling through the chaos of his backpack, henry nods. “uncle dave’s sounds good. garlic bread is good for jitters.” jitters which he doesn’t particularly have to hide in the sanctuary of penelope’s control center. their differing frantic energies balance each other nicely and, not for the first time that evening, henry is grateful to spend this time at her side. “i have this… thing. i guess it’s a recital?” he finally digs out the flyer he’d been searching for, somehow in pristine condition, and holds it in her direction. “they organized it for the kids who’re taking music classes, but aren’t in band. it’s gonna be small, so it’s no big deal if you can’t make it. i just thought you might… like to. make it.”

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crashing out about the way criminal minds treats penelope garcia at my big age is kind of cringe

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The writers fixation on traumatizing Penny in a very real way but then having something else so insane happen to someone else so we don’t really talk about it until she’s deep in a depression is kind of impressive but unfortunately for them I will always be here to see it & acknowledge it & judge them for it

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I unfortunately need voit to stay baby girl … he’s gotta pretend to be good for the rest of his life so that I don’t ever have to see Penelope Garcia cry about his sudden yet inevitable betrayal … sorry evil voit , amnesia voit is the permanent outie from now on and luke is going to have to deal with her new bestie

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The hug scene in context is even more crazy wdym she caused the death of this man who only wanted his wife to know that he loved her right in front of Luke & he immediately went to her to comfort her & himself & then they had to go back to work???? & no one else was like hey penny r u ok? So she went to see baby girl voit 😭

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this is literally voit and his lawyer

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do u think jj doesn't come to penny's side as much anymore when something happens to her bc she knows luke's already there & she knows he'd never let her deal with it alone ....

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exes with feelings prompts

“ i know you, i know you like i know my own name, i know who you are in your bones. ”

” i see the way you look at her, a love like that doesn’t die. ”

“ never doubt my love for you, you always saw the best in me because you were the best of me.  ”

“ i still need you in my life. ”

“ you chose them, you always choose them. ”

“  passion wasn’t our problem.  we were always good at that part.  but passion can be anger and hate,  just as easily as joy and love.  somewhere along the way,  we forgot which was which. ”

“  you can’t keep doing this.  you can’t just keep coming here and expecting me to drop everything for you.  ”  

 “  you can’t keep doing this to me.  either you want this,  or you don’t.  but you keep tugging me back and forth.  ”

“  i can’t keep doing this.  i want to pretend to be happy for you but it’s killing me inside.  ”  

“  stop.  you have to stop.  because i don’t have the strength to look you in the eyes and make you leave.  i need you to be strong for me.  one last time.  ”

“  look at me and tell me you don’t feel anything.  make me believe it,  and i’ll go.  ”  

“  every time i’m around you it’s…it’s like a poison.  you’re in me.  and i can’t get you out.  ”

“  i know i didn’t call— i just.  i couldn’t stop thinking about you.  i had to see you. ”

“  i know i don’t have any right to anymore,  but i need you.  ”  

“  what are you doing here?  ”

“  will you just stay with me?  just for tonight.  please.  ”

“  you came?  ”

“  of course i came.  you needed me.  ”  

“  you loved the idea of me more than you loved me.  ”

“  i can’t keep being in love with someone who hates themself more than they love me.  ”

“  i was ready.  i was there.  but you were too scared of something real.  ”

“  i used to think you were the only person who could love me.  i’m not that person anymore.  if you want me back you have to give me a goddamn good reason more than ‘we belong together.’  ”  

“  you better fucking mean it because i want you too.  ” 

“  don’t look at me like that.  ”

“  just one more time.  ”

“  love isn’t just missing me.  you don’t love me if you aren’t willing to put in the work.  ”

“  you don’t miss me.  you miss how i made you feel.  ”

“  i get to decide whether or not you’re good enough.  that was my choice to make.  and you took it away.  ”

“  i’m sorry— i shouldn’t have kissed you i just…  ”

“  i didn’t have anywhere else to go.  i’m sorry.  ”  

“  i know you probably hate me right now but i don’t have anyone else to talk to.  ”

“  isn’t that my shirt?  ”

“  of course i still love you.  ”

“  i don’t.  i don’t love you anymore.  ”

“  you’re so full of shit.  ”

“  you can lie to yourself but you can’t lie to me.  ”

“  i want to try again.  i know we can make this work.  ”

“  i won’t run from this.  i won’t run from us again.  ”

“  don’t break my heart again.  ”

NSFW / ACTIONS

★ our muses have goodbye sex after breaking up  ☆ our muses accidentally have sex when one comes over to pick up their stuff ✧ our muses run into each other in public and hook up ✦ one muse comes over for a booty call  ✱ our muses accidentally kiss  ✥ our muses sleep together in the middle of trying to work things out  ❀ sender does a grand gesture to try to get receiver back  ✿ one muse comes over to offer their ex a shoulder to cry on ❃ for comfort sex  ☎ for receiver to write a drabble about a voicemail they left for sender  ⭒ for our muses to have an emotionally intimate night  ✱ our muses wake up in bed together with a hangover  ✼ for a drabble about one muse missing the other  ☞ for one muse to reach out for the other’s hand out of habit  ☟ for one muse to catch the other looking at them longingly across the room  ☁ for our muses to end up stuck inside together because of a storm  ♡ for our muses to get locked in a room together by a third party  ♣ for our muses to reunite because one got hurt  ➢ for our muses to reunite because of one muse suffering a loss  ➚ for our muses to reunite because one muse is in the hospital and the other is their emergency contact

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getting my little hands around a penny hc post about coming back and how fucked up she is 💖

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CRIMINAL MINDS: EVOLUTION 18.07 "All The Devils are Here"

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I watched one scene and I refuse to accept what happened after but the one scene …. We’re so back

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Luke is DRAGGING Penny to that Bruce Springsteen biopic

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Adults 1.05 — Theracide