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THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN SAYINGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

A lot of people are talking about Ivan's hypocrisy with Sua and how he berates her for sacrificing herself for Mizi and becoming a source of trauma for her and then he did the same thing, but there's a heartbreaking perspective on this.

Sua and Mizi loved each other. The love was reciprocal. Sua died KNOWING Mizi loved her. Ivan's dislike of her comes from the fact that she knew damn well what her death would do to the person who loved her and she did it anyway. She KNOWINGLY hurt Mizi in the worst way possible while still claiming to love her.

Ivan? Ivan's been drilled for YEARS that Till DOESN'T love him. His love isn't returned. It's very possible that he just believes that he won't be a source of trauma for Till, because Till doesn't love him. So he can die for him all he wants. Of course, the elephant in the room is that we no longer know what Till thinks of Ivan after he kissed him and sacrificed himself for him, but that's AFTER Ivan is already dead. He had no intentions or expectations that what he did would actually hurt Till. And there is something so unbelievably sad about that.

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got round to watching alien stage. they are inventing heretofore undiscovered lengths of single file unreciprocal love triangles out there

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the latest comic has to be my favorite one yet. i was begging for ivansua crumbs and got a feast. they knew!! they knew of each other‘s dark sides!!!

ivan is obviously projecting onto sua HARD and it's not the first time we see him criticize her way of doing things.

the other time was when he told her that they both know the effort she puts in getting good grades is "meaningless" which already implied that he saw through her intentions all along, because why bother studying if she wanted to die for mizi to begin with?

I think the reason ivan is so cruel to sua specifically besides his self hatred/him seeing himself in her is envy. the major difference between him and sua is that what ivan and till have will never be on par with what mizi and sua have, so even if ivan were to sacrifice himself now, he'd be closer to ending up as "mere trauma" to till than sua to mizi. sua is mizi's universe, her god and vice versa so her "miserable" and "pitiful" actions will bear so much more meaning than his' since till doesn't see ivan as such. (i also think what ivan said to sua was only half correct cause while sua's death has been extremely traumatic for mizi i'm convinced it is that what will drive her to keep going and it'll be shown in the future.)

anyways to make matters worse, ivan has already risked it all for till and him to escape together once which didn't work out. it might explain why he absolutely detests the idea of sua's self sacrifice. it is selfish and leaves the other person scarred, you’re essentially dumping your burdens on them and running away from responsibility. ivan knows and says this but he's considered it before as well which makes him look hypocritical. so he vents his own frustrations out on sua who's- according to him- just as twisted. but he’s probably much more twisted than she is because at the end sua didn’t even grace him with an answer. as observant as she is, she has never once thought about being similar to him.

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Credits to @/_momorxn on twitter for the translation! I just wanted to have it in the comic because this literally destroyed me this morning. I ranted to my partner abt this for like a good 30 minutes.

The bully calls them losers, and ivan didnt know what it meant. So, he asks till, and he explains that it basically means "friendless idiot" after calling ivan an idiot, which then prompted ivan to say that the bully was right and they were both friendless idiots. This clearly made till upset and since he only knows how to defend himself with violence he punches ivan and runs away in frustration because in his eyes, ivan, the only friend he had and probably the only person that didnt make him feel like a "friendless idiot", was insulting him of being just that. However, ivan clearly didnt mean it as an offense, he was simply stating what was obvious to him.... that till and him only had each other, and so that made them both "friendless idiots".

Ivan learnt two things that day : first, when something is hurt, you gently touch them and tell them to stay strong. second, he was a loser. So now that hes hurt both physically from till's punch and emotionally for offending his one and only, he gently pats his own injury and tells himself to stay strong, despite the lingering pain that was tormenting him and making it hard for him to confidently believe in what he was saying. am i being dramatic? probably. But this is worth being dramatic for

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alien stage time! *stages all over your alien* 🪐 💫 🎤

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Hug!! 💗

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good old days

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in honor of TOP 3 dropping here’s a meme I forgot I made

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alien stage time! *stages all over your alien* 🪐 💫 🎤

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mizi beating the shit out of luka compilation. this ones just for me

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Back then…..

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~ BLACK SORROW