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From Catspells by Claire Nahmad.

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there are sometimes where I hate my life tbh... I wish I had died during covid... suicidal thoughts kick in sometimes...

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it fucking sucks being a disabled person who can't work and having to see these fuckass posts where someone's like "ahaha jobless people have no life and that's why everyone shitty online has No Job" and everyone and their mother reblogs it joyfully onto my dash for me to see. yes unemployed and unemployable people are truly without exception dogshit people with no hobbies and no redeeming qualities. you're so right. anyway if you'll excuse me i have to start my shift at the I'll Never Be Employed Because Of Permanent Disability And I Love Knowing How You Really See Me store

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Delete, unfollow, unfriend, block, erase, and disconnect from anyone and anything that robs you of your peace, love, and happiness. Not just on social media, but offline too. You don't need to be around people who don't see and appreciate your value.

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MySpace - Relive the nostalgia of 2006 (full video)

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sometimes i wish my parents would sell their big apartment and buy two smaller ones so that I would have my own place this way lmao...

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after I see my endocrinologist next week I am planning to find a new job and start my career for real... ever since last year I started to feel more like my old self again and feel like I can work hard again <3

I feel like I am fully recovered after 9 years on treatment for my pituitary tumor... and I can live a normal life again...

it's just that it's really hard to find a good well paid job that's permanent... I often change jobs and could never find something permanent... if it wasn't for the pituitary tumor diagnosis in my 20s I think that I could've achieved more in my career and life but it slowed me down a lot... and forced me to live a more ordinary life in my hometown again... quit living abroad and searching for something better...

Living with this condition was really hard... mainly because I couldn't have the surgery instead which meant I had to live with this horrible medication's side effects for a few years... between 2016 and 2019.

I am not sure I am fully healed... but my MRI scan and blood test results are all good now... no tumor visible on MRI anymore...

I'm thinking about settling down in my hometown... I never want to leave this place again... life is just easier here for me. Eventhough at times it feels so boring but this is the best for me...

I did a very long career break for my recovery... which I do not regret... I deserved some time off tbh... But I'm not sure that I will ever be the same again after my pituitary tumor diagnosis in 2015...

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You have been battling these issues for so long, give yourself some credit for how much you overcame. For how much you fight. For how much you try. For the time you take to care for your health.

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last week someone from the bus wanted to meet me and asked me where did I come back from... and I said "from Scotland" and he said "and I came back from the Netherlands" lmao

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It's so infuriating how disabled people get held to higher standards than abled people. It's like as long as you have the luck of being abled no one will care to police your lifestyle, but if you have any kind of mental or physical health issue everyone will try to make it all about your diet and your little bad habits and your imperfect exercise routine and the fact that you aren't trying every alternative treatment out there

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For the rest of 2025, internalize that it’s a privilege to know you, to love you, and to experience your energy.

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