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I literally think my entire life would be better if I looked the way I wanted to and was thin. Everything would be alright. I think I would get treated better.

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I visited my parents and my weight was 130 lbs, so I’m going to cut back a bit this week. I haven’t moved enough today.

I thought I might transfer colleges for a while because the one I’m at is expensive and sometimes I like it, but other times I feel viscerally wrong being here. I thought I might transfer to another school, but if I did that I’d be so behind on the only major I would want to study there, meaning I probably would not graduate on time.

The idea of staying here makes me so distressed.

To think, with everything that’s going on, I can still only think about my weight and how I look. I upsets to know I’m going to die without ever having been attractive. I don’t take enough pictures because I hate my looks, but I know I’m only gonna get uglier. I’m nothing but an ugly person getting a degree I feel totally apathetic in hopes it will one day make me money.

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it feels like everyone else is skinnier than me, is prettier than me, has better skin than me, dresses nicer than me, has a better home life than me, has more freedom than me, is better at doing stuff than me, has a cleaner space than me, is funnier than me, is more lovable than me, and is just overall better than me

i would seriously kill not to be me anymore bc no matter what i fix i’ll always be me and i fucking hate me

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the anorexic urge to stare at every skinny person that walks by

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How do people just eat when they're hungry and stop when they're full

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It’s hot out and all I can think about is how much I hate my own body. Not just my weight, everything.

My limp, greasy, dandruffy hair. My big legs. How I look in my clothes. My bad skin. My ugly, fleshy, round face. My soft weirdly shaped body.

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Also trying to get 10,000 steps in rough. I’m at 7500 and it’s already 5, and if my roommate isn’t gonna go out tonight that means I can’t walk around our dorm like a maniac.

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for someone obsessed with losing weight I’m not very good at it

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I’ve dabbled in astrology and my chart is so idk disappointing. I have a bunch of cancer energy which is associated with weight gain.

I have a Leo rising, and supposedly that placement gives large bone structure. I do have massive ribs and shoulders. My torso is so long and my legs are short it kills me.

Worst of all, I have Jupiter in the 1st house. That is literally the planet of expansion in the house of the physical body. 🥲

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say jk after eating so you dont gain weight

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I’ll never have the body I want because I’d need to be taller. I want to be 5’7 or 5’8.

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