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hi tumblr my hyperfixation ended but now it’s back

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I love watching dvds... bc the little commercials beforehand will be like "coming to you spring 2008!" like man. I can't wait for 2008

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subscribing to a fic isn’t enough I need the author to blast a bat signal into the night sky whenever they update

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Becoming a writer is great because now you have a hobby that haunts you whenever you don’t have time to do it

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there’s wip (active development) and wip (stuck in development hell) and wip (oh you’re not even getting funding for this one)

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Definitely a ramble, but I keep thinking about Captain Man/Ray's character lately. He is a deeply flawed and almost tragic character, yet fits the archetype of superheroes. I find him hard to write, and even harder to dissect

So, Here are a few observations and theories I have about Ray

Schwoz was his only friend prior to the show, and he was isolated not only as a child but also as an adult because of his power/Captain Man.

1. He is incredibly lonely-I think this is clearly established in the show

Despite constantly stating how amazing he is, he is constantly seeking external validation from everyone around him.

This does make me wonder though, because when we first meet him there are other people in the cave. Why do they know his identity? / Who are they in the larger picture?

2. He is really insecure

This one I definitely want to look into more, because I want to say his external confidence and love for himself is to hide the hatred he actually has for himself. I'm thinking along the lines of the TV show Lucifer in this regard.

Because his words and his actions don't quite add up, and I think he relies far too heavily on outside validation to be a narcissist.

Throughout the show we see him steal or take stuff from stores he's saved or stuff like that. I think he feels like the city of Swellview owes him something. Not just because he stopped someone from robbing their store, but because he was forced to give his entire life up to save people.

3. He feels owed

Ray technically exists, but only as a placeholder for Captain Man. The few times we see Ray outside of the Man Cave without being Captain Man, it's in relation to Henry.

He was feeling so overwhelmed/lonely he hired a 13 year old to fight crime with him. And we see how the city's thank you is fro-yo and budget cuts. Doesn't make his actions right, but it does make them more complicated.

4. Ray Manchester doesn't exist-only Captain Man

We know Ray had a girlfriend who didn't know, but most of his 'relationships' are in the mask. He only has value to people because of Captain Man. Because Ray was trained for one thing, and is shown that outside of it, he doesn't have the life skills for anything else.

As the series, and later Danger Force, progress, we see more of Ray. So while I'm not a huge fan of how his arc with Credenza ended, I do theoretically like the idea of him retiring. Because it will be the first time since he was 8 that he won't be defined by being a superhero.

I think there is a whole lot more happening behind the scenes than can even be mentioned on a kid's show. Especially, before Henry. His childhood was rough, but it was also every comic book hero's worst nightmare.

5. We can't see most of Ray's story because it's a kid's show

He gained superpowers and his life ended because the government/his father took him, experimented on him, and trained him to be their soldier 'superhero'. That's why Superman kept his powers a secret growing up, so that exact thing wouldn't happen. I feel like there is something incredibly tragic about that.

Then he becomes a superhero, and it clearly hints at Ray being a pleasure seeker. The womanizer thing is the clearest example of that, but it's not a stretch to say drinking too. Him being able to be knocked out and affected by gases would hint that alcohol works.

I also saw a reddit post (couldn't confirm it's legitimacy, so I'm using it more as a theory) about him making a cocaine bust and using all of it since there wouldn't be negative side effects. It led to him staying up for three days straight to perfect his corn dog recipe.

Something about that resonated with his character. Can't pinpoint why. At first I laughed, then, I felt really sad at the idea. Because I can see him doing it, but I can't see any reason that would speak well on what Ray is thinking internally.

I wonder why. It could be a lack of a proper sleep schedule from fighting crime for so many years, ADHD, or nightmares. I also wonder if he could suffer from phantom pain. Because he still feels pain, it's just never permanent, so I wonder if his mind conjures up that pain in the middle of the night and he distracts himself with other things.

6. Ray is an insomniac

Denial is strong, and I think Ray's got stronger the longer Henry was his sidekick. Because in the first and second season, Ray gave Henry chances to back out, but Henry always came back or pushed back when Ray voiced it. So, Ray convinced himself that it was fine, because he can't do it on his own anymore. Then as the later years approached, Ray would probably be the happiest he had ever been. And he thought Henry was too.

7. He truly believed he was doing the best for Henry

I think they were having two different arguments when Henry quit. Because Henry had his friends, he had his family, and he never would have to be a Superhero alone because Ray would always be at his side. Henry didn't have to give up everything like Ray did. So Ray couldn't understand Henry's frustration or why he would willingly choose to leave, or why he was so frustrated about school. Not until he had to choose on that blimp and Henry needed to be the one to live.

I don't know what this is other than throwing my thoughts of Ray at a wall to see what sticks. Feel free to add on, expand or debate any of my points. Ray is an interesting character, especially because he is the best and worst of superheroes. Because the more you start to look at his story the more tragic it is. It doesn't justify his actions or make what he does okay, but it does make him a fascinating character.

I'll probably add on to this as I get more ideas.

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maybe your fanfic doesn’t have to change someone’s life maybe it can just brighten someone’s day for a bit

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I simply cannot pick a Henry danger ship like:

I’m in love with chenry but then there’s hensper but then It’s the same thing with piper and jasper but I also ship piper and Jana.

I’m generally torn between them all and I have more cause don’t even get me started on danger force ships.

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since HD takes place in the 2010s i headcannon that piper was one of those teenage youtubers with way too much popularity and money back in youtube’s prime

she def attended like vidcon and youtuber parties. probably wanted to be on seven super girls but her niche was too aggressive and mature for the channel

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I think I’m really funny on discord sometimes

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yogurt granola and whatever random fruit i have

but i have been loving overnight oats lately

If I ask nicely will people reblog this and tell me what their most common breakfast is? Not your favorite necessarily, just what you have for breakfast most frequently? 🙏🏽

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hd text posts pt 2

cause i woke up @ 3am and couldn't get back to sleep

better ones to come cause i made a shit-tone and didnt wanna post all the good ones @ once 🙂‍↕️

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for no absolute reason at all... this fit goes hard despite being plain

I'm imagining Jasper dressing up like this in Dystopia

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hd text posts pt 4

last part for a while now but i've linked the other parts below if you want to go check those out!!

repurposed image to even it out @ the end lol

ive loved seeing people enjoy these so ill definitely be making more in the future at some point, just taking a little break from them for now!

Pt 1 | Pt 2 | Pt 3

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