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Decided to draw Jenna from imagination. This is closest I've ever gotten to drawing Jenna

Now lillian

now lillian in loomer

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Hurt/Comfort Dialogue Prompts

Part III

"We will get through this. Together."

"You can hold my hand, if it makes you feel safer."

"It will become easier. Maybe not today, but soon."

"Lay your head on my shoulder and try to sleep."

"There is nothing wrong with needing a bit of help."

"I'm here for you. Today, tomorrow and every day after."

"Please trust me to help you."

"Thank you for getting me through this."

"I'm really hoping to see you smile again soon."

"Nothing a good night's sleep can't fix."

"Show me that bruise please."

"I'm taking care of you now."

"Do you feel safe enough to come with me?"

"Let's dry those tears and get you some water."

"I'm going to be here when you wake up."

"This will all soon be in the past."

"Can I please hold your hand?"

"Sorry, I'm being so difficult for you."

"Don't apologize for needing help every now and then."

"Let's get you in the shower and we'll take it from there."

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Advice for writing relationships

Ship Dynamics

How to create quick chemistry

How to write a polyamorous relationship

How to write a wedding

How to write found family

How to write forbidden love

Introducing partner(s) to family

Honeymoon

Date gone wrong

Fluffy Kiss Scene

Love Language - Showing, not telling

Love Language - Showing you care

Affections without touching

Giving the reader butterflies with your characters

Reasons a couple would divorce on good terms

Reasons for breaking up while still loving each other

Relationship Problems

Relationship Changes

Milestones in a relationship

Platonic activities for friends

Settings for conversations

How to write a love-hate relationship

How to write enemies to lovers

How to write lovers to enemies to lovers

How to write academic rivals to lovers

How to write age difference

Reasons a couple would divorce on good terms

Reasons for having a crush on someone

Ways a wedding could go wrong

Arranged matrimony for royalty

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I'm so dumb wtf

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Lillian: *crying*

Bella: *peeking from the door*

Lillian: *starts chuckling* GET OUT D:< *Throws small object*

Bella: Can I talk-

Lillian: No!

Bella: pls

The girls bicker- well Lillian is doing most of the bickering. Bella is begging with a light hearted, playful expression, messing with her. She is genuine though.

Lillian: Get out! You're just trying to make me laugh. *sniffles*

Bella: What's wrong with that?!

Lillian: I don't feel like laughing! *buries into herself* I just wanna cry...

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Daily Writing Challenge

Write 5 sentences for your WIP right now. (x)

Imagine a place where you would like to be and write about what you would do there. (x)

What are your OCs pet peeves? (x)

Write a 10 sentence long short story about the object next to you. (x)

Write a summary for a book you would love to read. (x)

Write down 10 words that describe your MC. (x)

Write a micro story about an unusual love. (x)

Explain your MCs motivation in 3 sentences. (x)

Write a poem about an empty house. (x)

Write a 5 sentence long short story from three different perspectives. (x)

What nicknames does your MC have and who gave them to them? (x)

Write a new piece of lore for your WIP. (x)

Write a micro story about someone saying "thank you". (x)

Write about one your OC's tattoos or someone getting one done. (x)

What do you admire about your MC? (x)

Write the dialogue for a scene that's been on your mind.

Write a road trip scene.

Write about your MCs favourite outfit.

Write about something that you can see from your window.

Write about a normal day in your MC's life.

Write 100 words today. It doesn't matter about what.

Write a funny scene.

Write down everything on your mind for five minutes.

Write about your OC's first meeting.

Write a scene in a grocery store.

Write a micro story about an artist and their muse.

Write an end scene, without the beginning.

Write 10 sentences for your WIP right now.

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A better music post

I'll tag this one with music or sumn so it doesn't get lost in the plethora of tags I have.

The last time I tried to make a music post for my oc's everything was rushed and disorganized, but since today I'm in a writing mood, I'm going to try to make this post a lot more coherent.

I'm going to go down my playlist and pick a few songs to share (trying not to spoil my story in the process.) So, the earbuds are in and my hand's are ready.

Let's go!

Billy Joel, Vienna- Just re-added this song back to my playlist today, but when I heard it again I was like, 'oh my jeez. This song is to Dylan." Poor guy is always overworking himself as the leader of his team. Kid doesn't take the time to be a kid v_v

Stevie Wonder and Ariana Grande, Faith- Yeah... animated motion picture soundtrack music. This song is for teenage Lillian. It's her being a heart throb with Stevie wonder impressing the ladies. Lmao don't ask how she was able to be in a song with Stevie wonder. She's a well known hero so it's possible. Also, unimportant detail but I imagine her in one of those like groovy jumpsuits from Austin powers lmao. "Groovy Baby"

EARFQUAKE but only my voice, SQUALAY- I already explained that I imagine Justin singing this. The pitchiness of the main vocal is so much Justin to me lmao. In my head he's goofing off with his cousins, and they all just decided to come together to sing this one night. they were supposed to be chilling, but oh well I guess lol. It's one of those "the boys at midnight' things. Y'know... like that meme.

I feel like I should mention that Justins cousins are African American (His adopted parents Nicole and Derek are African American) so when things like this happen, it doesn't matter, everybody is just being goofy together.

Anything but Ordinary, Avril Lavigne- IS IT ENOUGH TO LOVE, IS IT ENOUGH TO BREATH Yeah, I know I had this as a song I imagined with the blues during a blues daydream, but I also imagine either young Savannah or young Lillian singing this at a karaoke (more Lillian because she's more 'randumz quirky') And they are leading a crowd in the song. Yay <3 (The ending with the back vocals is just tooooo perfect.)

Back Door, STRAY KIDS- Hey! It's Kpop. Hello, kpop. I listen to so much kpop because it's the perfect montage/dance music. This is a montage of the girls being really cool. They are badass. This is more for Jenna though. She is verr badass. Perfect song for her fighting ego.

ANY SONG, ZICO- Justin because it's his vibe when he is a teenager. More laid back. Hey, I should really listen to the lyrics of this song because I have no idea what this song is about, but in my head, I imagine Justin is working in a restaurant and he's singing about trying to impress this girl he sees there but his boss is like 'Nah back to work kiddo.' So there is a lot of silliness of him trying to impress mystery girl despite his current situation.

Only problem is it doesn't sound vocally like Tennage justin :(

Can I Have This Dance, High School Musical 3- HELLO CHILDHOOD MOVIE. oh my gosh I was so in love with high school musical and Hannah Montana as a kid lmao. Anyway, I imagine this being a song soft, teenage Lillian is singing to Lyle because Lyle wants to dance with her after finding out she is the lead in the school musical and has to kiss another guy. Lyle isn't singing the male part though because to him well, 'singing is gay.' I dunno. It's too feminine to him. It's like dude, you're out here doing an entire waltz in the summer rain with a chick. How straight do things need to get.

How's it Going to Be, Third Eye Blind- This is not canon to my story at all. In the past weeks, I have been daydreaming a lot about Loomer AKA the ship that can never happen. I'll explain this in another post but that part where 'I wanna get myself back in again' is when Lillian and Boomer kiss.

i Just-

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Permission to Dance, BTS- I don't care how mainstream this song is, this is perfect music for the people of Turmoil to put together video clips of their heroes being wholesome and saying thank you collectively. It will play on every Billboard and Television. The world will know how much Turmoil appreciates its heroes.

Everybody Dies, Billie Eilish- Is this spoiling? Teenage Bella and Jenna get your sad asses outta here.

Industry Baby, Lil Nas X and Jack Harlow- Bella. Bella. Bella. Bella. BELLA-

Everybody Loves Me, One Republic- This song is dedicated to Justin, Manny, and Collin. I imagine it as an animation meme so it's very colorful and artistic (?). But yes Turmoil loves their skater boy, Sweetie pie and Goofball nerd.

DO or NOT, PENTAGON- Yay! More kpop! But I made a bit of an animatic on my youtube that uses this song >https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vki0koOR8Y4 IT'S AN AU. And yes that is Lillian and Dylan. I will talk about the AU I was working on one day, but it was extremely bubbly and magical. Magical school girl shenanigans yee haw.

***SKIPPING RAPIDSONGS EDITS/REMIXES I MAY OR MAY NOT COME BACK LATER TO EXPLAIN***

AFTER SCHOOL, WEEKLY- Okay. I love this song. It's so happy and bouncy so naturally, I would imagine a montage of the girls getting into adventurous mischief together that's cut way too perfectly in beat to the music. It sort of play's like a sitcom intro that's running too long in my head lol.

Shake it Off Mariah Carey- "I GOTTA CHICKEN ROOOOLL". My mom likes to remind my siblings and I that when we were younger we used to sing 'I gotta chicken roll' so one day I was listening to the song and I was like 'man it would be hilarious if the team sung this for fun as a group.' So yeah. It's Lillian leading the group as they sing Shake it off and man Lillian know's how to hit those high notes, she should invest in that.

But I imagine this scene with them being 12, the only people who aren't really all that invested are obviously Jenna and Dylan, but then a part of my brain was like 'EFF THAT. THIS IS A FAMILY THING, AND YOU'RE GONNA PARTICIPATE DAMMIT.' So Dylan is also goofy on a good day and Jenna...

she a tough cookie just give her time guys.

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So there, 15 songs from my playlist. That was a lot easier than the other post I made :D

Hey, y'know you're really blessed when you can take a day off of work to do stuff like this. In actuality, my mom just came home from the hospital and I was not able to sleep at all before going off to work. Obviously I don't mind. But money is money o-o

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Why is making animatics so hard?

It's like at first, the plan is pretty straight forward, but then everything just gets jacked up.

I absolutely hate the fact that I have all these good ass music videos running around in my head and I cannot stay committed enough to draw a single one of them past the sketching process.

I had an animatic I was doing of the greens, but I sort of feel like I'm chasing for the clouds doing that if you know what I mean...

I mean, I feel like I'm not staying true to what I want to spend most of my creative energy on. Drawing ppg fan art gets me a lot of attention, and that's fine, but I worry that I'm pushing the wrong message.

It bothers me that I feel like the only way to get any attention is by drawing ppg fan art. I know I've had my toes in the fandom for a long ass time, and I'm pretty much in every note/like when it comes to the fandom, but I really honestly don't want to push the wrong idea-

Hmm. So obviously I could make two separate accounts for my fan stuff and my oc stuff but I don't want my fan account to overshadow my original content-

GAH

wHATEVER. I'm not making two stinking accounts. Losing followers slowly is going to burn, but I want to stay true to myself. I overindulge in PPG content anyway and often get jealous. LMAO CRAZY RIGHT.

That's a topic for another post.

So yeah, animatics are very hard to do. I tried to make a comic and finish the entire idea today, but my hand started cramping from drawing on my phone with a small ass stylus.

I posted the comic on my art page: https://artbeescanopy.tumblr.com/post/661817235772506112/comic-thingy-i-was-working-on-lmao

I had a nice start on it, but then I just started to sizzle out and my art is already mediocre so when my hands started to fail me I was like, 'welp, guess that's all for the night!'

Reading it, I know, it's like, 'wait, what the hell??? Bee, you literally just said you don't want to tie ppg too much into your original content but your comic is about one of your oc's making an oc for ppg?'

Yes. I know. I'm terrible. A big part of me did that because I sort of don't want to disappoint the wave of people who have recently liked my Butch collage I posted on Instagram lol. This collage https://www.instagram.com/p/CTiNaj1pg0m/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

At the moment, it's my latest post and also one of the most popular posts on my page. I know deep in my gut if I post oc stuff, it aint gonna be pretty lmao

but I'm doing this for myself, so I shouldn't just make stuff to fulfill a group of people who probably aren't going to be interested in the end. That's just the way it is.

By the way, I was going to have the comic be about Lillian doodling an oc, and Bella walks by, see's her doodling, and is like, 'whazzat?' and Lillian is like, 'looky, it's my oc :D' and whaddya know, it's a rowdyruff boy self insert- sort of.

Imma say it. I'm a huge ass Loomer stan in my head, but since Lillian only exists in my head of course the ship cannot be legit. Anyway, she just draws Boomer and gives him a new name, 'bomber' and Bella is like, 'wtf is this rip off Lil? Make your own powerpuff girl, thief.'

"It is is my own powerpuff girl! His eyes are darker." D:

Bella is not sold, so Lillian tries to educate her in OC culture, but Bella doesn't give a crud, she just wants to find the guys and play like basketball or sumn lol. Sorry Lil.

So yeah, it was going to go nowhere really anyway, so I just stopped. I guess it would be good practice for showcasing my characters and how they treat one another. I already have comics and stories with that sort of stuff though,

In the end, what I learned today is that things that require visual art input takes WAAAAY longer. phew, this animatic shit is going to be a pain in the ass lol.

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More rambling about my oc's

I think my sister is genuiely getting tired of me rambling about my story to her, and that's fine.

It's not done. It hasn't been done since 2013.

Every once and awhile I find myself trying to come back to this thing, and I wonder if it's even worth doing. I have so many files and pictures, and this story has genuinely made up such a big part of my internal life. It's the first thing I go to, to cope.

The other day, during break time at work, I found myself looking back through the old stories I wrote of my characters. The ones I wrote while I was still in high school. I remember just telling myself to write how I genuinely imagine and feel my characters would react and do certain things.

I posted on Wattpad, expecting immediate fame. All I ever wanted was to inspire people as much as other artists and authors had inspired me, but when that didn't happen after a year, I took my story down in a mix of emotions. Shame, disappointment, frustration. I just kept thinking 'why do I even try if no one cares? I made this so others would be inspired. It's so crappy and boring though, who would even wanna read it...'

I hated my art. I wasn't taking art very seriously. My art was a tornado of styles that inspired me, a lack of genuine practice, arrogance, and what I would think of in my head. I didn't want cartoony because I wanted people to imagine what I see in my head, but I also didn't give a damn about realism. I hATED realism because it was so 'boooooriiiing'. But I knew I wanted to draw my characters. Much like any popular story, I wanted a clear enough image for people to latch unto.

So with the lack of art skills and writing, the story flopped. But I knew it was going to flop, so me taking it down was really just the disappointment of not being able to shine despite my creative skill level.

Recently, going back to the story, I found myself smiling a lot more. I had many Beta readers critique my work, and they would all say similar things. Too many characters, some of the things the characters said felt out of place, but overall, the story was pretty good. I knew, even back then, posting on a site like Wattpad with my story was going to be hard. I did a lot of grinding, I reached out to other readers and comment on their stories, I offered to do book covers and I tried to make relationships, but none of that felt really genuine.

So the fall really did hurt. Because when I left for a week or so due to IRL things, and I wasn't able to interact with my 'friends' or upload my story, returning showed how much of an audience I truly had,

I was at like 300 reads which is EXTREMELY good, but Wattpad would count the authors reads as well. I clicked on my story ALOT so a big portion of that 'audience' was me. I knew because the statistics began to grow static. I only had a new view every once in like... a month.

I honestly regret taking my story down. Rereading it and laughing aloud at all the goofy antics I had thought up, makes me realize I was way too hard on myself and I lost the original vision for why I write in the first place.

I write for me. One day, I want to look back at all the work I've done and just... enjoy it. It doesn't have to get popular or inspire hundreds of people. That'll just be the icing on the cake.

So, I'm going to repost my story, after I edit it here and there. I'll get a beta reader if the story starts getting popular. For now, I just need to get a lot of stuff out. :)

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I feel like I should at least put something down physically... so here's a music post for my oc's.

At one point I was going to do everything privately on a slowly dying website...

but I figured If I want any attention to spread to my 'story' (that's what I'm going to call it for now because... well that's all there is. A story.), I'm going to have to post on a site that's still kicking a little.

I don't even think Dreamwidth is slowly dying, honestly, I'm just super irrelevant. But that's okay because I don't take my story seriously at all.

BLEGH

that's a topic for another post. So um... music. rIGHT.

Walking around and daydreaming scenarios of my characters is nice every once and a while, but it's literally getting me virtually nowhere. I mean I sort of can't help my MADD but I just figured if I want to get anywhere with anything I need to really get down to it.

So this post will be kinda long because I have 10 characters I'm constantly flipping through. Realistically, 5 out of those ten are in my head 90% of the time (the girls) and 3 out of those 5 make up my headspace 90% of that time. So I'm going to try to put some decent songs with them, despite how often I listen to that song and think of them.

One thing I've noticed though before I jump in, I am more of a... melodic... harmonic...sound (?) person. Like most of the time, lyrics don't apply to the character. It's more of the v i b e.

DYLAN

BREAK AWAY- KELLY CLARKSON - mmm so this is what I mean for the vibe of the song, not the lyrics. This song has nothing to do with Dylan's character, but in 2018, when I first attempted 'GAME' I had a running gag that Dylan was a Kelly Clarkson fan. When Bella and Lillian found Dylan in their basement he was blasting Breakaway and then Behind these Hazel Eyes.

LILLIAN

ANY ARIANA GRANDE SONG/COVER- I know this is extremely vague, but honestly, every song I hear of Ariana, I cannot help but think of Lillian. If my story were ever an actual show, I would BEG Ariana to voice teenage Lillian.

The Your's Truly Album is very much Lillian's sweet and soft energy. Honestly, Ariana is a huge inspo for teenage, soft Lillian. Unfortunately I don't listen to a lot of songs for Lillian's chaotic, animated side.

BELLA

FUQBOI- HEY VIOLET- This could either be a song that is sung about Bella, or one that Bella would ironically sing herself.

THEREFORE I AM- BILLIE EILISH- This song radiates Bella's energy. The confidence. The swagger. The ego. All of it is her.

EVERYBODY DIES- BILLIE EILISH- But also this song radiates Bella because she is also a sad girl in a sad world.

XANNY- BILLIE EILISH- LISTEN I KNOW ALL MY SONG PICKS SO FAR FOR HER ARE BY THE SAME ARTIST, but that's just what happens when you find a good ass artist who hits the nail on the head for all your characters v_v. So yeah, Xanny is an ironic song because Bella would take Xanny's.

IGNORANCE-PARAMORE- The vibes with Hayley's vocals just makes me think of Bella so much. I sort of imagine Bella with Hayley's voice so yep.

DON'T THREATEN ME WITH A GOOD TIME- PANIC! AT THE DISCO- wHOO PaRTy GIRL Bella. Bella is so cool guys.

JUSTIN

EARFQUAKE BUT ONLY MY VOICE- SQUALAY- SHHHhhhhhh.... it's the voice cracks. It's the voice cracks in the cover that make me think of Justin.

MARBLE SODA- SHAWN WASABI- Well, it's definitely not lyrical BUT because Justin is such a nerd, I imagine him with a drum pad... soundboard- I am so sorry I don't know what it's called I'M THE NERD. I'm the big dumb dumb v_v

Is even being able to play one of those things considered nerdy? I honestly think it's cool as hell. Anyway, the sound reminds me of Justin because it's so bubbly. (honestly, it reminds me of all my characters but whateverrrrrrr.)

SAVANNAH

AFTERSCHOOL- WEEEKLY- I actually imagine this song for the girls collectively, but every now and then, I imagine an edit of Savannah just being very adorable and herself lol. But the lyrics fits all the girls.

hmmm.... I mean, that's all I want to do for now lol. I'm glad I got that out of my system. Maybe next time I'll actually look at my playlist instead of just remembering songs for certain characters of the top of my head LOL

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I need to hurry up and get this out but....

Why did i just imagine Jenna having a file on her laptop of pornagraphic nudes, mainly being women. She lends her laptop to one of the boys (probably Collin.... At first i imagine it was Collin.)

One day when the group is out, the topic of romantic interest comes up as well as sexuality. Jenna says something along the lines of "I'm not into girls. At all."

And Collin quietly, without looking at her is like "it's okay to be a little gay."

Jenna stops. Thinks...

DAMMIT I GAVE HIM MY DRAWING REFRENCE FILE.

...and yeah. Now Collin thinks Jenna is gay c:

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