beenafrustratedwrithersincewhen

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I instantly remove myself in a situation whenever I feel I’m not seen, and heard.

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I was hoping you were there when things weren’t that good.

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Some days I just miss you.

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To the one who I almost gave my heart to,

How are you? It’s been 2 years already since I decided to cut off our communication. Sometimes, I still feel the pain, sometimes I still look back, sometimes I still imagine how would things work when we see each other again.

I don’t know if you still think about me, I don’t know if you still remember those days we were still talking.

There are unsaid thoughts and feelings between us. We both made mistakes. I kind of regret trusting you. But I believe we crossed paths for us to learn our lessons. I learned mine.

I was ready to give my heart to you, maybe you were not the one. I was hoping though you ARE the one, but I guess there are things which are not in our control.

I miss you. But I’m choosing myself. I can’t be with someone who is unsure of his own feelings about me. I know I deserve someone who is sure about me and choose to love me.

I wish you the best. I still hope the pain will gone, totally.

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I still miss you, you know. You look fatter. I look slimmer well, 😂🙈

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I still go to your personal virtual spaces. Just to know a lil of what’s going on in your life.

I sometimes think if you still think of me. I still don’t know when we see each other in flesh again, and what would be my reaction but, let’s see.

☺️

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You know, I cried last night. My first ever cry this 2021.

Sometimes you just have to cry it out.

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You know, Meredith and Derek HAS the greatest love in television history. Period. I said what I said.

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I guess me being broken-hearted is now healed. It doesn’t hurt that much anymore.

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Just don’t do things you don’t want people do to you

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I am so tired of being hurt.

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You left a hole and I don’t think I can fix it by myself. Though, I think I’m optimisitic enough that someday, someday myself can heal by herself alone. Wothout you by my side.

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I’ll put here everything I want to tell you. (I’ll talk in taglish)

Hello bestie!! I miss you na. Namiss ko na yung buong magdamag nating pag-uusap. More than a year tayong palaging nag-uusap, nakasanayan ko yun, ramdam ko yung care, feeling ko sa akin mo lang yun ginawa, feeling ko medyo totoo naman yung sinabi mong “I fell for you” kaya lang nagsinungaling ka na lang kay Sephy kasi tinanggihan kita, kasi feeling mo rejected ka na agad, bakit ka naman sumuko agad? Sana di ka sumuko! Kasi gusto na rin kita non, hanggang ngayon. Pero inaalis ko na din. Mapride ako eh. Nasaktan mo na ako. Nung tinanong mo ako na may problema ba? I had to lie na wala, kasi ayoko na, ayoko ng maattach sayo knowing na pinili mo si Rianne, though di ako galit kay Rianne mahal ko yun, kaya lang syempre di ba? Atsaka feeling ko kapag nagpatuloy yung ugnayan natin, magulo na. Sana talaga naging makulit ka, parehas kasi tayong mapride eh. Hanggang ngayon umiiyak pa rin ako, hanggang ngayon nasasaktan ako, hanggang ngayon tinitignan ko pa rin mga Tweets and FB posts mo, kahit naka turn off na notifs mo sa akin. Ngayong mag-isa ako gusto kong ikwento sayo lahat. Lahat ng pain, lahat ng lungkot lahat. Namiss kong may kausap, iba yung relationship na naibigay mo sa akin kumpara kay Abbey, mahal ko si Abbey pero minahal ko rin ng sobra yung naging ugnayan natin. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang ngayon malungkot ka, feeling ko nalulungkot ka kasi di ka kinakausap ni Rianne. Ayoko ng one sided love, ayokong magmahal ng taong may gustong iba. Kaya pinipigilan ko. Pero halos araw-araw iniisip ko na sana kausap pa kita hanggang ngayon. 1 taon na rin halos mula ng tumigil akong kausapin ka pero nandon pa rin yung sakit. Sana matapos na to, ayoko na kasi. Ayoko nang masaktan.

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Actually. Internet has its own advantages and disadvantages. 👌🏻

remember when you were 12 and the internet seemed like an endless source of fun and now you just scroll through tumblr and check instagram?

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‪You only see someone’s smile and laugh, but you have not seen how s/he able to manage everything to have the courage to smile. ‬

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Suddenly, I feel so lost. The battle within self is really that hard and you opted to cry just to release the pain, fear you feel.

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Silently, I was asking for help. But you chose to mock and make fun of me.