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It's been such a long time since I was last on here! Just an update; mental mindsets and life has wildly improved. I'm slowly becoming the person/friends others deserve to have. Being on here still reminds me of the toxic person I was when it was made and frankly, I would like to deeply apologize for it. The damage that has been done is sadly irreversible, but I can only hope that those who I've hurt have grown to have much happier lives since that time.

I've learned growth is about being able to admit the wrongs and apologizing. I've reconnected with friends I've known for over a decade, made new friends and have held them very close and dear, and stopped running from people-- I refuse to allow myself to be temporary because I don't deserve that and neither do my friends.

Thank you for being patient while I meet myself for the first time all over again 💖

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When I had originally made this blog, I wanted it/me to exude kindness and happiness. One of them I wasn't, and the other I didn't have, so it all kind of went spiraling down. In between then and now-- I hurt some people who meant a lot to me because if I couldn't find what I needed, I would leave them (and oh my god was I so mean about it).

I guess what I'm trying to get at is that I haven't been on here much at all because a big part of me wants to drop who I was during the time of making this blog. The reason I haven't gotten rid of it is because I've also made amazing friends on here, and while I know I still have them and have contact with them outside of tumblr, this hellsite has always held a special place in my empty empty brain for 15 years (gasp, I had a blog before this one).

At some point, I'm hoping I can come back here with the true intentions I had originally had planned. Only the future will tell~

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I just became a selfie posting blog-- oopsies

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Sexy Gerard Butler

Sexy Samuel L. Jackson 😎

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I can't think of a good caption

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Cat autumn 🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁

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Distinguished gentlemen

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playing phasmophobia with my wife and some friends and the ghosts name is fucking michael jackson and everyone is just going HEE HEE

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Lena Berisha

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I do very much exist still

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Life is full of obstacles

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Elie Saab | Fall/Winter 2021 Couture

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