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look what my lil cousin made for me :,] happy birthay to me i guess

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I'm so bad at living, which sucks a lot because I have spent my whole life doing it

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ive always blamed covid for the loss of my time perception but now that i think about it, maybe that's what usually happens in your early twenties. 21 feels like yesterday but im turning 24 in two days. is that normal???

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never knew being 24 would hit that hard

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Do you know how fucked up your team has to be for Bucky Barnes to be the most stable member

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the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself

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i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

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knight/lord ships are like. what if i would die for you. what if i wanted you to live for me. what if i wanted to touch you but could only be satisfied with being near you. what if i could touch you but only through the safety of our gloves. what if i couldn’t stop thinking about you right next to me. what if i bloodied my hands for you and never looked back at the wreckage. what then

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yeah sorry they gave me an open wound instead of a heart that's why im like this

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Loved one got top surgery yesterday so I made this for him but I think y’all would appreciate it too

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not being productive or relaxing but a secret third thing

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MARINA - Cuntissimo

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Alec 🌊

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