nobody warns you this but addiction happens without you noticing and one of the first things that it attacks is your ability to care. if you find yourself using recreational drugs every day, stop and take one day a week sober. if you struggle with this or if you don't see the point of the exercise, you are likely already addicted and you need help.
I remember years ago when I was still in therapy I told my therapist that I felt bad asking my friends for help because a lot of them were also going through some bad stuff and she told me
“You know, sometimes people in crisis will enjoy helping. It can be a distraction from their own problems.”
And then the next week I reached out to a friend who was in the middle of going through something about what I was going through and my therapist was right. That friend jumped at the opportunity to help.
And I’ve realized since then that my own problems rarely have anything to do with my ability to help others with theirs unless I am literally having an attack of some kind at that moment. In fact, it is actually refreshing to work on other peoples problems with them sometimes. Listening to problems you’re not soaking in constantly and helping your friend is often something you just want to do because you care about them. And you don’t stop caring about people because you’re having a hard time right now.
So I guess sometimes inviting someone into your sinking ship does work actually.
the oilbird, also known as the guácharo, is a member of the nightjar family found in northern portions of south america. they are named for the unfortunate fact that previously, chicks were boiled down to create oil. oilbirds are unique in that they are the only nocturnal, flighted fruit-eating bird (the kākāpō is fruit eating and nocturnal, but flightless). they are skilled in flight, with tiny feet useless for anything other than clinging to vertical surfaces. they are one of the only birds capable of echolocation.