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Day #4
I think I have all things figured out. At least for now😏.
It's been a long Sunday. Lots of football that I wasnt really watching. Just letting the visual of the game stream across my 46" television. Nodding in and out while listening to the commentary of the game and Michelle Obama's book on audible via my ear buds from my phone. I just can't manage to stay awake. We made sugar cookies the night before that both my son and I have been ravaging through all day.
The husband has been very helpful and super attentive. Made a quick meal of spaghetti for supper. Hot dogs for lunch. I spoke with a childhood friend for about an hour. She's one of those people who helps you appreciate your life just the way it is. She's bipolar type 2, didn't really know there were 2 types but okay, and her sister is type 1. Well the sister has been missing since January of 2018. Apparently she stopped taking her meds and just couldn't deal with life any longer. No one in the family has seen or heard from her. Sad sad story. She left behind 3 kids and the rest of her family. I wont get too deep into it today. That is a bunch of energy for another day.
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Day #3
Pregnancy is a funny thing over 30 years old. I see now why people have kids so much earlier in life. This is rough! I am 30 weeks pregnant with my second child at the age of 39. I really didnt think we would have another child. We tried for a long time and nothing. Was gonna get tested for infertility but I refused to face that possible reality. I would have been devastated if we were tested and the doctor told us that we couldn't conceive. I was not ready for that. Eventually, I started to accept that another baby wasn't coming and was preparing myself for a hysterectomy. Looking back, I was in a very sad place based off the possibility of not being able to have more kids. God had other plans.
My first child is now 8, turning 9 in April and is so excited to meet his little brother. He even made the comment once that he wanted to call God up on the phone to tell him to speed up the process because he wants to meet his brother now. Kids say the darndest things🙂.
From the start of this pregnancy, I have been monitored closely. My first pregnancy with my current son, I had gestational diabetes and placed on insulin during my last trimester. He was delivered fine vaginally at 9 lbs, 3 oz. This pregnancy, they started me on insulin at the start of my second trimester and started to watch me closer due to possible placenta previa.
Everything was going smoothly other than these darn round ligament pains. If I sit for too long and get up to walk, all hell breaks lose with joint stiffness and pain! I walk similar to Frankenstein until everything loosens up. Then it's smooth sailing. Tuesday, I returned back to work after a little 3 day weekend vacation due to being out for veterans day. All was going well. I was in good spirits, felt good all the way around. Sat down and took a little selfie because I thought I was super cute with my little afro. Went walking again up the halls at my place of work and began to feel something moist in my crotch. I thought, I know I havent peed on myself. My belly was super tight also, which wasn't abnormal while I walked. I stopped in the restroom, sat on the toilet and boom, dark sticky blood! Fuck! Initially I thought, I am not stressed. Why am I showing blood!? Then it sunk in, I dont have to be stressed. This is part of the process. I then called my doctor and he encouraged me to present to the hospital as soon as possible.
So I went and was admitted into the hospital for vaginal bleeding. I guess the doctor expected this with my known condition of placenta previa. This is when the placenta rests over the opening of the cervix and can lead to bleeding. Not good for either the mom or the baby. The goal was to watch the placenta via sonogram every month hoping it would move up and away from the cervix. He was surprised that I lasted this long without any show of blood. Obviously, the placenta has not moved. November 14th 2018, he walks into my hospital room smiling like all is well. Maybe that's what he's supposed to do, to set me up for what hes about to say. He sits next to me on the couch. Continuing to smile, he says, "Well kiddo, looks like you'll be on bedrest until this baby delivers! No working no driving." I was so disappointed! Like damn, what are we gonna do about money, how am I gonna get bills paid before the 15th if I cant drive and my husband has to work. My life is altered and I am not prepared for this! He continued, "I'll see you on Monday in my office." He then smiles at my husband, shook his hand and says "This baby will be okay." Then walks himself out my room. I was not happy! My friends were encouraging though. Saying how jealous they were about me being able to sit at home. Enjoy this time is what one says. Another is excited for me. All I can think about is MONEY. I had started this debt elimination plan all with the influence of Dave Ramsey and the budget mom prior to finding out I was pregnant. When I found out I was pregnant, the debt elimination continued. I had added the possibility of child care to the budget that pushed some of my debt elimination back but I could still pay towards it. Now I am off work, short term disability claim in process with the anticipation to miss pay for a week then to pick up at 60% of my rate. All of my husbands money will go towards utilities which is all we really need paid, but I do not like to have bills not paid, mainly credit cards.
But, there is a blessing coming...that baby boy😊.
Day #3 of bedrest done😐
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