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i have moved ! feel free to LIKE this post if you would like to follow the new blog . otherwise . it had been a pleasure to have you guys on my dash . 

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i’m remaking . & moving . sorry folks . hit that heart if you wish to follow . i’ll make a new pinned post once i finalise everything . 

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also @ the anon . im not publishing that cause you namedrop . 

i’ve been made aware , yea , when i went to remake on an old account and was trying to clean up stuff . not sure what to do as that’s private but like if they wanna cry and assume things . that’s on them . i’m honestly really disappointed & upset . especially since they clearly see it in a completely different light than i do but i cant control how they feel . they’re wrong , and they never wanted to listen to my concerns cause thats not what i got upset about but . i’m also not going to argue & discuss it with a wall . especially since one of the individuals involved owes me like 500+ in money cause i had loaned them out money to pay for food / bills / etc. ( & they would consistently come & ask me for more . )  and im really not lying . i have the paypal receipts & dms for proof .

dont think i need to go on about this . but i can if i have to . 

as for your other thing . i have constantly changed names since 2010 cause i never liked my penname for very long . i normally change out every 1 to 2 years . when i found one i did like ( lasted i think like 4 or 5 years ? ) , it was too femme for my taste ( though my partner and several of my smite friends still call me that ) . i was hesitant on using ghost at the time cause i dont like using names of old friends , but when i asked one of my smite friends ( his name is seth ) what he thought i could me as a supernatural thing , he said ghost . and i had 2 other people who had agreed . lmfao . i figured , well i guess since i already know people with the same names , then it wouldn’t hurt to use ghost . i wasn’t doing it cause of them . i literally did it due to what seth said . but i dont particularly care if people use my old pennames with me . people still use amphy , i dont care . people still use my femme name , i don’t care . hell . somebody still uses my old penname from 2016 . i do not give a shit . i just prefer ghost because seth said that i have tendencies to act like a ghost from time to time due to vanishing and reappearing . which is true . i have friends from 2012 that i will like not talk to for years and then message them out of the blue and check up on them  & see how they are doing . thats what i do . that is quite literally it . 

but honestly anon . please keep to yourself too . there’s really no reason to stir up shit anymore . im not in any of their fandoms because i dont wanna be near them . 

[beizhuo]

if & when i come back , i will be moving this blog because it’s cluttered . & i am slightly not sympathetic towards the fandom & some of the characters anymore . sorry loves . 

[beizhuo]

logs on to post this & leaves .

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logs onto baizhu to send jhin something & logs back out like a zhongzhu simping fool i am .

[beizhuo]

oh yea , but when i do get in the mood to write , its to reply to THIS thing that @umbranatus​ replied to & sometimes i just wanna 

[beizhuo]

logs in on baizhu to send some asks to leedol babs @fluminas because 💚 & leaves . 

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laughs in snek .

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wanted to try drawing baizhu

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baizhu  may  be  giving  half  smiles  to  just  about  anybody / everybody  ;  exchanging  pleasantries  &  maybe  just  being  overall  really  mild  mannered / nice  but  he’s  secretly  judging  you  .  maybe  sizing  you  up  at  times  .  who  knows  with  him  .

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logs in once in a blue moon to post about my genshin rng and leaves 

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i had announced a couple of updates on the blog that I am chilling at atm , but i will make a post here as well . 

first and foremost : IN LIEU OF ASEXUAL AWARENESS WEEK - i updated my rules . i normally go through and update my rules as needed from time to time because sometimes we need that refresher , but yea . granted , i always find myself rereading people’s rules anyway because that is just common curtesy . but i do know that my rules are a bit long so i will put the new rules under the read more .

secondly : im phasing out of the name amphy . though i will always respond to the name , and if you are using the name , you can continue to do so . but i normally fall back on the second name i go by . i don’t particularly cringe at any name or nickname you give me . ghost is just definitely more fitting for me - as one of my close smite pals have said .

lastly :  this gender - questioning idiot is still ???? about their gender , but i think i may be a bit more genderfluid than anything . but it also depends on my mood & who you are . i normally prefer they ! so you can keep to they . especially if we are acquaintances or you dont really know me . but ! i have an addition , he / she is kinda only okay if you’ve asked and/or we have discussed or if its like a term that you would use on yourself . idk if that makes sense or not lol . but then again , gender doesn’t exist for me , so meh . i could be a racoon underneath a bedsheet with two eyeholes cut into it . 

anyway . the rules update and explanation is underneath .

im DEAD serious for these triggers , ESPECIALLY nsfw . i am not super fond of al/cohol*sm at all due to trauma ( im super jaded by it usually and wont care if you mention alcohol from time to time , but please do try not to discuss this thoroughly unless you can ask me beforehand ) . in all honesty , i am normally okay to discuss IF you ask beforehand . i just need a WARNING .

as for vagueing : this is something that drives me up the fucking wall . just don’t do it . i beg of you . this goes back to dealing with your issues and drama in private . it is a HUGE pet peeve of mine .

Reads as.... :

EXCLUSIVITY & FETISHISING. ⪢ I absolutely will not tolerate the excessive fetishising of queer people. Im sorry, but if I see you are being exclusive, erasing gender identity to canon muses, or just completely destroying/stripping the character to the point of unrecognition, I will not tolerate you on my dash and I don't want to write with you. This is really hard to explain and discuss, but... It's okay to have queer muses and to make canon characters queer, but don't make it to the point where it strips them of their identity. ⪢ If you are being so exclusive to a point where you refuse to acknowledge or write a cis character, then don't bother writing with me. I don't like cisswaps most of the time anyway. This also extends to people hating / ragging on male-female ships and bisexual characters. Like, deadass, do not pass go, do not collect 200. I don't want to interact with people like that. PERSONAL WARNING. ⪢ The mun is asexual and sex-replused, I will NOT understand most sexual innuendos. Please do NOT send NSFW unless I ask or you ask for permission. For the love of gods, yes, I am an adult, yes, I can engage in sexual plotting from time to time. But it is STILL a trigger for me. Please don't randomly send me stuff unless you know I am ready for it. Also, please don't treat me like some sort of baby or this innocent person for not understanding your jokes, it does, in fact, get really exhausting for me.

I cannot fucking believe that i have to actually add last and final warning too and its actually borderline disgusting ESPECIALLY DURING ASEXUAL FUCKING AWARENESS WEEK , but , alas , i am . but let me go in order .

the first one : i shouldn’t have to explain this . i will just refer you all to this post again .

the second one : idk why the fucking hell i have to like even bring this up either but like ???????? again , please refer to this fucking post again .

the third one : why this has to be brought up is honestly really sad , but once again i have to draw boundaries and fucking point and growl at it like im fucking toothless drawing something for hiccup and getting mad at him when he steps ON IT . and i have every right to be but like holy fuck . i dont care if you forget all of my other triggers but FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD please respect that i am a sex - repulsed asexaul . also . please don’t be like uwu or diminish how i feel if i don’t understand a sex joke and get concerned . this convo i had with a guild member explains this fairly well . 

anyway . please understand that if you send something sexual , you will , most likely , HAVE TO explain it to me . and don’t baby me or get upset about it either jesus christ . just because i don’t understand doesn’t mean it gives anybody the right to blow it off . 

yes i know this kills the joke . I understand that . which is why sometimes i wont ask , but please , PLEASE be patient with me . and don’t treat me like a child about it either .

[beizhuo]

anyway , yea . im really sorry i like randomly disappeared though . im not doing super hot to be on tumblr often so my apologise on that , but if you ever wanna plot or anything . hmu , i do have discord or the dms here . you can also find me on my other blog at well :3

[beizhuo]

i come from my extended and unannounced hiatus to give you a cap of zhongzhu and i take my leave again

[beizhuo]

hi . im still alive . just havent been doing well . no , im not okay . yes , its getting worse . i have zero spoons to reach out to people . ill eventually come back to writing on here . i just cannot right now .

[beizhuo]

hi im sorry i haven’t been here . i’ve been lurking on felix but i just want you guys all to know that i have zhongzhu brainrot right now . and i absolutely adore baizhu and zhongli’s relationship so much .