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So that was a great 5 seasons of the 100

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"His head is in the wrong, but I don't think his heart is." So he has to listen to his heart, which will be what leads him back. I love that

just saying.

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✨ Normalize ending a show where the natural narrative ends and not dragging it out until the characters are unrecognizable and your theme collapses on itself ✨

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s1-4 clarke had such a loving adoration for bellamy. once she was aware that all his selfish actions committed thus far on the ground were entirely driven by the love and worry he had for his sister, she gave him the benefit of the doubt every single time anyone would blame him for something, every single time he’d blame himself. she gave praise where it was due two weeks after knowing him, something the closest people he’d known his entire life had never thought to once do.

she never lost faith in him and she was right. she held trained officials to a standard she believed only he met. she was grateful for the brief moment where he offered to share the burden of genocide with her, an action that gave her strength for years to come whenever it came to making hard decisions.

he took part in the mass murder of the grounder army and every single character, whether they were affected by it or not, held that against him. except clarke. someone who might have understandably been upset after getting to personally know these people and their beliefs. but she still took the time to check in with him after he was confronted with the deed, even though they were fighting. she never allowed him to blame himself for lincoln and instead moved the focus to him eventually needing to forgive himself, because it was the healthy thing to do, and unfair for him to bear. 

she never gave up on him, even when he gave up on himself, even when she gave up on herself. she didn’t know if she was a good person, but she had the utmost belief that he was. she didn’t think she deserved to live, but she knew in her bones that bellamy had to. she wasn’t sure of anything at one point in her life, but whatever the case was, she was sure of bellamy. the only times she ever put his life in danger was when it was for the greater good but even then, even then, she still chose him.

the way clarke loved bellamy was special. it was loud and fierce, yet subtle and soft at the same time. maybe she never fully gave in to what they could’ve had because of fear, or the feeling of it being unearned, but god would she fight every single person who said he wasn’t worthy of love and life.

she constantly made mistakes in her loving him, but she did everything she could to make up for it. she knew their relationship was forged from forgiveness, and she desperately wanted that from him, but she never believed she deserved it. he gave it to her anyway.

the love she had for him was powerful. it moved her to become a better person. it sustained her during her years of isolation and kept her sane.

she loved him so gently. so cautiously. so deliberately. so for that love to culminate in a fatal gunshot directed by her, after everything she had proved herself to be for him? it’s unthinkable. it’s empty. and it’s something the clarke we once knew would rather die than ever think of doing.

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#she really said ‘honey what the FUCK are you wearing’

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old enough to remember when smut was called ‘lemons’ but young enough that i had absolutely no business knowing that smut was called ‘lemons’ at the time 

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im trying to visualize how we’ll get bellamy reverse-brainwashed, break up b*cho, and get bellarke together in 5 episodes

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Memori // A Little Sacrifice

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for the love of god end sheidhedas storyline i’m begging

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Ok but OG Squad immediately following Octavia in the opposite direction

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The 100 7.10 “A Little Sacrifice” + Hugs

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#the two most important ladies in Bellamy’s life grieving him together

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in case it wasn’t clear, they want us to keep up

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