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every time i go out at night theres a monster

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i wanna say fuck you to anyone who shame disabled, chronically ill & neurodivergent people, especially homebound folks, for "spending too much time on their phone/on the internet/etc." when it's the only (Somewhat) accessible way for them to experience the world. many people don't get to get out much even if they want to because of their disabilities. shaming someone for trying to connect with the world, make friends and engage with hobbies in ways that are accessible to them is beyond cruel and unnecessary

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is so very terrifying yet provides so much hope at the same time

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dilly secret dilly secret

so I think kandi stuff is very cute and fun but I'm like.... scared lol

cause it seems very community based and apparently is like.... a rave thing and people exchange stuff and they have this handshake thing??

and just the thought of going to a rave gives me heart palpitations and makes me lightheaded so uhhh noo

but its like.... urgh

and this part is me being stupid but I think people call themselves kandi kids and that makes me insecure cause im uhhh not a kid and didn't get into it was a kid so the entire thing just feels like I Don't Belong Here But I'm Interested

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diavolo wonders whats for dinner

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i just got woken up in the middle of the night by a thunderstorm, so — if you’re just as scared of them as i am, imagine, if you will, your f/o waking up along with you !

they notice the change in your body language almost immediately — maybe you’re all tense and subtly looking around the dark room as if to locate the sounds, maybe you’re flinching each time a thunder rumbles and echoes outside or your breathing gets just a little heavier — no matter what, your f/o is quick to recognise your growing anxiety and tightly wraps their arms around you, as if to protect you.

They bury their face in your hair, pressing a gentle kiss to your scalp, before whispering “It’s okay, I’ve got you. I’ll protect you. This storm’s got nothing on me.”

Giggling, you melt into their arms, or try to — but the wind’s howling is still unnerving, and all the different noises only seem to be getting louder. Your f/o reaches down to take your hand in theirs, rubbing their thumb over the back of it. “Hey, count with me, okay? From one thunder to the next — you’ll notice it’s actually suuuper far away and could never reach us.”

You let your f/o’s words invade your mind, focusing on them whilst you count together. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6… and with the next thunder, your f/o holds you a little tighter to their chest, making a little “oooh” sound as if they just made an amazing discovery. Their playfulness pulls you along and you can’t help but smile.

“There’s my favourite smile, you’re doing amazing. But, see, I told you! Now, let’s keep going. I’m telling you, that thunder is as scared of you as you are of it. It really just wants to pass by and have a look around.”

And again, you start counting. Gradually, the rain grows quieter, and the next thunder is already fifteen seconds away. You keep counting, until the world is at peace again and your eyes begin to droop shut due to exhaustion getting the better of you. The last thing you see is your f/o, smiling brightly at you, and sending you off to sleep with the words:

“I’m so proud of you. You can go back to sleep now, yeah? I‘ll keep you safe, I promise.”

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Imagine your F/O laying with you during some casual gaming, or while you’re reading something. They look over your shoulder every once in a while, maybe absentmindedly play with your hair or clothes. Your presence is comforting to them. Not a single word is needed. They’re just happy to be around you.

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imagine: the warmth of your f/o's body pressed against yours as they snuggled you up in the comfort of your bed.

their arm draped over your waist from behind, pulling you close as they buried their face on your hair. their gentle breath tickled the crown of your head, and you couldn't resist letting out a soft giggle.

they felt so warm. so comforting. you can feel their heartbeat against your back. your hearts beat in sync.

so cozy. you don't ever want to let them go. you want to be in their arms forever and ever.

they're your safe haven.

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Shoutout to all my fellow selfshippers who were never chosen.

Shoutout to the people who were never explicitly invited, but who were told "of course you can come too". To the people whose presence was tolerated, but nobody ever seemed excited to see them. To the people who got talked over. Even when nobody noticed you leaving, you're worthy of love.

Shoutout to the "can I have your hot friend's number?" people, who only were present to make their good looking friend look even more appealing. Shoutout to the third wheels and wingmans. To the people who got the "kiss them! - ewww" treatment at Truth or Dare. To the people who got asked out as a joke.

Shoutout to the selfshippers who help with relationship issues despite craving a relationship themselves. Shoutout to the forever singles who have "resorted" to selfshipping because you convinced yourself that nobody would want you in real life. Shoutout to the insecure, jealous people with abandonment issues because you can't imagine anyone choosing you.

Your F/O chooses you. And they will continue to choose you.

They don't need a reason why. They love you. They love you for who you are, and they always will.

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Selfshippers with skin conditions, your f/os don’t hate any part of you for it! The only reason they would want to take away your condition is if it makes you uncomfortable. They don’t care that your skin isn’t silky smooth. In fact, they are infatuated with your skin’s different textures! If you have trouble scratching at it, they’ll help you remember not to and find the best lotion to soothe the itchiness.

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please watch this i cant stop thinking about it

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doodle page comm for @seahydra!! THANK U SOSO MUCH ATARI!! I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH!! I hope you have a very happy birthday!!! 🥹🫶🏽💜🖤

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i feel like the elder scrolls is probably the worst fictional world to get transported to. like no matter what you do you will eventually get tormented by hermaeus mora because he will sense that you know something that he doesnt and then hes going to get really mad that you cant fully recite the wikipedia page on the japanese raccoon dog.

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what do you meaaaaaaan this is baby sturgeons youre lying to me.... you just Shrunk him

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