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Summing up Servant Sun and Lunara’s relationship in my AU with a single meme. Lunara’s still fucked up and evil, but he downgrades it to cat level mischief (evil) if it involves Sun.

Meanwhile, thanks to Lord Eclipse, the bar for what IS fucked up and evil is so low for Sun, that he thinks this is just normal behavior for people.

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Sit comfortably

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Goobers I doodled as I was waiting for the April 14 episode, but only finished it now as I'm trying to crawl out of art block 👍👍 :")

Their friendship will probably never be canon but they can take this single episode of them having fun out of my cold dead hands

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I've kind of always lowkey been an Earth and Eclipse friendship truther and seeing it become more and more canon genuinely makes me so happy in ways I can't even express !!!

There's just something so heartwarming to me about seeing someone just handle Eclipse's attitude in stride. She pours her heart out for a moment and when Eclipse is just prickly and deflective, she doesn't clam up or get upset, she's just like "nono, it's fine, i know you. i understand this is how you are." and it's just so nice.

Eclipse asking her why she "keeps doing this" is so aoauaghghh too I can't even get started on that or I'll get so emotional its just so good NSKAHDKS

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some painting practise

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Thought I'd share this here:^

Context they brought back solar, but solar doesn't have all his memories back yet that's why he said run instead of ruin

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B. Breaking news!

YIPPE YIPPE YAY YAY!! YOUR PARENTS DONT CARE ABOUT YOU!!

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I need someone to see that video of Eclipse dancing to Britney Spears' "Toxic"

Like. Someone else from the shows. Just so they can bring it up and embarrass him

Not Monty or Puppet because they'd straight up bully him, and he doesn't need that while he's behaving and trying to be better, but still

Maybe Earth sees it and jokingly teases him about it, like, "I saw this video of you dancing, and I was so surprised by it. You don't really seem like much of a dancer, but my goodness, you sure had some moves"

Then the running thing could be that he should've dropped his villain aspirations and started a career as a backup dancer or something

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Just sum Jack shenanigans

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Splashing along a babbling brook,

The boys spot a duck with a curious look.

Quacking softly, she waddled her feet,

She had little ducklings for them to meet!

Rain or Shine AU -> @crabsnpersimmons

Crabs, come get your boys. They're making friends with the local wildlife, again. I'm not complaining, though. <3

Mallory Mallard and her ducklings are here for some duck-gone fun!

"QUACKQUACKQUACK"

I'm making it up to them for all the boop-on boop violence I subjected them to.

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"I can't bring him back"

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his yelp reviews aint good...

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We're coming off anon with this one boys. It's long and I apologize but it's been weighing on my mind for quite some time.

There are three things people tend to know me for in this fandom. My art, my fanfics, or my thread on TSBS server. Said thread is a place where I talk about the psychological aspects of the show, as well as do character analyses and sometimes even analyze entire lore uploads for the kicks and giggles. I'm a psychology major, I also have ASPD. I made the thread so I could talk about Eclipse, who at the time I suspected had the same disorder I do and which was later confirmed less than a week after I made the thread. Since then Ruin has also been confirmed as an ASPD haver, which I personally deeply enjoy. It's fun for me to talk about my disorder and relate it to the show since ASPD is really hard to understand. 99% of people are inherently capable of empathy, and about 2% of that 98% lose that ability during childhood. So it's understandably not a very well-understood disorder. It's also a very scary and dark disorder, and I can say that honestly because I live with it. Due to this fact, it tends to be villainized in media, and I am very refreshed by the fact that TSAMS does a good job of not making their ASPD havers raving lunatics with a thirst for blood. 

Anyways, that's just background information. So far I haven't met very many weirdos about ASPD in this fandom. Almost everyone is very chill with the fact that I am a sociopath and I haven't received a ton of weird comments about it. It's a relief since I deal with a lot of open stigma and harassment irl because I refuse to pretend to be something I'm not. However, there was an instance in my thread when I was actively talking about ASPD, and a new member decided to. . . I don't even know. It was creepy and weird, and really uncomfortable. They basically told me that I'm 'too nice of a person to be a sociopath' and that they could tell that I wasn't a sociopath because they see the good in people. They also said that they were surprised that there are sociopathic people and inferred that sociopaths are pretending, whatever that means. They kept going to keep making weird and stigmatized comments about the disorder, as well as continuing to compliment me in a very unnerving way. I think about it a lot because it was very uncomfortable to be interrupted like that in the middle of talking about ASPD. There was the new mod online and participating in the conversation, but they didn't say anything to the person who was actively making me uncomfortable, even though I expressed such in the chat. 

I deal with a lot of stigma and ableism in my day-to-day life, where people tell me that I can't be a sociopath because of really stupid shit. Like the fact, I get along with people or want to help people in the medical field. Or the time-tried 'but you're a woman' comments. I don't understand why the mod kinda just left me to fend for myself and ignored the person causing issues, and while I don't hold it against them, I do have anxiety about this situation repeating itself in the future. It's not easy to talk about a disorder that the average person could not even dream of understanding, and it's even harder when people who don't know you are trying to tell you that your disorder is fake based on flimsy reasoning. It's really invalidating of the actual hellscape I had to survive to be able to even turn 18, and it rakes up my anxiety to a 10 just at the thought of it. There's not a lot of safe spaces for someone to talk about having a dark disorder, and even less for something as rare and misunderstood as ASPD. It's hard enough as it is being a high-functioning sociopath, and I just needed to rant, I suppose. Haha, could make it a "tl;dr even I get offended sometimes."

Anyway, not dropping names, but it wasn't a private matter. Nor am I upset with the mods, it's just a thing that happened that I think about a lot because it's a very rare thing for me to be offended. Glad that the majority of this fandom that I've interacted with has been willing to hear me out ASPD, but I just worry about having a repeat situation like this. It's a very sad thing to witness in this fandom that talks about inclusivity. We can't pick and choose our disorders, and where there are canon sociopaths in the show one would think the fans would try to be a little more educated on the disorder (not directed towards anyone and I appreciate the people who are willing to ask me things about it instead of making assumptions).

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I like to headcannon that when KC was alive and took care of homeless people, that he would take care of a lot of homeless teens who were kicked out of their homes or didn't have one. And that he would act like a kind of father figure to them because he missed being a dad.

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The little silly meme thing I did last time made me realize that my designs for the Sun and Moon Show don’t entirely have any way to meaningfully distinguish them from the OG daycare attendants, so I made new designs to separate them and make it more clear who I’m drawing ^^

(I’m not really in the fnaf fandom so whenever I do draw them, 9 times out of 10 it’s likely the Sun and Moon Show)

Anyways this took forever

Earth and Lunar are next :3

kofi

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Few things I've seen in this fandom are as hilarious as seeing an Alastor (Hazbin Hotel) fan criticize Bloodmoon fans for liking a serial killer LMAO

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