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The world goes round and I wish mine would stop

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Relapse happening again

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not salty but kudos to giving me expectations and letting me down and me acting like things would change ✨

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✨ empty af ✨

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One of the most hurtful things I've experienced

Is to admit that I was suicidal

And to be asked immediately about my potential for harm for others.

I'm looking to harm myself.f

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wanting to die for so many years is traumatic in itself, huh

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I wonder if people ever worried like I did once

about someone disappearing

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Every time someone says I want to die

It makes me really think

Have you really been there before or is it just a joke?

Cause it triggers me every time

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I prove it and then what?

thank god

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I've never wanted to write a note

Still don't but

I feel

So

Numb

and it's a good just in case anyway

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I'm going to lose myself one day at this rate

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been feeling numb

and restless

but not

suicidal

it's a limbo

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I forgot I had this

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me @ my brain: how we gon manage to do the 1000 task long to-do list if you're suicidal 🤠

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I need help

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am I sick or am I faking it