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No❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🩷🖤🩶🤍🤎

i want to ask my. best friends partner if she wants to be friends but i’m too scared

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i keep hovering over the add friend button then chickening out last second 🐀

i want to ask my. best friends partner if she wants to be friends but i’m too scared

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i’m going to make out with you sloppy style as a gift

guess who’s birthday is in 3 or 2 months

oh no

no

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abcdefghijlmkopqkrstkrkvekxkyzyzk

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something mischievous is brewing

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average dw with z(ero) experience

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mmy heart is burning

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when is the love distribution system gonna get to me

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thibking about my friends again but positively this time

i love our inside jokes i love our aus i love our conversations i love our yap sessions i love everything inside jokes especially they’re so silly and they all have lore

my personal favorite is

take this off…

and its many variations but but

yh9nwgn💙🐺

is a close second

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theres no way i just scrolled through obe of my favorite artists entire twitter all the way to the bottom saving everything

i don’t even have a damn account

whatever i have so much pfp material now worth it

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anyways waluigi attack

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3am rant lalafalala (if we’re close don’t read ok bye)

the urge to leave gets more and more tempting every day i only talk to two people there

m and z are great but what the fuck did i even do to s. she’s acting like a toddler for a reason i don’t even know and it’s pissing me off

not to mention she only acknowledges her actions have consequences when they actually start to happen. for a 17 year old she’s one of the most immature people i have ever met. and i’m not saying this to trash talk behind her back, this is coming from a place of actual frustration

i don’t see her as my friend anymore. i havent for a long time now ngl, ever since the situation with “that guy” (not her ex) ive started to see js how exhausting it really is to be around her

i’ve tried to help her multiple times and each time she refused to listen and chose to dig herself deeper and deeper into a situation she KNOWS will end badly but chooses to keep going anyway. what

every time smth went down, i was there to help her and this is what i get in return. damn sorry for worrying about you

i’m js gonna let things play out atp. it’s clear she’s chosen which path she wants to go down, so i’ll js let her. hey i mean fuck it right

this is probably why i want more friends ngl. i love the two i have but they never address things like this until it’s too late

then again, whenever i make a new friend i always end up doing something stupid that makes them leave me or pulling away out of fear they’ll leave which makes them actually leave. holy fumble

i’m pretty sure people that stay with me do it because i’m their only/one of few friends and they js don’t want to be lonely so they settle for. this and then the second they get someone better/more friends they leave

it js serves as a reminder that i’m not and never will be good enough for anyone because i always do something wrong then i lose people i love spiral and do something stupid (self harm) that i later regret and feel like an attention seeker for despite never telling anyone

it doesn’t help my case that i get jealous easily. i fucking hate feeling jealous but i can’t control it or other emotions i really shouldn’t have

i can’t say any more but. in summary i’m gonna jump

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what if i made another side blog i never show to anyone that purely for being corny about how much i love my friends

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did bvo read my mind

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this car is a prison it’s so hot the weather reports are a lie where the FUCK is m why did i do that one thing in 4th grade what if i turned into a pigeon and ate birdseed from the hand of an 84 year old lady at the park

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i call myself bi-gender cause i don’t care if people see me as a boy or a girl but i like he/him more and masculine terms referring to me are nice to hear but not out loud never out loud i will crumple up and fling myself in the trash like a paper ball

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z m and i are making a kingdom au for dw and it’s all i’ve been thinking about for 3 days