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GPT therapy

怀念过去、错过的重要时刻以及对未完成的心愿感到遗憾，是非常正常的人类情感。虽然这种感受有时显得不理智，但它往往是内心对美好事物的执念与渴望的表现。然而，当这些情感开始影响到你当前的学业或生活时，就需要找到方法来平衡情绪和现实。

1. 接纳自己的情感

承认和接受自己的遗憾，不要因此责怪自己。过去的时光确实很美好，但它的意义在于构成了你如今的独特经历，而非成为拖累你的情绪包袱。

告诉自己，“这种遗憾是因为我珍惜那段时光，这是很正常的感受。”

2. 重建对当下的热情

试着将对1989世界巡演的感情转化为对当下目标的动力。比如，可以把这种对艺术、音乐的热爱融入你的研究中，找到连接点，激发新的灵感。

制定一个小目标，让自己在学术上取得一些阶段性成就，用“完成”来取代“遗憾”。

3. 用行动疗愈遗憾

如果对泰勒的音乐有深厚情感，可以通过其他方式“弥补”错过的遗憾，比如购买她的限量版专辑、参加她未来的演唱会、或者在社交媒体上与她的粉丝社区互动。

在学习中，可以尝试给自己奖励机制，例如完成一天的学习目标后，听一场泰勒的现场演出回放作为奖励。

4. 分散注意力

如果发现遗憾的情绪频繁干扰学习，可以尝试通过运动，冥想或手工艺等活动，让大脑专注于当前的事情。

将学习的过程变成仪式感更强的活动，例如固定一个有趣的学习环境或搭配喜爱的音乐（或白噪音）。

5. 学会与自己和解

理解遗憾其实是成长的一部分。试着用一句简单的话对自己说：“我无法改变过去，但可以决定我未来如何行动。”

设想自己未来的目标，例如完成研究生学业后取得的成果或成就，这将会超越你对过去的遗憾。

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Journal day1

GPT理疗第一步

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When Judgment Goes Viral: Reflections on Black Mirror's “Hated in the Nation”

Season 3, Episode 6 of Black Mirror, "Hated in the Nation," is one of the most chillingly relevant stories in the series. It's not just a detective thriller—it's a razor-sharp commentary on digital mob justice, privacy, and the unintended consequences of technology.

I found myself deeply struck by the narrative, not only for its plot twists and pacing but also for its compelling leads. Detectives Karin Parke and Blue Coulson are a powerful duo: grounded, brave, and refreshingly independent. They guide us through a slow-burning mystery that unravels into something far more sinister than it first appears.

The Premise: Outrage Has Consequences

The episode opens with Jo Powers, a newspaper columnist, facing massive public outrage after publishing a cruel op-ed about a disabled activist. That same day, the government activates “Granular”—a project using robotic bees to compensate for the extinction of natural pollinators. Later that night, Jo is found dead under gruesome circumstances. Strangely, even after her death, the internet doesn’t relent. The hate keeps coming.

And then it happens again.

Rapper Tusk, known for his crude persona, verbally abuses a young fan on live television. The internet turns on him harshly, but many say he "deserved it." That night, he dies in a disturbing way: a robotic bee drills out of his head during an MRI scan. The connection between the bees and the victims becomes horrifyingly clear.

The Game: #DeathTo

Detectives Parke and Coulson uncover that each victim was targeted by a Twitter trend called "#DeathTo," where users vote on who should die next. The winners—if you can call them that—end up dead. At first, it seems like vigilante justice through a killer drone system. But things go deeper.

A teenage girl becomes the next target after posting a disrespectful photo at a war memorial. Despite police efforts, she can’t be saved. The game continues, and the question becomes: Who is pulling the strings?

The Twist: Revenge at Scale

Eventually, the detectives trace the murders back to a disillusioned programmer inside the Granular project. Motivated by the attempted suicide of his roommate—another victim of online abuse—he rewrote the bees’ code to turn them into weapons. But here's the real twist: his final act wasn't to target one person but to turn the bees on everyone who had participated in the "#DeathTo" campaign.

Tens of thousands of users—people who had clicked a hashtag for “fun” or “outrage”—were now marked for death. It was collective punishment for a culture of dehumanizing judgment. And it was terrifyingly believable.

Hated in the Nation feels like it could happen tomorrow. It made me think about how easy it is to join the chorus of public condemnation online, often without knowing the full story. It also raised a question I can’t shake:

In an era where privacy is fragile and online outrage is instant, do we truly understand the weight of our digital words?

The robotic bees are a brilliant metaphor for data-driven tools turned destructive. The storyline echoes current fears about algorithmic targeting, privacy leaks, and the emotional distance we create when hiding behind screens.

What Should We Take Away?

This episode doesn’t offer easy answers, but it does demand that we slow down and think. Before jumping on the latest outrage trend, we should ask:

Do I have the full story?

Am I adding to harm?

Would I say this to someone’s face?

And as digital citizens, we need to push for stronger protections of privacy, data, and basic human dignity.

Final Thoughts: The Heroes We Need: Karin and Blue may not be flashy heroes, but they embody a kind of resilience and ethics we rarely see in online spaces. Their pursuit of justice against overwhelming odds reminds us that integrity is still possible, even when institutions fall.

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Hello how are you doing

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非常的困倦，紊乱的节律，无法集中的注意力，要命……

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重回正轨的预感，该好好做事情了

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2024 blank space moments

孤独

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错过

一边是做不好眼前的事情，用尽一切能力在逃避，在推开别人帮助的路上自我毁灭，真有你的……

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tomorrow is unpredicted……

Rest in Peace Michelle Trachtenberg (1985–2025)

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又是觉得自己十分无能的一天，分配任务的时候仍然难以理解指示，只有蛮力

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blog day 1

what if I lost my passion for almost everything?

and my brain has already been wired in a stupid way, only to be intoxicated by music

cry without tears when listening to Adele, Taylor Swift, Lorde, OneRepublic, Lady Gaga, Avicii, what a time has passed

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可以偶尔回头看看自己走过来的路，但是别眼红自己没得到的

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为什么我会恐惧读论文，是懒惰吗？

Start to read journal articles and stop being sloth.

the goal of writing blogs here every day

start to read journal articles of my realm

exercise

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form the habit of writing

在形成习惯之前，不要用日记本记录生活，因为提起笔，有很多字不会写；；

Rednote is a nice place, yet it's too noisy somehow. Here, the world of Tumblr looks very old-school and simple, it's the vibe of blogging. In addition, writing ideas down, and communicating with myself are crucial for academic research, and rediscovering my passion for life through typing words.

Moreover, it can force me to learn new words and terminologies, instead of simply being addicted to my phone.

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blogs & 博客

写写随便的记录，变得享受当下

bilingual blog, live the moment

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first blog

planning to write

academic exp

loss of my life (loml) of the concerts

personal thoughts on the albums

some comments on concerts

#random ideas #nostalgia