bermonolog

[bermonolog]

"i think people would have an easier way to see you, if you were a little more open."

- someone to me, a few years ago

[bermonolog]

i know how it feels when you have nobody to talk to or somewhere to go when all you want to do is running. when it feels too much to handle but you don't know who to share it with.

i know it a little too well.

[bermonolog]

take care

i wish you remember to take care of yourself and put yourself before someone else—not the other way around.

you used to tell them that they can count on you. but remember, you couldn't be there for them every fcking single time for the sake of you two.

whenever you feel like you want to talk, please go to someone who willing to listen. don't keep it all to yourself.

i know how much you love the people around you, but take care of yourself, too. you need to give yourself enough love so you can love 'em better. but no matter what happened, i hope you know that you're doing fine.

[bermonolog]

berhitung mundur untuk memberi waktu untuk berpikir. untuk memberi jeda untuk bernapas. agar dapat menimbang dan menyiapkan diri, kemana langkah akan menuju.

[bermonolog]

aih-alih mengatakan hati-hati di jalan, saya rasa 'selamat sampai di tempat tujuan' terasa lebih tepat. bukankah ucapan adalah doa?

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kinda fit everywhere but not really belong anywhere.

[bermonolog]

"not everyone who leaves, want to."

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terima kasih karena tetap bertahan, bahkan saat saya bilang tak butuh siapa-siapa.

[bermonolog]

patah hati

saat aku menyadari diriku jatuh hati, aku tahu aku juga telah membuka peluang untuk patah hati. aku tahu bahwa kelak, entah cepat atau lambat, aku akan patah hati. itu cuma perkara waktu.

[bermonolog]

senja adalah semacam perpisahan yang mengesankan.

seno gumira ajidarma

[bermonolog]

when you mess with one part of a person's life, you're messing with their entire life. everything.. affects everything.

[bermonolog]

i don't know what i feel right now neither how to stop this tears.

[bermonolog]

it makes me sad when they said they'll support whatever you do as long as it makes you happy but then they slowly drift away when you choose to do things that they don't like.

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getting less and less, then there's nothing left.

[bermonolog]

sedih ini hanya sementara, semuanya akan berlalu; semoga, kita tidak.

[bermonolog]

sulit untuk melupakan sesuatu yang sudah diulang-ulang sehingga menjadi suatu kebiasaan. setelah berusaha untuk selalu ada bahkan sebelum kau minta, pergi tak berjejak terasa seperti sesuatu yang salah. rasanya seperti berjalan tak terarah padahal jalanan di kota ini masih belum berubah. tumpukan kertas-kertas di meja kerjaku belum juga dibenahi; suaramu masih bicara padaku lewat semua itu. ini bukan lagi tentang rindu. ada sesuatu yang belum selesai bahkan saat semua sudah berhenti—

dan aku tidak tahu cara mengakhirinya.

[bermonolog]

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