bestysince2011

[bestysince2011]

Yesterday

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made They can take the music that we never played All the broken dreams take everything Just take it away But they can never have yesterday

They can take the future that we'll never know They can take the places that we said we would go All the broken dreams take everything Just take it away But they can never have yesterday

[bestysince2011]

Perm

You're still a part of everything I do You're on my heart just like a tattoo Just like a tattoo I'll always have you I'll always have you

[bestysince2011]

Little Do you Know

Little do you know How I’m breaking while you’re sound asleep I’m still haunted by the memory I’m trying to pick myself from piece by piece

Little do you know All my mistakes are slowly drowning me I’m trying to make it better piece by piece

Little do you know I love you till the sun dies

Little do you know......

[bestysince2011]

Suggestions

As a healthy way of moving on, I forced myself to cut ties with you. So I was feeling great one day and then saw this friend suggestion on IG. It was a picture of you and your name on it. And for a minute, I didn’t move. It was so tempting to IG stalk you but I was able to gather myself together and just swipe the screen up. I am trying to live with zero tolerance of you. And I am making it.  

[bestysince2011]

Move now.

It’s so ironic that when we finally talked again it felt like nothing has changed. I was laughing and crying and can’t really say what at that moment I was feeling. We talked for hours and i knew you felt it too. You missed me but not as hard as I’ve missed you, though deep inside I know everything is not the same, because I know you gave me that one last time to hear you say my name. And before we hang up, instead of I love you this is what you say, please heal yourself, move on and don’t stay.    

[bestysince2011]

Too soon, too late.

For a year, I was blaming myself for what happened to us. It was more than clear that the fault was all mine. And every day I swear I'll love all the pain away. But our timing was not really fair. You wanted to get back together when I was too high blinded by the light. And by the time I wanted it, you were already holding her tight.

[bestysince2011]

Half vs Whole Broken Black

Though half of me has a grasp of reality, the other half still lingers on that stupid hope that we are for eternity. I tried to pull the other half back to reality. But it was holding on too tightly. All it took to let go was you telling me “enough, we are not meant to be” and just like that, I got the other half back, but it was all broken black.  

[bestysince2011]

Still

I don’t think that the most painful of all is the break up.. because in some way or another, you will get used to that, of living in a world without him. What I think the thing that hurts the most, like it doesn’t stop piercing right through your heart, is still caring. The fact that you still care so much in times of his loss. Every bit of you, every sight, every breath, every move, wants to be there for him and hug him and tell him it’s all gonna be okay. Coz you knew him so well and can’t imagine the pain he is feeling. But you can’t do that anymore. Coz it’s not your place anymore. And it’s not you he needs anymore. So somewhere, somehow, in time, just in case you read this, please know that at this very moment, my heart is breaking in a million pieces, just like yours. Still always here for you, Ex Girlfriend / Ex Bestfriend

[bestysince2011]

11:11

Remember before? You told me every time the clock hits 11:11, you wish for me. And for somewhat reason, it happened. After 5 years together, we faced a dead end road. Now it’s 11:11 on my clock. And I would give everything to get you back. I will give everything to have you back!