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a return i never thought i'd make

its been years since i've been on here. honestly it was properly the darkest time in my life when i used this daily, which makes it painful to be here again. yet i feel that its necessary. i made a new account (respectfully) so this is a new base for me to express the way i've been feeling without the judgement of the actual real life people around me. i just need somewhere to vent, to be free, to feel fine. even if this is a temporary fix, i just need to feel better. things are particularly bad, they are just different and i feel like i'm never being heard which is frustrating. like i'm just the crazy bitch in this situation but its like everyone is against me here. i just want to be understand. i didn't realize how perfect everyone sees him, its like he can't do anything wrong. never even yelled at as a kid. all his ex's are crazy or a bitch. what does that make me? maybe both perhaps. sometimes i miss being in the world where things were viewed that way towards me, but i've lost all support i had by coming here. what does it take to be heard? i mean fully, not some half ass i need to hear the drama shit. like FUCK. i'd pay money to have a friend that was willing to be my friend. yet everyone meets through me, everyone already has one and everyone i had was so long ago/ended so badly that i feel like i could never come back. everyone i have to talk to now just talks about me to someone else. its like i'm not even real. i wish i knew how to feel better or make friends. this is something i've never been good at. at this point i'll take any advice. i haven't felt this way in a long time, and i guess that's why i'm here again, making this post to hopefully feel better about myself one day.

stay tuned as i explain more i guess, have fun.