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MONICA GELLER & CHANDLER BING — Friends (1994-2004)

"You're not easygoing, but you're passionate, and that's good. And when you get upset about the little things, I think that I'm pretty good at making you feel better about that, and that's good, too. So, they can say that you're high-maintenance but it doesn't matter because I like... maintaing you."

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903 The One With The Pediatrician

Somewhere along the way, these two people who have never, not in their entire lives, been certain of their standing with other people - parents, siblings, friends, dates, coworkers - are so comfortable and confident with each other that they can say "I know" to an "i love you." Beautiful.

Plus, the fact that there's not an obligatory "i love you too" tagged as a response. They love each other unconditionally and without obligation, doing it just because they can and want to.

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The 'babe' 🥹

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903 The One With The Pediatrician

HIs hand in her hair, wedding ring, the look on his face and that his right hand slides up her back. Monica winding her arms so tightly around his neck and holding onto his back. The audience is actually hooting.

The camera panning to Rachel, not because she talks, but because the kiss gets so heated it can't show it to a PG audience. But even as the camera is on Rachel, the audience is "oooh"-ing.

What did we miss out on seeing?

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This is the cutest scene ever 🥹🩵

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824 The One Where Rachel Has A Baby

She loves him so much, she says, with the nose wiggle as she leans over to him.

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13k celebration ★ top 10 tv pairings, as voted by my followers: #2 → monica geller and chandler bing (friends)

“in all my life, I never thought I would be so lucky as to fall in love with my best friend”

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I finish my first and last Scandal watching.

Unusually, this is the first time I finish a series hating everyone.

I do have some sympathy towards Millie, but I truly dislike everything, everyone. Olitz is toxic as hell, Olivia Pope is a disgusting manipulative human being.

Quinn is a hypocrite self-righteous, she killed and tortured so many people and act like she was still pure…

They couldn’t decide if Cyrus was a good man or just pure evil, every episode he was a different character, than they made him kill David! And all that for what??

Everyone is fucked up… nobody saved the show!

I would prefer the killer Huck over that whiny judgmental fool😫

Abby lost her tender!

Fitz is a cheater, blind man, who let be manipulated by his lover… god help if someone says no to the little spoiled and entitled prince… such a waste, he was terrible towards Mellie, his lover had to talk some sense into him for gods sake, his lover had to ask him to be better for her!

If I heard “I’m the president of United States,” again, I swear, I would thrown my laptop on the wall!! Seriously, how annoying, he said that like a mantra. So annoying.. gezz 😒

I definitely hate Jake Ballard! Marionette Ballard.

Olivia was always coming from Fitz to Jake arms. Jake arms Fitz, sometimes at the same day! 🤮

What a mess! 7 seasons of Olivia coming from Fitz to Jake, from Jake to Fitz, or some random assassin that her father sent to fuck his little girl 🥱

It was impossible to ship any couple, because nobody were able to be faithful, loyal. The friendships dynamic were all awful! Olivia treated everyone like they were things to be used and yelled at! Nothing saved!!

No one moment of vulnerability, a REAL moment, those rare moments were meaningless.

Redemption who? Don’t make me laugh!

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colour palette meme: cece & schmidt in birthday [for @garachel​]

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New Girl rewatching

Now I understand that I came for Jess and Nick and stayed for Cece and Schmidt

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Never the Same

Amid a New Girl rewatching, I obviously fell in love with Cece and Schmidt again. The lack of fanfics made me write this humble start of something 🫶🏻

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Surrendering… I felt it every time he touched me. His hands, his lips, his warmth surrounding me, making love to me with devoted passion, bringing in me a weird synergy of safety and adoration that makes me feel disgusted and addicted at the same time. I unapologetically come back seeking more, and he delivers better every time. I literally bit my shoulders and cummed so hard I lost my senses just to come back with the timbre of his cocky voice, babbling over what? boobies?

Disgusting, yeah, this is it. I’m out! That would be the last time.

Who was I kidding? I couldn’t let go. I was feeling him all over me. My pussy was throbbing, and I was literally soaked wet, just by remembering our rendezvous, which at that point was nothing more than two perfectly long nights. God! That men have stamina. Who would’ve thought that that idiotic serial douche beg, out of all men in my life - I mean I had so many sexual encounters - would be the best laid I ever had in my whole life? Nothing makes sense!

All I wanted was a fling, rebound sex, and make Caio pay for being a beautiful-cheating- mushroomy mess.

Fine, I confess since thanksgiving I developed a massive crush on Schmidt, that mix of sweetness and rage underneath that over-dramatic way and OCD. No man had ever yelled at me like that. My heart was brought to life right at that moment. 

But if I’m being completely honest, my view of him began to change when we both were completely bare of our social masks, exhausted from that freaking long weekend, of me being a complete jerk, we confessed to each other we hate sleeping alone. The sweetness and tenderness got me by surprise. It made me feel safe enough to open up and let that soft side of me out. So deeply did I burred that side of myself that I could no longer reach out to it.

 Schmidt did it, though.

Albeit, I was only used to dating unidimensional men. Schmidt was anything but. I only realised how important this was after him. He was sweet, enraged, the cleanest and the dirtiest, so overdramatic and funny, so intelligent, and he has a naivety-ish way to love. He would do anything for the people he cared about. So many layers with him. The way he looked at me as if I was the best thing that ever happened to him. No prize or a trophy though, pride. As though I had value, he was interested in getting to know me, finding out where my heart lay, making me laugh, and making me happy.

It wasn’t supposed to be this way. This whole situation wasn’t meant to become this consuming sick passion. I thought I would be disappointed, laugh at his unseasonable forwardness and never have to look at him again.

But the more we got involved, the more my body got devoted exclusively to his most deviant fantasies. He pushed all my buttons, figuratively and literally. He possessed me completely. Every encounter was different and greater. We started spending hours talking about everything and nothing. Our cool facade was gone when were together under his sheets, shielding us from the loneliness we felt for so many years. It was our sanctuary, our safe harbour.

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New Girl rewatching

Now I understand that I came for Jess and Nick and stayed for Cece and Schmidt

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idk idk i'm watching new girl again and i'm thinking about schmidt and cece and their relationship.

i think they were both terrified of everything they were feeling for each other and not ready to face the reality of that yet in s1. so they kept self sabotaging because neither of them wanted to admit how much they cared and how much they already loved each other even though they both knew.

but the thing that gets me is, when they finally do admit that? they are unbreakable. they just have such a strong relationship. both of them know that the love is mutual and they finally feel safe in showing that love to each other idk it just makes me really happy

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For so long Dana Scully had found solace in this way; undercover, hiding- away, it didn’t matter the transgression, she would go to her place, pour a glass of wine, prepare the most extravagant bubble bath, soak in and lose herself in some book, sometimes just listen to good music. She doesn't know when this has become her thing. When she was younger, when things got too much, she would go home and seek comfort, cry with her head securely resting on her mum’s lap while she played with her locks, until she felt the release that her fragile soul needed.

But since her kidnapping, this moment had been practically inexistent. Not because she didn’t want it. The problem was that she didn't feel as though she needed anything. In some way, she had become detached from her feelings. She didn’t know what she was feeling most of the time, but she was sure she wasn’t feeling much. She was just interested in coming back to her routine, forgetting and living her life. Besides, the more involved she got, the more secrets she had to carry. She grew distant from her best friend and after Melissa’s death her own family. The only person who could understand her was Mulder. He was the only one who made everything better. Being in his presence was enough.

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Desire is a feeling that has become alien to her, like all those alien things she and Mulder sought for life. Her life has become a sequence of deception, abduction, illness, getting shot, and almost dying repeatedly. She didn’t know when it had become so easy to forget that she was a warmed-blooded woman underneath all that. Reconnecting with that part of herself had become surprisingly challenging after her diagnosis, more than she’d like to admit.

Her body had been invaded and ravaged by a deadly disease; she was so thin that her ribcage was exposed through her even paler skin. In her already fair complexion, her big blue eyes seemed to stand out even more, since she was almost translucent. Under her eyes, a dark circle grew visibly heavier and deeper as the weeks passed by, despite her best efforts to hide it with makeup, self-assurance, and avoidance.

Her daily struggle with the mirror was long and painful. It had become nothing more than a series of desperate escapades to wipe off a crescent and relentless nose bleeding. She would avoid looking at herself undressed. It was only a tool to cover, to hide, nothing else. Headaches and ached faces have become a constant occurrence. Still, she wouldn’t dare be defeated by any of it. She was determined to be strong and resilient. For him, she needed to be strong for him. This is what she would tell herself.

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ASTRO BASICS

⛓: this is more for myself than anything, to be able to understand astrology and study it well, and keep track to not forget anything. however i figured other people would find it useful as well. i will always update it if i find it to be useful or necessary! <3 if i got anything wrong, please tell. look at this as an information pit! <3

these are mainly descriptions of what is ruled by what.

THE HOUSES

1st house self, appearance, beginnings, body, firsts, attitude, identity, life views and morals

2nd house money, work, routines, priorities & values, habits, ambition, material stuff

3rd house mind, thoughts, communication, siblings, childhood, interest and hobbies

4th house femininity, family, children, home, emotions, self love

5th house romance, love, joy, fertility, emotion overflow, self expression, creativity and playfullness

6th house health, analytical nature, pleasing attitude, pets/animals, organisation

7th house relationships, sharing, life-long decisions, future partners, interpersonal style, equality

8th house intimacy, sex, boundaries, privacy, goals, society

9th house intelligence, education, will, mental stimulation, religion and culture

10th house masculinity, fame, success, career, reputation, public image, mental health

11th house personal bubble, social relations, friends, ignorance, technology, hopes, future

12th house healing, closure, karma, spirituality, secrets, subconscious, after life, old age

THE PLANETS

the sun individuality, pride, succes, energy

the moon personality, emotions, intuition, sensitivity, desires

mercury communication, thinking, sensory, learning

venus sociability, friendships, luxury, values, skill

mars dynamic energy, will power, aggressiveness, sex drive

saturn ambition, freedom, restrictions, realism

jupiter optimism, justice, health, wealth

neptune idealism, illusions, creativity, psychic powers

uranus news, sudden changes, knowledge, clarity, innovation

pluto transformation, sex, spirituality, evolution, extremes

THE ZODIACS

aries head, brain, face

taurus throat, neck, lips, jaw

gemini lungs, hands, arms

cancer breasts, ribs, chest

leo heart, sack, spine, forearms

virgo stomach, intestines, lower spine, fingers

libra skin, kidneys, lumbar region,

scorpio bladder, anus, nose, appendix

sagittarius hips, nerves, thighs, alteries

capricorn knees, joints, teeth

aquarius leg, ankles, blood

pisces feet, toes, lymphatic system

CONNECTIONS

1st house rules Mars which rules Aries

2nd house rules Venus which rules Taurus and Libra

3rd house rules Mercury which rules Gemini and Virgo

4th house rules the Moon which rules Cancer

5th house rules the sun which rules Leo

6th house rules Mercury which rules Gemini and Virgo

7th house rules Venus which rules Taurus and Libra

8th house rules Pluto and Mars which rule Scorpio

9th house rules Jupiter which rules Sagittarius

10th house rules Saturn which rules Capricorn and Aquarius

11th house rules Saturn and Uranus which rule Aquarius (and Capricorn)

12th house rules Neptune and Jupiter which rule Pisces

OTHER ELEMENTS

north node your destiny and karmic path

lilith strength, growth, shadow self, impulses, psyche

chiron pain and healing

fortune ur big 3 <3 (sun, moon, rising)

vertex uncontrollable fate

ascendant (ac) the way people view you

descendant (dc) relationship with others

imuni coeli (ic) origins, trauma, family, security

midheaven (mc) reputation and desired self

DEGREES

cardinal signs aries, cancer, libra, and capricorn 0, 13, and 26 degrees

fixed signs taurus, leo, scorpio, and aquarius 8-9 and 21-22 degrees

mutable signs gemini, virgo, sagittarius, and pisces 4 and 17 degrees

🖇: my knowledge on the degrees isn't far stretched, i will be updating this part as soon as I will be more educated on them.

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Bring Back the Romcoms

I want predictable ending. I want silly characters with silly & predictable plots. Movies where I can lose myself for a while. I don’t give a crap if is not realistic. I’m not in this road for reality. I told you I want to lose myself, get out of my sometimes shit reality of a world full of mean crap people on the internet criticizing everything that breaths and move.

Laugh. Cry and dream!

That sensation of watching something that brings a sense that love exist, that it shouldn’t been so complicated. Find myself with the silliest smile on my face as the credits rolls.

If you don’t like this get the fuck out, why watch a romcom and go out saying it wasn’t realistic or the ending was predictable. You already know this about romcoms so why bother watching?

Oh I know, just to go online and complain! Write hateful comments against the actors.