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I know my mental health care team thinks I'm insane but how are we going to call it insanity if it always has positive results?

I'm telling my shrink about some of these dreams and she's like how do you know which you need to investigate further or which has a message in it, and I'm like, because I do? I just know...

Intuition seems really insane to people who don't have the gift of intuition. Because I say a question in my mind and I see a sign that reinforces the idea, and so I just know. If I'm unsure then I know that I don't know?

Yeah it sounds insane, except, I have a track record of wins behind me now, that if it was just delusions wouldn't have worked out the way they had.

So, I guess I'll just seem crazy because some of this shit is so baffling that I want to talk about it, and so I think I will.

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They hit me with the, "you're disrespectful," and why do you deserve respect??? Because... You're a doctor?

I love arguing with doctors in the comment section of tiktok, they have such a superiority complex and i love reminding them, they're just gatekeepers to medication

Not doing research? Not a surgeon? Then you're just a monkey with a pad and pen, write the script doc, just fill the med

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I love arguing with doctors in the comment section of tiktok, they have such a superiority complex and i love reminding them, they're just gatekeepers to medication

Not doing research? Not a surgeon? Then you're just a monkey with a pad and pen, write the script doc, just fill the med

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Tired of Trump's influence on the stock market, everyday I read 10 articles about what he did to make the markets go up and down, which okay ride the wave make the money but omg, it's like reading a daily horoscope

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No one likes it but my purpose in life is to cut through the bullshit and call people dumb. I'm just following my calling 🤷‍♀️

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The working poor versus the welfare recipient poor, is baffling

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Sorry poor teenage girl, no holiday sweets for you, and I hope you bleed through your pants in school too

🚬😐 anyway fuck politicians and boot lickers too

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Idc about the changes to ebt but what I will say, I keep thinking about the kids who will get laughed at for another thing they lack. Like kids are so vicious, you'll get busted on for never having candy now. I also keep thinking about how the rich and the working poor who side with the rich, are like, yeah! Fuck poor people, I hate poor people! Kids absolutely should never have candy, especially on Easter or other holidays. (They don't say that but, their indignance does and so that's what I hear)

Anyway, I think I'll start buying candy to donate to the food pantry along with pads and toiletries which the government also thinks poor people shouldn't have

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Alex got the job but at what cost ya know

Anyway, resume regular posting meaning, I have a migraine and want to die

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I don't want to have to call the doctor but starting to worry about the feeling of blood rushing into my brain accompanied by blacking vision and the spins. 😒 Since my normal POTS symptoms are not quite this intense. I had that episode last week at the pool and was having bad fluttering in my chest. I'm so annoyed by all of this, but drinking electrolytes and eating my weight in sodium hasn't really helped the way it normally does.

I'm not taking Vyvanse til this chills out. Skipping it did help today, at least until about an hour ago, when I walked to my bathroom and my heart rate alarm went off to tell me I was at 150bpm, and I couldn't even feel it???

So, that's cool. This shit needs to chill TF out because I am going to the beach next week...

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When I was in the third grade, I was selected to be on the local PBS channel for some academic reason. I really can't remember what for, but what I do remember is not being able to find anything to wear that day for school. I just so happened to wear a dress, which I never did. Sometimes I think how lucky that was because I completely forgot until the teacher pulled me out of class to drive over to where they were filming this with two other boy students. I felt such a huge relief because my mom would have kicked my ass if I went there, was on tv and looked raggedy.

When she watched it, she was like wow you look so nice, I love that dress. 😂

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It is shocking the amount of people on here who engage in rage baiting, like why do you want to argue for recreation or bully for recreation? I just can't imagine being that angry, ugly or bored. I don't think chronic onlineness causes this, this feels more like uncultured, inexperienced... The problem feels bigger than "touching grass." You only get your rocks off on Tumblr dot com? They probably can't afford to go experience life, or they're such boring people in general that life actually instills a fear in them that immobilizes them, maybe it's a level of apathy which makes moving their muscles difficult. I almost don't want to point and laugh at them because it's kind of pitiful and I have empathy, but I also don't care even in the slightest because, you get it how you live it.

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Oh the illiterate people are making fun of me because of God, oh noooooo, it's easy to laugh at the wicked because I know their day is coming 👌👌

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MY HAIR LOOKS SO GOOD, MY HAIR STYLIST POPPED OFF, I WOULD POST A PIC BUT I DONT WANT TO MAKE YOU BITCHES JEALOUS

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I wish I could remember my dream, most of it was me doing yardwork at a house I inherited. It reminded me of my mother's house but it had this wood retaining wall. There was this portion where I ask my aunt, what did you want me to do instead of block you and move on??

Even earlier than that, maybe in the dream before that, I was at the beach with Alex and Bree, and I'm driving alone up to meet them at this parade. The main attraction of this parade was an old military plane would fly over. I forget they're up there, so I call and am like where are you? Brees like, we're here waiting for the flyover... Just as she says that, the plane appears in my line of sight, I'm in motion driving and this plane like belly's up and nose dives right in front of me onto the highway. Earlier in the dream I was hung up doing something, which if I had left any earlier, I would have probably died...

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Hate when a post makes it way over to neckbeard libertarian Tumblr

Why are you guys mutuals with those retards, respectfully