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re: difficulty of sexuality. i guess part of it is im really ... "subby" isnt the right word (though its true) ... but yknow. when i get physically excited about this stuff i dont wanna, like, DO anything, or put in effort, or think, i wanna be fed lol

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they should invent the "attention button"

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pss pss

powdered heavy cream and butter are a thing

i dont believe you... prove it. with my mouth

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full tummy!! full tummy!!!!! i have full tummy!!!!!

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bumps you with my tummy. bumps you with my tummy. bumps you with my tummy. bumps you with my tummy. bumps you with my tummy

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had trouble pulling my pajamas over my butt/hips today

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Hey honey just wanna let you know you’re awesome and squishy and cool and a really nice gal :33

thank you <3 <3 <3

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why culdnt u do anytin abou it?

why can you?

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so u jus naturaly asexual?

i dont know what's "natural" - i dont know what i would be like if i grew up differently

i do like sex and intimacy, but i never "developed a sexuality" the same way other people did.

well, ok, its also true that taking hormones affected things. there have been times in my life before that where i could be said to "get horny" but i couldnt really do anything about it. there wasnt a physical sensation of pleasure involved. i'd just come on here and omegle and look at fetish stuff for a long time and rarely get anything out of it, but i couldnt focus on anything else either.

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hows it nevr bein horni?

its normal for me so i dont know. i just do everything other people do except i do not "Jack Off" at the end of the day or whenever youre supposed to do it. its that simple

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new record: 152.2

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and i wish i could talk about this to people who i talk to every day about serious stuff in my "normal" life but i can'tn't.

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why are some forms of dysphoria treated as given valid but this isn't. its not like traditional gender dysphoria is insulated from societal ideas or anything. but its still understandable as an important individual feeling

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i saw it again, another post abt the condescending rudeness of smaller people who wish they were fat. about how weird and patronizing it is to suggest that you'd ever want to be oppressed

i get theres probably some really annoying people out there who trigger posts like that, but it always makes me feel like shit and after lots of thought i dont think im entirely crazy or wrong to find it questionable. why is fat not a valid thing to want to be. why is it only defined by oppression. why is the desire to be fat when held by a smaller person treated as an intrusion across a boundary. why does this kind of post get circulation in trans spaces.

i mean if that kind of line of thought is completely correct and people who deliberately become fat or want to become fat can never know what fatphobia really is because they didn't grow up with it and have it thrust upon them, ok, i can see the logic and line of reasoning there, but u have to transmisogynistically draw a line between trans and cis womens bodies too. which you shouldn't do, but like, i just want these ambiguities to be made clear.

i don't mean to be stupid about this, maybe i am being stupid about it, i just always get the sense that if you follow that train of thought to its conclusion, the conclusion is that me becoming fat is a perverted fetish choice and not legitimate fatness. and if thats what people believe they should say it outright, not just imply it.

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another image i just remembered having lost: girl with i THINK freckles? and big orange hair? striped clothes, image had a bunch of small drawings of her, including her sitting on a toilet with a caption saying she secretly has bad tummy issues?? i tagged it "me"??? less urgent than the other search but does anyone know

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guuuuuu... -tummy