biggreenmanguy

[biggreenmanguy]

yk im just really lost ik what it takes to do good but in doing good do you truly find happiness or do you crumble under the weight reputation puts onto you in some fucked up human passion display case i wont let myself get to that level i continue to teeter this line of insanity in hopes that the build up will bring happiness in release but i'm scare of the realise im scared of the road to max capacity im terrified of myself in the most disheartening ways im scared of people and their life im in a constant state of defense words being filtered in and out of my head to keep the big man at the throne of my cabasa giggling as he pulls my brain wires out and plugs new ones in attempting to throw me off i'm stuck in this time with no foreseen way out besides to keep walking but i drag my feet hoping to see the light of each day but i'm fighting myself a constant bickering between eyes

[biggreenmanguy]

tbh ik im the entire problem

but ill make sure they know it

[biggreenmanguy]

shes all i have tbh but i cant show that im just doing it for her

[biggreenmanguy]

its either me or someone else

[biggreenmanguy]

i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant

[biggreenmanguy]

i dont wanna live anymore. its just that simple

[biggreenmanguy]

im just frustrated man i cant do it anymore im not doing it

[biggreenmanguy]

i just straight up dont wanna live anymore its such a fucking chore now i have one thing i look forward to one thing i do it all for and i love her more than anything

[biggreenmanguy]

i cant do this anymore please help me i cant i cant i cant

[biggreenmanguy]

ITS HAPPENING

[biggreenmanguy]

it keeps happening so lets go over what happens if i or u just suddenly stop responding GO TO PINTEREST

[biggreenmanguy]

shes the love of my life i get happy thinking about her and i get terrible when i cant see her id do anything for her anything

[biggreenmanguy]

she is perfecttion shes all i want she makes me s happy and feel so so good im so inlove with her i would live die and or kill for her

[biggreenmanguy]

shes perfect and i really do love her withh all of my being and need her to know that but why should she belive me yk

[biggreenmanguy]

true life is surviving but living is emotion

get out of my head get out of my head get out of my head get out of my head get out of my head get out of my head get out of my head

[biggreenmanguy]

shes absolutely flawless everything about her is perfect and i wish i could yk like show her that ig idk im just so inlove with her i wish i was better for her but i dont want her to leave ever because ik she can do better and i really am just a peice of shit but yk she isnt she deserves everything shes beautiful hilarious smart asf cute as shit everything about her and all the things she says just give me this loving feeling of warm

[biggreenmanguy]

shes the love of my life and i wanna give and do sm to her but her boyfreinds a loser