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fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

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girl shocked to discover that inaction can have consequences too

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how to live a life for beginners

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my partner said something that kinda rocked my world

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Gosh.

Must be rough for them.

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i really enjoy looking through reddit threads related to death metal because the replies sound like a groupchat for cartoon villains

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by @beetlemoses

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actually the real reason why so many trans women are becoming doggirls is so that we can get into womens' sports on air bud rules

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you are 16. you are talking with a gay man in his 50s or 60s, a friend, huge and gentle with a scarf and short fluffy curls of gray hair, who has directed you in two plays staged in your mid-size artsy town. (he has not yet asked you to be in his production of The Laramie Project which will change your life. this conversation will also change your life.)

he is talking about theatre. he is talking about theatre when he was younger. he says, "of course, it was AIDS then." in the pause, you ask him. clumsy and quiet and 16 and "straight," you ask him. what was it like.

he takes a moment in which his face is not like a person's face. "there was a time," he says, "i'm not sure how long, years. when i went to a funeral every weekend." he tells you about two funerals in a day, and choosing between friends when you couldn't make it to both. he does not look at you, he looks at them. his wet grey gaze is so clear that you start to see ghosts. it will be years before you understand why it feels like your grief too. why the ghosts call you family.

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when you hit 26 your only options are kill yourself or keep on living . this also happens everyday

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before you make a major life decision you should ALWAYS make sure that you are going through something that could be described as an "episode"

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why would you do this to me