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[bigliars]

why is everyone but me important to you

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crying in his arms makes me feel safe i should probably do it more!!!

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it feels like every day we’re getting closer than we were before and i don’t know about him but i am falling harder and harder every day and i didn’t even know that was possible... i think his vulnerabilities are what makes him beautiful and even whenever he’s sitting in front of me so upset there is still some sort of raw energy that’s there that i just want to hold and nurture and keep loose and warm and protected even when it’s so hard to do that i want to be there and if i’m scared i’m going to lose him i still want to be there and things are so bad right now but we have each other and i wouldn’t want it to change in any type of way i love you i love you i love you so much

i am his forever and he wants me forever.

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but what if he changes his mind o.e

i am his forever and he wants me forever.

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i am his forever and he wants me forever.

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isn’t it crazy how i constantly have to act like i’m not afraid yukhei is going to just decide he doesn’t want me in his life anymore just how like everyone else is

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blegh isn’t it crazy how i’m losing all of my friends

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okkk i know i said leave me alone but i don’t like how the one person i don’t want to leave me alone is being quite

[bigliars]

just leave me alone. leave me alone. leave me alone leave me alone just go why was it so easy the other night but now that i want it it’s hard

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the way i have to act like i’m fine with everyone going out without me and not even having the nerve to tell me and assume i’d be okay with it

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please don’t get tired of me like everyone else does. please.

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i just want everything to be okay again but now i can’t even stay at my own dorm without feeling uncomfortable

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the way i want to cry but nothing is coming out is telling me how bad i feel right now

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when you kiss me, i feel like the entire world was waiting for this moment. the grass finally lets out the breath it didn’t realize it was holding and gets a little greener. the clouds in the sky start to part and sun shines down on the parts of the earth that turn to the sky just to get a little bit of warmth. for you and i, the moment were we realized we were for redhead other was something we didn’t know we were waiting for. we fit together with ease and comfort. you are my home, as i am yours. there is something beautiful in coexistence, especially with someone you find yourself admiring more and more each and every day.

when you touch me, my skin lights on fire and runs up my spine and shoots down my fingertips and toes, tickling my scalp and making my lips curl up and my breath bitch. your fingers drag against me so gently i can barely feel them. your hands hold me so firmly, yet so comfortable i can squeeze myself in between the space and feel at ease. your legs, slipped in between mine, ground me to a place where just us exist. we’re floating together, on a bed, in the sky. sometimes it’s day and we can lay on our backs and find the clouds that look like us, because i think our love is so grant it just has to be copied by whatever will take it in. other times it’s the night sky, where we watch the stars twinkle and i trace out constellations into your skin. we see a shooting star and i wish for this to never end.

when you look at me, my cheeks blaze and my heart thumps in my chest, desperate to leap out and mend into yours. maybe it already has. maybe that’s why i feel what you feel. maybe that’s why you can secretly read my mind all of the time. maybe that’s why this hurts so much.

your chest rises and falls, peacefully and at ease. my chest? it sputters in a panic, unable to draw in a full breath.

i am dangerously close to sending my boyfriend a five paragraph letter breaking up with him because of how much better he deserves

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i am dangerously close to sending my boyfriend a five paragraph letter breaking up with him because of how much better he deserves

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this is my villain origin story

i have hit the point below rock bottom and it’s like everything inside of me has suddenly been switched off

[bigliars]

i have hit the point below rock bottom and it’s like everything inside of me has suddenly been switched off