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Yu Hong (Chinese, b. 1966), Cloud Layer, 2014. Acrylic on canvas, 180 x 200 cm.

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t shirt that says Only God Can Fuck Me

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i don’t like being controlled … sentence starters

“Stop telling me what to do.”

“I don’t need you micromanaging me.”

“You think every choice I make is wrong.”

“That wasn’t your choice to decide for me…”

“Stop ordering me around like I’m your servant!”

“Nothing I do is ever good enough for you, is it?”

“I should be allowed to make my own decisions.”

“Is it fun for you? Nitpicking every little thing I do?”

“Do I have to ask permission to do anything, now?”

“I don’t need you hovering over my shoulder like that.”

“It’s my life. Why am I not allowed to have any say in it?”

“Why should I do anything if you’re just gonna criticize it?”

“You’re not my mother/father/parent. So, stop acting like it.”

“I don’t have to listen to you. I can decide things for myself.”

“Okay, I’m an adult. Stop telling me what to do like I’m a child.”

“Why do you do this? Why can’t you just let me have any say?”

“Oh my god! ‘(Name) do this! (Name) do that!’ Please, just let me live.”

“So, what? Damned if I do, damned if I don’t. What more do you want from me?”

“So, I’m not allowed to do anything you don’t like. And you don’t like anything I do. … What the hell does that leave me?”

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Daddy, can I go out and kill tonight?

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#eyefuck

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Damn it. A flinch jolts through the archangel. Features TWITCHING in surprise and irritation as He appeared far too suddenly…and far too close. Gabriel allowing himself a step back. Taking just enough space to make the proximity fractionally less overwhelming as he levelled a carefully neutral gaze at the god. Smooth chin angled up with the merest of tilts.

 ‘ You would have to correct yourself before you could correct me, father….but then you would have to admit you have flaws. ’

His head follows Gabriel's movement and tilts back as well, looking down at His archangel with a very critical eye that feels longer than it was before turning away to go take a seat on the couch. One leg crosses over His knee as with a flick of His hand He appears a cup of tea that He sips calmly.

"You make it sound like a good deal. Saying a few words and I get to fix you."

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“ i’m doing it exactly like you told me to, and i’m still not getting it right. “

mentor/mentee vibes

He moved closer to Azrael, hands neatly folded behind His back as He walked around her to study her pose. "Hmm-..." A hum, adjusting her arm just an inch, her foot as well.

"Perfection is an ilusion." Something controversial to come from a God's mouth but He continued. "Practice is what makes you know your own body, what can it do and where can you take it."

He moved to sit on the floor, legs crossed and hands resting with His palms up over His knees.

"Sit down a moment, close your eyes."

He instructed as He did so.

"You siblings have been training for decades more than you, they didn't get it in the first thousand tries. Ask Michael." He explained.

"Sometimes instructions are a base for what you're allowed to do, maybe try something different, something that feels right for you."

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“ you said you’d teach me. and i’m here to learn. so let’s go already. “

mentor/mentee vibes

The storming into Adonai's chambers was of course expected and even a tad welcomed. Gabriel could vaunt in being one of the two or maybe three celestials that could simply push those heavy doors open and deman the time he was promised.

Adonai smiled to Himself and turned to one of His youngest. What a bliss to see the excitement, the eagerness of his mind and body to learn and see what he was capable of. And of course it was thrilling for the God Himself to see as well.

One thing was to plan and bring them to life with all these ideas and expectations but something completely different was to finally watch them achive what He wanted and even more, defying themselves day after day to become better. Watch them fly higher and move faster, learn and even invent was something so delightful for the God.

"Alright, let's go then."

It was early in the morning of the Silver City, the air still a little chilly and most of the celestials with a duty were just getting ready.

The sunrises in Heaven were different, one could see the sun rise in every planet and hide in others. Never quite completely dark.

Adonai and Gabriel walked towards the training area, the place emptied for both their privacy and of course not everyone was worthy of seeing God perform such activities.

The Archangels were made with certain knowledge already in their minds and bodies but the path to perfection was to work through what you already knew and make it better.

He flicked His hand once to change His robes into a lighter and tighter fit so He could move better, setting His feet into possition.

"Ready? Go for it."

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Hello everyone! My name is Adrián, I am a mexican trans man and I need some help to pay for my top surgery. I was lucky enough to find an excellent doctor and I want to go through this next step in my transition. 

For this, I need about $5,000 dollars. i am doing my best to save money through my work but it is a big amount of money and I know the community is full of kind people so I am asking for help to reach my goal. 

When I tell you that every dollar counts, I really mean it. A dollar translates to almost triple in value in my country’s money so whatever you can donate will help me a lot in my journey. If you aren’t able to donate that is also okay, if you could reblog my post and help me spread this information it will be really helpful as well. 

You can send your donations through PAYPAL. (is my bf’s account because mine was hacked)

Thank you so much to everyone who supports me in this, I will update this post as time passes by, hopefully we will be able to reach the goal before the end of January 2021, when my surgery is scheduled. 

This is me, by the way:

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“ i don’t need a break! i need to keep going until i get this right! “

mentor/mentee vibes

The days after Samael's fall weren't easy for anyone, they were very grey, cold and mostly quiet. Everyone had their heads low, the tensions were still high, the smell of celestial blood and burnt feathers could still be percieved in the air.

In the distance, you could hear the metal of someone's armour and the hits they blew to their target over and over...and over again. It had been days and everyone started to really worry about Michael's nonstop training.

Raphael had tried to talk to him, to bring him inside but he wouldn't listen, of course lower ranks had no chance to even get him to look at them and many more were scared of even coming near him. Even on the outside of the training place, one could feel Michael's strong emotions.

Adonai finally came out the throne room and made His way outside, as He walked by, the celestials nearby would turn their heads, feel a shiver down their spine as the flashbacks of the horrors they saw were still too fresh and His presence made them worse. Biting their lips so hard not to scream in horror again, trembling hands that tried their best to stay still, scarred wings that ached when bowing down.

"Michael that's enough. Go clean yourself." He ordered once but the violent movements of the Archangel didn't stop one bit.

"Put the sword down now." Another order, Adonai saw in Michael's body language how hard it was for him to ignore it and at the same time it felt like the only choice he had.

"Michael-" He didn't finish when Michael shouted at him, the movements of his hits becoming faster, more violent, reckless.

"Stop it!" He shouted back and grabbed him by the shoulders to turn him around, snatching glorious from it's owner's hands and throwing it away. "Stop it." He repeated through his teeth, his hands squeezing Michael's shoulders a bit too hard, His eyes glowing a pristine white as His raw divinity started to flow and flood the training area and around it. The celestials that were close enough slowly went to their knees, letting out a relieved sigh at the warmth that started as comforting but slowly it started to burn a little too much, the bowing slowly turning into them curling into themselves on the ground.

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mentor/mentee vibes (because ur worth it–)

aka i really love the energy of this dynamic, but unfortunately this whole effort turned into me typing down actual dialogue that happened in my car while my poor father tried to teach me how to drive. but they make for fun threads! bon appetit!

from the mentor.

“ you’re doing it wrong. ”

“ would you like me to show you how to do it? ”

“ that… that’s not how you do it. ”

“ maybe this mentoring stuff requires patience that i don’t have. ”

“ keep doing it like that, and you’ll end up hurting yourself. ”

“ correct me if i’m wrong, but that’s not how i showed you to do it, is it? ”

“ okay, alright, look at me. you looking? do it exactly like i’m doing it. ”

“ move your feet, come on, you’ve got to move if you don’t want to end up flat on your ass again! ”

“ look… it’s progress, yeah? you’re better than you were before. ”

“ don’t beat yourself up; it’s a tricky move, nobody gets it right the first time. ”

“ okay, let’s… let’s try a different tactic. ”

“ you’re overthinking it. don’t think; just be in the moment. ”

“ stop, stop… alright. looking back on what you’ve just done, what do you think i’m going to say? ”

“ there’s definitely plenty of room for improvement. ”

“ ah… god, okay, don’t cry… it’s not as bad as it looks, you’re really not as bad at this as you think! ”

“ we’ll get there together. ”

“ okay. time for a break, yeah? let’s stop for now, catch a breath, we can come back to it later. ”

“ you obviously don’t enjoy any of this; why do you want me to teach you so badly? ”

“ i could teach you, if you’d like? ”

“ come on, like i showed you, remember? ”

“ feet apart, hands up; anticipate your opponent’s movements! ”

“ alright… don’t think about getting hit. this isn’t a fight. it’s a dance. you move in response and in anticipation of your opponent. ”

“ who the hell taught you to do that?! ”

“ that wasn’t terrible! you didn’t butcher it this time! ”

“ wake up. wake up, come on, up and at ‘em. you said you wanted to learn, so come on. up you get! ”

“ that was good! hell, that was brilliant! you knocked me off my feet! good job! ”

“ you need to stop worrying about hurting me. you gonna apologize and pay the hospital bills of whatever bad guy you go against next time? ”

“ i’m proud of you. ”

“ you’re doing great! “

from the mentee

“ can you teach me how to do that? “

“ i did it! “

“ okay, there’s no need to be dramatic, i wasn’t that bad! “

“ i AM trying. “

“ oh god, oh, i’m so sorry! did i hurt you? “

“ i need your help with this. okay? i can’t do this alone. “

“ you’re the expert, right? “

“ i’ve seen you fight; i wanna be as good as you! “

“ people’s lives are at stake if i lose. their blood’s gonna be on my hands, and it’ll be on yours, too, if you don’t help me. “

“ quit yelling at me, i’m trying my best! “

“ i’m doing it exactly like you told me to, and i’m still not getting it right. “

“ i don’t need a break! i need to keep going until i get this right! “

“ show me how you did it. “

“ i don’t know how. and you do. all i’m asking is for a few hours of training… please? “

“ that’s it. i quit! “

“ you’re a terrible teacher, you know that? “

“ you said you’d teach me. and i’m here to learn. so let’s go already. “

“ what’s the point?! i’m useless at this! “

“ this is pointless, i’m never going to be ready! “

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Leave my adopted son alone. That child is mine. '

· • ❝ Of course darling.     I'm sure he'll love to hear where were you when he was being nailed to a cross.❞ • ·

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Most powerful wizard

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* Happy humming because it’s almost Jesus’s birthday *

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Some eldritch eye wheels because I didn’t want to draw human beings.