âyeah, and thatâs all i was tryinâ to do. is have fun.â but then, look how that turned out. horse-playinâ ended up with her hand hurt and almost worse. âthe worst? it was just a joke, darlinâ. why is everything to you the worst.â brows gently creased in confusion and concern, wondering why someone would react this way so many times in one day. especially when she was just playing with him, a harmless game and he took it so seriously like heâs some type of wild animal used to being caged. he acts like sheâs trying to constantly trap him. âi doâŠtheyâre in the bathroom, in the basket on top on the counter.â which works out since thatâs where theyâre going. âthereâs alcohol hidden in the top pantry cabinet in the kitchen.â because the preacher is a hypocriteâ a preacher canât be caught lecturing how alcohol is bad at church but be soaking them down at home. âi donât weigh a lot, i donât think. and itâs just right thereâŠbut i also get it if your muscles still hurt.â he can just hand her own shoes, a random pair in her closet, if he canât carry her a few steps away. when he turns though, lucy gray almost backs out, contemplating if itâs a good idea or not before slowly putting her good hand on his shoulder then both arms curl around his neck before legs quickly wrap around him. a little nervous he might be too weak and drop her. âif itâs too much, just drop me backwards back onto my bed. itâs alright if it is.â lucy gray reassures before managing to joke back with him, âdoesnât matter how much i want a piggyback ride, if youâre still in pain then it can wait.â
âno, it- it didnât burn me.â trying to gather words after something fun turning almost disastrous, all the shouting he was doing too she thought he got cut by the glass. âwell, my mama always did sayâŠhorseplayinâ always leads to someone winding up hurt. she sure was right.â lucy gray admits, mamaâs really do know it all. âbut iâm not hurt that bad,â she insists, sitting down on her bed, âthat glass about when into my eye and iâm real fortunate, the lamp wasnât hot or iâd have burns. so really, i am perfectly fine.â and grateful she just has a cut and a few tiny ones dotting her hand, few pieces of glass stuck in her hand and no burns or scars on their way to mess up her face and skin. âiâm okay, iâm alright,â lucy gray tries to reassure while her hand stayed splayed out to let him see, gently shaking her head while looking him over to make sure he didnât earn any injuries too. âyeah,â she agrees to go to the bathroom, âjust be careful not to step in any glass or oil.â which is why sheâs reluctant to stand right away, looking down at the floor before turning over on her belly on top of the bed so she can reach under the bed for his boots, âhere,â she tosses one out each with her right hand that wasnât cut, âpull these onto your feet and iâll get a ride on your back.â instructing while shifting back around, standing up on her bed. eyes going to the rug while she waits, hopinâ and prayinâ that baking soda helps or heâs going to throw a tantrum fit and blame it on her bringing food to her room like he was doing earlier. but now heâll have evidence, even if it wasnât caused by food.
âno, it- it didnât burn me.â trying to gather words after something fun turning almost disastrous, all the shouting he was doing too she thought he got cut by the glass. âwell, my mama always did sayâŠhorseplayinâ always leads to someone winding up hurt. she sure was right.â lucy gray admits, mamaâs really do know it all. âbut iâm not hurt that bad,â she insists, sitting down on her bed, âthat glass about when into my eye and iâm real fortunate, the lamp wasnât hot or iâd have burns. so really, i am perfectly fine.â and grateful she just has a cut and a few tiny ones dotting her hand, few pieces of glass stuck in her hand and no burns or scars on their way to mess up her face and skin. âiâm okay, iâm alright,â lucy gray tries to reassure while her hand stayed splayed out to let him see, gently shaking her head while looking him over to make sure he didnât earn any injuries too. âyeah,â she agrees to go to the bathroom, âjust be careful not to step in any glass or oil.â which is why sheâs reluctant to stand right away, looking down at the floor before turning over on her belly on top of the bed so she can reach under the bed for his boots, âhere,â she tosses one out each with her right hand that wasnât cut, âpull these onto your feet and iâll get a ride on your back.â instructing while shifting back around, standing up on her bed. eyes going to the rug while she waits, hopinâ and prayinâ that baking soda helps or heâs going to throw a tantrum fit and blame it on her bringing food to her room like he was doing earlier. but now heâll have evidence, even if it wasnât caused by food.
a smile is about to illuminate mischievous features before thereâs a yell then a CRASH, causing lucy gray to immediately let go and turn her face from glass hitting her skin as she simultaneously gasps. the oil barely misses her shirt, still getting splattered across the cheek. luckily, it doesnât go in her eyes nor is it hot. âi canât stay here, you donât know where the broom is.â sheâs immediately climbing out without thinking, hand going in a pile of glassâ quickly retracting at the immediate crunchy stings they prick at beneath her palm and flinging her hand. ow. she audibly winces, but continues to crawl out, just going the other way and being careful not to put weight on her hand to push any of the glass pieces deeper into her skin. sheâd be more shocked hearing the curse word if she wasnât frantically looking around with oil on her face and a tiny string of blood pouring down her palm that sheâs holding out to keep him from stepping forward in the mess covering her floor with she briefly glances down at, âno, but i think you lost yours. i was just gone for a minute or two, playinâ a game of hide and seek with you and then youâve went and gotten some crazy ideas the preacherâs here.â how nuts is he? why is he ALWAYS on edge and paranoid, seems like? âbut now the preacher will lose his mind, with OIL on the rug!â heâs even crazier if he thinks he wonât notice it. no amount of cleaninâ will even bring it out, probably. sheâs quickly turning around, rushing to get a broom and a metal pan out of the hallwayâs storage closet, dropping both next to her bed once itâs brought back with her good hand then frantically running into the bathroom. taking one of the already wet wash cloths, running back in again with it and baking soda.
a smile is about to illuminate mischievous features before thereâs a yell then a CRASH, causing lucy gray to immediately let go and turn her face from glass hitting her skin as she simultaneously gasps. the oil barely misses her shirt, still getting splattered across the cheek. luckily, it doesnât go in her eyes nor is it hot. âi canât stay here, you donât know where the broom is.â sheâs immediately climbing out without thinking, hand going in a pile of glassâ quickly retracting at the immediate crunchy stings they prick at beneath her palm and flinging her hand. ow. she audibly winces, but continues to crawl out, just going the other way and being careful not to put weight on her hand to push any of the glass pieces deeper into her skin. sheâd be more shocked hearing the curse word if she wasnât frantically looking around with oil on her face and a tiny string of blood pouring down her palm that sheâs holding out to keep him from stepping forward in the mess covering her floor with she briefly glances down at, âno, but i think you lost yours. i was just gone for a minute or two, playinâ a game of hide and seek with you and then youâve went and gotten some crazy ideas the preacherâs here.â how nuts is he? why is he ALWAYS on edge and paranoid, seems like? âbut now the preacher will lose his mind, with OIL on the rug!â heâs even crazier if he thinks he wonât notice it. no amount of cleaninâ will even bring it out, probably. sheâs quickly turning around, rushing to get a broom and a metal pan out of the hallwayâs storage closet, dropping both next to her bed once itâs brought back with her good hand then frantically running into the bathroom. taking one of the already wet wash cloths, running back in again with it and baking soda.
fingers gently drumming against the hardwood flooring, dusting a piece of dirt out of the way, then eventually turning on her back to distract her idle brain to find something else to do while lucy gray waits on her victim. picking at a stray thread hanging from the mattress, hearing the occasional thudding letting her know heâs still making it on his own. then suddenly her mind snaps out of itâs daze, quickly rolling back onto her belly to plant her forearms against the floor. lowering her head to the floor to watch for his feet, ignoring her name once itâs called even if sheâs feeling a little guilty for stretching the prank this long when she knows heâs still not in the best shape. still, itâs just harmless fun⊠and nowâs her time once her eyes watch his legs appear and get closer, seeing him carefully move over to her closet, missing the part where he grabbed one of her lamps. his back is facing her way and lucy gray pulls herself forward, just enough to stick her arm out, fingers splayed as hand slowly comes closer and closer andâ GRAB. hand clutches around his sock clad ankle, giving his leg a yank.
fingers gently drumming against the hardwood flooring, dusting a piece of dirt out of the way, then eventually turning on her back to distract her idle brain to find something else to do while lucy gray waits on her victim. picking at a stray thread hanging from the mattress, hearing the occasional thudding letting her know heâs still making it on his own. then suddenly her mind snaps out of itâs daze, quickly rolling back onto her belly to plant her forearms against the floor. lowering her head to the floor to watch for his feet, ignoring her name once itâs called even if sheâs feeling a little guilty for stretching the prank this long when she knows heâs still not in the best shape. still, itâs just harmless fun⊠and nowâs her time once her eyes watch his legs appear and get closer, seeing him carefully move over to her closet, missing the part where he grabbed one of her lamps. his back is facing her way and lucy gray pulls herself forward, just enough to stick her arm out, fingers splayed as hand slowly comes closer and closer andâ GRAB. hand clutches around his sock clad ankle, giving his leg a yank.
getting comfy, the tiny brunette lays on her side atop her blankets, propped up on her arm and fist resting against her head as she listens to all that ruckus heâs makinâ in there. and listening to make sure he doesnât fall or need her help, since sheâs enjoying thoroughlyâ playing this silly prank on him but she doesnât want him to get hurt. though, closer lucy gray listens it begins to sound like heâs managing and doing just fine. her brows perk and a silly grin graces her face as he theories what she could be hiding, now that heâs finally off calling her name a handful of times. hiding her face into her pillow as she snorts at his crazy guess about being thirteen, she moves away from the pillow and gently rolls off her bed to crawl underneath. quietly moving his things under her bed to the side so she can squeeze her body under it, now just left to wait to see if heâll come in here so she can act on her next devious plan and grab for his ankle. her heart pumps with excitement and realizingâŠother than covey band nights, this feels so foreign having fun and smiling so much. itâs odd she feels scared and guilt, for enjoying a day of her life for once all because the preacher has programmed her brain in some way to feel bad, like thereâs repercussions for actually smiling and playing like a carefree kid for once.
getting comfy, the tiny brunette lays on her side atop her blankets, propped up on her arm and fist resting against her head as she listens to all that ruckus heâs makinâ in there. and listening to make sure he doesnât fall or need her help, since sheâs enjoying thoroughlyâ playing this silly prank on him but she doesnât want him to get hurt. though, closer lucy gray listens it begins to sound like heâs managing and doing just fine. her brows perk and a silly grin graces her face as he theories what she could be hiding, now that heâs finally off calling her name a handful of times. hiding her face into her pillow as she snorts at his crazy guess about being thirteen, she moves away from the pillow and gently rolls off her bed to crawl underneath. quietly moving his things under her bed to the side so she can squeeze her body under it, now just left to wait to see if heâll come in here so she can act on her next devious plan and grab for his ankle. her heart pumps with excitement and realizingâŠother than covey band nights, this feels so foreign having fun and smiling so much. itâs odd she feels scared and guilt, for enjoying a day of her life for once all because the preacher has programmed her brain in some way to feel bad, like thereâs repercussions for actually smiling and playing like a carefree kid for once.
âno, not terrible.â the brunette softly replies, genuinely feeling her skin melt that time when his hand brushes against her skin. she almost blushes and her heart palpitates too hard in a way that scares her because thatâs not supposed to happen, her dad wouldnât allow it and besidesâŠsheâs naturally scared on her own of trusting people. which is ironic he mentions the very thing sheâs thinking. âgood point. i guess now that i know you got something âbadâ about you, youâre right. i canât trust either.â she sasses, since now sheâs wondering if he could be someone who leaves their wife at home. âyou donât know a lot about me either.â lucy gray points out, meaning she could be bad too. he doesnât know what sheâs truly like and she ignores him about the gun actually being aimed at her floor. âwell,â a smile started to form on her lips, she couldnât help it, even as this little story came as a surprise. âthatâs so sweetâŠâ playing house, naming dolls, that was very endearing for someone whoâs âbadâ and leaves their wife at home. she doesnât like the way it confuses herâ one minute finding him different and kind then the next having conflicted feelings on trusting who he is. âand it does sound so similar to our covey nameâs tradition.â thatâs a pretty great name choice for a boy to choose, too. âhmm, who knows. guess you wonât be hanginâ around long enough to find out. no more rolls and pies for you.â she taunts while running off, disappearing through the threshold and going into the next room over thatâs her bedroom. covering her mouth with her palm to stifle the laughs wanting to barrel out of her at his sudden curiosity and the way he wonât stop yelling. she thinks about responding from her bedroom where she plops down on her bed at, but goes quiet in deciding sheâll prank him, leave him wondering why she went silent. even though she worries and hopes he can get out of the tub on his own.
âno, not terrible.â the brunette softly replies, genuinely feeling her skin melt that time when his hand brushes against her skin. she almost blushes and her heart palpitates too hard in a way that scares her because thatâs not supposed to happen, her dad wouldnât allow it and besidesâŠsheâs naturally scared on her own of trusting people. which is ironic he mentions the very thing sheâs thinking. âgood point. i guess now that i know you got something âbadâ about you, youâre right. i canât trust either.â she sasses, since now sheâs wondering if he could be someone who leaves their wife at home. âyou donât know a lot about me either.â lucy gray points out, meaning she could be bad too. he doesnât know what sheâs truly like and she ignores him about the gun actually being aimed at her floor. âwell,â a smile started to form on her lips, she couldnât help it, even as this little story came as a surprise. âthatâs so sweetâŠâ playing house, naming dolls, that was very endearing for someone whoâs âbadâ and leaves their wife at home. she doesnât like the way it confuses herâ one minute finding him different and kind then the next having conflicted feelings on trusting who he is. âand it does sound so similar to our covey nameâs tradition.â thatâs a pretty great name choice for a boy to choose, too. âhmm, who knows. guess you wonât be hanginâ around long enough to find out. no more rolls and pies for you.â she taunts while running off, disappearing through the threshold and going into the next room over thatâs her bedroom. covering her mouth with her palm to stifle the laughs wanting to barrel out of her at his sudden curiosity and the way he wonât stop yelling. she thinks about responding from her bedroom where she plops down on her bed at, but goes quiet in deciding sheâll prank him, leave him wondering why she went silent. even though she worries and hopes he can get out of the tub on his own.
âwell, fine. maybe youâre right about it definitely not beinâ a number if you were really thirty five. but youâre ignorinâ me when i say youâre barely not a child, cause youâre not thirty three youâre nineteen. you were just one too, two years ago. and accordinâ to me⊠you still are. but all right, i understand.â she nods even if sheâs still feigning a pout, lips sulky and frowny. âhow would i trust you teachinâ me about self defense? what if you accidentally wound me?â since she had no idea how experienced he was with a dangerous weapon like a gun. âcause you wouldnât be here with me if you did. though, i like ruby jean. thatâs right adorable.â she cutely smiles at that. âwell, i didnât have a reason to point it out even if iâve been thinkinâ it and you did point a gun at meâ so thatâs why else itâs took some time for me to warm up to you.â lucy gray claims, then goes quiet as he lets her down about anything being able to be more between them. her lips refraining from twitching into amusement, even if sheâs sweetly smiling in the inside at saying sheâs smart and beautiful. until she has to wonder if heâs saying the next thing to deter her or because thereâs some type of meaning. âwhatâs that mean? youâre sayinâ youâre as bad as billy taupe?â she questions confusingly, brows gently knitting. âyou donât have to leave, you can stay right here, livinâ under my bed forever.â the songstress jokes, shrugging and smiling like thatâs logical. âbut i knowâŠyouâre a wanderer in the wind.â lucy gray has to roll her eyes again, only because it makes her a little mad. where does he plan to go? go wandering off then get sick again and die off this time? she has to wonder why canât he just sit in one place for awhile. she sits still, letting his hand tuck dark curls behind her ear; finding it soothing before she softly starts laughing in amusement at his shamus excuse again. she figures it is time to let him get out now. âif only you knew my secret too, you know.â she looks down at him with a devious smile, amusingly smiling down at his hands tugging her shirt down for her. well, at least sheâs learned from this she now knows heâs a gentleman. then she playfully bows for being such a good participant at her show before turning and leaving the room.
âwell, fine. maybe youâre right about it definitely not beinâ a number if you were really thirty five. but youâre ignorinâ me when i say youâre barely not a child, cause youâre not thirty three youâre nineteen. you were just one too, two years ago. and accordinâ to me⊠you still are. but all right, i understand.â she nods even if sheâs still feigning a pout, lips sulky and frowny. âhow would i trust you teachinâ me about self defense? what if you accidentally wound me?â since she had no idea how experienced he was with a dangerous weapon like a gun. âcause you wouldnât be here with me if you did. though, i like ruby jean. thatâs right adorable.â she cutely smiles at that. âwell, i didnât have a reason to point it out even if iâve been thinkinâ it and you did point a gun at meâ so thatâs why else itâs took some time for me to warm up to you.â lucy gray claims, then goes quiet as he lets her down about anything being able to be more between them. her lips refraining from twitching into amusement, even if sheâs sweetly smiling in the inside at saying sheâs smart and beautiful. until she has to wonder if heâs saying the next thing to deter her or because thereâs some type of meaning. âwhatâs that mean? youâre sayinâ youâre as bad as billy taupe?â she questions confusingly, brows gently knitting. âyou donât have to leave, you can stay right here, livinâ under my bed forever.â the songstress jokes, shrugging and smiling like thatâs logical. âbut i knowâŠyouâre a wanderer in the wind.â lucy gray has to roll her eyes again, only because it makes her a little mad. where does he plan to go? go wandering off then get sick again and die off this time? she has to wonder why canât he just sit in one place for awhile. she sits still, letting his hand tuck dark curls behind her ear; finding it soothing before she softly starts laughing in amusement at his shamus excuse again. she figures it is time to let him get out now. âif only you knew my secret too, you know.â she looks down at him with a devious smile, amusingly smiling down at his hands tugging her shirt down for her. well, at least sheâs learned from this she now knows heâs a gentleman. then she playfully bows for being such a good participant at her show before turning and leaving the room.
"no, i would not. butâ i've grown up in five years. i'm two years shy of bein' eighteen, don't that make me an official woman?" big expressive browns rolled at that, wondering how over night that somehow when she turned eighteen; she was now deemed as a woman.
"maybe all that don't matter to me," she corrects, "maybe i can handle my own and won't let none of this world treat me terribly without a consequence to it." lucy gray firmly states. although, it's sweet of him to seem so protective over girls and women.. she also didn't like being categorized in the mix of them being so weak. "but you don't... you don't got an eighth wife and three kids." meaning, she wasn't considering just any 35 year old. only if he had been. "oo, four big years uh huh." she snorts, "you're just a kid. as much as me. baby face and all," small hand lifts, patting him on the cheek while he's crouched over in this corner of the tub like she stinks all the sudden. "so that's why it ain't no sinister thing." cause he's a kid, like her. "as my maw used to say.... we're both still poopin' yeller," thickening her accent just to add to the hilarity of that expression. "not just me." she reminds once again. "so now you're on your merry way, huh?" brows lift, pursing her lips and sitting back in her chair with a dramatic plop with her arms crossed once she stops smooching him and gets shoved back by his big ole palm stuffing in her face. "alright, hmph," she pouts like a baby since he wants to call her one. "now i'm your mama to your sister. world changes quick, don't it." feigning more pout, staring at the wall. "but thanks, i'm still lookin' forward to the horses." she mumbles, looking down at her feet she kicks out in front of her under her skirt. before head pops back up and lucy gray's pestering him again, "you sure i can't still come swimmin' with you? there won't be no smooching or anything, i promise." she suddenly stands up, pretending she's going ahead and grabbing the hem of her shirt without pulling it up past her belly button.
"no, i would not. butâ i've grown up in five years. i'm two years shy of bein' eighteen, don't that make me an official woman?" big expressive browns rolled at that, wondering how over night that somehow when she turned eighteen; she was now deemed as a woman.
"maybe all that don't matter to me," she corrects, "maybe i can handle my own and won't let none of this world treat me terribly without a consequence to it." lucy gray firmly states. although, it's sweet of him to seem so protective over girls and women.. she also didn't like being categorized in the mix of them being so weak. "but you don't... you don't got an eighth wife and three kids." meaning, she wasn't considering just any 35 year old. only if he had been. "oo, four big years uh huh." she snorts, "you're just a kid. as much as me. baby face and all," small hand lifts, patting him on the cheek while he's crouched over in this corner of the tub like she stinks all the sudden. "so that's why it ain't no sinister thing." cause he's a kid, like her. "as my maw used to say.... we're both still poopin' yeller," thickening her accent just to add to the hilarity of that expression. "not just me." she reminds once again. "so now you're on your merry way, huh?" brows lift, pursing her lips and sitting back in her chair with a dramatic plop with her arms crossed once she stops smooching him and gets shoved back by his big ole palm stuffing in her face. "alright, hmph," she pouts like a baby since he wants to call her one. "now i'm your mama to your sister. world changes quick, don't it." feigning more pout, staring at the wall. "but thanks, i'm still lookin' forward to the horses." she mumbles, looking down at her feet she kicks out in front of her under her skirt. before head pops back up and lucy gray's pestering him again, "you sure i can't still come swimmin' with you? there won't be no smooching or anything, i promise." she suddenly stands up, pretending she's going ahead and grabbing the hem of her shirt without pulling it up past her belly button.
"i've long graduated teddy bears. i'm a woman, i assure. i have my womanly things like... a period for five years now. and my birthday's may 24th, so i'll be sixteen real soon." nineteen. she'll actually be nineteen in a few days. "thirty five is not an old guy, a thirty five year old has no wrinkles or grey hair." giving him another roll of her eyes, "sixty year olds must be ancient, then. if thirty five is old." she laughs, leans up off the tub and plops back down in her chair next to him. "we're both teenagers and somehow you're more of an adult than me? well, that ain't fair." sighing, shaking her head in feigned disappointment. "yeah, but i'm fully conscious in sayin' it's alright with me. âyou're still learnin' and growin' too, cause they say your brain isn't developed until you're thirty so you're just a baby like me then." reaching out and poking his shoulder with an amused smile starting to grow on her lips when he scoots away, like she has the plague or something. but she won't push, she doesn't want him to absolutely freak out and he seems to be about there with how badly he's stressing. which is actually cute at how serious he's taking it. "that's definitely true. BUT i wouldn't go for an older guy who was sinister, i know who to watch out for. but you aren't this type of guy, so it's all fine by me." nevermind about pushing...she's about to reveal she's just messing with him so she has to do one last thing before she gives up the charade. she leans back over, making smoochy sounds with her lips, trying to chase for his cheek as he's leaned over against the tub.
"mmm, i don't know. maybe you did take a little bit of my shade of hair. mine's just a tinge darker." she analyzes, picking up a strand of her hair off her shoulder. "you took your skin and eyes off your daddy, though. i knew him for a night but that night felt like a lifetime. then he just up and left, gone with the wind. i know he would've stayed though if he knew what that one night brought, though. he was too kind of a feller, just a busy one." she hummed with hands on her hips, looking out towards the window where white curtains hung. like all of this was real, but she did always have a ginormous imagination. she felt a handâ wet and leaving a soaky imprint on her skin but warm chocolate hues fell onto his visage and then melted like cocoa at his touch and his words. "well, now i have to forgive you so easily." she amusingly smiled at the hilarious way of being called ma in a simultaneously sincere moment. but then that hand fell quicker than it had came and lucy gray's dark brows lifted, doe eyes blooming alert before skillfully hiding the amusement that lurked behind them at this sudden change of demeanor from him. well now, he passed one of her tests; now she knew he wasn't weird. all while amusing her greatly on the inside at his noble reaction. "well... i..." she feigned a way of sounding like she was 'tripping up' on her words. on the inside, she wasn't stumbling a bit. "thirty five don't sound all that bad. that's not like'a old man or anything, come on. thirty five ain't sixty... so course i am." her voice pepped, nodding once. "nineteen?" brows lifted again at his real age, deciding she'll smile real big, "well, see. now that helps everything and makes it all dandy. that's just five years. what's wrong with that, honey peach. and november's far off anyway." she gave him a dismissive hand, eyes rolling at him like he's crazy and doing all this worrying for nothing. "shamus is all fed for right now," stepping back forward, she purposely patted his shoulder. "cause there's nothin' wrong about me bein' five years under you." elbows plopped on the edge of the tub, holding her chin in her hands as lucy gray looked closely at him, "that's why i didn't think to tell you." saying affectionately, reaching out a hand to gently turn his face her way. "i promise, darlin'. in fact, an older man is a wiser man. which is real attractive to me." she puts on this act, like now that she's discovered he's a bit older... she's head over heels in love. thinking she just needs to freak him out for her own entertainment. maybe a little payback too for pointing that gun at her and saying she's forty-fifty something. "see, that explains why you're so much more mature actin' than those boys at church. they're little boys and you're a man." the love in her honey eyes just continued to grow.
the cowboy doesnât even try to hold his laughter inside, erupting into airy giggles almost as soon as the words are out of her mouth. âyeah, itâs plain to see i take after you with my olive skin and brown eyes and height, but what about my hair? do i have my paâs hair? who even is my pa?â he jokingly inquires, tapping the side of his chin in wonderment, eager to see what she comes up with. âhey, donât be sad, ma. it was only a silly jest.â he knows the look on her face, much like the one on his own, is only an act, and still his heart breaks. he cups her cheek with his wet palm, stroking her soft skin affectionately with the pad of his thumb to soothe the sting of his words, worrying he might have gone too far. that is, until he hears her next words, which have his hand falling back into the tub as though her skin was afire. âfifteen?!â he repeats, dumbfounded. he falls for her act, her explanation about having to grow up faster making perfect sense, suddenly feeling sick to his stomach for flirting with her without a care in the world. he was convinced she was no child, but clearly â he was wrong. âi apologize, lucy gray. you obviously donât look fifty-three, but i did assume you were a couple years older than you actually are.â does he regret wishing she werenât such a mystery? yes, now that his insides are churning, yes. âthirty five? you think iâm thirty five and here you are, scrubbing my back andâŠâ he trails off, trying to keep the tremors in his voice under control. has she been flirting with him as well? heâs almost certain that yes, she has. eyes open wide as he shakes his head, cheeks flushed with embarrassment because this is something jesseâs strange friends would do, not billy. âiâm nineteen, twenty this november,â he admits truthfully, staring at her in utter disbelief. a child, lord almighty, sheâs a child. the thought makes his nauseous, butterflies evaporating from his belly.
âno,â heâs quick to protest, hearing her wonder aloud whether heâd like her to go skinny dipping with him. he cuts the flirting all at once, bashful eyes leaving her face, shamed. he should have known she was just a child still, the teddy bears heâd glimpsed in her room, the bubbly personality befitting a young teenage girl. he wants to kick himself for failing to put two and two together. âwhat time do you serve dinner to your goat? she already ate?â heâs so embarrassed, his brain fixated on how heâs just fallen in love with a child, disgusted beyond belief with himself, that he wishes she could just give him a moment to recover by himself. he doesnât know how heâll look her in the eyes again, but he does know this playful bickering has to end. fifteen might be a woman grown to most men, jesse and his friends surely wouldnât mind, but heâd rather bite off and swallow his own tongue than agree with them. âlucy gray, why didnât you tell me sooner? that you were fifteen? you should have. i wouldnât have acted like an idiot around you. iâm sorry.â