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Something creative

This project has brought me to a point where I don’t quite know where to go. For the last several weeks I have been questioning myself and my motives. 

Why am I doing this project? Why am I creating anything? Why am I making it public? Why does anyone make their work public? Is it hubris? Why do people feel the need to share their work? 

Up until now, my “work” has been seen by only the people who come over to my house and my “work” happens to be up. I say “work” because, can I really call it work? If it’s work, does that make me an artist? Am I an artist? What defines being an artist? Who first calls someone an artist? Is it like an art piece, it’s art if someone calls it art? I’ve unintentionally learned about a few well known artists. Dali, it turns out, was an egotistical asshole. That’s why his art got so public. Van Gogh on the other hand, was only famous after his death, and strictly because of his sister-in-law promoted his work, wanting the world to know of his genius. 

Why does anyone create anything? Do all of my pieces have to have deep, personal meaning to me, like my 15th piece? Why was I okay with painting a hippo? That didn’t have deep personal meaning for me. My lady friend says that everything that’s created has meaning, whether you realize it or not. 

Art pieces have a different meaning for the viewer than it does for the artist. Even if the artist has a distinct meaning, everyone who views it has a different perspective on it. So then I ask, why even bother trying for meaning? Why not just paint meaningless things (lady friend: everything has meaning!)? 

I’ve still been creating, but I’ve been questioning everything, which is why you haven’t seen any new pieces yet. Why did I make this public? Part of me regrets it. But I know that is my anti-social/social anxiety/private part of me speaking. I am forcing myself to be more public. (I.e., this post)

Being more public comes with a dose of hubris. I feel like I used to have back in the day....where did that go? Confidence has been shot. I’m aware. It’s been slowly eroding for the last two years now. 

None of this helped. Why am I doing this? Why am I creating art? Why don’t I work with one specific medium? Does anybody? Why does anyone make anything public? Why do people feel the need to share their work? Why did I share this? 

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Survivors guilt. You wish she was still alive, so you could do what, exactly? (15/365) #theresbloodonyourhands #guilty #art #365project Project today was to make something with paper, without using scissors, using tape or glue, or scissors. Used the #ashes of the paper to make this.

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#not365project #art #outsidethelinescoloringbook

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#not365project #outsidethelinescoloringbook #art

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#art #arteverywhere #not365project #outsidethelinescoloringbook

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#not365project #art #outsidethelinescoloringbook #outsidethelines

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#art #not365project #outsidethelinescoloringbook

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#art #not365project #outsidethelinescoloringbook

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#art #not365project #outsidethelinescoloringbook

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#art #not365project #outsidethelinescoloringbook

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#not365project #outsidethelinescoloringbook #outsidethelines

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#outsidethelines #outsidethelinescoloringbook #not365project

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#not365project #outsidethelines

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Although I don't art every day, I do colour most days. Like an adult.

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First I made a toucan't, then I made a toucan (14/365) #art #365project

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Garbage art #not365project #shitinacup #arteverywhere #evenintimmys