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just playing around with a couple grace transitions

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Jägerman? Never mind the dog.

Beware of the owner

close ups on quarterback and cool gal

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The reading comprehension and overall common sense on this website is piss poor.

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hehrhegheehe original (dont know who made it):

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hey

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I’ve been having so many thoughts about Paulkins recently mainly because I’ve been trying to figure out why I’m so obsessed with them as I am.

The post here that described them as “a spark that never becomes a flame” I think encapsulates that perfectly but I also want to go a step further.

When I was waiting to hear back if my pitch to direct TGWDLM at my school got approved (it didn’t rip, but I’ll help out with the show one way or another) I was thinking about the ways I wanted to portray Paulkins because of how much I literally love them. And I do think there are some valid points in the way that Paul does seem to like Emma more than she likes him and how to make their relationship feel more balanced. Although I do love Paulkins, I am not a big fan of the idea of romantic love being the supreme of all loves, especially as someone who has never been in love at my age. I think it’s really easy, especially with a script like TGWDLM, to end up portraying romantic love as the end all of love. I wanted to find the little ways to establish that love is just love.

In thinking about this, Cool as I Think I Am (Reprise) came into my mind. NPMD… fantastic. Amazing. But the way I always interpreted this song was that both Steph and Pete know they don’t necessarily love each other yet but rather that they know that one day they will. If they get the chance to live a little more and live together, then they know their fates are sealed and they WILL end up being in love. And I realized that to me, that’s what Paul and Emma are every time.

I don’t think they fall in love with each other over the course of TGWDLM. Paul confirms this when he tells Gen.Mac “I’d like there to be. I want there to be” in regards to his relationship with Emma (which dare I say is the most important line in the show because it’s the first time Paul explicitly says what he wants). But I think, like Pete and Steph, they realize very early on that this is the person they WILL fall in love with… only if they get enough time.

They find each other every time, but they never get enough time.

This then raises another question- What if it was enough time? What if just the chance of getting to meet one another, to get to know one another, is enough. What if just getting to know each other, even for a short time, is enough time compared to never knowing each other at all. With the addition of Emdroid and Paul 23, it’s a double edged sword. Because on one hand, yes, even an Android and clone version of Paul and Emma will fall for each other, that’s how inevitable they are. But on the other hand, the real Paul and Emma never even got to meet each other. The Paulkins happy ending that exists doesn’t belong to them, because Paul Matthews and Emma Perkins will never have enough time.

This tragic aspect of them, the idea of them NOT being in love but very much so aware that they should/could be, I think is what makes them so engaging for me. I think too, this interpretation or line of thinking for me separates them from being a strictly romantic love. Because it’s not love. Not yet. It’s just a connection between two people at the time when they need it most. One of you is living your personal hell of being in a musical, one of you is having an existential crisis after the death of your sister.

Also, Hadestown is a huge inspiration on my art (Rachel Chavkin is a big idol of mine) and an indicator of my theatre tastes, so I definitely would say the idea of Paulkins existing in the same realm as Orpheus and Eurydice definitely gets me.

I also do want to say some very good advice I’ve gotten recently, especially about directing, is that you can’t control how your audience interprets what happens. Two people can be watching a play and an actor lifts a coffee cup by the lid, and these two people can have a totally different reaction. One person won’t think anything of it, while another, who has seen someone spill coffee from this motion, will immediately begin anticipating a spill. My perception specifically on love comes from my experience as someone who doesn’t really seek out romantic love but living in a society that holds it to a certain pedestal. Specifically, often times I feel like my peers believe I lack a certain sense of maturity because of this inexperience in both love and sex. At the same time too, as a director, I can’t control how you will interpret it, but I can do my best to curate it to my vision and goal. Little disclaimer at the end, I’m not discounting romantic love but I think it exists in a weird place in the art and media we consume.

Also it’s like past 3 am in the morning as I did this but I have no one else to talk to about Starkid or TGWDLM or Paulkins about.

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yuh

this is the first time ive ever tried perspective i think i did a pretty good job

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BLURR IS ALWAYS ON SMTH

Insp

Human formers, Blurr, bumble bee brothers (B (on the game) and Bumble (cooking)), Ultra Mags,

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Hear Me and I Will Follow - TGWDLM Who will you be when you let it out?

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Watching a production of The Trail To Oregon where instead of the father saying “I wrote the show” he says “Jeff Blim wrote the show” and then someone walks across the stage with this sign

Couldn’t get a good picture but it’s a Jeff Blim collage lmao

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what a beautiful family

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Didn’t like, didn’t like, didn’t like-a-like ‘em!

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These nerdy prudes gotta die

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guys i fucking love starkid

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i enjoy the looseness that comes with greyscale painting. this one's quite old -- it was used for the background for my from the inside out (and drink the rest) by mthe_landlocked_martian fancomic. tapped into that feeling again for my recent idw megop piece. may exiperiment with this more in the future.

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Can’t believe I forgor 💀 to post this

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