"You Should Probably Leave" | Joel x Reader oneshot
Part 1 of Play it Again, a new series where each story is a oneshot, but all are shaped around country songs.
Song: You Should Probably Leave â Chris Stapleton
Summary: He works long days. You help out with Sarah, make her dinner, put her to bed when he has to stay late. And then when he gets home you help him out, too, even though you both know you should probably leave.
Tags/Warnings: MDNI, 18+, smut, porn without plot, prose but kind of poetry/lyrical, sexual tension, PIV, oral (m! receiving), sub!Joel, you're Sarah's babysitter, AU! No outbreak, set in the 90s.
Word Count: 1.4k
A/N: I've taken the lyrics and worked them into the story, so I'd really recommend listening as you read. I've been thinking about writing this series for sooo long because country songs + Joel is a match made in heaven. If you've got any song recommendations, let me know!
Itâs like a dance, a well-worn routine that you both know, practised and perfected after months of repetitions. You both know where it leads but youâll still follow all the steps. Thatâs how it is.
You put Sarah to bed ages ago, spent the last few hours of babysitting on the sofa finishing up some college work, waiting for Joel to get back. His key in the door is a familiar click, the latch sticking the way it always does, his shoulder forcing it open.
You stay where you are. When he comes into the lounge his toolbelt is still strapped around his waist, the remnants of a long dayâs work painted across his handsome face and strewn in dust thatâs collected on the knees of his well-worn jeans and callused hands.
He pauses in the entrance, arm stretched up above him to rest on the mantle of the door, t-shirt pulling up to reveal a strip of tanned skin above his belt. Thereâs a glass of wine half-drunk on the coffee table beside you and your feet are tucked up under you.
Neither of you speak for several long moments. You just watch each other, the tension too delicious to break.
âYou should probably leave,â He says, but you make no effort to move and he stays where he is, too, dark eyes watching you.
His expression is open, taunting, and you already know whatâs going to happen. You untuck your feet and shift them onto the worn carpet, standing to step towards him. His form takes up most of the doorway, his shoulders so broad that they almost touch both sides of the frame.
When you reach it heâs looming over you, blocking the exit off from you if you wanted to leave, but you donât. You turn into him, press your nose to the slice of skin between his shoulder and neck and inhale deeply, smell the work of his day on him: the musk of sweat, the tang of iron and sharpness of wood shavings.
âI suppose it ainât all that late,â he says, voice rumbling through his chest, âstill time for you to finish your wine.â
You wonât finish the wine, but itâs all part of the well-worn routine the two of you have. He works long days. You help out with Sarah, make her dinner, put her to bed when he has to stay late.
And then when he gets home you help him out, too. Let him relieve some of the tension that he carries in his shoulders, on his thick-set jaw. You press the first kiss here, letting the rough caress of his stubble eat into your own cheek. When you let your hands course through his hair, scratching your nails into his scalp, he leans into it, eyebrows pitching up, something like a whimper falling from his lips.
Thereâs a devil on your shoulders, and its urging you each towards the same predetermined end.
âWe shouldnât.â He says, but he doesnât move away.
âJust one kiss?â You ask, feeling him relax into your touch, the bulk of him slipping down the doorframe, bringing his mouth within reach of yours.
âAlright,â He rasps back, his voice pitching with need, and you claim the last syllable with your mouth, press your lips against his, pull a moan from somewhere deep in his chest.
âSay you want me to stay,â You tell him, and he does, whispers it into your mouth, chases your tongue with his.
When he looks at you his gaze so intense itâs almost intimidating, and you recognise the look in his eyes, the need thatâs behind the blown-out pupils and hazy expression.
The slow retreat to his bedroom is well-practised, the carpet belying a well-trodden route you both know. He lets you walk him backwards up the stairs, sighs when you push him against the closed door to fit your mouths together again.
Inside, his bed is unmade and you press him into it, pin his hands above his head and lick a thick strip up his neck, following the tendons to the underside of his jaw.
His moans are the chorus of this well-rehearsed dance. They spur you on as you undress him, revealing the strong lines of his chest, the thick trunks of his thighs, the impressive bulge of his cock in his briefs, already half-hard.
He twitches in your hand when you draw him out and you shift down the bed to take him into your mouth, the head of him heavy and salty on your tongue. His cock swells, the vein that spans the underside pulsing against your palm.
Itâs intoxicating and dizzying and familiar, the recognisable ache in your jaw as you take him into the back of your throat, fist gripping the part of him that wonât fit.
âSo good to me, darlinââ He groans, running shaking fingers through your hair, trying to sit up against the headboard.
âRelax,â you tell him, pushing him back down to lie against the rumpled duvet, âI know what you need.â
You know him and he knows you, and you both know how this goes. You pull back, work your dress up over your head and pull down your panties, which are ruined with your slick, so damp they catch on your thighs as you peel them off. Joelâs eyes widen as he watches; he can never believe you want this â want him â as much as you do.
When you sink down on his length â the fat head of his cock catching at your entrance, making the stretch delicious and white-hot â he squeezes his eyes shut tight.
You run a finger along his eyebrows, coax him to open them and he does, a muscle in his jaw fluttering as you rise up and drag your cunt back down onto him again.
âI wanna do the right thing, baby,â he tells you, as though this â the pinching heat of him between your thighs, the tremble of his hands as he clutches at the flesh of your ass â isnât the greatest thing thatâs ever happened to either of you.
But you know he hates himself for it, hates that heâs a good decade older than you, that youâre Sarahâs babysitter, that this â this twisted arrangement you have where you stay when he gets back and then end up in his bed â is the only thing that gets him through those long works days sometimes.
âI know,â you say, âbut itâs getting kind of hard to resist, isnât it?â
âYou should leave,â he says, thrusting up into you, âwe should â Jesus, baby, just like that â we should stop.â
You arch up off the bed, tilting your hips so that he can drive his cock deeper, bottoming out and groaning brokenly into your ear. Itâs filthy. Depraved, probably: The slap of his hips as he cants them up into yours, the breathy moans that tumble from your mouth, Joelâs desperate, needy curses.
Itâs easy to make him come like this: Three steady, deliberate rolls of your hips and heâs a quivering mess beneath you, his hands fisting in the sheets as he spurts hot and wet inside you.
After, you tell him you should probably leave. He makes you come with his fingers first, tells you to finish your wine, that it still ainât that late.
And when the sunâs on your skin at 6am, heâs there watching you sleep, hoping youâll say youâll stay, even though you should probably leave.
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[SUMMARY: Joel deals with upsetting his overly sensitive eight month pregnant wife.]
Fluff
âBaby girl, open the doorâ you could hear the defeat in his voice but you didnât respond. Joel knew he fucked up and he knew he had to fix it fast.
It was 3:30 in the afternoon, Joel shouldâve been here by now. Here you sat in the waiting room looking at the clock every other minute, even waiting for a ring from your cell. It was your eight month sonogram appointment. Yes, Joel had been present for each and every sonogram but this was your last one and you wanted him there. Maybe it was your hormones but you could feel the heat in your cheeks as each minute went by and not even a call from Joel. This wasnât like him yet it still set you off. When the doctor finally called you, you could feel tears forming in your eyes knowing Joel wouldnât make it in time.
âMaybe he got caught up today, sometimes our job can get hectic, Iâm sure he ainât mean to miss itâ Tommy spoke as he drove you home. He was nice enough to pick you up when you called him in tears that Joel wasnât there. Sarah sat silently in the back, she knew how much this meant to you, she also knew her father didnât do this selfishly.
Not saying a word you walked straight to the room closing the door shut. Tommy and Sarah giving you your space as you waited for Joel to show up.
A half hour later Joel rushed in through the front door throwing his bag aside.
âWhere is she?â He looked around as Sarah pointed at the bedroom. Tommy and her both raising their brows not knowing what to expect.
You heard the front the door close, you knew Joel mustâve been home. The second the handle of your door turned you pushed yourself up as fast you could and rushed to the bathroom. Joel walked in, attempting to stop you from closing the door, reaching you a second too late, you slammed it in his face without saying a word. Locking the door shut you turned your back to it.
âBaby girl, open the doorâ you could hear the defeat in his voice but you didnât respond. Joel knew he fucked up and he knew he had to fix it fast.
âI tried to get out of work as fast as I could, honey, I swear. These assholes delayed me then my phone was dead. I was in the other side of town, I came out rushing as fast I couldâ he explained.
Still no response.
Upsetting a pregnant woman was the last thing Joel wanted to do, upsetting his pregnant woman was something he could not ever have. You were under a lot of stress, anxious about giving birth, your sensitivity at an all time high Joel did his best to keep you calm but clearly failed at it today.
âHoney, pleaseâŚya know it ainât good for you and the baby to get upset like this,â you rolled your eyes wiping away a tear.
âFuckâ Joel mouthed silently rubbing his forehead. He knew how important this was for you, he knew how much you wanted him there.
âOpen the door, babyâ Desperation in his voice when you suddenly opened up. His dark brown eyes widening with guilt noticing how puffy your eyes were, knowing you had been crying.
âAw Jesus, babyâ he whispered.
âYou know today was the last sonogram-â
âI knowâ he whispered with sincere understanding eyes. His voice was gentle as he took a small step forward.
âI wanted you there, I..I wanted you to see him-â
âI know, babyâ
âDid today even matter to you?!â You yelled as you felt yourself about to cry all over again and he could see it.
God damn those hormones.
âOf course it didâ he took a step closer to you.
âHow could you even ask such a thing?â You began to sob covering your eyes, his voice coming out more aggressive than he meant to.
âShit, baby Iâm sorryâ he took another step closer slowly pulling you towards him. You took a deep breath wiping your tears.
âIâŚI donât even know why Iâm so upsetâ you looked down feeling a bit embarrassed. A soft chuckle escaping his lips as he held you, gently he kissed your forehead.
âThat baby boy of ours is doing a number on you, honeyâ Joel whispered as a million things ran through your head.
âWhat ifâŚwhat if you donât make it on time to his birth? I canât do this alone, Joel-â you began to panic.
âWhat if-â
âLook at meâ he gently tilted your face up at him.
âAinât no one or anything stopping me from seeing my son be born, ya hear me?â
You nodded in silence as you looked away.
âIt was such a frustrating day, not to mention that damn man at the pharmacy got my vitamins wrong againâ you walked around him towards the bedroom.
âNot again, ya need me to go over there and say somethinâ to him?â You could hear the playfulness in his voice.
âJoelâ you turned to him rolling your eyes placing your hands on your lower back for support. He attempted to hold back a smile, the sight of you eight months pregnant with an attitude was something else.
âAre you laughing at me?â You asked as he quickly turned serious and shook his head.
âNo mamâ he took a step towards you as you tilted your head looking up at him.
Joel was forever teasing you.
âYa know, after how upset you had me today, I highly suggest-â Joel reached in his jacket unexpectedly pulling out your favorite pack of chocolate cookies you hadnât found anywhere near by in weeks. You gasped with excitement making a big grin appear on his face.
âWhere did you find them?!â You grabbed the pack out of his hand excitedly ripping the wrapper apart. Joel watched as you eagerly took a bite, closing your eyes, sighing with pleasure. It had been weeks that you were craving them, Joel had gone around every neighborhood searching for them, it was the only good thing that came out of working on the other side of town.
âOhâŚJoel youâre the bestâ you continued to devour the cookies making him laugh.
âOh Iâm off the hook now huh?â
âMmmmhmâ you rolled your eyes back enjoying the taste.
âAnything for you mamaâ he whispered leaning in with a kiss as you sat back on the bed enjoying your snack.
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Hyacinth - Joel Miller x Reader
Hyacinth (Hyacinthus) - Meaning: Please forgive me
Summary: After hitting your car, Joel Miller takes you out on a date to apologize.
Pairing: Joel Miller x Reader
Word Count: 1921
Warnings: Fluff!, slight language, reader wears makeup and a sundress but is otherwise a blank slate, Pre/no outbreak AU, no Ellie, reader was left at the altar, dinner date conversation, making out, nicknames 'sugar' and 'darlin', Joel Miller is a warning in and of himself
I'm really happy with how this turned out! Just a fluffy first date with Joel Miller. Enjoy!
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Likes, Comments, Reblogs are ALWAYS appreciated! â¤ď¸
âAm I crazy?â you asked your best friend, Maria, while applying your mascara.Â
âFor what? Going on a date with the guy who smashed up your car?â Maria asked dryly, shrugging her shoulders while she watched you get ready. âNah, Iâve done crazier shit.âÂ
âWhat if I remember him much more handsome than he is? Like the adrenaline made me think he was super hot?â you asked.Â
âYou can always invoke the code phrase and Iâll call you from âthe hospital.ââ Maria offered, putting âthe hospitalâ in air quotes. You smiled over at her and reached for her hand, giving it a squeeze. She smiled back at you. âThough I hope heâs not a dud. Itâs about damn time you got back out there.âÂ
âYouâre telling me,â you muttered, touching up your lipstick. You hadnât had anything more than a hook-up since you were left at the altar two years ago, throwing yourself into work and fixing up the house you bought with your ex.Â
With a final look in the mirror, you fluffed your hair and gave yourself a look of approval, then turned to Maria for final approval.Â
âYou look hot, babe. This guy isnât gonna know what hit him.âÂ
You laughed, âGood, cuz heâs the one who hit me. Well, my car, but you know.âÂ
Three days ago in the grocery store parking lot, youâd been pulling into a spot when a scruffy-looking man hopped into the truck in the spot across from you, started it up, and pulled forward without looking. The front of your little sedan stood no chance against the grill of his behemoth contractorâs truck.Â
Heâd been incredibly embarrassed and apologetic, offering his insurance info and to pay for the damages himself. Amidst all this, you couldnât help but notice how handsome he was. Brown curls with a striking hint of gray at the temples, broad, square jaw, and his eyes. Oh, you couldnât get enough of his eyes and their dark brownness that threatened to swallow you whole. He mustâve noticed you staring because shortly after the tow truck arrived, he asked you on a date.Â
âI know this ainât the best time and, yâknow if youâve got a boyfriend or somethinâ feel free to tell me to shut up, but uh, I was wonderinâ if youâd let me buy ya dinner Friday night? As an apology.â A light blush had risen in his cheeks and he shuffled his feet like he was nervous, so you agreed to it. The smile on his face couldâve lit up the whole city. âGreat, Iâll drive.âÂ
Youâd both laughed at his joke.Â
The doorbell you installed yourself rang, pulling you back to the present. Maria went downstairs and opened the door. You turned back to the mirror for one last once-over before Maria called your name. You descended into the foyer of your house and couldnât help the smile that rose on your face.Â
Joel Miller framed in your front doorway, wearing a dark green button-down and dark wash jeans would forever be seared into your memory. He looked, in a word, delectable. When he saw you, he smiled.Â
âHey,â he said. âReady to go?âÂ
âYep,â you said, but Maria cleared her throat from where she held the door open. âOh! Joel, this is my friend Maria. Maria, this is Joel.âÂ
They muttered hellos and you grabbed your purse, muttering to Maria that no hospital visit was necessary. She smirked her knowing smirk and nodded, bidding you good night.Â
Joel brought you to a nice Italian place, behaving like the perfect Southern Gentleman the whole time. Heâd opened doors for you, pulled out your chair, and kept his hands to himself other than a hand at the small of your back to guide you to the table. Youâd thought manners like this had gone the way of 8-track players and rotary phones, but you were utterly charmed by him.
While you looked over the menu, you couldnât help but steal glances at him in the candlelight. You didnât know heâd been doing the same since he picked you up until he cleared his throat.Â
âUh, you look really beautiful tonight,â he said. You could tell he was nervous â dark brown eyes darting all over, fingers tapping on the table.
You smiled warmly at him to try and ease his nerves, âYou look really nice, too, Joel. Iâve been looking forward to this since you hit my car.âÂ
Your assurance seemed to calm him and he chuckled, âMe too, actually. Best accident Iâve ever been in. Well, second best.âÂ
âWhatâs the first?â you asked, curious.Â
A pink hue tinged his cheeks and he looked down at the table. âMy daughter. She wasnât planned, but sheâs the best thing thatâs ever happened to me.âÂ
âYou have a daughter?âÂ
âYeah, is that,â he cleared his throat again, âis that an issue?â
âGod, no!â you insisted, âSo youâre divorced? I hope?â you joked.Â
âUhh, her mom split before we got married. Havenât heard from her since.â He muttered, shifting uncomfortably in his seat as the server came over and took your orders.Â
When the server left, Joel wouldnât meet your gaze. Before you got the chance to ask about his daughter he leaned forward a bit and made eye contact. âIâm sorry, I donât do this often. I think the last date I went on was when Sarah was in preschool so itâs been a while.âÂ
Because you had a faulty filter, or because you wanted him to know you knew how awkward dating was you blurted, âI was left at the altar two years ago. So I havenât dated much either.âÂ
âReally?â His eyebrows shot up to his hairline.Â
âYeah. Weâd been together for six years, I followed him out here for his job, and then on the big day â poof! He disappeared. Two days later, he called from Florida and said heâd gotten a job offer he couldnât refuse but he didnât want to uproot the life I had built here,â you scoffed at the bitterness of your memory, washing it down with a sip of wine.
In the dimness of the restaurant his features softened, but you didnât see pity in his eyes. Only understanding.Â
And damn if it wasnât exactly what you needed.Â
Joel, you were coming to realize, was exactly what you needed.Â
âWell heâs a goddamn moron,â Joel said. âOnly spent a few hours with ya and I can tell.âÂ
Your heart fluttered when his big hand landed on top of yours on the table. The weight of his hand on top of yours felt incredibly intimate, but you couldnât find it in yourself to mind. In fact, you really liked it. Â
âHow old is Sarah now?â you asked, not moving your hand. Â
âAlmost fourteen.âÂ
You couldnât help your reaction â your eyebrows shot up and you tried the mental math. Joel wasnât that much older than you, maybe mid-thirties, late thirties max, so if his daughter was a teenager he had her in his early twenties.Â
âThat mustâve been hard,â you said, turning your hand over under his so you were palm-to-palm and squeezing his hand gently, âRaising her on your own.âÂ
Joel nodded and squeezed back, âYeah, but my brother helps out and working for myself helps too.âÂ
âWhat do you do?â
âIâm a contractor.âÂ
You lit up at that, mentioning all the little house projects youâd attempted and the two of you chatted about how much subway tiling a bathroom sucks until your entrees arrived.Â
You kept talking as you ate, finding more and more topics as the night wore on. Joel agreed to split a tiramisu even though he âdidnât much like sweets,â which you giggled at.Â
âMe neither, but tiramisu is the exception.âÂ
You let him have the first bite, and he nodded in pleasure. âYeah, thatâs pretty damn good.â
Once the tiramisu was gone and the server dropped the check, you did the check dance, but he insisted that tonight was about him making amends so he should pay. You conceded, but only after insisting that next time was on you.Â
Heâd raised an eyebrow at you, dark eyes getting somehow darker, âThereâs gonna be a next time?âÂ
Returning his smile, you nodded, âIf youâd like to. I know I would.âÂ
Joel finished signing the receipts and stood up, extending a large hand down for you to take. He lifted you up and your body filled with heat at his gaze. Even though youâd just eaten, he looked hungry.Â
âMe too, sugar,â he said lowly, lacing his fingers between yours and leading you out to his truck. Again, he opened the door for you like a gentleman and you could feel his eyes on you as you climbed in. You watched him round the front of the truck and get into the driverâs seat, eyes fixed on his hands as he turned the key and made a show of double-checking before he backed out of the parking spot which made you laugh.Â
You couldnât help your eyes landing on him every few minutes as he drove you home, talking incessantly about his daughter. It was incredibly endearing how enamored he was with his kid, how much he admired her accomplishments and how he wished he could spend more time with her without work getting in the way. You could tell this was a man who loved deeply, was loyal to the core, and would carve his own heart out of his chest to make those he loved happy.Â
You were half in love with him already, but you shoved that thought away because it was way too soon.
Joel turned down your street and pulled into your driveway, hopping out and opening your door yet again. He helped you down and you kept hold of his hand.Â
âWalk you to your door?â he asked, voice husky and eyes dark. You nodded and he led you by the hand onto your porch. It was like something out of a movie. The warm night breeze wafted his spicy cologne toward you, making you lean in closer. His eyes bounced from your eyes to your lips, his own lips parted. From this close you admired each of the gray hairs blooming along his temple and in his short beard.Â
âCan I kiss you, darlinâ?â he asked, accent thicker than it had been.Â
âYes please,â you breathed, and he leaned down, pressing his lips to yours. The kiss was warm, soft yet firm, like the first bite into a perfectly ripe peach. He tasted like tiramisu and your hands wandered up to his chest. Underneath his shirt, you could feel his pulse quickening along with your own as his hands came to rest at your hips.Â
You wanted more, wanted to deepen the kiss and pull his firm, broad body flush against your own âÂ
But then your front door opened, revealing Maria.Â
âOh! Sorry, thought I heardâŚâ
You and Joel broke apart at your best friendâs interruption. Joel looked sheepish, burying his hands in his pockets.Â
âGive us a sec,â you said to Maria, who shut the door. Years of friendship told you she was eavesdropping on the other side of the door, so you kept it brief.Â
âI had a really, really great time tonight, Joel,â you said.Â
He smiled down at you, brushing some hair behind your ear. âMe too. You busy tomorrow night?â
You shook your head, âFree as a bird.âÂ
âGood. Pick you up at seven?âÂ
âItâs a date.âÂ
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Do you think you could write a nervous Joel fic... like he's older and a single dad and hasn't dated in a REALLY REALLY long time...but he's still really sweet, maybe he has to stop and eat reader cos he's about to cum too soon or something đ¤ˇââď¸đ
Hey, babe!! So I hope this is what you were hoping for! It's super tender and I did end up listening to Hozier for a good portion of it, so do with that information what you will đ
Also, I kind of did something a bit different and wrote it more from Joel's perspective, but it's still in 2nd person (pronouns = you)! Pls lmk how you feel about it â¤
Pairing: Older Joel Miller x afab!reader
Tags/warnings: Age gap (not specified), piv sex, oral sex (f), vaginal fingering, multiple orgasms, established relationship, (almost) premature ejaculation, accidental love confessions đ¤, self deprecating Joelâ˘, big dick Joelâ˘, kissing, stuff I'm probably forgetting
W/C: 1.9k
Summary: Your and Joel's first time together turns into so much more.
What Matters
âAre you sure, baby?âÂ
Joel watches as your eyes flick up to him, only kindness and patience in them. Even as you smile warmly and wrap your arms around his neck to pull him to you, he still has a sense of cautiousness in his movements. Youâve probably lost track of how many times heâs asked you if youâre sure.Â
âYes, Joel, Iâm sure,â you laugh breathily.Â
Youâre both lying in his bed, half-naked. Thereâs a soft summer breeze coming in through the window and rustling the sheer curtains. The sunâs going down, but just barely, causing a perfect golden hue to coat the room. He canât help but think that you look even more gorgeous than usual in this lighting.
Joel tries to ignore the nervousness in his stomach as he softly kisses your jaw and nuzzles up to you. Heâs not stupid, he knows that you know heâs just trying to waste time, but you let him. Youâre so fucking sweet like that. Always making him feel so wanted and appreciated. Itâs not that he doesnât want to be with you in this way, but that heâs worried he wonât be perfect for you. He wants to be able to show you affection in the same way that you show him.Â
But what if he canât?
Youâre younger, after all, and heâs not been with a woman in so long. Maybe not since Sarahâs mom. If thatâs the case, itâs been about fifteen, sixteen years. Point in case, youâre probably used to boys who can last longer and can make you come every time. What if he canât? What if itâs been so long now, that he only lasts a couple of minutes?Â
It terrifies him, the prospect that you may be disappointed in his performance. What if you decide to leave him because heâs not enough to get you off? No, he realizes, you would never do that. Youâre so good, so thoughtful and generous and patient. Youâd wait for him, help him get back to the point where he used to be.Â
But thatâs not what he wants. He wants to be good for you now.Â
âJoel?âÂ
His name falling from your lips has his head raising back up. You look into his eyes with a desperation that he simply canât ignore.Â
âPlease,â you whisper before planting a feather-light kiss to his lips. He nods slowly before he can think about it.Â
âAlright, sweetheart. Iâve got you.âÂ
And he does, he knows it. He just hopes he can do it right.Â
Youâre already prepped. He spent probably half an hour fingering you to orgasm even though you had begged for the real thing each time you fell apart on his hand. Itâs another thing he was worried aboutâbeing so big. Joelâs not a super cocky man by any means, but he is aware of hisâŚattributes.Â
He watches you carefully as he grasps his cock and guides it to your slippery entrance. Your eyes flutter shut as he pushes in, giving you about an inch each time he thrusts. His jaw goes slack once heâs about halfway in. Youâre so fucking warm and wet and inviting. He keeps going, trying to keep his breathy whines at bay. Heâs again reminded of just how long itâs been since heâs felt something other than the palm of his hand around himself.Â
âShit, baby,â he breathes as he bottoms out. He closes his eyes in concentration and lets his head hang next to yours. He already feels like he might blow his load at any second. You bring a hand up to cup his head and thread his curls through your fingers, holding him close. His breathing is heavy when he lifts himself back up to look into your eyes.Â
His heart seems to skip a beat when he sees the adoration youâre looking at him with. It kills him every time. And no matter how many times you tell him that he deserves all your affection, he knows heâll still find a lingering doubt in the back of his mind. Thereâs a reason the two of you have only been âtogetherâ for about four months even though youâve been shamelessly flirting for about a year.Â
It was just too good to be true. For such a sweet, gentle thing like you to want a rough old man like him. He was never the one to initiate anything, but he knows youâve been aware that he had his sore eyes set on you since you met. How could he not? Heâs never met anyone so kind and considerate. It was impossible to deny you of him any longer when it was one of the only things youâve ever wanted for yourself.Â
âYou okay?â Your honeyed voice reaches his earsâor his good ear, ratherâand he smiles at you.Â
ââCourse, baby. Jusâ gotta give me a second, alright?â He can feel his cheeks getting a bit rosy at the confession. âItâs been a minute.âÂ
You nod, still no hesitation or any sign of regret. God, what did he do to deserve you?Â
Once he collects himself, he pulls out just barely, and a groan tumbles from his mouth to mingle with your soft moan. Heâs already starting to sweat from the effort of not coming too soon as he starts to push into you at a slow but rhythmic pace. You wrap your arms around his broad shoulders and tuck your head into his chest as you whimper with his thrusts.Â
âYou feel so good,â you whine.Â
âFuck, sweetheart, so dâ you. âLike goddamn heaven.â And you do; overwhelmingly so.
He cradles your head and lowers the two of you even more to deepen his thrusts. He knows heâs found your spot when your breath catches and you start to tighten around him every time he pumps his hips. Unfortunately, this makes it a lot harder for him to keep his composure.Â
âH-honey, I have to pull out,â he grits out. Heâs so embarrassed, it hasnât even been five minutes. He wonât last long enough for you to come before him.
But you just nod into him, even though you must be devastated by the loss of your orgasm. âItâs okay, Joel,â you breathily assure him.Â
He pulls out and squeezes the base of his cock, out of breath. He doesnât meet your gaze as he starts to apologize.
âIâm sorry, baby, IââÂ
âJoel,â You stop him by carefully grabbing his chin and forcing him to look at you. âItâs okay.â You nod, waiting for him to do the same before you continue. âTake as much time as you need. I love you no matter what. This does not determineââÂ
You both realize what you said at the same time. Joelâs eyes widen and his chest feels like it caved into itself. Your lips stay still, parted in the middle of your sentence. Joel doesnât realize tears have gathered in his eyes until his vision starts to blur and a smile spreads across his face.Â
You love him. You said it. And he believes you.Â
âI love you too, baby,â he whispers and lets his forehead rest against yours. âSo damn much.â Fuck his age and whoever might see a problem with you being together. He wants this, and you want this, and thatâs all that matters.Â
Then youâre both laughing shakily, pressing kisses to each otherâs lips. He only stops to start trailing them down your body instead, watching you writhe as his mustache tickles your bare skin.Â
âJoel, p-please,â you beg quietly. Joel just huffs a small laugh through his nose as he lays himself between your legs, ignoring his protesting knees as he admires the entirety of you laying out just for him. You look fucking beautiful covered in a thin sheen of sweat atop his sheets, needy and panting all for him.Â
He doesnât waste too much time before putting his mouth on your sweet pussy, his tongue dragging up your slit to flick at your clit. Joel moans at your taste, sending vibrations racing toward your swollen bud. Your hips buck as your hands fly to grasp at his hair, tugging lightly and making his eyes roll back.Â
He feasts on you like his life depends on it, worshiping you with all he has. He takes turns in running his tongue up you, fucking you with it the best he can, and suckling on your clit. He looks like a damn mess as he does so, his eyes not leaving your cunt unless heâs watching your face contort with pleasure. When you make eye contact with him, he knows he must look fucked out and desperate just based on the way you groan and lay your head back.Â
It doesnât take much for you to get to the edge, and it takes even less for him to push you over. You let out sharp, whiny sounds as he sucks on your clit and slips a couple of fingers inside of you to grip on to. Your entire body goes tense, and Joel has to resist the urge to smirk against you as you shake with the force of your orgasm.Â
By the time youâre coming down, heâs back over you and slipping his tongue inside your mouth to share your taste. You moan into the kiss and pull him closer as he once again glides his tip into your cunt. Just as he had hoped, the distraction calmed him down enough to hopefully give him some more time.Â
You both melt into each other as he bottoms out, the tip of his swollen cock hitting your cervix and making your thighs squeeze his torso. He starts at a faster pace than last time, too deep in his lust-filled haze to even try to slow down now.Â
You pull away from his mouth to start leaving love bites on his neck, making his cock twitch inside of you with each pinch. He can feel you smile against his skin, and knows that youâve found his secret. He does like a little pain with his pleasure. You keep going, sucking and biting marks before licking soothingly over them and moving to the next spot. You taste him like youâre addicted, like you could never possibly get enough.
It still doesnât take him as long as he would like to before he starts to feel his balls drawing up and his thighs start to shake. His head goes foggy as he tries to hold on for you, but itâs too fucking much. He canât hold it off when you feel so good around him. Itâs like torture to stave off his orgasm when heâs thrusting into your soft heat.Â
âWhere dâ you want me, honey?â Joel asks you, his voice strained.Â
âInside,â you whisper against his neck without a second thought.
And it throws him over. He groans your name as his body stutters and his balls empty, coating your walls with his milky spend. It seems to go on forever. Each time he thinks heâs almost done, thereâs another spurt and another wave of pleasure that tugs him deeper into euphoria.Â
When it does end, he lets himself half-collapse on top of you. You embrace him with welcoming arms and the two of you catch your breath together in the now dark bedroom. He only pulls out once sleep threatens to take the both of you. A shower, snack, and a glass of water later, you both snuggle up together and fall asleep with content smiles and full hearts.Â
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Masterlist
Series
Tides of Desire
Ongoing: TLOU no outbreak AU. Joel Miller is a luxury yacht captain running charters in the Caribbean. You join the crew as a deckhand and unexpectedly complicate Joel's peaceful existence. Basically the TLOU bunch on a Below Deck yacht.
Chapter One - A Prelude to the Open Sea
Chapter Two - The Adventure Begins
Chapter Three - The Cut of One's Jib
Chapter Four - Cut and Run
Chapter Five - Red Sky in Morning
Chapter Six - Edging Forward
Chapter Seven - From Stem to Stern
Chapter Eight - As the Crow Flies
Chapter Nine - Close Quarters
Chapter Ten - On Your Beam Ends
Chapter Eleven - All at Sea
Chapter Twelve - Turn the Corner
Epilogue - Coming soon
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Fall Into Me
dbf!Joel x f!reader, ongoing
Summary: Joel is hanging on by a thread as a single father to a tenacious 10-year-old Sarah. Feeling like he's drowning, like the world is about to spit him out, he needs some help before he breaks in half. At your dad's insistence, you show up in his life and change everything.
Story is inspired by the song Fall Into Me by Forest Blakk. Chapter titles will be lyrics from the song.
Chapter One: The Day That I Met You
Chapter Two: It All Turned Around
Chapter Three: No Mirror for Monsters
Chapter Four: Until I had met you there was no sun in my sky
Chapter Five: My whole world came alive
Chapter Six: And I knew my heart wasn't mine
Chapter Seven: I'll Catch You Darlin'
One-shots
Lost Cause
Summary: Joel thinks you shouldnât waste your time on him. You disagree. Oneshot.
Warnings: Explicit MDNI; Jackson-era Joel; canon-ish but also not; drinking; mentions of cigarettes, drugs, dark thoughts, and death; unprotected p in v; oral (m and f receiving); interesting use of red wine; unspecified age gap; despair and hope.
Inspired by the song Save Me by Jelly Roll. Some of the lyrics have been woven into the story.
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Hopefully Growing Masterlist
Please note that my content includes 18+ stuff, so if you're younger than 18 years old please do not interact with me or my posts for both your and my safety. Thank you! đ
* = smut
Sebastian Stan
you're mine*: Mob!Sebastian doesn't like it when his baby girl smiles at other men.
her own galaxy: Sebastian's babygirl is an artist and he's her canvas.
Stackie
touch the sky: Fluff ft. Papa!Anthony Mackie
something lent*: Mob!Sebastian shares his puppy with mob!Anthony for a night.
Bucky Barnes
love is patient: No smut + excessive loving on Bucky.
fingers fantasy fulfilled*: If Bucky's doll wanted his metal fingers then that was exactly what she was going to get.
needy baby*: Bucky's little baby has a wet dream.
just another perfect day (Nonnie ask #1): A domestic blurb ft. daddy!Bucky.
dada, open up (Nonnie ask #2): Daddy!Bucky's little obsessed with feeding him from her plate.
chef daddy adventures (Nonnie ask #3): Daddy!Bucky dealing with a little who's a picky eater.
daddy's pretty (Aqua's ask #8): Bucky's little reflects on how beautiful Bucky is to her.
making daddy okay again (Nonnie ask #9): Bucky isn't being himself and his little attempts to help fix that.
for your sake: Mafia!Daddy!Bucky would do anything to keep his little angel, the one and only person he ever goes soft for, safe.
heavenly sweet: Chubby!Pâtissière!Daddy!Bucky teaching his baby to make pie.
of course you do: The one where reader braids Bucky's hair.
safe (Nonnie ask #11): Mafia!Daddy!Bucky's little gets attacked by an intruder and has to remain big to fight.
when period attacks (Nonnie ask #12): Daddy!Bucky comforting extra little little!reader when her period is being mean.
signature needed (Nonnie ask #13): Mafia!Daddy!Bucky lashes out on his little angel and has to find a way to make it up to her.
empty (Aqua ask #14)*: Bucky's little feels empty when Daddy's not filling her.
tickle time (Nonnie ask #15)*: Bucky's little being obsessed with him tickling her.
cozy and clingy (WW Nonnie ask #16): Mafia!Daddy!Bucky cozily chilling with his angel on a rainy day.
never too much (Nonnie ask #17): Daddy!Bucky stuffie shopping with his little.
no licking (Nonnie ask #18): Chubby!Pâtissier!Daddy!Bucky catches his little one licking the dough.
Teeny tiny blurb (Gracie's ask #19)*: Jealous!Mob!Daddy!Bucky Barnes fingering reader in front of the new boy who keeps checking her out.
all of you (Nonnie ask #20)*: Daddy!Bucky loves on his girl the way she deserves.
secretly a stuffie (Lil Liz ask #21): Chubby!Pâtissier!Daddy!Bucky is a stuffie according to his bonbon.
too hot (Lil Liz ask #22): Chubby!Pâtissier!Daddy!Bucky helps his little one out when she unknowingly bites into a chilli pepper.
falling for angel: (Nonnie ask #23): How Mafia!Bucky and his angel 'met'.
barefoot (Nonnie ask #24): Bucky's angel learns the hard way about the consequences of walking around with no shoes on.
officially daddy (Nonnie asks #25 & #26): the first time angel calls mafia!Bucky 'daddy'.
my bucky?: Bucky's angel finally sees the hidden side of him.
don't call me daddy: In a world where little are openly themselves, they volunteer to help and be helped by willing caregivers. In spite of himself, Bucky finds himself stuck with one and to keep the nagging away, he has to learn how to be around her with everything that that entails.
don't call me daddy II
don't call me daddy III
don't call me daddy IV
don't call me daddy V
perfect to me: Chubby!Bucky runs into his ex, who manages to mess with his head, bringing his insecurities to the surface again. His girl takes it upon herself to show him how perfect he is.
in the far corner of the forest I: For the longest time, the kingdom has used Bucky as their number one fighter, forcing him to win their wars for them. The only thing he asked for in return after he was done was that they give him a wife, and they did. They handed him the orphan he picked on a silver platter; it wasn't like anyone would miss her. It would've been perfect if she actually wanted to be there though.
in the far corner of the forest II
in the far corner of the forest III
in the far corner of the forest IV
SamBucky
learn to be careful*: Bucky's carelessness during a mission earns him punishment from reader and Sam.
broken rules*: Sam and Bucky's rules were not made to be broken and when they are, punishment ensues.
don't hide (Nonnie ask #4): Sam and Bucky's Little gets hurt and hides it from them.
unwanted (Nonnie ask #7): Sam and Bucky's Little runs away.
misunderstanding (WW Nonnie ask #10): Sam and Bucky have a fight and their little thinks it's over between them.
something lent*: Sharing is caring, no?
Stucky
daddy's best girl*: Uncle Steve just doesn't get how good Bucky's girl really is.
bratty angel (Nonnie ask #5): Bucky's little being bratty with Uncle!Steve when he's babysitting. Alternative ending (Nonnie ask #6).
Lee Bodecker
soft belly lovin'*: Reader's favourite sheriff gets insecure so she reassures him in her own way.
pinocchio*: Sheriff Lee Bodecker knows a lie when he hears one.
Ransom Drysdale
i own you*: Ransom bought himself a new toy and toys can't speak; they can't say no.
All dividers are by the beautifully talented: @firefly-graphics đ
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Domestic!Lee Mini Series
The following one shots were all written with the same reader in mind so I am combining them under the banner of a mini-series, in the sequence in which I imagined them to be. However, each can still be read on its own.
Read on AO3.
Strawberry Syrup (fluff + implied smut)
Reader bakes Lee's favourite cake for his birthday.
Miss You (fluff + mild smut)
A lazy morning in the Bodecker house.
fic moodboard by the talented & loving @starryevermore
Ours (fluff + angst + smut)
Reader has some news she needs to share with Lee (bonus: how Lee met reader).
Vow (smut)
A wedding night drabble.
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Hello. I donât know anything about posting fics on here. Because this is going to be my first one.
This was inspired by @slothspaghettiwrites & their reply to the idea of a most wonderful anon who goes by K.
I wrote this on my phone & tried to edit to the best of my ability. So, please be gentle. (And just so weâre clear, I had no idea what I was doing when I wrote this & even less now that Iâm posting. đŹđ
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I would also like to apologize in advance for the title. Just to be safe. *cringe*
Strawberry Syrup
Read on AO3.
tags: fluff/ angst?/ domestic/ slight ddlg
Lee likes strawberries. Ripe and plump between his teeth, the sensation of that sweet juice dribbling over his lips. Needless to say, he loves strawberry desserts.
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Lee Bodecker FanFic Masterlist
Welcome Hoedeckers!Â
This is an ongoing - forever being updated - list of Lee Bodecker x Reader and Lee Bodecker x OC fics. Please let me know if you want to be added or removed. There is no order to this list.
Submit Your Lee Fic Here
This list contains SMUT AND DARK fics, please view at your own risk. Please take the time to read tags for each post and respect the authors by liking and reblogging their works.Â
Updated: 18 SEP 2021
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18+ ONLY.
each fic has its own individual warnings. they are not exhaustive, but please read them.
main masterlist
five part miniseries:
headache - (fluff, smut)
until tomorrow - (fluff)
itâs all in the timing - (fluff)
sweet as sugar - (fluff, smut)
by your side - (angst, fluff)
one shots, drabbles:
babydoll - (fluff, smut)
dinner and a treat - (smut)
for the hope of it all - (angst, dark, fluff)
itâs no secret - (smut, fluff)
itâs you and me - (fluff, smut)
private indecency - (dark, angst, fluff, smut)
the devilâs bride - (dark, angst)
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Sheriff Lee Bodecker
One-Shots
Home Remedies đśđŹ
Summary: When your period comes with a vengeance, Lee is quick to dote on you. But when the regular methods of pain relief seem to be failing you, Lee suggests another way to make you feel better.
Find Out Next Week đśđŹ
Summary: You and the Sheriff enjoy a relaxing afternoon in front of the T.V.
I Canât Believe That Youâre in Love With MeđŹ
Summary: You canât sleep, so Lee decides to stay up with you for a while.
Silent TreatmentđŹâ
Summary: After a fight with Lee, you decide to give him the tried-and-true silent treatment, but the Sheriff doesnât take to it very well.
Pity or Nothing Like ItđŹâ
Summary: You have a lunch date with Lee, but a little run in with a snot nosed deputy gets in the way.
Series
Anything: The SeriesđśđŹ Complete
Summary: Itâs your birthday week, and to celebrate, Lee promises you anything you want. Anything.
Just For UsđśđŹ
Summary: Lee needed a vacation, but heâs nothing if not stubborn. Yet, somehow, you manage to get him in a cabin for an entire week. Itâs going to be a very relaxing week, to say the least.
Drabbles and HC
In a Mood đś
Summary: Lee comes home in a mood and takes it out on you in the best way possible.
The ChopđŹ
Summary: Youâve always wanted to cut your hair, so you do.
A Routine Pat DownđśđŹ
Summary: Your late night drive home is interrupted by the county sheriff, Lee Bodecker.
Bad DaysđŹâ
Summary: Sometimes, all you really need is a hug from your fiancĂŠ.
Sunshine on My ShoulderđŹ
Summary: You wander into the station with a hurt puppy, and with you, you bring the sunshine.
Afternoon Delight đŹđś
Summary: You show up at Leeâs office to give him a little treat.
Lessons đś
Summary: Leeâs gotta teach you a little lesson after he overhears something that happened at the coffee shop
Punishments đś
Summary: Lee punishes you while watching TVâŚ. or at least he tries to.
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gibson girl | neighbor joel miller
summary: your neighbor joel watches you dance in your backyard to your favourite song, enjoying the show a little too much than he should.
warnings: female reader! virgin reader!no outbreak au! unprotected p in v, fingering, dacryphilia, choking, daddy kink, age gap; reader in 20s, joel in his 40s, no use of y/n, pervy joel, breeding, corruption, some degradation
word count: 8k (what is wrong with me)
a/n: HEAVILY INSPIRED by @caskethrill âs the cowboy next door !!!PLEASE check it out itâs literally the best thing iâve ever read!!! oof i hope you guys like this one i've been rewriting it for days. ALSO NOTE!! this doesn't really have any correlation to the song (yes i know what gibson girl by ethel is about don't come at me) it was just something that popped into my mind when i had this song on replay 24/7 and had to write it down before i forgot. it's the vibe, i guess. anyways, enjoy! :p
Planting little flowers in your garden was a cute little hobby youâd grown accustomed to. You always watched your mother take care of the plants of the garden when you were a little girl, growing an interest. Watching her dug a hole, place the seeds in, covering it back with dirt and watering them every other day. You helped her one time and found it rather peacefulâso you asked her to teach you, and ever since then, you spent your free time caring for your own flowers. You always had the same routine.
Go to college, come back, do your work for the next day and then check on your flowers.Â
You put music on everytime, whether in your headphones or brought a radio with you outside.Â
Today was one of those days again. Except, it was a Saturday and your parents were gone for the weekend. The house was quietâpeaceful at most. You enjoyed it, enjoyed being alone without the constant nagging everywhere. After spending the bright Saturday morning cleaning your room, vacuuming your fluffy carpet, wiping the dust off your shelves and wiping the windows clean, you found yourself a new task,your little garden coming to mind. You sat up from the bed, grabbing your headphones with you and strolled downstairs. There was a pack of columbine seeds on the kitchen island, left by your mother who had been too tired to plant them a few days ago. You figured you could do that now, as if you had nothing else to do anyway.
Sliding the glass door open, you pressed shuffle on your playlist and put it down somewhere on the table outside. Headphones on, pack of seeds in hand and you were ready to get to work. You approached an empty spot next to the sage your mother planted those few days ago and knelt down on the warm grass. Completely oblivious to any of your surroundings with your music blasting in your ears and your focus on the pack in front of you.Â
Your hands started to dig a hole, carving out the soil manually. You put the container soil in the hole and reached for the pack of seeds. You ripped them open in a swift motion, slowly sprinkling them on the dark soil, pressing them in with our fingertips. Â
Without realizing, you started to swing your body a little, jamming to the music in your headphones. Soon after, you started to mouth the lyrics, bobbing your head slightly as you put the remaining dirt on top of the seeds.Â
Ethel Cain was playing. Gibson Girl. One of your favorite songs.
You wiped the dirt off your hands, making your way back to the backyard porch to get the watering wand. You bent over, grabbed it and went back inside to get water. Once you were all finished, you pranced back to your beloved garden, mouthing the lyrics.
You came alone to me
From however far away
You slowly let the wand hang down, water flowing through the small gaps down to the fresh soil.
Black leather and dark glasses
Pourin' another while I shake my ass
Naturally, your body started moving with the lyrics, your hands abandoning the wand to roam around your own waistâ down to your hips. You bucked your ass out a little, hands making their way onto your hair, streaks dropping down your shoulders as you let it fallâin your own little world, without a care in the world of someone seeing you. You were just dancing, where was the problem in that? Besides, your house was on the end of the streetâ and the fence from the street was too tall for anyone to take a peek.Â
Other than the one you shared with Joel. White picket fence, only about three feet tall. On the other side of the fenceâ much to your oblivious state, Joel was sitting on the white hanging chair he had built for his daughter Sarah when she saw one of them at her friendsâ house, begging her father for months to build it for her. His hand was gripping the base of the glass filled halfway with whiskey in his hand, enjoying the warm Texas breeze until seeing a frame walking in his peripheral vision. Instinctively, he turns his head, eyes catching on you. He wants to say hi, but you have those white headphones on that in his opinion you always have placed on your head, tuning everyone around you out. Which he thinks makes sense for a girl like you. So he justâ watches you. Not in a creepy way, just watches you.Â
Okay, heâs staring. But he canât help itâ a smile tugs at his lips as he watches you kneel down on the grass working on the seeds you were about to place, a content smile on your face. He watches your fingers, the way the dirt gets under your nails, and definitely notices your dress riling up when you bend a little to get the pack of seeds. Columbines. Joel sees the image of the flowers on the package. He watches you bob your head to the music and he enjoys it. Enjoys seeing you like this.Â
You were extremely shy and innocentâ Joel noticed that when he met you for the first time a few years back, the way you looked down smiling when he simply just greeted you. So seeing you like this, all relaxed doing what he almost always sees you doingâ heâs relishing it.Â
Until you walk to the back porch to get something, his eyes following you up until you bend over to grab at somethingâthough Joel is only focused on the way your dress riles up for your white panties to peek through. He doesnât even notice you going back inside, just thinks about the panties and how much heâd like to rip them off of you. He could already feel his pants tighten. Wait, where are you?
No, thatâs not right, Joel thinks.
Sheâs half your age, he shakes his head, sick fuck.
But how long has it been since heâd been with a woman? Too fuckinâ longâ maybe thatâs why he was acting this way.
But when you appear once again, he canât rip his eyes away from your body. How you kneel down once again, watering the columbine seeds you just planted. A smirk plasters on his face when you start to move sway your body, letting the dark green wand plop down on the grass. He watches your hands wandering around your body, hips moving side to side slowly. Joel canât stop staring at your ass, thoughâ he sees your hands moving there for a second and itâs like you know heâs there and youâre teasing him on purpose. Yet youâre completely oblivious, until you turn around.
Says he's in love with my body, that's why he's fucking it up
And then he says to me,
âJoel!â you gasp, letting the hem of your dress fall, eyes widening as you take in the older man on his back porch. Your hands grabbed at your headphones, pulling them down your head. Heâs smirking smugly, eyes raking up and down your body without shame. Your sundress was too tight on youâhe thought. Probably an old one that you wouldnât wear outside anymoreâ but used it around the house. Nonetheless, he fucking loved it. Your tits were fighting against the fabric, and the skirt of the dress was way too short. Your cheeks grew warm, spreading out to the entirety of your face. How fucking embarassing.
âDonât let me stop you, darlinâ â mâjust enjoyinâ the show.â his voice was husky and thick with lustâ so were his eyes, going a shade darker. You didnât know what to say, nails gripping into the leather of your headphones. Had it been Sarah, it wouldâve been totally differentâ but this was Joel. Joel, whom you had wanted to fuck ever since he moved in next to you and your parents. You remember that day so clearlyâ you had just started college, going home after your classes when your mother told you about your new neighbor, Joel Miller. She was already baking her signature brownies with the intention of bringing them to him as a welcome from your family. When Joel was outside of his truck, getting some box out, your mother took that as a chance, pulling you along with her. Muffins in hand, she cheered to Joel, greeting the older man. Older, but a little younger than your mother, you assumed.
He snapped his head up, eyes squinting to block the burning sun out and look at the woman greeting him.Â
âWelcome to the neighborhood, Misterââ your mother tilted an eyebrow.
âMiller , he replied, Joel Miller.â he spoke with a hoarse throat. Goddamn the heat was thirsting him out. Your mother, being the cheerful and extroverted woman she was, started a conversation with Joel right away, where you had no place in. Eyes observing the older man, but letting your mother do the talking. His hair was a dark shade of brown, tousledâ beard scruffy. He looked scruffyâ but it fit his appearance. He was handsomeâ and also really fucking hot, you realized. A dark brown t-shirt on, clinging to his biceps.
âThank you for the treat, maâam, my daughterâs gonna love these.â he shook your motherâs hands with an appreciative smile, ââand this is?â his eyes darted to you, taking your smaller frame in. He assumed, the daughter of the woman speaking loudly into his ear. You were quiet, nothing like your motherâ that he instantly noticed.Â
You were too much into ogling your new neighbor that you almost didnât realize when your mom nudged at your side, snapping you out of your daydream.
âOh! uhmâ you stuttered, feeling the heat pool in your cheeksâ you introduced yourself quietly, almost incoherent. Joel heard you. You were barely even looking at him with the attention on you now.Â
âHoney, why donât you help Mister Miller out with these boxes, I need to go back inside and watch the stew.â she turned to you, and you finally looked up. Please donât, Donât leave me alone with this man because Iâd probably start moaning if I have to look at him any further.
âOh, sâalright, miss. Donât think a pretty girl like her wants to get her hands dirty.â Joel smiled, eyes glued to you, not even leaving your face as he responded to your mother.Â
Oh. Pretty girl. The way his honeyed southern accent slipped when he complimented you made your panties dampen.Â
Your mother insisted you help, Joel giving in soon after. She left you both alone moments after, an awkward silence filling the airâ well, for you at least.Â
âYou go to school?â he asked, taking out the heaviest box for him and the lightest one for you.Â
âUh, yeah, here in austin.â you spoke quietly, hands grabbing at the box he handed to you.Â
âToo smart fâme.â he chuckled jokingly, shaking his head slightly. You smiled when his teeth came into vision, head dropping down as soon as he caught your eyes. He instructed you to put the box on the front porch and heâd be fine; to which you obeyed. He came up behind you as you placed the box down, flinching when you saw his broader frame towering over you.Â
âYouâre a shy one, ainât ya?â he didnât need a response, he was already aware of your timid self.
âWell, thatâs itâ thanks for the help, honey.â fuck, listening to his southern drawl made you melt. And then he placed a hand on your shoulder while thanking you, stroking his thumb up and down slightly. You muttered out a âyouâre welcomeâ, turning in your heels to walk back home.
âBye Mister Miller.â you said a little louder now, Joel bidding you farewell soon after. Without looking back, you slammed the front door shut, pacing upstairs to collect yourself and decide what to do about the dampness in your underwear.Â
Since that day, you always found yourself hoping to see the older man. Sometimes you stood by your window with a cup of coffee in hand when he mowed his lawn, the cotton fabric of his wife beater clinging to his body as sweat dripped from his forehead, droplets making their way down to his neck. You tried to be as careful as possible to not be caught directly staring at him, but when he sometimes turned his head and caught your prying eyes, he gave you a nod of his head with a small smile on his face, then turned back to the machine to continue the activity. There were also times when you found an excuse to sit on your front porch with a book and sweet tea in hand, trying to read your bookâ just to sneakily take peeks at his broad form that was working on his truckâ whatever he was doing, you didnât have a clue, but you loved watching the way his muscles flexed and the focused look he had on his face, full of frustration with the way his brows were pinched together. There was always an old country tune flowing from his radio, no matter where he was or what he kept himself busy with, there was always that sizzling radio placed on top of any surface near him. You recognized some of the songs at times, tracks by bob dylan, johnny cash, artists that your father always listened to as well. There was always a warmth that flooded in your insides, a burning desire in your chest for himâ though you knew he only saw you as the next door neighborâs daughter, even if he was so hard to read at times.Â
Joel would glance up to see you sitting down on one of the wooden rocking chairs, long legs dangling and eyes stuck on the book in your lap. He would address you with a low toned âhowdyâ , sometimes adding in a pet name, followed by a smile and a look up and down your form and you swore youâd be falling to your knees if you werenât sitting. You noticed that he smiled a lot when heâd see you, just a little curve of his lips whenever you were near him, which he didnât always do with the other neighbors around. There was one time when he was in his backyard with Sarah while they played a game of cards and youâd never seen the man grin so widely at his daughterâ youâd found it so adorable, to see that hunk of a man who was always grumpy with a scowl on his face, whoâd rudely shoo away and slam the door right in the faces of the jehovahâs witnesses whenever they knocked at his door or when any other neighbor other than your family tried to talk to him, always uninterested in what they had to say.
Youâd also never seen him bring a woman to his place, though you were sure he had one night standsâ for a man like him who was so handsome that your married female neighbors were pining over him, heâd surely have his bed kept warm occasionally. You donât think he ever really had a girlfriend in the years youâd known him, which fit his character. Reserved, quiet and content with being alone.Â
He was a quiet man that did his own thing in silence, and never really had any people over, other than his brother Tommy, to which you were also introduced to one time as you were walking down the steps to go to the store and Joel saw you, deciding to introduce you to his younger brother. Heâd hang out on his porch as the sun was setting down, either with a guitar in his lap or downing a budweiser as he listened to whatever song was playing from his rugged radio, oftentimes humming along, tapping his worn out cowboy boots on the wood.Â
âWell? Keep goinâ.â he tilts an eyebrow, watching your reddened cheeks and your hands now fisting at the hem of your dress. Joel sighs, unimpressed by your lack of response, standing up from the chair, gulping down the remaining drops of whiskey. You watch him walk around the fence, getting closer and closer to you.
âDidnât see youâ sorry.â you swallowed, taking a step back from his persistent steps inching closer to you. You donât even know what you were apologizing for yourself. His index finger nevertheless finds its way to your chin, moving it up to look at him. This is the first time today that you really looked at him. Beard scruffy as always, and hair slicked back. Oh my god, you found yourself liking the new way he styled his hair today too much. His eyes are dark and he has an unreadable look on his faceâ as always, you figure. Your body was heating up as you fully took him in, and you could only imagine how red you were in the face.
âKeep doing what you were just doing a minute ago, babydoll.â you gulp, shaking your head no.
âNo?â he waits, quirking an eyebrow.
âCâmon, sweet girlâ looked so pretty dancing.â he coaxes, hands finding your waist slowly, as if heâs waiting for you to tell him to back off. But you donât, you loved feeling his big, roughed up hands engulfing the entirety of your waist. You let out an unwanted whine as his right hand wanders lower, almost at your backside but not fully, just testing the waters to see if you were comfortable. Your eyes drop down to his button up, the first three buttons opened from the warmth of the weather, chest hair peeking out.Â
âSânot nice to stare, girl. Didnât your daddy teach you that?â he tilts his head to the side, watching your slightly parted mouth. He smiles, thumb stroking the soft flesh of your cheek.
âWasnât starinâ.â you protest, brows furrowing, shaking your head no, but you knew damn well you were practically foaming at the mouth.Â
âYouâre sweet.â he chuckles, head tilting down to your level to look into your shame-filled eyes. âYou remember that dinner a few weeks ago?âÂ
You look up, eyes darting around as you tried to recall your memory,
âYou invited me in, I kissed your cheek and gave you those pretty flowersâ and then what did you do, huh?âÂ
Your memory of that evening was clear as day, knowing what he meant by his question. You excused yourself to the âbathroomâ right after putting the yellow tulips in a vase and paced into your bedroom to relieve the heat pooling between your thighs. Rutting against the edge of your bed, fingers searching for release as you quietly let Joelâs name fall from your lips. Meanwhile, Joel excused himself as well as he saw you pacing up the stairs with blotchy patches of red on your chest and throat, and walked upstairs, down the hall to the bathroom, passing by your roomâ the door slightly creaked open.
And there you were, moving up and down the edge of your bed in desperation. Joel thought you were an angel, until he realized what he was doing, and where he was, forcing himself to tear his eyes from you. He had heard your little whines, especially the ones that included his name, a smirk plastering its way to his face. He was aware of your crush on himâ he just needed confirmation. You thought you were doing a good job at keeping your crush on the older man hidden; but Joel wasnât stupid, he could see right through you. Squirming when he got close to you, cheeks a bright shade of pink whenever he coaxed you up with his southern charm.Â
âGo aân, say it.â he pushes, hands playing with the skirt of your dress. You shake your head, head dropping to rest itself on the warmth of his chest, the button of his shirtâs pocket pressing into your cheek. You hum against him, quickly finding comfort while Joel holds you close to him.Â
âSânot that hard, doll.â you gulp, finally finding the assurance to look up at him.
âIââ you hoarse, âtouched myself.â your eyes droop back down but Joel was having none of it, grabbing at your chin to hold your head in place.Â
âNâ who was on that pretty mind fâyours?â
âYou were.â a tear slides down your cheekâ and he wipes it away with his thumb, slowly and carefully bringing the digit to your lips to test the waters.Â
âThatâs rightâ attagirl.â Joel praises, brown eyes showing a twinkle in them. He nudges his thumb at your lipsâ and you open your mouth instinctively. He watches you with anticipation, before sliding the digit in between your lips, the warmth of your tongue making him let out a small groanâ he could only imagine how warm your mouth would feel with his cock stuffed in your mouth. His buldge is fighting against his jeans, zipper almost popping open. He longs to bend you over the fence and fuck you till you cry but he knows he canât do that with all the peering neighbors around. He wants to take his sweet time with you first, tease you so much until youâre begging on your knees for him to fuck you. His thumb leaves your mouth with a pop, coated with saliva that he brings down and cups your mound harshly. You yelp, hand grabbing at his wrist to stop the tight grip on you.
Though Joel is much stronger than you and you know that. You also know that you donât want him to stopâ at all. He rubs your clothed pussy under your skirt slowly, fingertips pressing into the flesh. Your body is slowly betraying you, knees buckling so you grip on Joelâs shoulders for aid.Â
âJoel.â you whimper when you feel his index finger hold the fabric to the side, your folds coming in touch with his warm fingers.Â
âShh, sâokay baby. Lemme take care of you.â Joel croaks, the wetness between your folds smearing all over his fingers. He held a smug look on his face when he realized how wet you were for him. This would make it all so much easier for him.
âYou gonna let me do that? Hmm?â he hums, stroking the locks from your face away, fake pouting as if to mock you. You nod, head nudged in his chest.
âUse your words, honey.â Â
âPleaseâ please do anythingâ you want.â you were almost begging for him to plunge his dick into you, even if youâve never done it before, you were more than ready and you hoped he would.
âWhen are your parents cominâ back?â Joel knew your parents were gone as your driveway had been empty since yesterday and the observation made him think thoughts he had to push into the back of his head.Â
âNot until tomorrow night.â you manage, looking up at him, a small smile spreading on your face.
âTodaysâ just about my lucky day, ainât it?â he asks in rhetoric, before hoisting you up, his hands holding your legs around his waist in place. He walks over to your back porch, gently laying you down on the lounge. You wished he would bring you to your bed; but the couch wasnât too uncomfortable anyway, so you let it go. Another time, you think. Or, you wish.
Joel stops for a moment, taking you in, sprawled out on the couch, cheeks rosy and shying away from him. You let go of your headphones, putting them down somewhere behind you.
Everything felt surreal at the moment. Joel Miller caught you dancing in your yard and decided that now was the time to give in to his desires? You werenât complaining.
You wanna fuck me right now
âAre you gonna fuck me, Joel?â you quietly mumble, not exactly sure by what he meant about taking care of you. He chuckles in response, which makes you want to crawl into a hole. You felt so littleâ so young next to him. Afraid of what words you articulated yourself with to not come across as young as you wanted him to think you were.Â
âNow where was that boldness a few minutes ago?â he asks, one eyebrow tilted.
âGonna fuck you properly like you deserve, not how them college boys fâyours try to.â he continued.
âI didnâtâ I mean Iâve neverââ you try, but the way his eyes are boring into you , it was difficult to get a proper sentence out.Â
âYou a virgin?â Joel asks, a little surprised. He felt how his cock was straining against his jeans, your confession edging him one further.Â
ââCourse you are. Good girl.â The thought of you being a virgin never crossed his mind of courseâ but thinking about it right now, made everything click in his brain.
The kind of girl you were, he knew you were a little more on the inexperienced side; always keeping to yourself and never seeing you leave the house a lot.Â
His large hand hikes your sundress up, revealing your underwear to him. Joel smiles, his lips placing small pecks on your thighs before his hands guide your legs outwards to spread them. You feel his index finger a mere second later pulling your panties down, to which he grabs them from your ankles and stuffs the cotton into the backpocket of his jeans. The gesture makes you bite back a smileâ even though itâs a little perverted, but you like knowing Joel has your panties in his jeans pocketâ mind wandering to what he might do with them.
âPervert.â you huff, bursting into a breathy giggle. Joelâs eyes darted to you before smiling down at you, shaking his head.
âNeed a lil souvenir.â he defends smugly.
âAm I that special?â you tease back, not knowing where your moment of boldness was coming from. You, who couldnât mutter out a single word when Joel was around, was now talking to him with a little more ease. Maybe it was the way he was looking at you right now, eyes burning with compulsion.Â
âYou have no fuckinâ idea, sugar.â the sentence brings a hand to cover the red tint of your cheeks, then bringing back your focus to the two fingers that were brought to his mouth and back to your heat. He didnât really need the saliva from his mouth in the slightest, the wetness between your folds making up for it. Joelâs ego was fed immensely when he realized the full effect he had on youâ even when you tried to hide your attraction to him. Your eyes shy away from him, trying to look at anything else when he looks at you like heâs about to devour you. Wellâ he will if you let him. Your face falls back into a worried expression.Â
âAre you gonna hurt me?â your pupils are dilated, looking at his broader frame with puppy eyes. Joel thinks youâre the sweetest doll heâs ever seen. And now he has you where heâs always wanted you, spreading your legs as you wait for him to deflower you. He notices the scared look on your faceâ like a deer in headlights; feeling you trembling underneath him. Poor baby, he mockingly pouts.Â
âIt always hurts the first time, doll.â he reassures, though his reassurance makes you even more nervous. âDonât worry sweet girlâ mâgonna make it go away.â he places a gentle kiss on your forehead, his chocolate eyes melting your worries away.Â
With that, Joel moves back to his position where he stands between your legs, fingers making their way between your folds. You whimper outâ though it doesnât hurt because of the many times you had done the same thing to yourself in the privacy of your own bedroom. This time was much differentâ Joelâs fingers were much thicker and rougher by the hard work he endured for years as a contractor. âJoelâ fuck.â
âFeel good, huh?âÂ
âMhmm.â you nod, eyes screwed shut as you let the pleasure form throughout your body. A small smile pulls at the corner of his lips when he sees you already bucking up forwards, deeper into his hand. He continues to pump his fingers in and out of you slowly, your moans lewd and becoming louder. He knows youâre almost there, so he takes his fingers out and watches your irritated look at the loss of them.Â
He hovers himself above you again, bringing his fingers up to his mouth to lick the slick off his fingersâ and then brings them to yours just for the fun of it. Your lips grip around his fingers, sucking any remains dry before he takes them out again, a string of saliva connecting to his fingers. He groans at the friction when he rubs his clothed bulge against your heatâ feeling almost like teenagers dry humping each other.
Your head snaps up to look at his lower half when you hear him unbuckling his belt, dragging it along him until everythingâs out. With one hand, he grips both of your arms to hold them over your head in place, eyes widening as you realize what heâs up to. You want to protest, shimmying away from his hold but when the knot is tied tightly in place you get a sense of arousal and terror that youâve never felt before. You realize that you like him being the one controlling and putting you in your place.Â
His zipper is next to be pulled down, cock springing free from the paining fabric of denim. You donât even dare to look at himâ or rather at it, but Joel makes sure you do when he grips the back of your head to look up at him, his thumb gently stroking your cheek. Then you see it, and itâs fucking huge. Angry red at the tip with a bit of pre cum glistening around it, and veins coating all around his cock. Heâs not just long, but heâs girthy tooâ and you almost feel your teeth chattering.Â
âJoelâ thatâs not gonna fit.âÂ
âIâll make it fit.â he sternly replies in that husky voice he always has. Youâre scared that heâs going to potentially split you in halfâ but you nonetheless still want it. Need it.
Fantasizing about him for years and now youâre beginning to doubt him because of his size?Â
âGonna mold this pussy like I want itâ heard it works best with virgin pussy.â you moan out loud at his words that normally wouldâve disgusted you if it came from someone elseâ but hearing them from Joel makes the need for him rise whether you want to admit it or not. He strokes himself before his cock is on you, sliding up and down your slit easily with the help of your wet folds. You need to grip at something, but the way your hands are tied up the only thing you can do is bunch your hands up in a fist. Joel sees your failed attempts to release yourself from the tight knot and quirks a brow. âYou achinâ that bad for it, hmm?â
You can only nod, biting your lip to the point it cracks and almost bleeds.
âPoor baby.â he mocks, silently enjoying you struggling against his belt, sensing the need for his touch. A hand swats your hair away from your face as he continues to tease his cock between your folds. He holds your cheeks in his hands, placing a kiss on your temple before he slides his tip inside of you with ease. The motion makes you cry out, and Joel has to kiss you to keep you quiet.Â
âI know it hurts, babyâ but you needâa be real quiet. Iâll go slow.â he comforts you, his tongue licking into your mouth to play with yours. You feel his length sliding further into you and you feel like the airâs been stripped from your lungs.Â
âJoelâ need toâŚnghâ touch you, please.â you plead with him and Joel almost feels bad when he sees a tear run down your flushed cheeks. Almost. He doesnât want to give in yet, wants to tease you a little more until you fully break. So he wipes it away, smiles and looks at your widened eyes as you realize that he wonât untie you. Instead, Joel cradles your head again, gently palming your scalp as he holds you close to him. Itâs so comforting, your heart warms.
âYouâre so mean.â you sob, and Joel nods, âI know, baby.â
The pain quickly crashes onto you as he stretches you outâ and it doesnât help much either even if heâs thrusting into you slowly. Heâs not even halfway in and tears are already gliding over your cheeks, tasting the saltiness in your agape mouth.Â
âYou can take it, baby câmon.â he quietly husks into your ear, nibbling at your ear as your moans mixed with sobs and whimpers fill his ears. It burns like hell as he tries to slide his entire length into you but you stop him with your legs wrapping around his waist and squeezing his cock. Joel groans, head dropping into your neck. The pain is still there, but youâre slowly adapting to his size and at the same time his hand holding your head feels so comforting that you think this isnât as daunting as you thought your first time would be.
Joel, being the mean grump that he was, feels a tear from you drop down on his face as he laps at your neck and pulls back.
Heâs met with your beautiful face all flushed and tearyâ and he finally gives in, pulling at the belt at the top of your head. He unties the knot and throws the belt somewhere far that it lands in the grass, the metal making a clicking sound. You give out a big sigh, your arms wrapping around his neck without thinking almost immediately. You need him close to you; to hear his sweet honeyed encouragement in your ear. He stills his movements for a minute, just holding you close to him. He knows well that heâs a sick man for being the one thatâs taking your virginity, it shouldâve been a nice boy your age, and if word got out that you were messing around with Joel, a man two decades older than you, your father would probably hunt him down and shoot Joel with his shotgun for ever touching his precious daughter.
âJoelââ you whisper, âMoreâ need more.â yeah, Joel realized he was toast as your sugary voice filled his ears and he knew you were worth the risk.Â
A cry erupts from your mouth as he slides into you with his full lengthâ and your vision goes black for a moment; thinking you were seeing stars. Joel kisses you with so much need that your teeth clash together, the tip of his nose nudging into your cheek. The taste of whiskey on his tongue now lingers on your own and you breathe him in, smelling the shampoo from his shower along with the spicy and woody cologne he always wears that attracts women left and right. He feels you burning upâ and the heat of Austin doesnât help much either.
âThere, baby, see? Wasnât that hard, right?âÂ
Youâre too much into bliss to answer him, moaning out instead. A loud gasp falls from your lips as he moves, sliding out fully until thrusting back into you, teeth gritting together as Joel enjoys the warmth of your cunt too much. He knows he shouldnât, but you feel so good that he thinks he might never want to let go of you again. You practically melt into the couch, adjusting more and more to him with each leisurely thrust of his and the pleasure that forms makes you arch your back.
You want to scream so bad, moan into his ear so loud that even the crows get scared and scatter away but you need to remember where you are right now. Not in your bedroom or Joelâs, but outside in your backyard. You silently thank the tall fence that hid your yard away from any prying eyes off the street. His thumb goes down to press down on your sensitive nub, circling it around. He sees the way your thighs flex and the muscles start to shake, grunts leaving his lips at the lewd scene in front of him.Â
âPlease, please please da-â you manage, eyes screwed shut when you feel your walls throb.
âWhat was that? Say that again, princess.â he urges, the usual curve of his smirk plastering on his face again. You canât bring yourself to say it, shaking your head into the negative. Youâve said it so many times when you had your fingers knuckle deep inside of youâ and now humiliation was flowing through your blood. Joel takes your lack of response as a way to pound into you with more force now, his thumb still pressed down on your clit.Â
âSay itâ say it, baby, tell me whoâs makinâ ya feel good.â you almost explode when he uses that low and husky tone mixed with his southern drawl that nearly drags you to the edge. He knows what you want to call him, heard it come out of your mouth many nights when he stood by the window that was facing yours, your faint moans filling his ear from where he was standing.
âDaâDaddy, pleasepleaseplease, faster.â your eyes roll back, one hand gripping on to the headrest of the gray sofa and the other gripping at his graying hair. A low rumble leaves his mouth, satisfied. With that, he thrusts into you faster, the sounds of skin slapping against skin and the squelches from your pussy making the manâs grunts grow louder and louder. Joel notices your attempts to be quiet, but he knows you canât help it with the way heâs fucking up into you.Â
âThatta girl, just like thatâ fuck, such a tight little pussy.â you mutter out constant yeses as you feel every inch of him searching for that spongy spot in you. It feels so fucking good, and youâre so glad itâs Joel whoâs the first to claim you. You know he gets off on the fact that heâs the only one whoâs ever touched youâ and you do as well as you want him to claim your body.Â
âMy tight little pussy, ya hear me? Mine. Ya better not be whoring âround with someone else after this.â
âMâyours.â you shriek, mouth agape. Joel growls in satisfaction at your obedient words.
Thereâs a faint voice thatâs too familiar coming somewhere from Joelâs houseâ but youâre too much in a daze to try and hear whatâs being said and whoâs saying it. The voice gets closer and closer and your eyes shoot up in terror as you realize who the person is calling for Joelâ the man that literally had you pinned down on your back patio with his dick inside you.Â
Itâs Vivian, your newly divorced and obnoxious neighbor, taking a note of her voice quickly as like the annoying loudmouth she was. Even the knocks at (youâre assuming) Joelâs door annoyed you, filled you with anger that she was interrupting this moment. When you look at Joel again, he seems unbothered, too pussy drunk to even care for his surroundings, he probably doesnât even hear her.
And he genuinely doesnât, his focus is only on you. Heâs so ignorant of her search for him that you have to be the one to snap him out of it before something really embarrassing happens.Â
âJoel! Stopâ stop.â you say, gripping his bicep to hold him in place. He looks at you, worried that heâd done something wrong. You motion your head to his house and he turns his head and you think you feel the irritation radiating off of his body when he hears her. He shakes his head and turns back to look at you.
âSheâs always wantinâ somethinâ from me. Sheâs like a pest that wonât leave me the hell alone.â he curses and you giggle. You giggle at how he grimaces when he thinks of her. Everyone in the neighborhood knew; even Sarah was aware of it, always poking fun at her whenever you two were together at some neighborâs barbeque and she was there openly flirting with Joel. If you even stole Joel away for a moment to talk to him sheâd always find herself barging into the conversation and giving you the dirtiest of dirty looks one could give.Â
âBecause Vivian's weirdly obsessed with you, Joel. Itâs plain as day.â you say like its so obvious, but youâre right, everyone and their mother knew. You almost forget heâs even inside you. You both hear her tries, already calling out for Sarah. What the hell does she want? Joelâs clearly not answering the door, so why wonât she leave already?Â
Your words make him smile, and you return it, feeling the warmth in your tummy.Â
âShe wonât leave.â youâre beginning to get aggravated, breath fastening.Â
âWell, sheâs fâsure ainât gonna interrupt me when Iâm fuckinâ this sweet pussy.âÂ
He moves again, and you sigh in relief when you hear her footsteps stomping down Joelâs porch. The thought of her catching you in the act makes you chuckle, imagining the horrified look on her face. To be honest with yourself, youâd want her to see just out of spite for every scowl she threw your way if you were even an inch close to Joel. Having said that, sheâd probably tell your parents immediatelyâ you didnât think you cared.
Joel groans when you squeeze around him and itâs the sexiest groan youâve ever heard. His breath hitches when your hands tangle themselves in his hair, the softness of it being like laying in a pool of feathers. His hand slowly finds its way to your throat, cupping it in his hand harshly, earning a ridiculously loud moan from you. The reaction makes him grin and place a chaste kiss on your collarbone and he finds himself pounding into you faster than before, his heavy balls hitting your skin. The sounds you make are like angels singing in his ear and he knows youâre close.
His thumb reaches over to where your windpipe is located, pressing his thumb into the flesh slightly. A gasp is immediately flown out of your mouth, eyes wide in terrorâ but a deep arousal flows through you at the same time at the thought of him having complete control over your life. Youâre trying everything to be quiet, but Joelâs ruthless thrusts are making it difficult. Heâs by no means any quiet as well, but heâs managing it better than you. Gosh, itâd be so embarrassing if one of your neighbors heard you.Â
Heâs still trying to find the spot that makes your cunt spasm, and he quickly finds comfort in your breasts, placing his mouth over your hardened nipples and giving the same love back to the other one. Thereâs a string of drool on the corner of your mouth, eyes filled with frustrated tears and hands gripping his own that are around your throat. Itâs so wrong what the both of you are doing but it feels too good to stop. Heâs more than two decades older than you but the thought always makes a pool form between your legs. Heâs fucking into you relentlessly, teeth grazing your collarbone. You feel the harshness of his teeth biting down into your shoulder and you moan out in painâ yet it excites you to an extent. He bites down to suppress the moans that are begging to be let out but itâs simply too risky. Your nails graze his scalp, pulling harshly at his damp locks.Â
âJoelâdaddy, Iâm gonna, mâgonna cum.â you choke out in a sob, panting for air by the constant rimming between your walls. His cock twitches inside you as you clenched down on him and he clasps a hand over your mouth to muffle your choked sobs.
With one last thrust of his hips, you came undone on his cock, walls blooming with white- hot liquid. Joel wasnât done though, he kept fucking you through your orgasm till he was nearly seeing stars.
âYou gonna let me cum in you, baby? Stuff your pussy full of my cum?â he growls against your ear,
âYesâ yes please, inside, cum inside of me, daddy.â Thatâs all it took for Joel to let out the most animalistic roar, coating your walls with his hot spend, trying to push all of it into your womb. His head drops down on your forehead, his body almost letting him go. He was so heavy on you, nearly punching the air out of your lungs but it nonetheless still felt nice feeling his cock nestled in you and the warmth of his body. He pulls out of you, and the sight of his cum dripping out of your pussy makes him want to take a polaroid of it so he can keep it in his wallet forever. He would if he could. He tucks himself back in, zipping his pants up and searching for his discarded belt. The panties that were in his back pocket are shimmied up to your legs by his hands, an idea popping into Joelâs mind. Heâll steal your panties next time, he reckonsâ and heâs sure there will be a next time.Â
âKeep âem on, donât let any drop go to waste, ya hear me girl?â The harshness of his tone makes your inside clench and you nod quickly, trying to sit up, legs going limp at your attempts to hold yourself in place. After you finally composed yourself, you look down to see a wet spot on the gray sofa and your eyes widen in horror, to which Joel takes immediate notice to.
âDonât worry, gonna be dried by tomorrow.â he means before your parents come back. You look up at him with doe eyes, Joelâs hand quickly coming up to cup the sides of your face and bring his lips to yours. So soft, so syrupy it makes your teeth rot. You want more, you want to take his cock inside your mouth but thatâs for another time. As if he could read your mind, he scoffs jokingly, shaking his head by the glimmer of hope in your eyes.Â
âNext time, darlinâ girl.â he turns around, back muscles moving beneath his shirt which makes you long for more, but you know that atleast he'll fuck you sometime again. You watch him open his back door, slamming it shut and leaving you there all alone on your knees with his cum leaking down your thighs reminiscing on what the fuck you'd just done.
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In The Woods Somewhere | Joel Miller (Masterlist)
Summary | Joel Miller, exasperated by his estrangement from Ellie, volunteers to scout out a new patrol route for Tommy. Weeks into his solitude, he stumbles upon a cabin, not abandoned, but filled with children, and you. Drawn to you like a moth to a flame, Joel's arrival into your bubble sets off a catastrophic chain of events. You're reliant on him now, having to trust him like no-one else to get you back to the safety of Jackson. You've done terrible things to stay alive, things that would disgust most people, so much so that you truly don't believe you deserve the kindness of this rugged stranger. After everything you've been through, you and the children, why does he deem you worthy of his love?
Pairing | Joel Miller x F!Reader
Fic Warnings | 18+ Minors DNI. Canon typical violence, descriptions of death of both adults and children, description of injuries, cult activities, sexual violence & assault, domestic violence, religious trauma, children, explicit smut, protective and possessive Joel, mutual pining, dark themes, murder, slow burn, age gap (Reader is 32, Joel is 58), angst, reader is traumatised, the children are not hers, no use of Y/N.
Fic Notes | This came to me whilst I was away this weekend and it's been completely rotting my brain. It's a lot different to anything else I've written so please be gentle with me, but I hope you enjoy it none-the-less.
Chapters
Chapter One - a woman's voice, i quickly ran
Chapter Two - he doesn't look a thing like Jesus, but he talks like a gentleman
Chapter Three - reach out, touch faith
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
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Delicate | Joel Miller (Masterlist)
A TheTriumphantPanda & HellishJoel Fic
Fic Summary | Sarah decides, with a year until she leaves home for good, that it's time for her dad to start dating again. Joel doesn't understand the fuss, he's more than happy with how life is for him right now, but decides if it's for Sarah, he'll give it a go. After wading through the dating apps, he comes across someone new, someone who might just be able to be the company he's needed all along.
Fic Pairing | Joel Miller x Single Parent F!Reader
Fic Warnings | Joel traversing dating apps, single parenthood, no age gap, rom-com vibes, slow burn, mention of food & alcohol, discussions surrounding being a single parents, allusions to controlling behaviour from a previous partner, Sarah & Tommy being menaces in the best way, smut in later chapters, pre/no outbreak AU. No Use of Y/N. Please see individual chapters for more in-depth warnings.
Authors Note | @hellishjoel & I are so excited to drop the masterlist for the fic we've been working on recently. We've been having such good fun putting this together for you all, and we really hope you enjoy it! Youâll be able to find the masterlist on both of our Tumblrs, and weâll be taking turns in posting chapters, so if you want to keep up to date with posting, please make sure youâre following us both!Â
Chapters
Chapter One - Someone New
Chapter Two - Maroon
Chapter Three - coming soon!
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summary: Is Joel Miller your friend? No. Youâre not even sure if he actually likes you or just puts up with you because of his kid. Then he kicks some guy's ass in a bar for getting handsy with you, and youâre starting to think maybe he might like you a littleâŚ
rating: E (18+!! No y/n, Grumpy Joel Miller, Protective Joel Miller, Soft Joel Miller, age gap (unspecified but reader was born before the outbreak), unprotected p in v (wrap it up), creampie, oral sex (f + m receiving), 69 position, dirty talk, praise kink, spanking, spit mention, slight breeding kink, Joel has a big dick, Joel being kinda a dick, a random guy harassing you then getting beat up by Joel, canon typical violence, icing Joelâs knuckles, feelings confessions, Ellie being Ellie and the star of the show, AU where Joel doesnât lie to Ellie and their relationship is still good)
pairing: Joel Miller/f!reader
word count: 5.5k+
a/n: Literally, a scene in this woke me up from dead sleep at five in the goddamn morning, and I spent thirty minutes plotting the whole one shot while barely awake. This fic was very spur of the moment that I wrote in less than two days, so itâs unbetaâd. All mistakes are my own. Please be horny about Joel protecting you with me.
Thank you for reading! Comments and reblogs feed me. Iâd love to know what you thought!
Masterlist
Is Joel Miller your friend?Â
No.Â
Are you on friendly terms?
You thought so.Â
Joel isnât the most social of fellasâheâs basically a feral cat that wants to be left alone.
If you arenât friends with him, then how did you become the regular occupant of the seat across from his in the Jackson mess hall every breakfast and dinner?Â
The answer is simple: Ellie.Â
It all started months ago when you first got to Jackson and met the teen after being assigned to a job rotation with her. She was so excited about finding out you lived in Texas for many years before the world went to hell she invited you to eat dinner with her so you could meet someone, and thatâs how you were introduced to Austin-native Joel Miller.Â
Heâs a bit older than you, never smiles, and isnât much of a talker but still polite enough to answer a question if you ask it, even if itâs more of a grumble at the start of the day. With Ellie, though, it was different. He talked to her, and his voice was like coming home after a long day and settling in on the couchâthat familiar Texan accent making you feel all warm and comfy, his words wrapping around you like a tight blanket and taking you back to a time when things were good and safe.Â
The morning after the first dinner, Ellie had called you over to sit with them for breakfast, and again that evening, little bits of conversation happening between bites as you got a grasp on what the relationship was between this young girl and manâit was clearly father-daughter in nature even if she didnât call him âdad,â and you savored every word she wheedled out of him.Â
It got to the point where the teenager didnât have to beckon you over, and you just knew to set your food down in the seat in front of Joel to eat with them, always smiling at Ellie giving him so much shit, chatting with them or more the young girl, with Joel occasionally offering clipped anecdotes, and you trying not to acknowledge his handsomenessâyou werenât sure if he even liked you or if he was just putting up with you for the sake of his kid. Â
He does have a lovely voice and is very attractive with those expressive chocolate-colored eyes that sometimes soften when he looks at his daughter; you could imagine his grey hair would be soft to the touch, and itâs obvious those full lips of his are kissable. Honestly, itâs surprising heâs not seeing anyone that you know of or Ellie is aware of, with how damn pretty he is.
His broad shoulders and how his flannels stretch over his chest.Â
His neck.Â
God, heâs sure nice to look at.Â
And Ellie is a great kid who trusted you, coming to you anytime she needed advice or wanted to talk about something, and you were happy to be there for her.Â
The breakfast and dinner routine had been going on for so long that even though Joel didnât talk at length to you, youâd managed to learn quite a bit about him from questions heâd answer or conversations he had with his kid or brother in front of you. He definitely knew a lot about you, too.Â
Now, back to why youâre not sure if he likes you.Â
That morning when you went to breakfast, you were running on autopilotâpiled your plate with food, grabbed your cup of shitty coffee that made you want to cry with how much you missed Starbucks, and set it all down in your usual spot, where you started to eat.Â
When your brain finally began working, thatâs when you realized it was abnormally quiet at your table, and you looked up to realize Ellie wasnât thereâit was just Joel. He must have seen some kind of look on your face since he grumbled out she was with a friend. Then when you asked if he wanted you to sit somewhere else, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion, and he told you no before going back to eating in silence.
That put a point in the maybe he wasnât just putting up with you for the sake of his daughter column and made you smile a little the rest of the meal. Â
She wasnât at dinner either.
This had you standing near your seat, chewing on your lip, debating on sitting elsewhere until Joel sighed loudly, setting down his fork to tell you in a tone that brokered no room for argument to sit, so you did.Â
After a few bites, you almost choked to death when he asked how your day was.Â
There was actual back and forth between just the two of you, and you were in heaven at how much he was speaking, another point going toward he might like you.Â
Those interactions had you feeling really hopeful, and you were excited for breakfast the next day, wondering if heâd try to talk to you more.Â
Itâs been over half a year since you arrived in town, and you have managed to make some friends, who you knew for sure were your friends, and also closer to your age. When a couple of them asked if you wanted to get a drink that night and play some pool, you happily agreed.Â
The place is practically empty when you arrive.Â
Standing at the bar, chatting with your friend Mathias as you wait for the bartender to make your drinks, you can feel someone staring at you. Doing a quick glance of the room has your stomach dropping and is the reason youâre pretty fucking sure Joel doesnât care for you; heâs sitting across the room at a table in the corner, glaring at youânot just glaring, if looks could kill youâd be deader than dead he looks so pissed off, and youâre about to go find out what his problem is when two things happen:
Mathias excuses himself to the restroom, and some man youâve never seen, let alone spoken to, gets your attention on your other side.Â
âHey.â The interloper squeezes your arm, which makes your head turn toward him, shaking him off.
âDonât touch me,â you reply.Â
Thereâs nothing special about the guyâheâs probably younger than you, has floppy blonde hair, and a clean-shaven face, but something in his eyes made you feel uneasy.Â
âMy apologies,â he says, putting up his hands placatingly. âThis is my first night here, and Iâm just trying to make a new friend. Have a drink with me.âÂ
âWelcome to Jackson, and no, thank you, Iâm here with friends.âÂ
âIâm sure they wonât mind if you have one drink with me.â His voice goes lower, âWe could have some real fun together.â He has the audacity to grab your ass, and you step out of his reach.Â
âI said donât fucking touch me.âÂ
The bartender has gone into the back, Mathias is nowhere in sight, and your other friend is in another room where the pool table is with the jukebox playing.Â
Something flashes in his eyes, and it has your heart pounding.Â
âDonât be like that. Just one drink,â he says, coming closer.Â
You are readying to fight the bastard when all of a sudden, someone is grabbing his collar, and you see a fist connect with his face in a sickening crunch that makes you gasp.Â
Joel yanks the guy in front of him.Â
âShe said not to fuckinâ touch her,â he grits through his teeth. âAnd that she didnât wanna have a drink with you.âÂ
âIâm sorry,â the other man wheezes, blood oozing from his clearly broken nose. âIâll leave.âÂ
âYes, you fuckinâ willâafter I teach you some fuckinâ manners.âÂ
With that, he punches him again and again and again.
Youâre no damsel in distressâyouâve survived the fucking apocalypse for the last twenty years practically alone and could easily fight your way out of dangerous situations. But having someone stand up for you and protect you? Itâs really doing it for you, except youâre genuinely worried Joel will murder this man, so you move toward him.Â
âStop, Joel!â you shout, pushing on his shoulder, and he does immediately, his eyes meeting yours. âHeâll leave; toss him out. Please, Joel. Donât kill him.âÂ
His chest rises and falls as he pants, nodding his head once before hauling the groaning man to the door and throwing him out. The bartender chose that moment to come back, as well as your friend.Â
There was a worried expression on Mathiasâ face. âIs everything okay?â he asks.Â
âYeah,â you answer. The drinks are sitting on the bartop, and you gesture toward them. âIâve got something to do, so take those for me, okay?âÂ
Confusion is etched on his brow. âOkayâŚ?â He strategically picks up the three glasses and heads for the other room with the pool table.Â
Your attention moves to the man behind the bar. âHey, can I get some ice in a rag?âÂ
âSure thing,â he replies, going to the block and using the ice pick.Â
Joel didnât return to you. Instead, he went back to his table like the last however many minutes didnât happen, and it makes you sigh.Â
His mixed signals have you so confused youâre ready to just get it all out in the open.Â
The bartender hands you some ice wrapped in a towel, and you walk over to Joel, having to drag the seat across from his around so youâre next to him, seeing his right hand shaking around his glass with bloodied knuckles.Â
He wonât even look at you.Â
âGive me your hand,â you order him.Â
âIâm fine.âÂ
âNo, youâre not. Give me your fucking hand.âÂ
âNo.âÂ
âStop being a stubborn asshole, and let me ice your fucking knuckles.â
âI said Iâm fine.âÂ
He wonât give you his hand, so you do the next best thing and press the ice against them while they hold his drink, Joel hissing at the coldness.Â
His head turns to glare at you.Â
âDonât give me that look.â You glare right back. âIâm helping you.âÂ
âI donât need your help,â he practically spits out.Â
Taking a deep breath, you ready yourself for what youâre going to say.Â
âWe had a nice dinner,â you tell him.Â
His eyebrows furrow.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âWe had a nice dinner with just the two of us where we talkedâyou didnât smile, but it was the most youâve ever said to me, and this morning, you let me eat with you. Youâre not a people person, and I wasnât sure if you liked me all that much, but our meals today made me think you might. Then tonight you were glaring at meââ
âWhen was I glarinâ at you?â he interrupts.Â
âBefore that creep started getting handsy.âÂ
âOh, I wasnât lookinâ at youâŚâ His eyes dart away.Â
Youâre confused.Â
âThereâs like no one here. Who were you looking at?âÂ
He sighs loudly. âYour boyfriend,â he mumbles.Â
âHuh?âÂ
âYour boyfriendâthe guy youâre here with.âÂ
âOh, Mathias? Iâm not his type, and heâs already in a relationship. I donât have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, or a partnerâIâm not seeing anyone. You should know this.âÂ
âOh.âÂ
âOkay, so you werenât glaring at me, you were glaring at my non-existent boyfriend, and then you came in hot like some knight in shining armor and beat the shit out of that asshole for doing me wrong. Sooo, you maybe like me?âÂ
He looked at you with a squinted gaze, like the answer was obvious.Â
âI more than maybe like you,â he replies.Â
That has your eyes widening.Â
âWait, in the romantic or platonic sense?âÂ
âThereâs no point in talkinâ about this,â he sighs, looking down at the amber liquid in his cup.Â
âUm, yes, there is because if I have a shot at breaking off a piece of this Kit Kat bar, Iâd like to take it.âÂ
His gaze met yours, and you could see the hope swirling in the dark pools.Â
âIn the, uh, romantic or platonic sense?âÂ
Smiling, you answer, âRomanticâIâve basically been crushing on you since I met you. Weâve known each other for months, almost a year. Youâre such a good father to Ellie, a hard worker around town, and you let some random person sit with you during your mealsââ
It takes your breath away when he smiles softly and talks when you pause, âYouâre not some random person, and I wouldâve been stupid to turn away such a beautiful woman.âÂ
âOh, god, youâre hot and charming.â He chuckles, and your heart picks up in pace. âHow are you making me like you more?âÂ
âI donât know, Blue.âÂ
âBlue?âÂ
âAs in Bluebonnet.âÂ
Which was Texasâ state flower and makes you feel so soft at how sweet the nickname is.Â
âI love it.âÂ
The smile falls from his face.Â
âYou, uh, donât mind my age?â He scratches at his mustache.Â
Ellie had made you very aware of how old Joel was.Â
âNo? I think youâre extremely attractive. Does the age difference bother you?âÂ
âNo.â He shakes his head.Â
âWhat now?â you ask.Â
âJesus, itâs been so fuckinâ long,â he says, scrubbing a hand over his face. âI guess Iâll court youâtake you on a proper date.âÂ
âSecond option, thatâs more immediate, and we can go with your plan tomorrow.âÂ
He looks at you.Â
âYeah?âÂ
âIs Ellie home tonight?âÂ
His eyebrows dip together.Â
âYeah?âÂ
Smirking, you say, âOkay, so why donât we go back to my place, and I properly thank you for what you did tonight.âÂ
You see his throat bob as he swallows, his voice going deeper when he asks, âHow do you wanna thank me?âÂ
A smile pulls up on your lips, moving forward to whisper in his good ear, âI was thinking Iâd suck your dick.â His breath stutters. âThen have you fuck me however you want.â That makes him groan, and you grin.Â
His hand moves out from under the ice and up to cradle your face, along with the other, when his body turns, making you look him in the eyes.
âI was stupid for leavinâ you alone âcause I assumed you wouldnât want anythinâ to do with someone as old as me.âÂ
You snort. âUh, yeah. You went a little hard with the leaving me alone, but Iâll forgive you if you kiss me right now.âÂ
No other words are said. His mouth crushes against yours, swallowing your surprised sound as he kisses you hard. Your fingers end up tangling in his grey waves of hair, your heart hammering in your chest and pulsing at the apex of your thighs. Itâs obvious he hasnât kissed in a while, and youâre in the same boat, both of you figuring things out until thereâs a rhythm, and things are heating up with a slip of your tongue into his mouth to slide along his. The need inside you builds and builds until your lungs start to ache for oxygen, and you break apart, his nose nuzzling yours as you both pant with a smile on your lips.Â
âLetâs go,â he says, and you donât have to be told twice. Â
He washed his hands before you left the bar, so it wasnât obvious heâd just been in a fight.Â
Having Joel lead you through town is like having a big, scary dog on a leash with how people get out of his way. Itâs a little surprising he even knows where you live when you find yourself walking through your front gate.Â
âHowââ
âEllie,â he answers before you even ask the question, his feet stomping up the two porch steps and you following. âSheâs free to hang out with whoever and go wherever. I just ask she tells me where sheâll be.âÂ
âThatâs very âcool dadâ of you.âÂ
Youâre standing at the front door, him out of your way.Â
âSheâs not allowed to leave Jackson without me. If I tell her to stay away from someone, she stays away from them. I expect her to be a model citizen and do the jobs sheâs required to do. Unless we talked beforehand, she must be home in time for breakfast and dinner.âÂ
âSo, today, you knew itâd just be the two of us?âÂ
âShe asked last night to stay at Catâs house.â Thatâs Ellieâs best friend. âTheyâre staying over at our place tonight.âÂ
âProbably wonât even notice youâre missing then,â you say with a smile. The doorâs unlocked, and you push it open before turning to grab Joel by the collar, pulling him in for a kiss as he walks you backward into the house with his arms wrapping around your back.Â
Itâs a tangle of tongues, a clash of teeth, one of Joelâs hands moving to massage your breast while your fingers worked open the buttons on his shirt, him shrugging it off by the time you make it to your bedroom door you led him to. Once inside, he strips you first, spending quite a bit of time licking and sucking on your tits when theyâre bared and stopping you when you try to work open his pants, learning heâs really fucking strong when he easily tosses you onto the middle of the bed.Â
Quickly, youâre sitting up on your knees, and you get a good look at the sizable bulge at the front of his jeans; Joel standing there with his hands on his hips, staring at your body with a hungry gaze, his tongue swiping across his bottom lip. Scars are littering the golden expanse of skin on his front and arms of varying sizes, a newer one you spot on his lower torso, all of them telling you heâs fought like hell to make it to this point.Â
Shuffling forward, youâre tired of waiting, your hands going to the button on the front of his pants. Joelâs palm engulfs yours to stop you, his head tilting down to meet your confused eyes.Â
âYou donât need to suck my dick for what I did,â he says.Â
âOkay. What if I just want to suck your dick for the hell of it?â
His lips tip up in a crooked smile, and youâre enjoying seeing his different smiles.Â
âThen have at it, but I wanna lick your pussy until you come on my tongue.âÂ
You suck in a breath, your cunt clenching hard around nothing.Â
âIf you can get me off with your mouth, youâre not gonna be able to get rid of me.âÂ
His eyebrow arches. âIs that so?âÂ
âYeah. Youâll be stuck with me.âÂ
Thereâd been enough talking, so you deftly popped open the button and pulled down the zipper, grabbing the waistband to tug his jeans down his thighs. Youâre pleasantly surprised he goes commando, and then you get a good look at his hard cock, and itâs glorious.Â
Heâs thick, long, with a nice curve upwards, and youâre wondering if youâll be able to fit him in your mouthâyouâre definitely up for the challenge, licking your lips at the thought. Your fingers donât even wrap all the way around him when you take him in hand, giving him a few quick strokes.Â
âWait,â he says, stopping your movements.Â
âWhat?â you ask, looking up at him.Â
âHold on,â is all he replies, getting his pants the rest of the way down, kicking them off, and removing his socks. Walking around the side of your queen size bed, youâre turning in place to follow his movements as he gets on the mattress with a groan and the springs squeaking as he moves to the middle, his legs on either side of you, grabbing one of your pillows to put under his head that he lifts to look at you. âSit on my face.â Itâs an order, and he pats his chest to show you he means it.Â
âI thought I was giving you a blow jobâŚ?â You point at his dick resting against his stomach.Â
âYou are,â he replies. âWeâre doinâ both. Now, get up here,â he orders again, his face grumpy, patting his chest once more.Â
âSheesh,â you say, moving over his leg and up the bed, thankful you showered before you went out. âYouâre really bossy when youâre horny.âÂ
When youâre within reach, he replies, âIâll show you fuckinâ bossy,â and he puts his strength to work again, grunting while hauling you onto him with your back to his head and legs along his sides. His hand lands on the side of your ass in a sharp slap that makes you gasp, feeling the wetness between your legs, coating your inner thighs. âIâm eatinâ this pretty fuckinâ pussy,â he says, positioning you over his face, his hand giving your asscheek another hard spank causing you to clench. âAnd youâre gonna wrap that gorgeous fuckinâ mouth around my cock.â
You canât respond because all train of thought leaves your brain when his mouth latches onto your cunt, feeling him groan into your sensitive skin, the sensations making your toes curl, and fire erupt in your center.Â
âOh my god, Joel,â you moan. âItâs so good. Itâs so fucking good.âÂ
It takes a deep breath for you to focus on your task, spitting on your hand before grasping his hard dick in your palm, the tip red and shiny with his arousal, lowering your face to take him into your mouth. Heâs salty on your tongue, your jaw open as wide as it will go as you hollow your cheeks and bob your head, stroking the considerable amount that wonât fit.Â
His hands have a firm grip on your hips, pulling you farther down on his face, and youâre really worried heâs going to suffocate while he eats you out like a man starving. Pleasure in winding in your belly, tighter and tighter, with how heâs licking at your folds, your eyes rolling back in your head when he sucks your sensitive little clit between his lips.
Heâs really going to make you come, and it feels so fucking good youâre having a hard time sucking his cock, so lost in what heâs doing to youâsaliva is dripping out of your mouth and down his shaft, making your hand slide easily along him while you have half a mind to suckle on the head of him.Â
You hit your breaking point suddenly, the coil inside you snapping, your body tensing up as you come with a loud moan, euphoria spreading out from your core. Joel groans into your cunt, his tongue pushing inside your sopping entrance to taste your release straight from the source, his hands grabbing handfuls of your ass and squeezing hard. Â
He must get his fill because he moves you off his face, hearing him take a deep breath.Â
âMy good fuckinâ girl,â he says through panted breaths, rubbing your hips, his words causing a shiver to move down your spine. âAm I stuck with you?âÂ
Youâd given up on blowing him, your forehead resting against his thigh.Â
âYeah,â you slur, sounding drunk. âHow are you single?â Itâs been a while since youâve had that good of an orgasm.Â
He sighs and taps your hip. âTurn around, baby.âÂ
Doing your best to turn, Joel helps you, getting you to straddle over his lower torso, your hands finding their place on his warm, flushed chest, seeing the grey hairs of his beard shining with your arousal and his lips frowning.Â
âLike you said earlier,â he says. âIâm not a people person.âÂ
Your eyebrows knit together.Â
âIâm peopleâŚâÂ
âNo, youâre not. Youâre my Texas Bluebonnetâmy Blue.â His large palm comes up to stroke your cheek.Â
Youâre wondering something. âWhy did you talk to me at dinner?âÂ
A sheepish look comes over his face. ââCause we were alone, and I didnât have to worry about Ellie teasinâ me in front of you about my crush.âÂ
âShe knows?â
He grimaces. âSuspects. Since thereâs only three people on this godforsaken planet I like, and youâre one of them.âÂ
âAnd Iâm the only one whoâs not familyâoh, thatâs obvious.âÂ
âYeahâŚâÂ
âWell, how do you want me?âÂ
He looks confused. âHuh?âÂ
âI said you can fuck me however you want,â you answer, sliding your hands up his pecs. âHow do you want me, babe?âÂ
When he smiles this time, you get a glimpse of his teeth. âRide me.â
His answer has you grinning. âCowgirl, like a true Texan.âÂ
âI just love your tits,â he says, his big hands palming them.Â
âGood to know,â you reply with a wink.Â
Sitting up on your knees, you scoot back to get over his hips. His dick is still wet with your spit when you grab it and slide it through your folds before positioning him at your entrance.Â
There are nerves swirling in your belly, your eyes landing on his dark ones as you slowly start to drop down, seeing his mouth fall open with a gasp, his hands grabbing onto your thighs. You knew thereâd be a stretch, but heâs bordering on uncomfortable in how your walls have to expand for his size, feeling the slight burn. When you finally bottom out, youâre beyond fullâyouâve never felt fuller, and it takes your breath away.Â
âJesus Christ,â his words are said through his teeth, his eyes squeezed shut. âDonât move.â
His hard cock is throbbing inside you.Â
âBeen a while?âÂ
âYeah.â
âSame. Youâre so fucking big Iâm gonna be sore after this.â
His dick jerks as he groans, âDonât say that.â Â
âDamn, youâre that close?â you ask, soothingly stroking your hands over his chest.Â
You watch as his eyes blink open, the grumpy expression youâre used to appearing on his face.Â
âDonât make fun of me.â He slaps your ass. âI havenât fucked in a long time, and now Iâm inside the perfect pussyâyouâd be strugglinâ too if you were me.â
âIâm not making fun of you, Joel.â You lean forward to cup his cheek, feeling prickling stubble under your palm. âI think itâs hot. Like, you have no idea how flattered Iâd be if I made you come right awayâtalk about an ego boost.â
He doesnât look convinced, his eyes narrowing. Â
âAre you just sayinâ that to make me feel better?â
âNope.â To prove your point, you sit up, bracing yourself with your hands on his chest as you start circling your hips.Â
His mouth goes slack, his eyes widening, a choked noise pulling from his throat that makes you smirk. âFuck,â he pants. Thereâs sweat beading on his forehead, his cheeks a rosy pink. âYou fit me like a fuckinâ glove.âÂ
Youâre slowly building into an up-and-down motion, feeling every ridge and vein of his cock rubbing against spots you didnât know existed, sparks of pleasure igniting in your center as you throw your head back.Â
He must get a hold of himself because both of his hands come down on each of your asscheeks in loud, resounding smacks before heâs gripping them to help you move.Â
Looking down at him, thereâs concentration on his brow.Â
âYour tight little pussy is takinâ me so fuckinâ well,â he says, hearing the wet sounds where youâre joined. âYou love how I stretch you open?âÂ
âYes,â you moan.Â
Youâre moving a little faster, moving up, and falling down a little harder, making the fire in your belly get hotter and hotter.Â
âLean down.âÂ
Doing as he says, your hands are on either side of his head while he continues helping you ride him. He lifts his face to pull a pebbled nipple between his lips, and the pleasure shoots straight to your pussy, making you gasp and more arousal spill around his length.Â
He laves at one bud, then the other as you work yourself up, the new angle allowing the coarse hairs at the base of his cock to rub deliciously against your clit, and you know youâre close.
Joel is groaning loudly, clearly in heaven, with his dick inside you and his mouth on your tits.Â
âYou gonna come for me, baby?â he says around your hard nipple. âYou gonna let me feel you squeeze my dick? Let me fuckinâ have it. Be a good fuckinâ girl and give it to me.âÂ
Itâs all too much, everything coming to a head as you fall over the edge with a cry of his name, clenching so hard around him, youâve stopped moving with his cock buried to the root, pleasure radiating through your body.Â
Joelâs breathing hard under you, and you donât sound any better while you come down from your high.Â
His arms suddenly hug you close to him, and you squeak in surprise when he flips you onto your back with his dick still inside you and his hips nestled in the cradle of your thighs. Lips find yours in a searing kiss, moaning as you taste yourself, welcoming his tongue when it slips into your mouth to tangle with your own.Â
He starts moving to chase his high, his thrusts hard and fast.Â
The bedsprings are squeaking loudly, the headboard banging into the wall, hearing the wet suck of your pussy taking his cock and your muffled moans paired with his muffled groans. Thereâs no mistaking whatâs happening in this bedroom, and you just hope your neighbors donât complain in the morning.Â
Your fingers have threaded into his hair, your bodies sweaty, his lips leave yours, opening your eyes to see his face screwed up like heâs in pain.Â
âWhere do you want it?â he grits out.Â
If heâs asking, then he knows the risk.Â
âInside.âÂ
He opens his eyes wide. âAre you sure?âÂ
It is a rare thing to want these days.Â
âYes.âÂ
His pace speeds up, grunting as he pistons into you, resting his head in the crook of your neck, feeling his hot breaths.Â
âYou can fuckinâ have it,â he grunts. âFuck you full of meâmilk me fuckinâ dry. Fuck, youâre perfect.âÂ
You know heâs close when his thrusts get jerky, then heâs pushing in hard one last time with a guttural groan, feeling the hot spurts of his come filling you, his hips continuing to roll until they finally come to a complete stop. Itâs obvious heâs wrung out with how he practically collapses on top of you, but you welcome the weight, pushing your fingers into his hair and scratching at his scalp, which receives appreciative hums.Â
Minutes pass that neither of you speaks.Â
ââM sorry,â the words are murmured into your neck.Â
âFor what?â you softly ask.
âMakinâ you think I didnât like you.âÂ
âItâs kinda my fault, too. I mean, I am aware you donât like people but youâve eaten two meals a day with me for almost a year, so obviously you must like me somewhat.âÂ
His head comes up with his eyebrows furrowed and his lips frowning.Â
âI like you more than somewhat.âÂ
You smile. His hair is a mess, and you go about combing your fingers through it as you say, âYes, I know that now. You like me.âÂ
âI do.âÂ
âAnd I like you.âÂ
âGood.âÂ
âI said youâre stuck with me, so can this be more than a one-time thing?âÂ
His eyes squint in that same way where he thinks something is obvious.Â
âWhat?" he says. "Iâm not lettinâ you go anywhere. Youâre mineâmy Blue.âÂ
âGood. âCause youâre mine, too.âÂ
He kisses you passionately, and you lose yourself in it for a second until a thought has your eyes flying open and you pushing his face away.Â
âWhat?â he asks, bewildered.Â
âHow are you going to tell Ellie?âÂ
âShit. Uh, we can sit her down tomorrow nightââ
âNo, this is a conversation you need to have with her alone.âÂ
He winces. âIâll talk to her tomorrow night after dinner...âÂ
Is Joel Miller your boyfriend?Â
He absolutely hates you giving him that label, grumbling he prefers partner, but yes, he is your boyfriend.Â
Did Joel sneak out of your house in the early morning hours to his own so Ellie wouldnât know he was gone all night?
Also, yes.Â
Itâs the morning after, and youâre trying to act normal, ignoring how nervous you feel and the soreness between your legs as you sit down in your usual spot in front of Joel with your plate of breakfast. Heâs changed into clean clothes and looks like he hasnât slept, sipping on one of the two cups of shitty coffee in front of him, Ellie next to him already digging into some oatmeal with her spoon, which makes you realizeâ
âAh, fuck,â you say, both of them looking at you. âI forgot to grab a fork.âÂ
âIâll get you one, baby,â Joel says as he sets his coffee down and starts to get up.
The three of you go completely still. Your eyes are wide, Joelâs close in regret, his cheeks turning pink, and Ellie looks like sheâs going to explode with excitement untilâ
âYou guys FUCKED!â she shouts.Â
People around the mess hall turn to stare.Â
âEllie,â Joel hisses, his head whipping toward her.Â
âSorry, sorry,â she says in a quieter voice, the rest of the room returning to eating. âI knew it! Itâs about fucking time! So when are you getting married?â Sheâs looking between the two of you. âYou know, Iâve always wanted a mom! And a brother! Iâll settle for a sister, though. Is she moving in with us, Joel?â Sheâs staring at him expectantly with a grin.Â
Joelâs face is bright red. âIâm gettinâ the fuckinâ fork,â he grumbles as he gets up from his seat.Â
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summary: The relationship you have with Joel Miller is⌠complicated, and youâre not entirely sure what to even call it. Thereâs the fact no one can know, so his kid doesnât find out, and youâre pretty sure heâs ashamed of your age differenceâheâs not your boyfriend, but you only fuck each other; this thing started months ago, and Joel does not like it when men give you attention, because he wants you all to himself. But again, heâs not your sexy, older boyfriend.
pairing: Joel Miller/f!reader
rating: E (18+!! No y/n, porn with some plot, explicit smut, Possessive Joel Miller, Joel being a lil dominant, age gap (unspecified, reader is an adult), secret relationship, sneaking around, accidental voyeurism, edging, orgasm denial, mutual masturbation, dirty talk (so much), oral sex (f receiving), unprotected p in v (wrap it up!), rough sex, explicit consent, creampie, spanking, spit as lube, love confession, Good Parent Joel Miller, Ellie giving Joel so much shit, TLOU AU where Joel doesnât lie to Ellie and theyâre good when they get back to Jackson)
word count: 7.1k+
a/n: Hey! I needed a break from my long fic that Iâve been writing nonstop for five months, and I was really missing Joel and Ellie, so here we are. I hope you enjoy! Thank you to @juletheghoul for betaing!
Thank you for reading! Comments and reblogs feed me. Iâd love to know what you thought!
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The relationship you have with Joel Miller is⌠complicated.
To start with, thereâs the age difference. It doesnât bother you at all, and why should it? Youâre both consenting adults who know what they want, but heâs got this idea in his head that he shouldnât be chasing someone so much younger than him and that you should be with somebody your own ageâhe mentions this almost every single time youâre alone together, and you've learned a simple flash of your tits or a sudden kiss will make those thoughts disappear.
Then there's the fact he isn't your boyfriend, yet you only fuck each other. His days are spent working whatever job heâs assigned here in Jackson and heâs at your place most nights after his daughter goes to bedâhowever, thatâs a secret; No one can know about you two, even though Joelâs a tiny bit possessive and doesn't take kindly to other men giving you attention; which you're not one to judge because you can't stand when women flirt with him, especially Sandra, his next-door neighbor who won't leave him the fuck alone after the many times heâs told her heâs not interested.
So, again, he's not your boyfriend, but neither of you wants to fuck anyone else; whatever this thing is between you has been going on for over eight months, and he doesnât want people to know youâre togetherâyet, any time he catches a man being too friendly with you, there's a 100% chance a grumpier than usual Joel will show up at your house that night, and at some point, while heâs fucking your brains out, he'll let a 'Mine' slip out.
Clearly, you have some kind of relationship with him, and it borders somewhere between fuck buddies and him being your boyfriend; where it gets confusing is it's not all sex with him. If his kid is staying over at a friend's, he'll show up at yours earlier than normal, and usually, with a movie he hadn't seen since the world ended or a record he thought you'd enjoy that you both listen to all the way through for him to tell you facts and anecdotes that he could possibly be the only person on the entire planet who knows.
If you need anything fixed around your house, he'll do it, and sometimes you don't even have to ask. You'll mention something, and the next thing you know, he's at your front door with a toolboxâsometimes, he uses doing repairs as a ruse so people will see him arriving at your place with his tools when, in actuality, heâs there to spend the day with you.
Youâre also probably the only person, unrelated to him, he has actual conversations with; thereâs hardly any grumbling or muttering.
There is a reason he won't acknowledge youâre dating, and it's his sixteen-year-old daughter whom he doesn't want to know he has a love lifeâit's to where Joel's basically taken the role of the rebellious teenager, sneaking out of his own home in the middle of the night to ensure she's unaware he left.
It's an accumulation of factors why she can't know. The big two, you think, are your age, and you know for sure he doesn't want Ellie to think she'll be any less important to him or that he's abandoning her if he's seeing someoneâhe worries she wonât take it well, and from what you know she's been through, you can understand why heâs being so protective.
Do you wish you could openly be in a relationship with Joel? Sure, it'd make you happy to shove it in Sandra, his stupid neighbor's face that he's taken.
That isn't a possibility, though, and honestly, what the two of you have is good, so you're not going to make a fuss about labels.
It's been a few nights since Joel has snuck over to your place, and you know why he hasn't stopped byâEllieâshe's sick with a cold, and to put things mildly, her father is freaking the fuck out that it could turn into something worse, and he won't let her out of his sight.
Now, if a person didn't want their child to know they were dating anyone, theyâd keep them separated, right? Well, you live across the street from themâthat's how you met Joel; he saw someone had moved into the tiny one-bedroom, one-bath home across from his and came over to introduce himselfâand since you live across the way from him, and Ellie, the two of you have this, 'Just being a good neighbor,â act, where any interactions you have in public, are under the guise that youâre just friendly neighbors. So, Ellie has spoken to you many times and has even invited you to hang out and eat meals with them at their house or in the mess hall, where Joel always does his damndest to act indifferent.
Joel left a simple note three days ago stating Ellie was feeling under the weather on your front door. The next day, you stopped by, as the good neighbor you are, to drop off some chicken soup you convinced the kitchen at the mess hall to make. Joel had let you in with a âThanksâ and took the large bowl from you to the kitchen, and you followed the sounds of sniffles to the living room, where you found the teenager wrapped in a blanket on the couch, her stuffed-up voice exclaiming when she saw you in relief you were there so sheâd have someone other than her dad to look at or talk to; obviously, she was tired of him, and with how he was hovering, and fussing over her like a mother hen, you wouldâve been tired of him, too.
The man had bags under his worried eyes and looked like he hadnât slept since sheâd gotten sick. After he served her some soup and saw she was eating it, Ellie and you convinced him to take a nap while you hung out with his kidâthe kid youâve had a suspicion for a while knows thereâs something up between you and her father, simply because every time the two of you are alone, she grills you about your love life.
The thing is, she always fishes for information you wonât give her, but she never seems bothered by the prospect of Joel dating; frankly, sheâs supportive and wants him to be happy. However, that wasnât something you could tell him because heâd probably end things with you immediately, so youâd have to wait for them to eventually have a heart-to-heart for him to find outâwhich, youâre not holding your breath with how bad they both are at talking to each other about their feelings.
And now itâs been over three days since you last got laid, and after having great sex regularly, the horniness is hitting you hard tonight, and you need to come.
It might be the dead of winter, but youâve pushed the blankets to the end of your queen-sized bed, the old sheets not as soft as you imagined theyâd once been when they were new, your bare, heated skin pressing into them. Youâre lying in the middle of the mattress, your head cushioned by a pillow thatâd lost its firmness long ago, your naked legs spread while your fingers rub at your swollen clit just right, the others pinching at your pebbled nipple to have the pleasure welling up inside you. Youâve been biting your bottom lip so much itâs sore, your breaths panting from your lungs, the wood stove in the living room keeping your house warm, and that, combined with your arousal, has a thin layer of sweat coating your body.
Sure, you can get yourself off, but the orgasm will be nowhere near as good as what Joel coaxes from you; itâll take the edge off, at least, so youâll feel a little better.
For the last hour, youâve been building yourself up, almost hitting your peak, and stopping, edging yourself over and over again to try to make yourself come as hard as you can by your own hand to assuage some of your needâthe sheets are wet under your ass where youâve dripped onto them.
Your heart is pounding in your chest, thinking about that one night Joel saw some guy about your age at the bar laying it on thick to get you to leave with him, and how after you turned him down and left, a familiar presence followed you along the dark streets. You had to keep quiet when those big, gun-calloused hands you knew all too well pulled you into the stable that had nobody in it except the horsesâJoel fucked you from behind against a wall, having to brace yourself with your arms on it. You remembered his palm over your mouth to muffle your sounds and him blanketing himself over your back to have his lips at your ear while he pounded into you hard and fast, quietly grunting about how you were his and that no one could make you feel as good as he did. There was no forgetting how his cock stretched open your cunt, or how before he sheathed himself inside you, you heard him spit on his fingers to slick himself up; the way he made you come around him while he circled your clit with those same digits. The memory of how heâd worked himself up so much heâd forgotten to pull out and spilled deep in your pussy, has you so close to coming by your hand you moan loudly, âJoel.â
âStop,â the familiar gruff voice makes your eyes snap open as you gasp, immediately sitting up on your elbows.
There at the foot of the bed is the man on your mindâhe mustâve taken off his winter jacket in the living roomâhis green flannel shirt is gaping from most of the buttons being undone, revealing his chest, his grey waves of hair looking to be slightly damp from melted snowflakes. What steals your attention is the fact his jeans are unbuttoned and open, and heâs slowly stroking his hard dick; from how the tip is angry red, leaking precum, and his shaft shines, heâs been watching and jerking off for some time.
âJoel,â his name comes out as a whisper, and your eyes flick up to his, finding them dark and staring hungrily between your legs at your glistening cunt.
Youâre so happy to see him youâre not even mad he ruined your orgasm, knowing heâll make it up to you.
âHow many times have you made yourself come while Iâve been busy?â he asks, finally meeting your gaze, his expression grumpy.
âNo-none,â you stammer.
His eyebrow lifts. âYou lyinâ to me, sweetheart?â
âNo.â You shook your head. âAre you mad at meâŚ?â
His face pinches in confusion. âWhat? No. Iâm not mad at you, baby. Iâm mad at myself for leavinâ you hanginâ.â He undoes the last two buttons on his shirt and shrugs it off for it to fall to the floor, pushing down his pants to step out of them, now standing before you completely naked.
His body is a tapestry of littered scars that tell of his fight to survive this long, some from injuries youâre sure shouldâve killed him. Yet, somehow, if by spite or the grace of God, he managed to stay aliveâyour fingers have traced many of them, mapping the silvery and pink lines in the quiet of the night with only the glow of a bedside lamp. With what people have to do in order to keep living these days, they rarely like to share the stories behind their close calls to death. Still, thereâs a jagged scar low on the right side of his stomach lesser men would have died from, you noticed the first time he took his shirt off, and you always wanted to know the story of. Surprisingly, he told you how he got it a few months into this not-not relationship when you asked.
Excitement pools in your belly, your pussy throbbing needily, watching as he climbs onto the bed to kneel in front of you, between your legs, down by your ankles.
âTouch yourself,â he orders and takes himself in hand again, languidly pumping his cock. âI wanna watch you make yourself come; then Iâm gonna show you how Iâm better than everyone, includinâ you, at gettinâ you off.â
Your cunt clenches because he is better, and the promise has you doing as he said, sliding your hand down to the apex of your thighs to rub your clit the way you like while you watch him fist his shaft. This isnât the first time heâs watched you touch yourself, and youâre sure if it was anyone else, youâd feel embarrassed, but with how the desire is clear as he stares at what youâre doing, it spurs you on.
Having been so close to coming when he told you to stop, and now, itâs turning you on so much that heâs jacking off to what youâre doing, all of it is building you back up quickly, the familiar heat growing at the base of your spine.
âJust like that, baby,â he rasps and wets his bottom lip. âKeep rubbinâ that pretty pussyâdid you miss me?â
âYes.â
He hums in the back of his throat. âMissed how good I make you feelâhow I stretch open that perfect cunt with my cock? Do I fuck you so good, you were thinkinâ about me to make yourself come?â
The strokes of his hand sound wetter, your arousal drooling onto the bedding while the muscles in your belly begin to tighten.
âYes,â you gasp.
âThatâs right, you were. So fuckinâ pretty spread out like this for meâI wanna taste you, shove my face in your pussy, and drown in it; just look at how youâre drippinâ for me.â
âJoel,â you moan. Youâre so close itâs not going to take much more.
âGod, I fuckinâ missed that sound; I missed hearinâ your voice and how good you smell, how soft your skin is, and the few hours I get to sleep next to youâcome for me, baby. Come all over your fingers, and Iâll give you my dickâIâll make those gorgeous eyes roll back in your head and give it to you so good, I ruin you for anyone else.â
Heâs already ruined you for anyone else, and you doubt thereâs another whoâd fuck you as good as him.
Itâs the thought that heâs yours and no one else can have him like this that sends you over the edge, your body seizing up as you come, pleasure erupting from your center as you moan his name.
He doesnât give you a chance to recover, batting away your hand to dive in and bury his face in your wet heat. He shoves his tongue inside your soaked hole, groaning loudly as he laps at your come, your body trembling when he drags the flat of it up through your folds to suck your clit between his lips. Your fingers press into his hair, soft sounds leaving your throat at how good it feels.
The one orgasm isnât enoughâyou need more, his mouth igniting arousal to burn hot in your belly, making you feel achingly empty. Heâs licking up every bit of your need, coating your sex, moving to flick his tongue against your sensitive bundle of nerves. Youâre feeling greedy; what heâs doing isnât enough, and you want, no, need him inside you.
You pull at his hair as you tell him in a somewhat whiny tone, âFuck me, Joelâstop making me wait.â
His chuckle vibrates into your sensitive skin before he rises to kneel with a groan. âImpatient.â He smacks your thigh. âFlip, ass up.â And itâs not a suggestion, his hands on your waist helping you to roll over, pulling your backside up into the air while your torso is against the sheets. Your knees are sinking into the bed and spread a little, putting yourself on display for him, the mattress jostling when he shuffles forward, feeling his body heat behind you. His palm lands on your asscheek hard, the sharp sting making you moan. âNow, ask me nicely to fuck you.â
You shouldâve known he wouldnât care for your lack of manners.
Your head is resting on your crossed arms in front of you.
âJoel, will you please fuck me?â you ask as sweetly as possible.
âYes.â
The sound of him spitting on his fingers meets your ears, and you know heâs slicking himself up. One of his hands holds your hip, the other guiding his cock through the lips of your pussy to wet it even more, nudging your clitâit doesnât seem like heâs in a mood to tease too much. Your eyes slip shut when he notches himself at your entrance and starts slowly feeding himself into you, your tight, velvety walls expanding to take the considerable girth of him, whining as he fills you. He slides all the way home, your cunt throbbing around him.
âFuck, thatâs good,â he groans. âIs this what your needy little pussy wanted?â
âYes,â you moan.
Heâs as deep as he can go and pulls out until just the tip remains, and slams back into you hard enough to knock the air from your lungsâoh, this is going to be one of those times where he fucks you to the point your legs are too shaky to walk on afterward. The pace he sets is deliciously brutal and has your eyes rolling back, all thoughts leaving your brain, unable to think with how heâs pressing into so many heavenly spots, his grip tight on your waist.
The sounds in the room are obsceneâthe springs beneath you are squeaking, and thereâs the noisy slap of his hips colliding with your ass, Joel grunting with each dull smack of his skin to yours, while you gasp out moans.
Heâs fucking you so good, your orgasm is already taking shape, its fiery tendrils tightening in your core with each stroke.
âYou feel so fuckinâ good,â he says through gritted teeth. âYouâre so fuckinâ wetâI could live in this perfect pussy.â
His hand slaps your ass hard enough the crack echoes amongst the four walls, the sweet pain making you clench around him and press back into his thrusts, crying out his name.
âDoes it feel good, baby?â he asks. âDid you miss getting fucked like this? You love thisâthis pussy is mine, isnât it? Youâre mine.â
Heâs not wrong; you are his, and all you can do is mewl in reply, waves of your arousal seeping down his shaft to catch on his balls.
His gun-calloused hands adjust on your hips to get a better grip, pulling you back each time his dick impales you, fucking you harder and faster, hearing him panting behind youâthe wet sounds of him working himself in and out of your drenched cunt, are loud, and lewd.
Youâre so close; youâre just needingâ
Joel leans forward to get his hand under your body to the swollen pearl of your clit, circling it how he knows you like it.
âCome on, sweetheart,â he grits out. âLet me have itâsoak my cock with your come. Let me feel youâI know youâre almost there.â
Thatâs itâthe knot in your belly winds tighter and tighter until the tension snaps, and you fall over the edge with a silent cry, your pussy clamping down on him hard enough that it slows his rhythm almost to a stop. Joel groans loudly while euphoria explodes out from your center, feeling it spread to your fingers and toes. Your brain goes blissfully blank, and your legs tremble under you like a leaf in the wind.
A gasp leaves you when he suddenly pulls out and flips you onto your back, taking his place between your spread thighs. He puts your legs high on his ribs, holding his weight on one arm while his other hand sheaths himself back inside you.
Itâs not surprising that youâve found yourself under his hulking frame with his hips snapping in and out of youâwhen you open your eyes, his are closed, his expression looking pained, and itâs his broad shoulders and head that take up your vision. This is how Joel wanted to fuck you from the start, but heâs a gentleman and did your preferred position first.
Your fingernails end up digging into the skin of his shoulder blades for something to hold on to, and he kisses over your chest to duck his head, wrapping his lips around a stiff nipple and sucking on it, the shock of pleasure causing a moan to slip from your throat. His breaths are heavy, and you know he wonât last much longer.
Your voice is hoarse when you speak, telling him what you know he needs to hear, âI missed you, Joel.â He whines. âI want you to come for me.â
His mouth leaves your breast to crash against yours, and youâd been wondering how long heâd go without kissing youâsomething about kissing while he fucks makes him come faster; maybe itâs the intimacy?
Heâs told you the last woman he was with back in Boston wouldnât kiss him because sex between them was just scratching an itch, and she wasnât looking for anyone to replace her dead husband.
All you know is Joel loves kissing and touchingâheâs admitted that he sleeps best with you snuggled against his back as the big spoon, which, youâll never tell him, you think is adorable with how he scares people enough, they move out of his way when he walks down the street.
His kisses are fervent, and you give just as good as you get, welcoming his tongue when it presses between your lips, his pace speeding up. You love having him inside you, the way he fits all nice and snug to fill you completely. This is what youâve been needing, and itâs perfect.
When his rhythm gets uneven, you expect him to pull out at any second to spill his release on your belly. What he does next, youâre not expecting.
Joel shoves his face into the crook of your neck, his facial hair scratching your skin, feeling his hot breaths.
He says something thatâs too muffled to make out, so you pull on his hair to make him lift his head, finding his eyes dark and glazed over, looking totally and completely wrecked. His pace slows to him rocking in and out of you.
âWhat did you say?â you ask.
âCan Iâ�� he pants. âFuck, can I come inside you?â
The question has your tight walls constricting around him.
âFuck,â Joel hisses, his eyes closing. âPlease, can I?â he asks again.
The answer that immediately pops into your brain is âyes,â but thinking about how the only times this man has finished inside you in the past were all accidents, youâre worrying heâs just pussy drunk and not thinking straight; that if you fell pregnant, something you didnât mind, heâll regret it.
âAre you sure?â you ask.
He looks at you and nods. âYes, I knowââ The consequences, he leaves unsaid. ââplease.â
âThen yes, come for me, Joelâfill me up.â
He raggedly moans, his face falling into your neck again. His thrusts speed up and become frantic as he pounds into you, your heels digging into his ass, feeling the muscles flex. He works himself up until he presses into you one last time as deep as possible and comes with a guttural groanâhis dick jerks inside you, and the hot spurts of his spend gush into your depths, filling you up. Electricity zips down your spine as you moan, your tight walls throbbing around him while he grinds his hips, fucking his come deeper.
The weight of his body is welcome when he eventually slumps onto you, and instinctively, your fingers slide into his hair, scratching your nails lovingly against his scalp, the man practically purring on top of you.
For the first time in three days, you feel happy and finally sated, loving how heâs stuffed you full of his cock, and come. Thereâs no talking as your heartbeats slow together and your breathing evens out, basking in each otherâs presence. Your eyes are closed, and youâre choosing to ignore your shaky limbs.
Itâs hard to imagine a life without Joel, which is odd since up until this point, most of it had been spent without him, or anyone really. What you actually mean is you donât want to imagine a life without Joel and Ellieâyou think sheâs a great kid, and you have a soft spot for her; plus, she and her dad are a package deal. Then thereâs Joel, who youâre absolutely and completely in love with, and it bothers you that you donât know what this relationship between you is or if he even feels the same as you.
Minutes pass, the old, wooden bones of your house creaking as the winter wind gusts outside.
âJoel?â you break the silence.
âMhmm?â he hums, nuzzling into your throat.
âWhat are we?â
âHuh?â
âWhat are we? Like, what is this thing that weâre doing?â
His head lifts, and he pulls out, rolling off you to lie beside you on his back, pressing his hands to his face.
âSomethinâ I shouldnât be doinâ in the first place,â he finally answers.
You turn on your side toward him, propping your head up on your arm. âTake my age out of the equation.â
His palms lift, and he looks at you confused. âWhat do you mean?â
âFor some fucking reason, you are stuck on my ageâtake it out of the equation; if that wasnât a factor, would you openly date me?â
âWell, thereâs Ellieââ
ââletâs pretend she doesnât give a fuck about your love life,â you cut him off, âand actually wants you to be happy, and my age doesnât matterâwould you openly date me?â
âYes.â
âSo, you have feelings for me?â
âOf course.â
âDo you love meâŚ?â
âYes,â he whispers, covering his face again.
One word has your heart picking up in speed.
âI love you, too.â
His head whips in your direction with an expression of bewilderment.
âWhat?â he asks.
âIâm in love with youâhave been for a while, and Iâm fine with doing what weâve been doing if thatâs the only way I can be with you, but I kinda, sorta, would like it if you thought of us as a couple, and werenât ashamed of meâŚâ
A secret relationship? Youâre fine with that. But Joel being ashamed of you? It fucking hurts.
âIâm not ashamed of you,â he says too quickly.
âJoel, if Ellie were okay with you having a love life, you wouldnât openly date me because of how old I amâIâd just continue being your dirty little secret that one other person knows about.â
His eyes dart away, and the sigh he lets out is long and weary.
âIâm not ashamed of you,â he says. âIâm ashamed of myself for fallinâ for you and not beinâ able to give you the future you deserve. I just felt like I was stringinâ you along when you could be with someone who can offer you more, but Iâm so fuckinâ selfish.â He looks at you. âI want you, and I donât want anyone else to have youâI canât let you go, even though I should cut you free.â
Your fingers brush back the sweat-soaked hair on his forehead. âI don't want anyone else, JoelâI want you, and youâre not stringing me along. Iâm happy with you and any future I can have with you and Ellie.â
Heâs frowning. âIf only it were that simple,â he sighs.
This is a conversation you thought might make him end things with you, but maybe giving him a slight nudge will be okayâat least, you hope it will.
âIt is that simple,â you tell him. âIâm gonna tell you something that if you can work up the nerve to talk to her about, she'll confirm it.â
His eyebrows furrow. âWhat?â
âEllie doesnât care if you date. Sheâs told me she wishes you werenât such an asshole âcause then the only negative thing about you is how ugly you are, and people love ugly things all the time, and if someone loves you, then you wonât die alone, plus itâd hopefully make you happy, and she really wants you to be happyâthatâs pretty much what she said word-for-word.â
His eyes close, and the sigh that leaves him is that of a father whoâs real tired of their childâs shit, and you smile.
âThatâs Ellie,â he says, scrubbing a hand over his face. âIâm not even sure how I should be feelinâ right now.â
âI hoped youâd be relieved at least, possibly even happy.â
He looks at you. âYeah, Iâm relieved and happy but also a little ticked at her embarrassinâ me like that.â
Scooting closer to him, you lay half on top of him with your arms folded on his chest, resting your chin on them to stare at his pretty face.
âDonât be embarrassed. It was said out of loveâshe loves you.â
He sighs again, wrapping his arms around your bare back.
âI guess she does, even if sheâs mean. Jesus, I canât believe I just needed to talk to her sooner.â
âThatâs usually how things workâitâs called communication, and you should talk to her.â
His eyes narrowed, and he smacked your ass, making you giggle. âThereâs no need for the sass, sweetheart, and I was planninâ on bitinâ the bullet and tellinâ her about us in the next couple of days.â
Your eyes widened. âYou were? What?â
âYeah, uh, I had a hard time with Ellie beinâ sick, and when you came over, I didnât feel like I was goinâ insane with worry. Havinâ you there made it better, and I missed you.â His lips dip in a frown.
âI missed you, tooâyou were really gonna tell her?â
âI was.â He nods. âWith how happy she was to see you, I thought maybe sheâd be okay with it.â He shrugs.
You smile. âI think youâre right,â you reply, giving him a quick kiss. Meeting his gaze, you ask, âIs she feeling better?â
âYeah, and thank Christ, she is.â He looks visibly relieved. âI think it was that soup you brought overâthank you for that and for givinâ me a chance to sleep.â He pecks you on the lips.
âIt was no problem. I wouldâve been there the entire time had it not been suspicious.â
He smiles. âI know.â
âGood. Sooo, Iâm wondering, what are we now?â
âA couple,â he answers. âIâve thought that for a while, but Iâm too fuckinâ old to be callinâ myself your boyfriend.â
âI quite like having a sexy, older boyfriend.â
You squeak in surprise when he rolls you onto your back, your legs automatically opening for him to nestle his hips between. Heâs holding himself up with his arms beside your head while yours loop around his neck, his lips pressing to the side of your throat, kissing the taut skin.
âYou like havinâ a sexy, older boyfriend, huh?â His question is muffled, and you swallow hard when he sucks on your pulse point.
âI do,â you reply.
âI like havinâ you.â Heâs kissing and nibbling along your jaw.
ââCause no one else can?â
He nips your chin, then hovers his head over yours to look you in the eyes.
His expression is serious. âYes,â he says, âand I love youâif Ellie really doesnât give a shit about me datinâ, then every fuckinâ person in town is gonna know youâre mine.â
And something about that declaration thrills you.
âIâd like that.â
He gives you a small smile and kisses you for a moment before a thought comes to him, and he pulls back to meet your gaze.
âMaybe that neighbor, the annoyinâ one who doesnât seem to know the meaninâ of no, will finally get it through her head, Iâm not fuckinâ interested.â
You glare off into the distance. âFucking Sandra,â you seethe.
The first time he met you, Joel knew he was fucked.
All he wanted to do was be polite and introduce himself to his new neighbor, then you opened the door, and his brain stopped working because you were so beautiful. It didnât help when you blatantly checked him out, clearly undressing him with your eyes before looking entirely too pleased with what you were seeing.
If heâd been a stronger, honorable man, he wouldnât have accepted your offer to come inside for a drink; he wouldnât have kissed you back or laid you down on the couch to eat your pussy; he wouldnât have let you choke on his dick or crawl into his lap and ride him; he wouldnât have gotten so lost in being buried in your wet, warm, perfect cunt and your lips on his that he forgot to pull out when he came; he wouldnât have gotten addicted and returned to you almost every night after.
If heâd been a stronger, honorable man, he wouldâve ended things before it went too far and definitely before he fell in love with you.
From the beginning, he knew he was way too old for you, and he didnât understand why you wanted him or kept letting him into your house. He had nothing to offer you, yet even when the opportunities arose for you to go home with men your own age, you rejected them and welcomed him into your bed instead. It made little sense that someone as young and beautiful as you would give someone like him all of your attention.
Heâs lost count of how many times heâs told you that youâd be better off with somebody younger than him. Itâs usually when he remembers your age or when you donât know what heâs talking about when he brings up certain things from how life was before it all went to hell. He says the words out loud, practically a reflex at this point when the guilt gets to him, and as quickly as the feeling comes, it goes because, as he told you, heâs selfish; he doesnât want you with someone else; he wants you all to himself. When you tell him there isnât anyone youâd rather be with than him, it feeds something deep inside of him that wonât let you go, and hearing you say you love him has only made it strongerâyou have his total devotion.
Ellie being sick messed up his head enough that in the moments when you came to mind, he was plagued with the thought that you probably found someone new. The only time he felt a modicum of peace was when you stopped by, and with that and how much his kid loved you being there, and in general, he came to the conclusion he couldnât lose you:
It was time for him to tell Ellie.
Joel isnât delusional; youâd grow tired of only getting his nights and the occasional day, eventually, and he needed to give you more of himself, which required his daughter to know about your relationship.
If Ellie knew, then he could give you more.
Heâs ashamed of himself for hiding your relationship and, in turn, not having much to offer in terms of a future. It bothers him so much that he hasnât been able to be with you out in the open because you deserve better than being his dirty little secret, as you call yourself.
He hates that.
He wants everyone to know youâre his and that he is yours.
When he realized he was going to tell Ellie, he started imagining how your relationship would change. You could finally have a life together, and it had him thinking about things he never wouldâve considered before you and actively tried to prevent in the past, but you didnât mind the idea of bringing a new life into the world, and he thought that might not be so bad; Jacksonâs safe, and he has no doubt youâll be a great motherâand itâs a future heâs pretty sure you want since your reactions have always been positive when he accidentally finishes inside you. Thatâs why tonight he decided to say fuck it and asked if he could; he wasnât worried about the consequences anymore.
Heâs kicking himself in the ass for not talking to Ellie sooner.
The only reason he hasnât broached the subject with her is after what happened in Colorado, Joelâs treated her like sheâs a fragile piece of glass that he doesnât want to risk getting broken againâthe way she lost her spark after that resort town killed him; and what happened at the hospital? If he had the chance, heâd murder every one of those Fireflies again for how fucked up she was when he told her their plans to kill her without knowing for sure if they could make a cure or not and that her life meant nothing to them.
It took a lot of time for him to put her back together again, and being in Jackson helped a lot with her making friends and having some semblance of normalcy. But heâs worried any major changes will mess her up, and add in her biggest fear of ending up alone, Joel dating seems like a recipe for disasterâEllie will always be his top priority, even if itâs at the expense of his happiness.
Itâs early morning, and heâs got another thirty minutes before the sun will begin its ascent on the horizon, fresh snow coating the ground, the temperature freezing. Joel is skulking home from your place to be there before Ellie wakes up.
His point of entry is the back door that leads into their kitchen, which doesnât make as much noise as the front and can be locked when he leaves. Heâs staying close to the side of the house, heading toward the backyard, and peeks around the corner to check the vicinityâhis heart pounds when he sees a dark figure trying to get into the door, Joel pulling the knife, he walks around with, off of his belt, keeping his steps light, silently approaching them.
âWhy the fuck donât we have a light back here?â he hears them quietly mutter.
âEllie?â Joel says at regular volume.
âAhhh!â she screams, turning in his direction. Her hand is over her winter coat-covered chest. âJesus Christ, Joel! Way to give me a fucking heart attack!â
He walks closer, sheathing his knife, as he says, âWhat the hell are you doinâ out here?â
âWhat the hell are you doing out here?â
His hands perch on his hips. âDoesnât matterâyou, on the other hand, just got over beinâ sick and shouldnât be out in this cold. Move, Iâm gettinâ your ass inside.â
She stepped aside, and he walked over, quickly unlocking and opening the door; he grabbed her by the shoulder and firmly guided her inside. He flicked on the roomâs light once they were inside, and the door was closed and locked, Joel crossing his arms over his chest.
âNow, where the fuck have you been?â he asks.
Sheâs unzipping her coat. âWhere the fuck have you been?â
âI asked you first.â
She shrugs off her jacket and tosses it onto the kitchen table. Joel sighs, walking over to pick it upâheâll hang it alongside his by the front door before he goes up to his room.
âI was at the same place you were.â
He keeps his face neutral, but his heart is thudding, and heâs pretty fucking sure she wasnât at your house.
He meets her eyes. âAnd that is?â
She smirks. âMy secret girlfriendâs.â
âGoddammit.â His fingers press to his forehead as he closes his eyes. âYou fuckinâ knowâhow the fuck do you know?â
âLetâs see, sheâs literally the only person in town aside from me and Tommyâs family you like. You stare at her with, I donât know what to call them, googly eyes? Itâs that look the dudes have when they see the love of their life, or whatever, in those shitty romantic movies we like to make fun of. Iâve heard you call her âsweetheartâââ She fake gags, and Joel sighs. ââyouâve gone over to her house to fix so much shit that, at this point, itâs gotta be a whole new house. You sneak over there every fucking night. Oh, and when she sees the lady next door, the crazy one whoâs got a real hard-on for youâgross by the wayâwhen she sees âyou can call me, Sandy,â flirt with youâdouble-grossâIâm pretty sure sheâs plotting murder; youâre definitely plotting murder when guys hit on your girlfriendâwhich, I donât get why the two of you pretend like you arenât together; is she embarrassed that youâre so fucking old and ugly, or something?â His teeth clench, and he glares at her. âGod, donât give me the murder eyes, Joel! I was kidding!â She playfully punches his arm. âKind of⌠I mean, Iâm happy you found someone who loves you even though youâre a grumpy asshole and look like that.â She points at his face.
âYou done?â
âTelling you youâre old and ugly? Sure. For now. But I have one more thing that gave you guys away.â
His eyebrow lifts. âWhat is it?â
âWhen she came over the other day while I was sick as balls and hung out with me, you slept. Joel, you do not fucking sleep if thereâs anyone else here besides me, which is why if I wanna have a sleepover with my friends, I have to go to their houses.â
âWere we really that obvious?â
âOh, yeah.â
âWhy didnât you tell me you knew?â
Sheâs clearly confused. âI thought we were avoiding the topic.â
âWhat topic?â
âLike, relationshipsâyou never said anything to me, so I figured it was something we donât talk about.â
He cringes. âI wasnât sure how youâd feelâŚâ
She smiles. âI donât give a fuck if you date, Joelâif youâre happy, Iâm happy.â
He matches her look. âIâm pretty fuckinâ happy. Are you happy with your uh, girlfriend? Have I met her?â
âYeah,â she nods, grinning. âItâs Cat!â
His eyes roundâhe was under the impression Cat is her best friend, and he has met the other girl many times.
âWell, Iâll be damned,â he chuckles, shaking his head. âYouâre way better at this secret girlfriend stuff than I am. I had no clue. I like Cat; sheâs got all those neat tattoos.â
âShe does!â she replies with a grin. âAnd Iâm getting one!â
âYouâre what?!â
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Honey | Joel Miller x f!reader
Summary: A party is supposed to be the time of your life, but this party quickly turns into a nightmare. You called your Dadâs best friend Joel Miller. He comes to your rescue, and he is not too happy with your boyfriendâŚ
Paring: dbf!Joel Miller x f!reader
Tags: dbf! Joel Miller, protective Joel Miller (he would literally burn the world and not let a flame touch you), you have an asshole boyfriend (OC bf: Henry, OC best friend: Maya), age gap (youâre 21, Joel is 35), no outbreak au, hurt/ comfort, no smut in this part but part 2 will, just fluff, Joel Miller is a softie, Joel is a GENTLEMAN
Warnings: SA attempt- not by Joel (itâs very brief. I wonât get into too much detail), and vomiting. If any of this triggers you in any way, please donât read!
A/n: Hello beautiful people!! Ahhhhh!! Iâve been wanting to do a dbf! Joel Miller fic for so long, and Iâm so excited to write this! I will separate this story into 2 parts. Maybe I will add more, we shall see. Here is part 1. I hope yâall enjoy! <3
Pt. 1
Pt. 2: (in progress)
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âYou remembered,â you said. Joel tilts his head.
âWith what?â
âYou remembered I liked honey in my tea,â you said with a soft smile. Joel smiles back.
âOf course I remembered. I remember everything.â
College is all about discovering who are, learning new subjects, trying drugs and alcohol, and being wild and free, right?
You go to a university near your hometown, and you love it. It was a party school and parties were thrown left and right, and you donât even need to be invited. You absolutely loved it. As you were a teenager, you didnât have much experience with alcohol, drugs, parties, and even sex. You have very strict parents. They wouldnât even let you have a sleepover. So college was the perfect opportunity for you to do all the things you missed as a teenager.
You went to a bunch of parties and met a lot of people. You even met your first-ever boyfriend, Henry. He was very much a playboy, but you felt like he was different with you. You were so wrongâŚ
You both have been dating for just a few months. Your parents met him, and even your Dadâs best friend Joel Miller met him too. You might as well make him part of the family now.
Henry got invited to one of the biggest parties that was being thrown at your college. It was an end-of-the-year type of party, and Henry of course invited you along.
The party was on a Friday night at a frat house, and there were so many lights and music blaring through the speakers. You and Henry entered inside, and you saw him dab up some of his buddies. You stand there awkwardly. Without any warning, Henry then yanks your hand to come closer to him and his friends.
âSo this is my girl. Babe, meet the boys,â Henry said.
His friends look at you up and down like youâre a piece of meat and one of them even whistles at you.
âDamn, so she is real,â one of his friends sneers.
Henry playfully punches his shoulder.
âYeah she is, and sheâs sexy,â Henry bragged.
You felt disgusted. You didnât even feel valued or even flattered. You did not feel like a girlfriend. You just felt like a trophy that is being shown off to a bunch of assholes.
âShe is hot. You did good bro,â his other friend chimed in.
You internally rolled your eyes, and you immediately needed a drink. Henry can be so sweet and kind to you, but then there are times when heâs like⌠well this.
âIâm gonna get a drink,â you said to Henry. You started to walk away from him and his friends.
âAlright, go get me one!â Henry yelled back.
You give him a quick nod and walk to the drink station. As you were making yourself a drink, a girl gives you a big hug almost making you spill your drink everywhere. It was your best friend, Maya.
âHey girl!! Youâre here!!â Maya squealed while hugging you tightly. You laughed and hugged her back.
âOh my God! I didnât know you were coming to this party.â
âOf course Iâm gonna be here. Iâm here to get fucked up,â Maya laughed. You laughed too.
âWho are you with?â Maya asked.
âOh, just my boyfriend. You?â
âMy boyfriend too, also some of my friends. Weâll actually be by the pool outside. Weâre gonna⌠you know,â Maya then makes a smoking signal with her hand referring to weed.
You chuckle and nod your head, âIâll keep that in mind.â
Maya gives you one last hug and starts to leave you.
âWell, Iâll be outside. See you around!â
Maya skips away, and you smile at her. You finish making your drink and start heading back to Henry. Henry doesnât even hesitate to take your drink and chug it down tossing the empty cup to the side.
Shit. You realized you forgot to make him a drink, and he was thinking your drink was his.
âWhere the fuck were you? You took forever I was finally growing a beard,â Henry teased.
You werenât even that amused by him. Heâs just rude, especially when intoxicated. You were still not over how he let his friends treat you that way. You honestly would rather hang with Maya than with him, but you hope for the night to go better.
âSorry, I was talking to Maya,â you replied.
Henry looks at you with a puzzled face.
âWho the fuck is Maya?â he asked.
Now youâre really annoyed. Maya is your best friend, and youâve told him about her so many times. Heâs even met her, yet he still canât remember anything you tell him.
âMy best friendâŚâ you said with a tint of annoyance behind your voice.
âOhhhh right right,â Henry said while slapping his forehead. Henry then takes a vodka bottle and hands it to you.
âHere drink,â Henry said. You take a swig of the vodka bottle, and you gag.
âFuck, I forgot how nasty vodka is,â you said. Henry laughed.
âNow letâs have some fun babe,â Henry said while grabbing your hand and leading you to the dance floor.
The night goes on, and the party does not seem to die whatsoever. Maya did leave eventually, and now itâs just you and Henry. You and Henry are absolutely drunk and wasted. You both have been dancing, playing beer pong, and even at one point you both jumped in the pool. You forgot that you were even annoyed with Henry. You were having so much fun.
Your memory is now becoming bits and pieces. You were so drunk, you didnât even know where you were, but you somehow ended up in someoneâs room and Henry was with you. You were both making out on the bed.
You never had sex before. Youâve done oral sex, and youâve received oral sex. And youâve been fingered, all by Henry, but youâve never done the real deal. However, tonight feels like itâs leading up to it.
Henry is on top of you kissing you and your body. He started to take off your clothes, and he was so rough with it that he ripped a fabric on your top. He then starts taking off his shirt. He holds you down roughly and hard. Your shoulder started to hurt because of how hard he was holding you.
You were drunk, and it was hard for you to piece everything together. But you were able to realize what was going on. You didnât want your first time to be like this. You didnât want this at all. You begin to push Henry away from you.
âH-Hen⌠stop,â you mumbled. You kept trying to push him away, but he wouldnât budge. You were incapable of pushing him away. Henry continues kissing you and slurs his words.
âCome on baby⌠I know you want this,â Henry slurred. You try pushing him away again. Nothing. He kept kissing you and touching you.
âP-please stop,â you said again except this time your voice was a little louder. Henry pretended to not hear you and kept kissing you. He started to unbuckle his pants which made you snap. You pushed him with all your might, and he fell backward.
âI said stop!!â you yelled and curled up into a ball covering yourself feeling small and vulnerable. Henry pulls up his pants, clearly angry at you.
âWhat the fuck!!â Henry yelled furiously. You started to scramble looking for your clothes and quickly putting them on. Henry walks towards you, and you immediately back away from him.
âG-get the fuck away from me!â you yelled and before you can even hear Henryâs reaction, you were already running down the stairs and going outside to the front yard. You were holding back tears still trying to process what just happened.
You took out your phone and looked through your contacts. You were thinking of calling your parents to come pick you up, but you couldnât. Your parents would kill you if they even found out you were drinking and partying.
Say bye-bye to university, and say hello to community college while living with your parents. You kept looking through your contacts, and you couldnât call anyone. All your high school friends are in different colleges, and your other family members donât live in your town.
Then you thought of Maya. You clicked on her contact picture, and your phone barely even rang. It just went straight to voicemail. You tried calling again, and it was the same thing. It went straight to voicemail.
Shit, her phone must have died. You wanted to cry now that you have no one to contact. You look through your contacts again, and you see his name. Joel Miller.
Joel Miller, your Dadâs best friend. Youâve always had a little crush on him since you were 18. You always texted your friends that the Joel Miller was at your house hanging with your dad. He always gave you butterflies. He didnât even have to say anything. He could just look at you with his deep brown eyes and your stomach would flutter.
His broad shoulders, scruffy beard, big hands, his rough voice, his muscles, his natural musk, everything about this man made you feel things you never felt before.
You wish he would want you in that way, but you were probably too young in his eyes, and on top of that, heâs your dadâs best friend. It could never happen. Itâs absolutely forbidden. It was just a harmless crush, so whatâs wrong with that?
But he was always kind to you. He was always there to give you advice. He always listens and never invalidates you. He understands you. You love your parents with all your heart, but you feel like they donât get you. But Joel does.
And heâs funny. His jokes are always corny, but you canât help to always laugh. You both had stupid inside jokes with each other. You both had a bond that felt like it could never break, but when you met Henry, you and Joelâs relationship started to fade. You didnât talk to him much, and you didnât see him that much either. This may also be because you never visit home. You wanted to be free and do all the things you were never allowed to do, but tonight made you realize you should go home more often.
You look at Joelâs contact longingly and you finally click his contact. He was the only one nearby that you knew since your university was close to your hometown. You crossed your fingers that he would answer. You were scared he wouldnât pick up. It was close to three in the morning, so you wouldnât be surprised if he didnât. Your phone kept ringing, and finally, it stopped.
âHello?â Joel asked in a groggy voice. He clearly was waking up from his sleep, which made you feel bad, but you needed him.
âJ-Joel?â you said with some distress in your voice.
Joel sits up and his voice quickly becomes concerned.
âWhat happened?â
Now heâs awake. You tried to hold back tears as you tried explaining to Joel what happened.
âI- I was at a party w-with my boyfriend and heâŚâ you couldnât even finish your sentence. You started to cry softly.
âDid he hurt you?â Joel asked. This time his voice became gruff. It was almost unrecognizable. Joel was always a calm man, but this time it was different.
âCan you please just pick me up?â you whimpered as tears fell down your face. You couldnât even answer Joelâs question. You just wanted to leave this party.
On the other end of the line, you can hear Joel standing up, and grabbing his keys.
âIâm on my way. Send me the address.â
Your fingers were shaky as you typed the address to Joel. You can hear Joel start his truck.
âDo you have a friend at the party that you can stay with in the meantime?â
âN-no she left already,â you said while choking on your tears.
âOkay, just stay put. Iâll be there in 20 minutes. Okay?â Joel said. His voice was gentle and reassuring. Heâs going to pick you up, and itâs going to be okay.
âO-okay.â
You hang up the phone and sit on the ground hugging onto your knees. You felt so cold and dirty. You cried even harder as you waited for Joel.
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It wasnât even 15 minutes, and Joel was already pulling up with his truck. He must have been speeding to get here that fast. You stood up at the sight of his truck. Joel stops the truck and gets out immediately walking towards you. There was concern and worry written all over his face.
Joel studies your face and looks all over your body as if he was searching for any injuries you may have.
âAre you okay? Are you hurt?â Joel asked frantically. He touches your face softly, and before you can even answer him, his eyes travel to your shoulder. He freezes. He sees the fabric of your top torn. He looks at you then back at your shoulder. He takes his hand and unfolds the ripped part of your top. He sees the bruise that was forming on your shoulder. Joel looks at you again. His eyes werenât soft anymore. They were filled with rage.
âDid he hurt you?â Joel asked coldly. You stuttered. You didnât want this to be a bigger issue. You just wanted to go home.
âJoel I- itâs nothing I swear,â you replied.
Joel ignored you. He knew Henry hurt you, and he was furious. He never liked Henry from the very beginning. He always knew he was a douchebag.
âIâm gonna kill him.â
In the blink of an eye, Joel was already heading towards the frat house. He was gonna find him, and he was gonna make him regret for ever laying a finger on you. Joel saw pure red.
You immediately grabbed his arm trying to hold him back. You then hold onto the front of his shirt with your hands. Joel didnât look at you. He only looked at the house with the only intention to go in there and beat the shit out of Henry.
âJoel please donât. H-heâs not worth it, please. I- I just want to go home, p-please,â you begged as your voice cracked and tears ran down your cheeks.
Joel then looks at you and the rage behind his eyes vanishes. His eyes softened at the sight of you. You were so broken and scared, and he just wanted to keep you safe and make you feel safe. He would never want to upset you more. He wanted to kill Henry. That didnât change, but you didnât need that right now. You needed someone by your side, and he was going to do that for you.
You kept begging Joel to not do anything, and he eventually calmed you down by surrendering all of his anger. He nods his head and holds onto your hands that were grabbing his shirt.
âOkay⌠okay,â Joel softly said. You sighed in relief.
âThank youâŚâ you whispered. Joel looks at you with the most gentle eyes while holding your hands.
âYou want me to take you to your parents?â
You immediately panic at the idea of being at your parents. They would kill you if they ever found out about any of this.
âNo, no, please. Not my parents,â you said quickly.
You were thinking of him just dropping you off at your dorm, but you didnât want to be alone. Not tonight.
âYou want to stay at my place?â Joel asked.
The amount of relief you felt that he suggested that. You would love that. To be with him, to feel safe.
You nod your head, and with that, Joel gives you a soft "okay" and wipes your excess tears with his thumb. His gentle touch made you melt. You never wanted him to stop touching you.
Joel then grabs one of your hands and walks towards his truck. His hand was so much bigger than yours, and it made your stomach flutter.
Joel opens the passenger door and leads you inside. He takes off his jacket and puts it over you. It smells just like him. It made you feel so safe. Joel then puts on your seatbelt and closes the door. He walked to the other side getting on his seat and was about to start the truck, but he hesitated. He still wanted to go inside and punch Henry right in the face. You notice his hesitation, troubled face, and the way he was gripping the wheel tightly. You knew he wanted to fight Henry. He didnât even have to say anything.
"...Joel?"
You put your hand on his arm to break him out of this trance and reassure him, and he immediately looks at you. All the features on his face soften. You both said nothing to each other. There was no need for words. Joel sees you, and youâre safe. He wants to keep it that way, so he breaks eye contact as you let go of his arm. He starts the truck and drives away from that nightmarish party.
Joel drove, and the both of you were silent. You didnât say a word and neither did he. Joel was itching to know what happened to you, but he knew it was bad. He didnât want to push you to say anything that youâre not comfortable with. He kept his hands on the wheel and occasionally would look at you just to make sure you were there. He felt silly that he would even think you would disappear from him, but he physically needed to make sure you were there, safe.
You stopped crying, and you felt the dried tears crusting all over your cheeks. You kept your face forward not looking at Joel. You did feel him look at you from time to time, but you just couldnât bring yourself to look at him right now.
Finally, Joel pulls up to his driveway. His house was the same as always. He still had flowers in his front yard, which you always teased him about, but he takes very good care of them by the looks of it. You saw the same two plastic flamingo statues in his front yard. Sarah, his daughter, picked them out and added her own designs onto them which included stickers and glitter. You find it very wholesome that Joel never took the flamingos down.
Sarah was only 7 now. Joel and his ex-girlfriend had an unexpected pregnancy hence Sarah was born. They broke up and never got married, but they made a mutual agreement to co-parent. Sarah will stay at Joelâs for a couple of weeks then she will stay at her Momâs for a couple of weeks.
It always crushes Joel when she has to go. Sarah is his whole world, and he is such a good Dad. You saw how good of a Dad he is.
Joel stops the truck and the both of you get out. Joel gets out his keys and unlocks his front door.
âIs Sarah here?â you asked meekly.
âNo, no sheâs not here. Sheâs with her Mom right now,â Joel replied. You nod your head. Joel leads you inside into the living room letting you sit down on the couch.
The inside of his house was the same. Nothing has changed. It was so manly, yet it was sprinkled with girly stuff all around because of Sarah.
âIâm gonna make you some tea, okay?â Joel said.
And before he could leave, your stomach dropped at the idea of being alone. You didnât want to be alone, not now. You instantly held his arm.
âW-Will you be back?â
Joel noticed your panic and bent down at your level.
âOf course Iâll be back. Iâll be right over there, okay?â Joel reassured you with a soft smile. You nod your head, and he leaves the living room going into the kitchen to make tea.
You sat on the couch waiting for him. You slowly started to feel anxious being alone, but then you would hear a little noise in the kitchen which gave you comfort that he was still here. He never left you, and itâs going to be okay. You look around the living room trying to distract yourself from your thoughts. You look at the pictures around you. Some had just Joel and Tommy, his brother, being goofy with each other. There were others with just Joel and Sarah. There was one picture in particular of Sarah sitting on his shoulders with the biggest smile on her face, and Joelâs smile was even bigger. It made you smile. It was so sweet seeing this. Joel and Sarah against the world.
You picked up the picture taking a closer look. You looked at the picture longingly, and you got interrupted by the sound of Joel's footsteps. You looked up, and Joel was there with your tea in his hand. Your cheeks flushed feeling flustered, and you immediately put the picture down.
âSorry,â you said.
âNo, itâs okay honey. You know, Sarah kept begging me to get on my shoulders. I kept saying no, but I learned that day, I can never say no to that face,â Joel chuckled. You chuckled as well. You can perfectly envision it. Seeing Sarah begging for something, and Joel eventually giving in after saying no multiple times.
âWell, it made a good picture.â
âYeah it sure did,â Joel said while sitting down on the couch. You sit down next to him, and he gives you your tea.
âThank you,â you said as you take your tea.
âOf course darlinâ,â Joel replied.
You blew on the top of your tea and took a sip. You recognized there was honey in it as there was a kick of sweetness. You loved honey in your tea. He remembered. He remembered you liked honey in your tea.
You look at Joel, and he is already looking at you finding approval if you liked the tea or not.
âYou remembered,â you said. Joel tilts his head.
âWith what?â
âYou remembered I liked honey in my tea,â you said with a soft smile. Joel smiles back.
âOf course I remembered. I remember everything.â
You look at him in awe. This man cannot be more perfect. Henry couldnât even remember your best friend, but Joel remembered you liked honey in your tea. It made your heart flutter, and your cheeks become warm. You eventually broke eye contact and kept drinking your tea.
âSo, I donât see you much anymore,â Joel said breaking the silence.
You felt him looking at you, but you couldnât bring yourself to look at him. You kept looking at your tea almost feeling a little ashamed you donât visit home often.
âYeah, Iâm sorry. I know I should be visiting home more often,â you replied.
âNo, itâs okay. I mean youâre an adult. You should be able to make your own decisions, but⌠it would be nice to see you more often.â
You look up at him and give him a playful smirk, âDo you miss me?â
Joel chuckles as if that was a foolish question.
âOf course I missed you.â
His face became serious. He means it. He misses you so much. After your freshman year of college, you stopped going home. He understood that youâre probably having fun in college with friends and with boys, but he wanted to see you so bad. He would often visit your Dad not even to see him, but to see if you visited home. Each time, it was a disappointment.
âWell, Iâll visit more often,â you said.
Joel gives you a smile.
âGood.â
You kept sipping on your tea, and it was a comfortable silence between you two.
âAre you okay honey? After⌠tonight?â Joel asked.
You freeze and become tense. You grip harder onto your tea. You wished this never happened at the party. It happened so fast, youâre still trying to process everything. You felt so naive and stupid.
âI⌠I donât know. Henryâs a dick.â
âYeah, he is. And if I ever see him, Iâll beat his ass,â Joel said. You give a humorless laugh. It was supposed to be a joke, but Joel was also very serious.
âI know you will.â You take another sip of your tea, and Joel puts his hand on your unharmed shoulder.
âLook, I donât know what happened tonight, and Iâm not gonna force you to say anything. But Iâm here for you always, and youâre safe. I would never do anything to hurt you or make you afraid, okay? Iâll always be here if you need to talk.â
Tears started to build up in your eyes. Joel cared for you so much, and you knew he would never hurt you like the way Henry did. You start to cry, and Joel without hesitation puts your tea to the side and puts you on his lap.
âOh honey, câmere. Câmere. Itâs okay. Youâre okay,â Joel mumbled into your hair.
You sit in his lap crying onto his chest. Joel rubs his fingers through your hair so tenderly. He whispered comforting words to you over and over again. You felt so safe, so protected. Nothing can harm you now being with him.
Joel continues holding you. You both sit that way for a few minutes, but your stomach starts to turn. You felt nauseated as you felt your body slowly start rejecting the alcohol in your stomach.
âJoel Iâm gonna throw up.â
Before Joel could say anything, you got off his lap and ran to the nearest bathroom. You opened the toilet and vomit immediately escaped your mouth. You kept throwing up, and you eventually felt Joel by your side. He held up your hair and rubbed your back.
Between throwing up, you kept apologizing. You felt embarrassed being this vulnerable with Joel, but Joel was so gentle with you.
âIâm so s-sorry Joel,â you sobbed.
âShhh, donât apologize honey. Just let it out.â
You throw up more, and Joel continues rubbing your back and holding up your hair.
âAttagirl, let it out.â
This went on for a few minutes, and you felt so much better. You caught up with your breath and leaned against the wall. Joel gets a towel and runs it in water. He tilts your chin up so that youâre looking at him.
âLook at me.â
Your stomach did a whole backflip as he said this to you. He takes the wet towel and starts wiping the excess throw up on your lips and your chin. His touch was so gentle and precise as he wiped away the remainder of your throw up. You felt your cheeks become warm as you felt embarrassed again.
âIâm sorryâŚâ you mumbled.
âHoney, stop apologizing.â
You nod your head, and Joel finishes cleaning you. He observes your face.
âHm, we should get your makeup off,â Joel suggested.
You donât even know what your makeup looks like. It probably looked horrendous. Your cheeks became warm again.
âFollow me,â Joel said. The both of you get off the floor, and you flush the toilet. Joel led you to the master bathroom, and he started searching for something in his cabinets. He finally stops and pulls out makeup wipes. You looked at him confused because why would he out of all people have makeup wipes.
âMakeup wipes?â you asked curiously.
Joel chuckles. âItâs Sarahâs. She likes it when I do her makeup and sometimes she likes doing mine.â
You giggle softly. You found that very cute that he does her makeup, and that he allowed her to do his for fun.
Joel pulls out a makeup wipe and gently wipes the messy makeup off your face. He wasnât aggressive or rough when wiping away your makeup. You just look at him unable to really say anything. He was so kind.
âThere. All done.â
You felt so much fresher now that your makeup was off thanks to Joel.
âThank you,â you said.
âOf course darlinâ. You want uh⌠to change clothes?â Joel asked with a bit of hesitation in his voice.
You nod your head yes. Joel heads to his closet and pulls out one of his shirts and sweatpants. He then hands them to you.
âThey might be a little too big, but it should work for tonight.â
âThank you, Joel,â you respond with a smile.
Joel smiles back, âOf course honey. Iâll be downstairs on the couch.â
You hear Joelâs heavy footsteps walk down the stairs. You take off your ruined clothes and slip on his shirt and sweatpants. It looked huge on you. His clothes smelled just like him, and it was comforting.
You walk down the stairs meeting Joel on the couch. Joel looks at you and his eyes widen slightly. He clears his throat as he sees you. Secretly, he liked seeing you in his clothes.
You sit next to Joel on the couch. You wanted to get your mind off of everything that happened tonight. A movie would be a perfect solution for that.
âCan we watch a movie?â you asked.
Joel clears his throat again, âYeah, yeah. What do you want to watch?â
âJurassic Park.â
Joel smiles. âAh, thatâs a classic.â
âItâs a great movie,â you replied.
Joel turns on the TV and searches for Jurassic Park. It was on none of his streaming services, so he rented it for 4 dollars. You and Joel only sat next to each other. As much as you wanted to, you didnât cuddle with him. You kept your distance and so did he.
As the movie kept playing, your eyes became extremely heavy, and you started to fall asleep. You didnât realize, but you leaned closer to Joel and your head was on his shoulder. You fell asleep not even halfway through the movie. It was like your body and mind telling you that you were safe. No one is going to hurt you, and itâs safe to sleep. Joel is safe. Safe.
Joel noticed you slumped over on his shoulder. He didnât dare to move. He found it endearing watching you sleep on his shoulder. He wasn't even watching the movie anymore.
The movie ends, and Joel turns off the TV. He carefully gets up and picks you up in his big arms. You groaned as he moved you into his arms, but you were fast asleep. Joel walks upstairs and goes straight to his bedroom. He gently sets you down on his bed and puts you under the covers. He wanted you to be comfy in his bed while he slept downstairs on the couch.
Joel tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, and as he pulls away from you, you subconsciously reach for him. Even though you were asleep, it felt so empty without him being there. You whimpered and desperately searched for him in your sleep. You felt his arm, and you put his arm near your chest holding it like you were holding a stuffed animal. You stopped whimpering, and you felt safe again in your sleep.
Joel sighed. He didnât want to leave you alone. You clearly didnât want to be alone, so Joel decided to stay with you. He pulls himself into the covers with you, and he holds you from behind. You fit like a glove in his arms.
This felt so intimate for Joel. It almost scared him. He never wanted to be intimate with anyone after his ex, but he canât help it for you. You were perfect. So perfect. What were these feelings he was feeling? You were like a delicate flower, and he didnât want to wilt or crush you. He canât feel this way, not with you. Youâre his best friendâs daughter. It's wrong. So wrong, but Joel feels so warm and light when heâs with you. He never felt this before, but he brushed his thoughts to the side and pulled you in closer. This will be tomorrowâs problem, but now, heâs going to give you the support and comfort you need even in your sleep.
And the both of you fall into a deep, deep sleep.
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Thank you all for reading!!! I hope y'all enjoyed! Stay tuned for part 2... it's gonna get spicy ;)
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