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I give 2 a lot of shit (mostly deserved given her propensity to open doors, maul vet techs, sneeze in my face at odd hours, and put dead things in my shoes) but I will say she's the only one of my cats , who will immediately jump up and run over to me if I make a sad cat noise.

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after taking the time to discuss it with a Dr with 30 yrs experience, apparently the normal result you would have expected from doing the test that incorrectly was "no change." literally 0. there shouldn't have been Any significant drop noticable after only a few seconds of going from sitting to standing.

But yeah sure it's totally cool and fine to refuse to begin any treatment or symptom management for three months👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

I finally got the echo for my heart done today and Nothing was more vindicating than telling the nurse what was going on (fainting on sitting and standing, extreme wooziness while standing to the point I can't walk anymore, frequent fainting and constant headaches, heart rate regularly getting above 150bpm while just vibing, the fact no cardiac evaluation had ever shown anything etc) and that the Dr had out right dismissed the possibility of pots bc 1 blood pressure test showed a 12 point difference between sitting and standing instead of the 16 point needed for diagnosis(outdated method due to being extremely prone to false negatives)

And she went :/ did he do a tilt table test(current method)?

no.

>:[ I'm putting it in your file that he should do a tilt table test at your next visit.

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I'm still being annoying about this,

random snippets I thought were funny but no one mentioned at time:

And this passage which is here bc I needed something to represent it taking Karl getting beat to hell and put into time out by a big monster for him to consider that he Might have a crush:

anyways we're 66k into this now and we aren't through the first paragraph of that real synopsis yet because it took a long ass time to beat Heisenberg into the right position.

Idk. I've been good not like. Rambling about my RE8 fic but I need to bc I'm really liking how it's coming along.

So the joke synopsis is "Ethan and Karl make a baby"

The actual synopsis is "A guy who has had his entire life hijacked and his dignity ruined in service of bringing a dead girl back to life only to be killed before he could ever see his freedom is given a second shot at life and promised everything he's ever wanted by the guy who killed him. No strings attached. It's an apology. It's what he's owed. But, he could have more if he just does what he swore he never would and help bring the girl back. A few weeks work and he's not just free, he wouldn't be on the run. He'd be helped and set up wherever he wants far far away from this hell.

He does the work. He makes something ugly and barley able to survive but exactly good enough to fulfill his end of the deal, only to have it turn and look at him. She never had a choice in any of this either. He works and works and works to make her properly after that. Building a body from tissue grafts until it's not a foul homunculus a half second from rotting to pieces. But a little girl who thinks they're playing when he tests to make sure he connected her muscles right. Who runs to him when she's scared and who calls the man who killed him and who he made her from "Papa" because that's the nickname he uses for him too. She calls him brother because he didn't tolerate her calling him her father.

and he's still in that hell. But he's happy. He's so happy it hurts sometimes. and one night he goes to bed late, and that man and their- the man's daughter is sleeping tucked up beside him and they were waiting for him to come to bed because she had another nightmare and needs both of them. And he realizes he's still just as trapped here as he has always been. Even if he was technically given his freedom weeks ago. There was always another excuse to stay. He goes to bed, but leaves again before either of them wake. Because he needs to be free, and there is no freedom for him in that home."

or more succinctly: you don't escape something by living as an inversion of it. demanding freedom from a dead woman and Nuking the best thing that's ever happened to you because it's what She would have wanted doesn't mean you've escaped her. You're still letting her define your life.

Or the other joke synopsis: No One Gets Weird Enough About Characters With Super Healing. Especially when there's a Frankenstein Right There.

or the last joke synopsis: Ethan has the weirdest fucking affair possible.

Thank you for reading my post about my fanfiction. Good night.

the one scene that isn't in the fic yet but which I think is funny:

Mia:"Penny for your thoughts?"

Heisenberg, while laying face down on her couch, sulking, "I shouldve gotten your husband pregnant"

[bitchfitch]

Idk. I've been good not like. Rambling about my RE8 fic but I need to bc I'm really liking how it's coming along.

So the joke synopsis is "Ethan and Karl make a baby"

The actual synopsis is "A guy who has had his entire life hijacked and his dignity ruined in service of bringing a dead girl back to life only to be killed before he could ever see his freedom is given a second shot at life and promised everything he's ever wanted by the guy who killed him. No strings attached. It's an apology. It's what he's owed. But, he could have more if he just does what he swore he never would and help bring the girl back. A few weeks work and he's not just free, he wouldn't be on the run. He'd be helped and set up wherever he wants far far away from this hell.

He does the work. He makes something ugly and barley able to survive but exactly good enough to fulfill his end of the deal, only to have it turn and look at him. She never had a choice in any of this either. He works and works and works to make her properly after that. Building a body from tissue grafts until it's not a foul homunculus a half second from rotting to pieces. But a little girl who thinks they're playing when he tests to make sure he connected her muscles right. Who runs to him when she's scared and who calls the man who killed him and who he made her from "Papa" because that's the nickname he uses for him too. She calls him brother because he didn't tolerate her calling him her father.

and he's still in that hell. But he's happy. He's so happy it hurts sometimes. and one night he goes to bed late, and that man and their- the man's daughter is sleeping tucked up beside him and they were waiting for him to come to bed because she had another nightmare and needs both of them. And he realizes he's still just as trapped here as he has always been. Even if he was technically given his freedom weeks ago. There was always another excuse to stay. He goes to bed, but leaves again before either of them wake. Because he needs to be free, and there is no freedom for him in that home."

or more succinctly: you don't escape something by living as an inversion of it. demanding freedom from a dead woman and Nuking the best thing that's ever happened to you because it's what She would have wanted doesn't mean you've escaped her. You're still letting her define your life.

Or the other joke synopsis: No One Gets Weird Enough About Characters With Super Healing. Especially when there's a Frankenstein Right There.

or the last joke synopsis: Ethan has the weirdest fucking affair possible.

Thank you for reading my post about my fanfiction. Good night.

the one scene that isn't in the fic yet but which I think is funny:

Mia:"Penny for your thoughts?"

Heisenberg, while laying face down on her couch, sulking, "I shouldve gotten your husband pregnant"

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I'm asking bc right now , in my quest to remain a kind person who has never seriously injured someone, I am spending a Lot of time working on my fic. and have had an upload every other dayish for this last little bit bc I'm excited about the story. But my worry is it's irritating and it'd be better to go for a more paced out approach and just. have chapters sit done for a bit before they get posted.

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Anyways if I walked in after having my appointment delayed from FEBRUARY TO APRIL, said Hey I have a genetic condition which POTS is a known and extremely common comorbidity of and, these symptoms , and also it's been so significantly crippling it's causing heart attacks and made me have to quit my job because I couldn't do the work anymore, and the doctor does one blood pressure test(while sitting up, not after laying down for 10 minutes), has me stand which I can barely do because of the vertigo, immediately takes a second BP reading instead of waiting 2 minutes like he was supposed to according to the actual criteria for the, again outdated, test. Says nope not pots. Fuck off. I'm not giving you anything for symptom management or helping in anyway until all the testing is done (2 week heart monitor, blood test, and an echocardiogram) and also you can't have an appointment for three months.

and I get there. and he does the one(1) test(tilt table) that I had not had in the last 6 months.(at the time of the first visit) and gets the pots diagnosis. I am going to maul him.

(I am changing docs as soon as I have all the results from these test btw, Fuck this guy.)

I finally got the echo for my heart done today and Nothing was more vindicating than telling the nurse what was going on (fainting on sitting and standing, extreme wooziness while standing to the point I can't walk anymore, frequent fainting and constant headaches, heart rate regularly getting above 150bpm while just vibing, the fact no cardiac evaluation had ever shown anything etc) and that the Dr had out right dismissed the possibility of pots bc 1 blood pressure test showed a 12 point difference between sitting and standing instead of the 16 point needed for diagnosis(outdated method due to being extremely prone to false negatives)

And she went :/ did he do a tilt table test(current method)?

no.

>:[ I'm putting it in your file that he should do a tilt table test at your next visit.

[bitchfitch]

I finally got the echo for my heart done today and Nothing was more vindicating than telling the nurse what was going on (fainting on sitting and standing, extreme wooziness while standing to the point I can't walk anymore, frequent fainting and constant headaches, heart rate regularly getting above 150bpm while just vibing, the fact no cardiac evaluation had ever shown anything etc) and that the Dr had out right dismissed the possibility of pots bc 1 blood pressure test showed a 12 point difference between sitting and standing instead of the 16 point needed for diagnosis(outdated method due to being extremely prone to false negatives)

And she went :/ did he do a tilt table test(current method)?

no.

>:[ I'm putting it in your file that he should do a tilt table test at your next visit.

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happy bad comic day to those who celebrate

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today's "why are you doing that stop doing that":

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Beau and Nacho for @befeatheredbiped !

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new comms sheet! All of the money generated through commissions this year will go towards saving up for a service dog :>

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"he would not fucking do that" Boring and uninspired. "What would have to happen to this person to Make him do that" is the real question.

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the impromptu surgical implantation was absolutely s sex thing for one of them too but not the other

also in story it's been like. 3 days,

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things are going great.

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hm I've found a new way to be very annoying