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magical girl eliatrope designs i did for fun :)

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Screaming crying throwing up bashing my head against the walls about arty and gou again, they make me ill

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"Reincarnated somewhere else ☀️" [post S4]

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KINDA WHAT!!

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I can’t get over his stupid little smile he’s so happy that his friends still love him

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something is happening to me

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Because of dunmesh I now want to draw chimera arty but it's way above my skill level :')

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I do believe goultard should have a child alter so he could have some well-deserved fun baby time, he'd be besties with elely and it would also give tristepin a chance to be the father figure goultard needed.

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sexbang

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It gnaws on its own tail

Feeding into and upon itself

Succubus ouroboros

Chewing whole to self ingest

It takes what I can't give

The body betrays itself

I've been thinking a lot about Goultard's system and have some headcanons about how it works. I wanted to create a new alter, which - just like Vlad represents Gou's rage, hatred, blood-lust - would be a reflection of his pain and fears, as well as a lot of other undesirable repressed memories and emotions. Disgust, guilt, grief, self-hatred... Vanya remembers the most accurately the feeling of being inhabited for centuries by Medoroziam, and faces most of the consequences of the trauma it caused.

I was listening to Body Betrays Itself by Pharmakon as well as Day of Tears and Mourning by Ligna Ignota while coming up with him, so you can listen too if you want to get a feel of what I was going for :)

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About Goultard's Dissociative Identity Disorder

This post is a collection of thoughts, analysis, wild extrapolating, reading too much into small details, and pure speculation. Please forgive how messy this is, this whole post might be uncomprehensible.

Some things Goultard says about the system

- he created it to make immortality bearable

I truly dont believe he means he consciously created his alters. He can hardly control them. They were a creation of his mind as a means of coping with / surviving the various traumas he faced throughout his life.

- it's a curse given by his father

Either the "curse" he speaks of is immortality itself, or he holds his father and god responsible for what he's had to go through (without him ever protecting or saving him)

The Alters

Goultard : Apparently Normal Part, Host. He's aware of the system. But sometimes partially forgets about it and how it functions.

I assume he has pretty unreliable memory. Sometimes forgets where he is, how he got there, what he was supposed to do, he can forget about things that happened or that he did etc...

Classic dissociation + can enter a kind of hibernation/complete dormancy and sleep for weeks, months, years, when needed or out of boredom.

Vlad : Emotional Part. Formerly unaware of the system, now aware of it (or at least aware of goultard being the host) embodies anger, exteriorizes unresolved rage and resentment by violently lashing out until the body has calmed down.

Somewhat naturally takes a protective role without really meaning to, taking control when certain emotions become too much to bear for the host, redirecting the violence outward instead of inwards.

First fronting triggered by Algathe's death.

Vald : Between Fragment and Apparently Normal Part. Not aware of the system. Too little experience and time fronting to pass as a fully formed individual (but people usually assume he's just stupid). In a way, his role IS to be too stupid to feel sadness, or anything much. But could develop into a real ANP if given the chance.

Born out of a desire for numbness. Possibly related to missing the crimson dofus after it was taken away from the system?? The whole system seems very attached to the crimson dofus, yearning for its warmth, letting its power consume them from the inside out.

How they form

Vlad and Vald didnt suddenly appear because of a single event each triggering them into existence. Rather they formed slowly and over extended periods of time from more or less specific needs, locked away in the confines of the mind before being awakened and forced to front by a triggering event causing a switch.

The underlying cause of the disorder being the hundreds of years spent inhabitated by a symbiotic shushu, manipulating his emotions and sense of self, slowly fracturing it over time.

Other Alters ?

There could potentially be more alters staying in hiding, unbeknownst to Goultard (and the rest of the system)

The differences between the way goultard acts in dofus and in wakfu, specifically emotionally, could imply a split happened between dofus and wakfu. A new identity that hasnt fronted yet would have taken these aspects that the host no longer has.

Most probably caused by losing arty, goultard's love for him was what freed him from the demon after all.

Goultard now hides in order to cry, when he used to feel no shame crying nuzzled in Arty's arms.

This would have been exacerbated by Goultard being put into a role of mentor and caregiver to Tristepin, worsening his emotional repression (that a new emotional part could have formed to embody instead).

Tristepin being the reincarnation of his father, whom he has conflicted feelings about, and having his children brutally murdered in the past, explain why he'd want/need to keep him at a distance, wanting him to not think of him as family, only as his mentor/master.

Edit : I forgot to mention his habit of self-isolation, just imagine I did

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I might make a second version of the goultard system post with pictures to illustrate if I'm feeling like it idk

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Goultard is so Best Friend by Toy-Box coded in the dofus manga

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Goultard and Katar (wip)

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Did tristepin, one day, find goultard's unconscious seemingly dead body? Desperately tried waking him up but couldn't???

Hey remember in season 1 when tristepin and rubi were absolutely certain that goultard was dead but then it turned out he just got better and he himself seemed sort of surprised about it? Yea, what the fuck was that about?

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I'm gonna make it

Maybe I'll make a post about my headcanons regarding goultard's system 🤔

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I love this rendition of Vald in the wakfu artstyle but I have one problem with it. Where's his miniskirt???