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lachrymosestorm‌.

He didn’t.. even remember his name.. It was on the sad side but she nodded her head. “Yes.. Your name is Tora Igarashi. And my name is Dez Night. I’m a..” What were they even? “…I suppose I’m someone you tolerate at the very least.” She could lie and say they were friends but.. that didn’t seem like the right thing to do after all. And upon any return of his memories she was certain it would only make things worse in the long run.  “……” She picked up the phone and put it in his hand, she was sure he would not expect her to listen to any order he barked at her but she wouldn’t. She never did and never would, only what she considered a simple enough task would she give into any commands. “Does your head hurt? Let me inspect for any wounds..” She wouldn’t touch him without consented permission, but she was worried. If he said no to her request she would probably drag him to a hospital. Memory loss wasn’t something to laugh about after all. It wasn’t funny.

                    ❝  don’t  touch  me.  ❞  acid  tones  that  are  freeze  air,  forced  from  lungs  &  he  doesn’t  know  why.  TOLERATE  the  acid  /  loathing  /  hatred  like  you’re  looking  for  something  this  world  hasn’t  given  you.  a  stare  at  the  phone,  &  he  goes  to  unlock  it  :  he  doesn’t  know  the  password,  he  realises.  ---  fuck,  fuck,  fuck.  mouth  moves  to  bite  lip,  the  only  on  countenance  of  a  disturbance,  but  he  bites  down  gently,  suddenly  aware  of  lips  that  hide  sharp  teeth.

                     ❝  it  doesn’t  hurt.  ❞  he  doesn’t  think  so,  anyway,  but  does  he  even  remember  what  pain  feels  like  ?  (  don’t  be  a  fool,  you  useless  boy  ---  you  can  remember  how  to  speak  &  breathe.  )  ❝  this  phone  ---  ❞  he  then  pulls  up  a  sleeve  to  reveal  a  watch,  ❝  &  this  watch,  they’re pricey.  so  I’m  wealthy,  then.  ❞  &  she’s  not,  is  the  implied  message.  how  did  they  meet  ?    

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sb  :  who the fuck would marry u lmao

tora  :  my fiancee

sb,  doin a double take  :  ur like 18 hoW THE FUCK  ---

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when a minor character you really like gets almost no character development so you gotta develop them yourself

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“ i want my life back. ”

             ❝   you  think  …  i  am  capable  of  taking  it  from  you  ?  ❞

               oh  child  dearest  ,  how  you’ve  never  learned  to  keep  your  mouth  shut  after  all  these  years  ,  hazel  eyes  all  but  boring  into  the  other  ,  a  dare  ,  a  taunt  unbridled  ,  roping  him  in  DEEPER  .  ❝   you  …  are  truly  …  what  is  the  word  you  often  use  …  pathetic  ?  or  perhaps  …  it  is  irritating  …  i  am  not  as  eloquent  …  in   my  words  as  you  are  ,   ❞   you’ll  muse  gently  ,  as  if  nothing  more  than  a  passing  of  the  tide  ,  but  you’re  more  like  the  CRASHING  wave  onto  sharp  ,  jagged  rocks  ,  never  being  eroded  from  the  passage  have  time  .  he  tried   to  change  it  ,  really  ,  a  valiant  but  always  futile  effort  . 

         ❝   s’a  shame  .  i  …  do  not  have  your  life  .  if  i  did  …  ❞   WOULD  YOU  give  it  back  to  him  ?  after  all  this  ,  the  arguments  :  sparked  gasoline  into  a  flame  until  one  of  you  got  BURNT  ,  the  laughter  over  those  you  looked  down  upon  :  crushed  under  your  heel  until  they  shattered  and  broke  into  splintered  pieces  glinting  under  the  moonlight  (  they  were  still  more  beautiful  than  you  two  )  ,  the  mulling  and  musings  :  OVER  DAYS  PAST  and  over  glasses  of  water  and  champagne  respectively  ,  the  champagne  still  too  bitter  on  your  tongue  ,  but  never  as  bitter  as  speaking  his  NAME   like  it  should  be  said  in  reverence  ,  was  it  ?  would  you  give  it  back  to  him  ?

          ❝   …  i  would  .  ❞  at  the  end  of  the  day  ,  let  it  fizzle   from  your  fingertips  ,  nothing  more  than  a  passing  of  the  wind  ;  lifting  your  locks  and  sending  shivers  down  your  back  .  ❝   because  …  i  am  not  a  petulant  child  …  as  you  are  .   ❞  you  are  better  .  pride  yourself  upon  that  FACT  .  maybe  if  it  were  different  ,  you’d  ask  for  an  equal  trade  of  LIVES  ;  his  for  yours  ,  but  he  was  not  the  one  who  took  yours  ,  only  capitalized  upon  it  —  you  are  not  upset  .  it  is  in  his  nature  ;  moreover  ,  you  are  upset  it  took  you  this  long  to  realize  it  .  

        ❝   i  …  do  hope  …  sincerely  …  you  find  the  life  you  are  looking  for  back  …  but  i  …  um  ,  do  not  have  it  .  good  night  ,   tora  .  ❞

       you  turn  on  your  heel  and  leave  quietly  .

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—  tell  me  .  do  kings  not  know  how  to  love  ?

@bitterlyamazing  went  trick  or  treating  ,  and  got  a  treat  !

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fatecried‌: 

               ❝   YOU’RE  LOSING  YOUR  TOUCH  .  the  only  reason  we’re  in this  situation  is  because  you  had  no  wish  to  be  married  ,   ❞  you  are  not  SURPRISED  at  the  calm  ice  that  surfaces  in  your  voice  ,  floating  to  the  top  upon  the  pool  of  venom  laced  with  honey  .  oh  ,  how  you  pity  the  POOR  BASTARD  ,  to  let  him  think  he  is   still   in  control  ,  he  wants  his  LIFE  back  ,  well  fuck  ,  you  want  your  HEART  back  !  you’ll  rip  it  from  his  fucking  fingers  if  you  have  to  ,  let  it  bleed  crimson  on  his  hand  — 

                —  but  he’s  used  to  having  that  kind  of  sin  on  his  HANDS  .  that  spot  will  not  leave  him  ;  lest   he  parades  around  with  it  like  a  trophy  .  and  he  might  be  right  .  but  you  don’t  want  him  to  WIN  ,  he  has  won  for  far  too  LONG  ,  it  is  time  for  him  to  be  dethroned  .  

               oh  ,  how  your  heart  aches  at  the  thought  of  not  being  able  to  be  THERE  at  his  side  ,  even  if  it  meant  through  bitter  words  and  GENTLE  LAUGHTER  ,  through  raging  fights  and  swooping  dances  across  the  ballroom  —  ERASE  IT  FROM  YOUR  MIND  .  crumple  it  up  in  your  hands  and  let  it  burn  in  the  hellfire  he  all  but  created  ,  if  he  wants  to  burn ,  then  let  him  burn  alone  .

               but  you  are  not  known  for  not  getting  burned  by  the  fires  you  set  ,  are  you  ,  arson  girl  ?

               ❝   you  will  not  get  far  like  this  ,  darling  ,  ❞  but  even  the  pet  name  on  your  lips  is  still  filled  with  the  honey  of  appeal  ,  searching  for  the  person  that  was  never  to  be  there  .  ❝   not  everyone  ROBBED  you  of  something  .  ❞  spark  up  the  gasoline  in  you  .  COME  ON  ,  GASOLINE  GIRL  .  give  him  the  show  he  wants  .  ❝   NOT  EVERYONE  WILL  HURT  YOU  .  i  did  not  want  to  .  ❞

                 raise  an  eyebrow  ,  if  he  loves  gold  so  much  ,  he  must  love  your  EYES  ,  so  make  sure  when  you  pierce  him  ,  it  hurts  .  ❝   HOW  LONG  will  you  continue  to  slice  your  own  veins  open  and  blame  it  on  others  ?  ❞   scrutiny  washes  over  the  fire  ,  a  sneer  that  you’ve  learned  best  from  HIM  (  hey  ,  baby .  are  you  proud  of  me  ?  proud  of  the  person  you  made  me  ?  do  you  still  fear  the  fire  you  sparked  into  a  flame  ?  afraid  of  being  burnt  ?  sorry  ,  baby  ,  you  have  to  take  consequences  for  your  actions .  )

                keep  your  head  up  ,  princess  .  the  crown  isn’t  that  heavy  .  ❝   don’t  waste  the  PAPER  .  much  like  this  supposed  life  i  robbed  you  of  ,  you  WON’T  get  it  back  .  ❞

                              the  wall  that  protects  &  isolates  his  heart  &  his  soul  will  be  granted  life  upon  his  features,  scorn  has  NO  PLACE  here.  that  sort  of  emotional  energy  is  only  for  those  he  cares  about.  ah,  she’s  so  wrong  about  him.  get  far  ?  where  else  is  there  for  him  to  go  except  to  take  his  place  on  this  earth  ?  one  day  he’ll  be  a  king  &  his  crown  will  be  the  one  she  must  bow  to.  (  all  will  bow  before  him  &  his  throne  of  broken  hearts  ---  he  won’t  feel  lonely  up  there,  he  tells  himself.  of  course  he  won’t  ---  loneliness  is  a  lie.  )

                              ❝  everyone  wants  to  hurt  others,  my  love.  ❞  says  the  words  so  sweetly  it  turns  to  salt  on  his  tongue  &  twists  the  word  into  poison,  but  a  gentle  POISON,  intended  to  send  the  victim  off  into  the  land  of  dreams  as  it  slits  their  throat.  smiles  so  wide  it  is  a  grimace.  he  can  act  better  than  this,  they  both  know  it.  he’s  just  not  trying.

                              ❝  if  you  didn’t,  then  either  you’re  lying  ---  to  whom,  I  don’t  know  ---  or  you  don’t  care  about  people.  ❞  it’s  the  simple  truth,  one  rarely  given  light.  he  means  every  bit  of  it.  this  situation  is  NOT  HIS  FAULT.  she  accepted  it,  he  had  been  half-joking.  (  what  a  liar.  )  if  she  can’t  see  that  ---  well,  then  she  never  deserved  to  be  by  his  side,  anyway.

                             he’s  not  the  reason  why  he  bleeds  out  on  the  floor.  (  stop  taking  everything  from  him,  he  begs  the  gods.  )  everyone  else  has  taken  their  fair  share  of  his  flesh,  but  if  you  wear  a  crown  ---  who  doesn’t  believe  they  are  owed  something  ?  one  for  the  taxes  they  had  to  pay  &  one  for  all  the  time  they  spent  envious  of  you,  one  for  the  hearts  you  BREAK  &  another  for  the  lives  you  failed  to  save  ---  WHERE  IS  THE  END  ?

                            ❝  I  won’t  think  of  you  at  all  in  a  week’s  time.  the  promise  I  made  was  an  empty  one,  anyway.  ❞  more  &  more  he’ll  distance  himself  from  the  discussion.  it’s  reflected  in  the  glassy  nature  of  his  gaze  &  how  he’ll  put  up  more  walls,  stacks  each  block  on  top  of  each  other  &  doesn’t  even  try  to  climb  it.  ❝  see  you  whenever  ---  ❞  a  MOCKING  pause,  stops  as  if  to  say  something.  he  turns  away  some  more,  a  considering  look  over  his  shoulder.  how  quick  he  is  to  escape,  but  :

                            ❝  sorry,  what  was  your  name  again,  miss  ?  ❞ 

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                    one  hand  will  close  into  a  fist  as  if  to  CRUSH  her  ---  a  reflex,  but  how  telling  it  is  :  this  is  what  he  does.  he  does  it  to  the  people  he  disposes  of  in  all  the  ways  he  can  think  of,  in  death  or  in  like,  he  does  it  to  the  people  who  get  too  close,  and  he  does  it  to  the  people  who  don’t  get  close  enough.  nothing  will  spare  anyone,  no  matter  who  they  think  they  are.  his  other  hand  is  in  his  pocket,  like  always.  tucked  away  and  the  nails  that  dig  into  his  palm  are  forced  out.  (  he  should  decide  which  she  is.  too  close  or  not  close  enough  ?  )

                    ❝  marriage.  who  says  I’ll  be  getting  married  ?  ❞  words  are  offered  with  scorn  and  a  blanket  outrage,  softened  only  by  the  time  spent  with  her.  he’s  losing  his  edge.  he’ll  draw  his  smirk  like  a  sword  and  sharpens  it  steadily,  used  to  this  pattern  of  behaviour,  cleans  the  blade  neatly.  the  small  sliver  of  teeth  he  reveals  flash  catches  the  light.

                    now  his  hands  will  be  like  claws  :  fingers  are  curled.  teeth  are  revealed  further,  and  fangs  are  out.  of  course,  he  means  so  playfully,  this  is  all  a  game  to  him.  what  a  terrible  predator  he  is,  though  !  not  able  to  pick  up  on  whatever  she  feels,  ever.  willfully  blind  to  it,  a  refusal  to  see  if  she  is  anything  more.  she  can’t  be,  she’s  just  like  everyone  else.  chants  the  words  over  and  over,  doesn’t  even  know  he  is.

                    ❝  in  any  case.  I’ll  be  sure  to  invite  you  to  the  next  function.  you  can  show  up,  or  not.  doesn’t  really  matter,  anyway.  ❞  informal  words,  but  without  the  accent  he  reserves  for  those  special  people.  she’s  not  trusted,  he’s  sure  she  knows  this.

                    ❝  maybe  it’ll  be  a  funeral.  won’t  that  be  fun  ?  ❞

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alicehart‌:

Alice stepped outside to find the young man from the other day posing with his new ride… the exact vehicle Alice had dared him to purchase days ago. Holy shit, he actually did it.

“You came to show off, huh?” she asked him, crossing her arms over her chest. Okay, she was actually quite impressed. Just who the hell was he, what did he do for a living, and was he looking for a wife?

“Of course I’ve got the time,” she chuckles as she comes closer. Hot damn, this car was sleek. So clean, no a single scratch or smudge, she almost didn’t want to get inside, but how could she not?!

                       opens  a  door  for  her,  his  one  gesture  of  ---  politeness,  he  supposes.  cold  smile  and  a  nod,  ❝  showing  off  is  my  hobby,  when  I’m  not  buying  ridiculously  over-priced  things.  ❞  among  other  activities  he  won’t  name  here.

                      ❝  glad  you  have  the  time,  anyway.  this  is  one  of  my  few  free  slots  without  a  servant  around.  ❞  although  calling  maki  a  servant  is  unkind,  but  that’s  essentially  his  role  in  tora’s  life.

                      ❝  any  final  destination  you  want  to  go  to  ?  I  have  my  company  credit  card  and  I’m  pissed  off  at  my  dad.  ❞  no  need  to  tell  her  so  much,  but  the  information  is  offered  loosely  and  with  no  real  energy  behind  them,  no  strings  attached.  he’ll  walk  around  to  the  driver’s  side.  

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A smile twitches onto Leo’s face at question. “But what shall we be betting with? I don’t have any money.” He does, but he’s saving that to use to get Elliot something, so he doesn’t intend to use it for a game with someone he doesn’t like at all. Though he does look around to make sure said master isn’t nearby (Elliot would surely fuss at them both if he saw them gambling).

                    ❝  your  soul.  ❞  a  smirk  spreads.  ❝  or  your  time.  there’re  plenty  of   things  you  can  bet,  not  just  money.  ❞  hand  will  prop  up  his  chin,  he’ll  note  the  twitch  and  be  glad  he  seems  to  be  willing,  and  like  him  he’ll  look  around.  it’s  a  bad  look  for  the  president  to  be  gambling  when  he’s  supposed  to  a  moral  pillar,  or  something.

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Haru turned to face someone who she didn’t recognize. “Hahi?” She looked down at the costume she was currently wearing and then it dawned on her. “Oh! You mean this tooth fairy costume? Isn’t it well made? Haru made it herself~” She spun around once to show off her costume. “Haru has a duty to play the part of a tooth fairy today-desu~” Essentially, a young child she knew lost a tooth and she was going to play as the tooth fairy.

                    ❝  is  that  so.  ❞  ---  he  may  look  down  upon  it,  but  that  doesn’t  mean  he  doesn’t  appreciate  the  effort  :  and  he  regrets  even  thinking that.  words  fail  him  before  they  return  once  more.  ❝  your  job  is  to  be  a  tooth  fairy.  must  be  rough,  having  all  those  children  be  told  you’re  fake.  ❞  his  sarcasm  will  come  across  as  playful. 

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“ i want my life back. ”

                ah  ,  so  NOW  it  is  time  to  be  the  daughter  father  raised  you  to  be  .  cold  to  the  touch  ,  to  the  bone  ;  even  if  your  heart  swells  in  the  crescendo  at  his  words  ,  the  lingering  feeling  of  FINALITY  always  put  an  expiration  date  above  your  heads  .  his  name  is  bitter  against  your  tongue  ,  ash  that  cannot  be  washed  out  by  the  finest  of  wines  your  father  tries  to  PURCHASE  .  

                you  had  never  been  enough  to  keep  him  satiated  ,   had  you  ?  

                gentle  smile  of  frost  upon  pink  lips  ,  ❝   then  leave  ,  tora  -  chan  .  ❞  there  is  no  venom  in  words  ,  no  sadness  ,  you’ve  all  but  been  hollowed  out  by  the  man  you  gave  everything  to  by  your  own  discretion  .  SOMETIMES  YOU  GAVE  HIM  ALL THAT  YOU  HAD  ,  and  it  still  wasn’t  enough  .  he’s  always  been  greedy  enough  ,  you  could  only  hope  he  was  selfish  enough  to  keep  the  both  of  you  afloat  —  but  he  seems  more  apt  to  drowning  you  in  the  hopes  of  more  air  HIMSELF  .

               he’s  a  few  years  older  than  you  ,  but  poor  child  ,  seems  he  will  never  learn  that  he  can’t  rob  someone  of  something  completely  without  CONSEQUENCES  .  one  day  he  will  take  too  much  ,  and  the  regret  that  soaks  his  hands  in  crimson  will  drown  out  whatever  consolation  prize  he  has  ripped  out  the  hands  of  the  other  . 

              AND  YOU’RE  ANGRY  .  so  fucking  angry  that  he  dares  to  complain  about  the  life  that  has  slipped  like  sand  through  his  fingers  ,  like  he  didn’t  have  a  CHOICE  ,  and  now  you’ve  never  considered  yourself  selfish  ,  but  goddammit  ,  what  about  your  life  ?  you  had  NOTHING  left  ,  everything  offered  up  to  him  ,  hands  trembling  next  to  your  pastel  pink  dress you  don  .

              years  shaved  off  of  your  life  in  a  small  effort  to  make  him  HAPPIER  ,  a  scapegoat  you  are  nothing  more  than  ,  falling  deeper  and  DEEPER  into  him  under  the  ruse  of  quick  glances  and  gentle  touches  between  passing  each  other  in  the  castle  ,  and  really  ;  you  played  so  well  into  the  ROLE  of  future  queen  you  forgot  that  you’d  never  be  his  ,  and  the  crashing  reality  when  you  look  past  the  rose  tinted  glasses  is  that  you  were  NEVER  meant  to  be  more  than  a  distraction  until  he  found  someone  better  . 

             and  you  want  to  hate  him  ,  despise  him  with  every  atom  that  makes  up  your  body  ,  but  you’re  just  as  much  at  fault  as  HE  is  ,  drowning  your  sorrows  in  a  man  who  can  barely  smile  at  you  .  you  were  both  just  people  trying  to  make  emotional  ends  meet  ,  and  you  were  just  stupid  enough  to  fall  deeper  in  .  

               it  was  all  a  lie  ,  anyways  .  

             ❝   …  in  fact  ,  that’d  be  preferred  .  when  you  …  ❞  fall  silent  as  anger  is  washed  away  by  the  blue  sea  of  sorrow  ,  red  hot  now  cooled  down  into  the  detached  black  hollow  father  wants  you  to  be  ,   ❝   when  you  get  married  to  her ,  send  me  an  invitation  .   ❞

            now  ,  knock  down  your  regret  once  more  with  another  shot  of  whiskey  .  if  there  was  one  thing  he  taught  you  to  be  good  at  ,  it  was  to  hold  your  regret  down  with  your  liquor  . 

hit  you  where  it  hurts  .  accepting  .  please  .  @bitterlyamazing  !

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"i'm sorry, tora. i'm sorry... i-i... i would... i would be better... if i could..." a rarity in itself, cracks in the mask that she's worked so hard in perfecting around him fracture at the tears streaming down her cheeks, hands twisting together, bottom lip trembling, "you deserve better than me... i-i'm really... really sorry."

                        why  does  she  cry  ?  stop  it,  the  order  dies  within  his  throat  and  hands  are  stuffed  in  his  pocket.  if  she  wants  the  apology  to  reach  :  tears  will  only  dilute  it,  although  that  small  part  that  should  be  swayed  is  already  hiding  anyway.  stop  it,  and  he’s  to  look  away  for  a  moment.

                       ❝  you’re  fine  as  you  are  ---  ❞  watches  her  twisting  hands  for  a  moment,  then  gaze  will  finally  study  her  expression  —  STOP IT.  what  should  he  do  ?  he  can  hear  his  mother’s  voice  (  he  thought  he’d  forgotten  her,  but  she  tells  him  to  fake  it  like  he  does  everything  else  :  just  like  his  father  ).  so  that’s  the  answer,  then.  he  has  it.  PRETEND.

                       mouth  twists  down,  because  he  does  not  want  to  be  like  his  father.  the  pretense  is  fine  :  it’s  who  he  is.  but  ---  he  does  deserve  better,  he  knows  this.  ---  so  then  why  ?

                      ❝  ...that  wasn’t  your  fault.  ❞  he  didn’t  much  care  for  the  businessman  she’d  :  not  quite  insulted,  and  it’s  doubtful  that  he’s  lost  anything  worthwhile.  (  STOP  FAKING,  THAT’S  NOT  YOU.  )  is  this  about  something  else,  he  wonders.  ah,  but  he’s  never  been  too  good  at  getting  people  to  stay,  nor  is  he  good  at  treating  them  well.  

                      ❝  but  if  you’re  so  sorry,  if  that’s  the  best  you  can  do  :  leave.  I  don’t  want  it  to  rub  off.  ❞  words  taste  like  ash,  and  he  knows  he’ll  be  drinking  again  tonight.

@fatecried  !

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Some people enter your life in a whirlwind and no matter how hard you try you can’t stop thinking about them, even after they leave…especially after they leave.

F. Scott Fitzgerald (via insp0s)

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me  :  write 2 sentences

tora : stfu

me : D:

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@moderndaymiko   /   sc.

                              ❝  ---  So  you’re  finally  here  to  get  rid  of  the  pests,  ❞  and  words  don’t  sting  ---  not  by  his  standards.  a  raised  eyebrow,  ❝  how  much  payment  do  you  ask  for  ?  ❞