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EPPS vs USS

My daily routine on my bid on the EPPS was normally look to see if we had a pallet jack. How many boxes are full and needs to be dispatched? How much sacks do we have left? Boxes? Skids? Do we have enough labels for the boxed mails? How much tags do we have for the sacks? How much trash do I need to clean up? The area is high maintenance. Not only do I constantly have to deal with mail falling, but when the sacks of mail pile up and crowd the floors and the OTRs, I had to deal with congestion. It's always a mess stress. I am so happy I don't need to deal with that anymore on the USS. I just focus on keeping the lanes clear, dispatch any boxes that get full, make sure all the labels are correctly set up, and the day goes by pretty quick. Get to take our breaks every 2 hours and that's something I don't get to enjoy on the EPPS either. I have to deal with lazy people who walk away, who complain, who are lazy, and/or picky about what they wanna use. I'm done dealing with all that shit. I am so relieved and much happier I don't need to deal w/ all that crap anymore. I only have to deal with going to the dock on Saturdays and it's even easy work over there even though I don't really prefer to be there.

People were telling me that ever since I left that area, it looks really bad now. Nobody takes care of it at all. Not to mention right after I have started my new bid, some drama stirred up with Martina and Miya with Michelle. Martina must've been talking a lot of shit trying to pick fights back there or trying to turn people against each other. It got to the point where a fight almost started with Michelle and Martina and Miya was trying to pull her back. I don't know how it got to Miya chasing her down and Martina was trying to flag down a supervisor to report what's happening. All 3 of them got walked out and suspended until they investigate. Supposedly, they were gonna bring back Martina, but I have not seen her come back yet. I still haven't seen Alexis & the older Michelle came back either. They been gone for over a month already. See? So much drama that's unnecessary......that's y I rather work alone. I don't need to deal with much of any1's drama and I don't need to babysit anybody. Yep, I'm in a much better bid job until I can become a clerk again.

I come in at 12pm so I don't have to worry about dealing with Shiela since she's not my actual supervisor. I just have to worry about doing the rest of my overtime until I leave at 12:30am. Sometimes they are desperate and need my help at the dock. I will go if they truly need me there, but I won't allow them to make a habit of dragging me to the dock everyday. They are suppose to have MHAs over there helping. A lot of people have already bidded out of tour 3 USS because of Shiela. Sungho is already thinking of getting out of tour 3 and bidding to tour 2 shift as well because he's burnt out of what he deals with having to dump mail and what not. So many people have left hahahaha and that includes David. He's now coming in at 12pm with me, he just has Tue/Wed off. I hope there will be another 12pm shift available so that Sungho can join us. It would be cool to have him with us. David is trying to adjust to the new sleeping schedule, but he's happy he doesn't have to deal with Shiela anymore. I remember the way she would pick on him when we walked together coming in or leaving from break. I really h8ed it when she would cut in and interfere with my conversation with David or with other people like James Dempsey, so rude. Doesn't even say pardon or excuse me just butts right in. Anyways, I think she won't really do that much now that she sees that I help with her operation on overtime. And at the same time I don't have to worry about her picking on me as once again, I'm from tour 2.

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Old Perverts

Remember Benjamin? The old Philipino man that's actually the head deacon of the Riverside locale from my old church? Well, I thought he was friendly, but I think he misunderstood me being too friendly for being too comfortable. In the beginning, he would call me on the phone and I would never answer his calls. He would text me a couple of times, but he has left voicemails for me before, but I found it creepy and uncomfortable. When I told the minister about the way he tries contacting me, Ron would say that this is just how he is and it's normal with him to be this way. I don't believe it.

I believed that I think he had a crush on me which is kinda gross considering he's in his 70s or close to 80s. It took a few times before he stopped contacting me on the phone. Then there was the time when he tried adding me on Facebook a couple of times. I declined his requests to add me. Then he found my TikTok account which is very very strange because I hardly ever go on there. He tried sharing some videos with me and then he sent me a message saying that it's good to hear from me. I don't know what the hell he was talking about because I literally haven't spoken to him for a long ass time. I have nothing to talk about with this man and I normally don't talk on the phone with people I hardly knew. It's very rare that I even talk on the phone with people I'm close to. Besides the fact, it was too damn creepy! The last time he sent me that message was last year in April. You would think he would've gotten the hint when I never wanted to respond to him even when I been busy all the time with work and life, I wanted him to just leave me the hell alone. Thankfully, I had my phone # changed shortly after me and Josh have already broken up so he wouldn't be able to definitely call me anymore. I finally decided to block him on my TikTok account. Like I mentioned b4, even tho I hardly even go on there, I don't want Ben to think it's ok to keep messaging me when the message I am sending is loud & clear, and that I have nothing to talk about with him and I don't want to socialize with him. Most of the church members are regular human jackoffs that I can never relate to and I am so glad I quit that cult church now and stopped wasting my time and gas on them. I think Ben was just bored and doesn't have many friends to socialize with, well.....you would think he would with his church buddies. I don't think I need to worry about him anymore. I finally blocked him on TikTok and now he can't ever message me anymore. Hopefully, I won't ever have to hear from him again on any other social media.

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A Bit of Relief

Waking up in the mornings has always been something I h8ed, but it is pretty worth it for my new bid on tour 2 on the USS. Coming in at 12pm is just right, not too early, not too late either. I have all the overtime that I can work than I was able to have when I was still on the EPPS. I couldn't even get the full 12 hrs on tour 3 this season. I only do 10 hrs on Saturdays since thats the only night we are stuck helping out on the dock because they only run the USS for 2 hours on that day. While they are in the process of making changes on the machine's zip code placements, in the meantime I do enjoy being able to take long breaks when tour 3 comes in and I can continue working on the operation until 12:30am. Unless they truly need my help on the dock by door 2 and 3, they will drag me and 2 other ladies there when they don't have any available MHAs.

It's a bit annoying right now the way Lucy [lead mailhandler] is trying to push on getting rid of the big postal pak boxes. I'm completely neutral towards using them, but Lucy doesn't even work on the states sides and doesn't even cover lane 15. Most people aren't bothered the way she is with it, so I just go with the flow, whatever happens happens. It's not really affecting me much or my work performance. It's nice being able to leave when the night is rather early. I do tend to go to bed by 2-3am to make sure I will have enough sleep.

I made a post on my social media yesterday exposing Josh for who he is. I had Shellie spy on his profile for me and she took shots of his new girl that he posted on social media. It's hilarious that he used one of her photos as a over photo and he has never done that with me when I was with him. I did so much for that mother fucker and he is such a user and a liar. LOL I posted that he has no house, no car, no money, no job, and that his band is not going anywhere. I had reason to believe somebody on my friend's list may be watching my posts for him because I wasn't able to see my feeds for half of the whole day, but it returned to normal last night. I did however cover up Josh's last name on the screenshots so that if they were investigating whether I went against 'Community Standards' they wouldn't be able to use that against me, I would be safe. One of the dudes on my friend's list was cool enough to message Josh's new chick for me warning her about him asking for money or the cult church. I doubt she will listen to that advice because she's straight up a regular jack off human being from the Phillipines. Probably another victim of being brainwashed from the church, but who cares right?

I have prayed to God many times about my issue with my family in regard to my brother and dad not wanting to honor my sister's wishes on giving me the inheritance, I finally had enough strength now to deal with it. It breaks my heart that I have to sue my own brother to do the RIGHT thing, but it's fucked up that him and my dad are willing to rob from me instead of doing what is right. That's what happens when you deal with greedy people. I gave the attorney a call that Michael [cousin in AZ] referred me to, I am so glad that I reached out to him. I had the image of Michael's face in my mind when I was praying to God for help on finding a good attorney to help me with my case and I feel confident and good about this choice. They have started the process of finding me a lawyer to represent my case since Byron is the CEO of his company. I scanned each page of my sister's documents and had it all ready for him because he was gonna need to look at that for me. Now it's just a matter of him collecting information from me and info on my brother. I have screenshots of my brother's text messages in case the attorney will want to look at that.

In other news, I got Vera moved into her newer/bigger tank. It's not what I truly wanted, but I am still missing a wood piece for her to enjoy climbing on higher heights that I haven't gotten yet. I found out from the guy working at the pet store that the light will have to be changed out once a year to continue to be able to provide enough UV for her vitamins. HE told me a story about a guy who used the same light for 3-4 years and his chameleon was lacking a lot of vitamins because it ran out of UV juice. I didn't know that. I may get one more item for Vera as now I see the other additional things can't fit in her new tank or won't stay up on the glass, I will set them aside to be used for another pet I may get in the future.

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Change?

I wasn't sure if it was just me, but i felt like there is a change in me; spiritually. I felt my skin and I felt warmer than usual [no, i'm not sick with a fever]. For whatever reason, something felt different with me, or I felt like there's a change within my spirit. In a positive way, I feel like my abilities, or my spiritual power is continuing to become stronger and stronger. I know I just have to continue to vent to Father Almighty & Lord Jesus everytime I feel sad or down. I felt so down last night because I'm tired of feeling lonely. David & I haven't hung out like we use to. Nowadays, I been feeling so tired constantly and I haven't even been working as hard as I was b4. Whatever it is, there may be spiritual attacks at work here that's also draining my energy.

James texted me the other day & told me that he saw that I got a bid. He didn't remember what bid I got, but more than likely I got the bid of my 1st choice at the USS for 12pm. Nobody is really gonna want Mon/Tue off, but for now I can have one same day off with Leila and Said so we can go out for lunch like we talked about. Having the same day off as both of them will give me a chance to hang out with them outside of work. I haven't had a chance to hang out with anybody for a long time & I know things are changing for a good reason. This change is beginning with the bid that I got that I can finally get out of being stuck inside state sacks. It wouldn't do me any good if I continue to stay and keep killing myself with all the work when the other ladies there don't really work the way I do. I'll be excited once I see my name on the bid awards.

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Nigerian Scammer Pt. 2

It's amazing how hard this scammer is trying to get me to respond through Whatsapp. This app must be so damn special that everybody uses it, but no not me. I read that most scammers prefer this app because it can hide a lot of illegal shit they try to pull on people when they're trying to scam. This stupid guy pretending to be a lady calling me 'sister' has made multiple phone #s just to send me messages. Still claiming that they did the work with the $145 I sent them and that they require my attention. I'm not giving them any attention. I'm gonna continue to ignore this scammer because I know it's just some young dumb guy from Nigeria. Supposely they did the work, but I don't believe it because I have shared a YouTube link of a music album to Micheal the other day and as usual he never responded. Rachel confirmed in her tarot cards that he has blocked me. I removed him from my Instagram so that he can't follow my activities anymore since he doesn't give a shit about me. I have let him go wholeheartedly. This scammer is sitting here thinking he can lie and manipulate me into responding back, and clearly he is just so full of shit.

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Porch Thief/Karen [Martina]

So I had a 2nd package stolen from my door step while I was awaiting for my storage shelf order from eBay to be delivered by Fetch. I woke up 30 min after it's been delivered and I open my door to find that it was stolen. I know for a fact that one of the thieves is 1 of my neighbors. I meditated and asked who the thief has been that's stealing my packages, I saw an image of a woman and the apt# 172 which is right above me. I plan to get a door camera soon from Amazon and I am now making sure that I am fully awake to receive my packages from Fetch during the time of delivery. If I know I can't be awake, then I will make sure my signature is required so that they don't leave it by my door unattended.

I was deciding between the 2 brands for the video camera: Aosu or Botslab. Aosu has been ordered by thousands of people and Botslab not so much, but that camera has a rotating feature where u can actually scan the whole area of view even the bottom of ur doorstep which is neat. I might end up getting the Aosu because it's a bit more well known. There's a cheaper model which I assume is the older model and the more updated and yet expensive model is about $150 regular price on Amazon. I notice that going to the official sites of products I'm shopping for will usually be cheaper than going through Amazon or Ebay itself so I figured that trick there since people on those shopping sites probably trying to make some kinda profit. I notice it's on sale for $125 so I plan on buying the door camera from the Aosu official site when I am ready. This will mean I need to uninstall the one I have by the door or I can say fuck it and install the camera below it and have 2 doorbells. I'm more than likely may take the old one down and just install the new 1 over the spot, maybe if the thief doesn't pay attention and think it's a regular doorbell & overlook that it's a camera one, they can take the bait package and I can catch the culprit. I plan to have a bit of fun with this project. Maybe I can have David take a shit, put it in a ziplock bag and some rocks and use that for bait. Nothing funnier than having a thief open up the box and finding a piece of shit in their hands hahahaha. I thought of getting a dybbuk box for the thief also to make their life a living hell, but I had 2nd thoughts about that considering that the risk of my safety can be jeopardized by negative energy drawn from it, so I'm going to keep away from that idea and just stick to packing trash for the thief to take instead in the future. I was able to get a full refund from the ebay seller after I told him about what happened. I'm thankful that I was able to get a refund for my stolen packages. I had to reorder the same storage shelf from a different seller and I ordered 2 this time since I will need some storage in my office room as well.

Now there's this new lady that works in my area and she hasn't even been at my job for 90 days and 2 weeks became a regular already (lucky for her). This ungrateful bitch complains about everything everyday. She pissed me off when she was questioning me about printing out the tags for the bins in the area she was covering. Every time I try to explain something to this bitch, she wants to keep talking over me and doesn't want to take any learning advice from someone that's been working there for years, so since she knows everything, I'll let her figure out her own shit. She annoyed the fuck out of me just knowing I'm gonna have to deal with her for at least another 2-3 weeks, but I am not the only 1 who will need to deal w/ her. A lot of people don't like her and is already making enemies because of her stuck up, snobbish, hard headed, not-a-team-player attitude. The childish baby cried when she couldn't make any boxes because the clerks were around the area scanning the mail in the congested area. She literally cried over that! OMG I wonder if she got fired from her airline job? I meditated before going to work one afternoon and cursed Martina's name over & over again multiple times. I think whatever I did worked since she cried that night and then called out the next day.

Anyways, this bitch doesn't deserve to work there and she needs to find another job because this job is totally not for her! Turns out she also has the same days off as me and she called out yesterday, haha. What a pussy! It made my Friday worthy. I'm awaiting to see the bid awards. More than likely I should be able to get my 1st choice bid for the USS 12pm shift. I don't like Shiela, but hopefully I may not have to deal w/ her too much considering she's not going to be my real supervisor. Of all people besides Andrea, Henna, but Miya actually came up to me and spoke to me telling me she really wish that I wasn't bidding out because I literally took care of that entire area. She feels like she will have to eventually bid out, too because it's gonna be chaotic after I leave that area. Henna has been trying to bid to tour 2, and Andrea won't be there forever. My work ethics is well respected there, and Kim is heartbroken lol. Well, maybe they will need to change some things around there. I'm burnt out and got tired of doing all the damn work with hardly anybody helping the same way in return. When Jennifer bid to the plant, I was pretty sad because she was a great work partner, she worked just hard as me over there and nobody else works like us. I'll find out by the end of the month if I get the bid. If I don't get that as a first choice, I made sure to bid on 3 10am bids so that I can at least avoid being stuck in my area, at least I'll be able to be moved around, but truly hoping not to have to be up that early, the 12pm shift is the one I truly want for right now. The days off sucks but if something better comes out, I'll bid again.

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Debt Progess

As I monitor how much money I owe to my credit cards, I am so pleased that I am almost done paying off the debt I owe to Capital One from my 2 old credit cards with them in the past. The old platinum only has 2 more payments left, and my old Quiksilver has 4 payments left b4 being paid off. I have about $400 to pay off on Brightway and I have about $200 to pay off on Savor and my current platinum. Once I'm paid off on one of those, I'm gonna use the card to get Vera's 65 gallon tank upgrade so that she can have space to grow and I can place her bucket of dirt for digging into her terranium so when she's ready to lay eggs, she will have the space to do so. I am waiting for my bookcase to be delivered tonite by Fetch since they received it from Ebay 2 days ago. I am also awaiting the storage shelf I ordered on Ebay and that's suppose to be arriving 2morrow from Fetch hopefully on the same day they receive it.

I have some garbage to get rid of, Josh's and my old clothes to be donated to the Salvation Army, Josh's old cell phone & laptop to be recycled by the police station, and I have drift wood to hunt for to use for Vera's upgraded tank so that she can have more things to climb in her home. I did some grocery shopping today and wanted to get it over with since I wanted to make sure I am home majority of the evening for my delivery. I have pretty much finished unpacking until my book case and storage shelf comes in. I have yet decided how I'm going to display my toys. How should I display them? Hanging some on the walls? Putting them on another book case shelf? I will definitely display some on my office table. I want to display them all around my home, not just in 1 particular room, I'll figure it out, but I won't worry about displaying the toys right now since I got to worry about the rest of my stuff of where I plan on putting them.

I think I'll start putting my bookcase together tonite so that I can start storing my books away. If I need to get another book case in the future, I'll do so since it's affordable and it serves it's purpose. Everything is coming along 2gether.

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Making Home Feel Like My Real Place

I am looking 4ward to getting additional furniture I need to make my home feel like a real home. I ordered a regular book case and a 9 cube storage shelf from Ebay so that I can continue to unpack and have a place for my stuff. As I am going through my stuff, I am continuing to get rid of things I really don't need. I have clothes and blankets that I need to donate. There are some toys I may want to end up selling on Ebay or Craigslist because I am just not really feeling that I really want them. Only certain toys I want, I will keep for display. Majority of the Star War toys I have when I bought when I was dating Daryl are the ones I really don't care for having. I dunno yet, we shall see. The book case will be essential for me to start putting up all my books that I have collected over the years. I have gotten rid of books in the past I really didn't need, some books I choose to keep for memory and some for educational purposes (learning). I had a metal cube set up in my old bedroom to store all of my old stuff. My sister cleared it all out and packed it all away for me when I was no longer living in the Pomona home. Hopefully, I still have them somewhere so that I can put it together and reuse it for additional storage for my office room.

In the future, I hope to build my 2nd pc and start going through all of my favorite old PC games that I have no longer been able to play because of the old operation system compatibility. Apparently, there is a way to play them again on Windows 11. There are 3 ways which I don't remember from the back of my mind right now on those programs. I don't want to get rid of them because the games were fun during the time I was using windows 98 or XP such as Dungeon Keeper & the original Doom games. It would be a dream to be able to pull those up to play them again. I need to go through all of my music and game cds to be able to see what I don't want to lose. We are currently at the age of having digital media now. We don't really play cds anymore for audio music. I can basically download them from You Tube and just upload them onto my phone. Eventually, that's what I plan to do. If I know I have what I wanted from those cds, I can finally just trash them I definitely will keep my anime and movies unless I already have them then I can finally trash those as well so that they are not taking up to much room. I have a lot of things I really need to get rid of even though some of these items I don't want to because it's been with me for a very long time. I really want to get my computer table. I have to unpack to clear things for space and I also need to assemble one of my newer dressers that's still inside it's box then I will have additional storage space for my clothes. I can't wait to start hanging up more of my posters as well. I will also need my DVD spinning rack to start organizing my movies as well as game cartridges. I can't wait......

Meanwhile, I got nosy and was checking up on Josh's page to see if he has made any new post. He has posted a photo of Laguna Beach and a photo of his arm with needles. Seems like once again he has gone to the hospital for his anxiety and panic attacks. He still hasn't had his health under control. He's still going to pursue his stupid dream and yet he's not doing what he needs to do to take care of himself better. It's gonna be a very long time before he can ever stabilize himself. What a loser......I got everything in order in my life after he fucked up so much shit for me. I got his sweaters that I am donating to Goodwill, I am keeping his dragon statues that were packed away, and I had ordered a new remote control for my old LG blu-ray player that I thought I had lost through the move, but I am thankful I have those things. I got rid of his other stuff, mostly travel stuff napkins and business cards, I threw the napkins in my car so tha I can have something to blow my nose with since it's now Spring time. I trashed the rest of his shit and he doesn't know it. I probably won't say anything about his things if he ever comes back to ask me, it's not like it's important for him to come back for them, they're mine now or they're in the trash. Im keeping the Slipknot pullover hooded sweater that I bought for him from the concert, I just need to wash it. I wonder who he is living with now. I wonder if he has another poor woman taking care of him or he moved into with?

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Full Homecoming

It is finally done. Although my extra 8th day leave wasn't put in for yesterday which was Saturday, I showed up to work anyways. I considered that if I need any more time off, then I will request so. Angela even asked me even she wanted me to put in my time for me yesterday, I told her that it was ok and that I'm already there and ready to work. I think I'll request a couple of days off for the weekend of my birthday. I returned the Budget Truck this morning and David drove me home. It was a tiring week, although it was our vacation, it still felt like work because we spent 3 days on the road.

So on the beginning of the vacation week, I rested as usual and chilled out. On Monday morning of Apr. 7, I took a nap for a little bit that early evening, I reserved for an Uber driver to pick me & David up at his house at 1:45am in order to be at the airport by 2:05am. Although they normally recommend to be at the airport at least 2 hrs in advance, the security point wasn't open until 3:30am so me and David camped out on the floor at the very front of the line until they opened the doors. We boarded our flight to Dallas/Fort Worth, TX to get on our connecting flight to Ontario, CA so that we can be closer to Pomona. I got an Uber driver to give us a ride to the Budget Truck rental place in Chino Hills, from there I drove us to my storage in Pomona. David helped me unloaded my stuff from my storage unit. I spoke to Lecia the store manager of that storage for a little bit, I gave her Lim's baby seat and my shoe rack since I figured I no longer needed them. She was nice enough to give it away to somebody who may want it, and my move out was complete. I booked a hotel room at the Holiday Inn in Ontario for the night and we had lunch at Farmerboys. God, it felt good to get their fried zucchinis. I missed that shit. We rested that night for the long drive back home.

Tuesday morning, me and David woke up about 10am and left by 10:20am. We were on the road all the way until the next morning and stopped by a hotel off the fwy once we got to Vega, TX by 5:15am, Wed morning. We rested there for the morning until 1pm & left about 1:30pm and continued our way home. I drove all the way until 6am the next morning which is now Thursday is when we finally reached home in Nashville. I stopped by David's house so that he was able to feed his pets then he got his car and followed me back to my apt. I parked my car and moved the Budget truck into the parking spot that I saved to be close to my apartment to make the move easy and convenient. I spent Thurday & Friday just resting and unloading boxes and unpacking at the same time so that I was able to rid of some boxes to make room in my place.

I had ordered a bookcase & a 9 cube storage shelf from Ebay so that I can start arranging my books and console games as well as any other additional items for storage. I unpacked 3-4 boxes 2day after David dropped me back off at home. I could've went back to sleep, but I wanted to get some work done instead. I hung up all of my clothes and got rid of some that I'm considering donating to Goodwill. While I was unpacking, I noticed some of Joshua's sweaters were packed and his dragon statues as well as my LG blu-ray player was here so it turns out he didn't take them after all, I had it all this time, it was just packed away for a long time. I'm glad I still have it. The sad thing is I think I got rid of the remote control, I may have thrown it away thinking that I don't have my LG blu ray player anymore, therefore I had to order a remote control replacement. It still works, otherwise I would've just went straight to using my brand new blu-ray player. I'll keep it in the package for now. I am happy that my move has been complete. This is my true homecoming, and I have also gotten rid of stuff that I truly no longer needed.

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Looking 4ward to the Vacation

Now, I look 4ward to getting through this week to be able to have a full week's rest and enjoying my time off while I bring the rest of my stuff to my apartment. I'm hoping everything will fit fine once I have everything arranged to the way I want including being able to get the rest of the furniture that I would need which would be the TV stand, my coffee table storage, a table for Vera's terranium, my office/computer table, and of course my new tall dresser that will need to be finally assembled to store more of my clothes. I want to save some of my boxes, but I will plan on recycling the rest until the day I buy my own house/condo and they will be needed again when I move again in the future. My 2 days off just passed by too quickly and I totally feel like I still haven't fully rested enough. It's ok, I'll do my best to rest as much as I can everyday this week until my next days off.

David went to the ER yesterday, but they couldn't help him take my hair out of his throat without the proper tools. He had to be referred to a specialist twice, so hopefully he will be able to schedule an appointment to have it removed b4 our vacation starts this coming week. It has gotten to the point where his throat has gotten pretty irritated, it's affecting his breathing, & he was prescribed medication that would help him sleep for the next 3 nights. Since he doesn't want to tell his dad about the 'hair' problem and the doctor's note excusing him from work for the next few days, I'm letting him spend the night at my place until he returns to work on Tuesday evening. This is just so he doesn't get any annoying lectures from his dad because like my family, they tend to make a big deal out of nothing of certain things. I guess it's an Asian culture bullshit. Anyways, I'll have to make sure I stock up on some more gallon waters for him. He won't have to deal with Shiela for a few days and for the next whole week. I prayed to God begging him to handle her and to bless David with a more peaceful mind not having to deal with her anymore.

I also took an attempt to check on Cait's old website Shaymana.com and notice the website doesn't work anymore. It looks as if she has went out of business. I sent her an email last night checking in on her to see if she's doing ok. Not sure if she will respond, but I really do miss talking to her. I really felt like me and her really connected during the times I went to her for readings. I hope she is ok.

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Fatigue; Rest; Relief

Last Tuesday was one of the busiest days at work we had this past week. I was so tired that my body was sore. I barely had any energy at work on Wednesday. I was thankful that it was a much easier day as it being my Friday. I slept in until 4:20pm. I was still tired and I was still sore from work, but it felt good to rest. I did my laundry, had lunch, and drove to the Regal Cinema at Opry Mills to watch 'A Working Man'. Sadly, I couldn't enjoy more than 1 film because it was already late within the evening. It was still nice to be able to watch a movie because I hadn't gone to the movie theater for awhile. 1 more week b4 my vacation starts for my complete move. I am looking 4ward to it. Although the next paycheck is going to be a small one, I will be relieved that I can finally take care of this unfinished business . I just want to get it all DONE already. 1 more week.....

David wants to run some errands 2morrow so I'm suppose to meet him at 12pm. Take him to a medical center to see if he can have my hair removed from his throat, go to a jewlery store, & then get his taxes done. He said he would get us lunch. I made a massage appointment at this place in Murfreesboro in May. It's a better deal over there. Rather than paying $140 for 80 min massage session, it will be the same price for 2 hrs instead. I think I will start going there to get my back worked on more often unless I end up finding a better deal at a closer place in the future. I still would consider getting my facials done at Spavia in Bellevue. I can't wait to have my back worked on again. I should consider getting some sea salt for a hot bath as well. I was researching some brands and found some good epsom salt I may consider buying and a soap that helps relax muscle pain & stress. I notice I may find better deals on Ebay compared to Amazon. I been shopping on eBay more than Amazon lately depending on what I am shopping for.

I need to get my computer desk soon and arrange everything in my apartment to prepare on moving in the rest of my possessions. I have a lot of stuff I will have to prepare on arranging and putting together. The most relieving thing I will look forward to having are my dresser drawers for my clothes. I will have the rest of my wardrobe to wear to work or going out. I will be much more complete with all of my belongings with me here. I really can't wait to get my tv stand and coffee table to store my games, blu-ray dvd player, and start making my apartment look more like my own real place. It will definitely be more REAL when I have all of my posters up on the walls all framed. =).

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The Lame Ex Pt. 2

As I observed Joshua's social media profiles from Google without being signed into my accounts, it's pathetic that he hasn't changed or updated anything. His information is very misinformed. It says he's living in Nashville, when he clearly left Tennessee last year on my birthday. His Facebook is still showing that he's presently still working for Graceland, doing security for Dreamworks, & all, but he quit all those companies awhile back when we were still 2gether. Who is he kidding? What does he think he can accomplish with all these lies on his profiles? Reminder: He still has all of my social media blocked to this day hahaha. He's probably gonna leave my profiles blocked forever, even until the day he dies, & it doesn't bother me because I have already moved 4ward with my life right after we broke up in Feb. 2024. In his most current post, he makes it seem as if he's back in Los Angeles, when it's possible that he can still be in the Philippines. If he is indeed back in the states, then good for him..... He will never have a stable life because of all these stupid decisions he makes with the jobs, money, and the women he just needs to get off on. He will always have a small dick, be a short narcissistic asshole, & will never learn his lessons of all the mistakes he has made, especially with the way he treated me when we were together. I am so happy that I haven't dealt with him for many months. It probably drove him nuts knowing that I wasn't gonna allow him to control me anymore back at the Bellevue One apartments when he decided to sleep in the other bedroom. Too bad he no longer has his own place now, without somebody else supporting his loser ass. I know I won't be the one to support him anymore because I have a job for many years and I know how to better manage my money. I have my own place again and it feels great knowing that everything I have is all mine and not some other loser that claims to have shit when he didn't work hard for it in the 1st place.

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12 Hour Routine

When I had my taxes done this year, I never would've thought that I was able to make just about $73k from all the over time I did alone at the MCA. I can't imagine how much my tax refund would be next year if I continue to work 12 hrs as a mail-handler? This is the most money I have ever made compared to all the other years I worked for the U.S. Postal Service. As a clerk, I only worked 9-10 hrs at the most. How much more money could I have made as a regular clerk if I worked as many hours as I could right now? Anyways, Margaret was at my work 2day. It was gross to look at her stupid looking afro. Her stupid lazy fat ass was driving around the USS on the scooter just watching everybody. It felt good not to deal with that bitch since I bid away from the plant to get away from her last year in August of 2024. Now when I c her stupid ugly face pass by, I just continue to keep my eyes away from her as if she doesn't exist. It felt good not having to worry about what she may want to say to me because she has no authority over me now. I was told that she was only there 2day to help out. Hopefully she really isn't allowed to come back to the to the MCA permanently like she use to in the past.

Being kept busy every day during my 12 hr shifts has really helped me gotten use to the long shifts without having to think about what time is it anyways? Being able to work 8 hrs is a breeze compared to doing 12 hrs everyday. Trying to get enough sleep b4 returning to work for another 12 hr shift is pretty difficult without strong coffee.

I fell asleep with my laptop on for the 3rd time trying to write in here b4 going to bed, but I wanted to type up as it is still fresh in my mind that I had a dream that I saw my mom. I must've seen her and my sister a couple of times in my dreams lately, but being able to c my mom and being able to give her a long hug felt nice considering that I do miss her and she's been gone for over 8 yrs now. It's also nice to hear my spiritual guides wake me up when they know I needed to turn back off something or be aware of something without forgetting to do something b4 passing back out on my bed.

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Waiting

I have not heard anything from the Iglesia church administration. I am sure that they have communicated with me through Telegram, but they should not be ignorant to not know that I have already deleted that app the moment I decided to quit the church. The last message I received was from Sister Lydia, asking me how I am doing. I never responded to her because I didn't see the point of doing so now. Sister Jojie learned to stop communicating with me after I spoke to her about my reason for leaving. Looks like she didn't try because she knew that I had already made up my mind. I gave it about 2-3 weeks, and I will delete sister Lydia's phone # off my phone.

It's strange.....It's going to be April soon and I never heard from Arthur anymore. I'm not expecting to hear back from Micheal ever again. Maybe Arthur felt stupid for wanting to help me in the 1st place, but maybe he felt even stupider for not listening to my advice about how it would've been a bad idea to bring me up to his wife. When he said I was right about everything, I never heard from him again. I wonder if he had deleted my phone #? I guess it doesn't matter now that we are no longer friends. I don't see him anyways because of the fact that he's an actual truck driver and he works during tour 2 hours. I won't ever see him again unless he decides to stop by on his own free will.

I felt relieved removing some people off my Facebook list. I take one good look at their profile and rethink is it worth it to keep this person on my list? That's all I need to do in order to remind myself that there are certain people that doesn't belong in my life.

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Maintenance In My Apartment

It's nice to no longer see anymore leaking water coming from the bottom of my dryer, or the back of my refrigerator. The maintenance guy back towards the end of Feb took care of a bad water line on the fridge, and he said a contractor had to take care of the water leak that was possibly coming from the bottom of the wall behind the dryer. The dryer's hose line was already changed out, so there was no reason for any leaks to come from that. I felt a bit better when he drilled a couple of extra long screws into the side lock panel of the front door. That's the only way to be holding them things down through a fucked up eaten away piece of wood that's coming apart. My vacation is coming up in 2 weeks, and I have to prepare my home to move the rest of my stuff in it. I truly hope that I wouldn't have to decide to get rid of anymore things, but that's when I was back in Pomona last year in May when I have already gotten rid of stuff I didn't need. Hopefully I have enough space to put everything away here in my place. It would definitely be better when I no longer have to pay almost $300 a month for the storage fee anymore. Afterwards, I will never support Extra Space Storage ever again. That's twice I got suckered into using their services knowing how much they raise their prices every few months. It will be relieving to have my dressers here and all of my clothes. It looks like I got a free heater from the apartment. Since I first complained about the heater not working, this was what they provided me when I first moved in here in Jan. My old heater sucked, it kept blowing the fuse on the house. I think I finally did get rid of that shitty thing.

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Good Reminders

It is Sunday morning, I just did 12 hrs this morning. It was busy as fuck for a Saturday night. Usually on a Sunday morning, I would have to worry about getting ready for church, worrying about whether I'm going to lose a lot of sleep just to attend worship service for Iglesia Ni Cristo in Huntsville, AL and then worry about having to drive all the way back home and only having 3 hrs of sleep. God! That's about 1/2 a day wasted when I could've had a good days sleep from a long ass work shift. It's only been a couple of weeks since I quit the church, but damn is it so fucking relieving not to worry about being pressured about attendance, losing sleep, and commuting wasting gas anymore just for this stupid church.

I was glad that back then I didn't join the Church of Jesus Christ & Latter-Day Saints. That's considered a Mormon church, and I wouldn't have not wanted to be a Mormon. That religion is no better than Iglesia because their beliefs are based on false prophets. It probably would've been a church I may have end up joining if I never got with Iglesia, but either way I'm glad I made my choices to no longer be a part of Iglesia. I don't believe in cults & I will never be easily brainwashed.

I was only with Iglesia for over 2 1/2 years, but it's better to not have spent many many years with this church then finally leaving it then to not figure it out while you still have years left in life. I won't miss doing all that driving. My life is my life, my time is my time, & nobody can tell me how to spend it or do with it. Joshua is part of a cult hahahaha, and he is too stupid to realize that. Maybe hopefully he has lost his membership with the church by now, if he hasn't figure it out yet. Does it matter to me whether he's still a part of that cult or not? No, not at all. I don't know if I will actually hear from him again. I wouldn't be surprised if he never emails me again, but then again, if he supposedly cares about me and still thinks of me, why wouldn't he check up on me still? I don't look 4ward to any time Joshua will plan to make contact with me, but I am prepared to respond to him if he chooses to again in the future. I'm curious if he really is back in Los Angeles, CA? It doesn't matter anyways, because he's been out of my life for 9 months now since he has left Tennessee to head towards Texas, in which he didn't stay very long when he decided to go back to the Philippines. Bigger curiosity is that, I wonder how long Joshua had took to come all the way back to the states when he realized that he can't make that his permanent home? Some common sense came home? Or some logic? hahah....

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Signs From God

Thursday evening, me & David went to the gym 2gether. It's relieving that I got to sit in the hot tub b4 realizing my period has returned forreals. I had a lot of on and off bleeding since I took that Provera Depo shot back in December. It fucked up my period cycle. I won't ever take that shot again, even if it helps prevent pregnancy for 3 months without having to take a birth control pill every day at the same time for the whole month. I had cramps and I bled heavier than usual today, which tells me that yes....my period has returned to normal.

Whenever we go to the gym, I always observe the locker b4 using it. I make sure there are no spills, wet drippings, dirt, somebody's belongings are not in there, even a piece of hair. I remember the locker was clean b4 putting my stuff inside. After returning to the locker to get my things out, I notice there was a small figurine on the top inside corner of the locker floor. It was a Lego size Jesus Christ figure. I thought it was a Lego at first, but it was just a small soft plastic figurine. Of all the lockers, of all the people that were there, it's weird that it appeared there after I got back. It's mostly young & ghetto people that are in there, so I know they didn't put it in my locker. An older lady I saw playing around in the swimming pool after the jacuzzi was still in the pool area when I left. Long story short, I felt that God is communicating with me and is reminding me that he is still here with me, watching over me, & listening to me whenever I pray. Nothing like this has ever happened to me b4.

Just the other day, I heard a male cat meowing really loud right by my apartment. I knew it was a male cat cuz they are usually the ones who make that loud long sound. I opened my door and looked outside & I saw this large gray male cat. He was either calling for a female, or he was calling his owners for food or to be let inside the home? I meowed at him, he looked at me, and started coming towards me. I was surprised that he wasn't afraid of me because most cats normally are afraid of people. He literally walked inside my apartment. He was dirty, but I gave him a couple of my bolonies b4 he wanted to be let out. I let him out right b4 David came over. When I did some grocery shopping 2day, I got a couple of cans of cat food and some temptations kitty snacks in case any stray kitty or that gray one may come by for food again. I hope I still have my pet supplies in my CA storage.

My maintenance exam is coming up this week. I honestly don't have the motivation to study for it especially if I'm working so much during the weekday, I don't have the time to study for it. Maybe I should've scheduled my test for Friday instead? I think it was the latest date I was allowed to schedule for it. Anyways, it doesn't matter. I may not even take the exam if I don't get a chance to study well for it. If I do well on it, and I had to interview for it again, then what's the point? I'm not gonna go through the interview again. I am just gonna wait to become a clerk and a custodian. I'm not saying I gave up, but my time & energy is precious to me, and I won't be wasting too much of it on the same things for nothing for the 2nd time especially if I won't get offered a maintenance position anytime soon.

I also learned a lot of things about Vera. Seems that female chameleons are really high maintenance. In about 3-4 months, I will have to upgrade her tank to a much bigger size for her growing self as well as set up her egg laying bin. It sucks because they lay eggs whether they have been with a male or not. If they can't get rid of their eggs, they can die from it sitting in their bellies. Chickens are the same way. They lay infertile eggs as well. It's no different than human females having to go through their period every month and it's something we can't prevent other then to use a pad every month to keep our clothes clean. Hopefully, I'll be able to pay off my credit cards soon so that I can use it to pay for her new tank. Her upgrade tank I been eyeing on is from the official Repti Terranium website. It's close to $400 for a 60 gallon vs a 40 gallon at the Aquatic Critter's pet store for the same price. I know what I'll be ordering, and I will need to order a nice table for her new tank. I can add all of her fake trees and vines and additional real plants if I truly want to once I can really set up her tank in a way I want to set it up. Her current tank is somewhat kinda small for a nice looking set up since I have to move around her bowls or her box for the crickets. I will do my best to take good care of Vera, even though David says we should just trade her in for a male. I figure this is a learning experience of taking care of an animal I have never had b4, other then knowing that I have love for my pets or babies. I wouldn't want to give up on them that easily.

David is going to plan on bidding out really soon, he may consider going to the plant to get away from Shiela until he gets the bid that he really wants. In the meantime, I'll be looking out for a decent bid as well while I am still currently waiting to convert crafts.