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stares at the ceiling btw it is possible to ask why i have been writing so much every time i lose my mind and the answer to that will always be bc writing is my codependent bestie & i'm married to her <3 i enjoy her company <3

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person who should be asleep rn vc. btw i have been rotating veinxiao in my head for most of my conscious hours since the pv teaser dropped i have minimal new things to say but also it is making me go crazy bc i simultaneously feel like saying So much. unfair. this is like a relapse to me,

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stares at the ceiling also i don't have the expertise to write vein mahjong game but bites something. If I Did.

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to be clear vein is hot but this is not about him this is about lx + blindfolded puppets dragging him down while he looks smug about it. interesting on many levels but once again this is literally equivalent to a relapse.

person who should be asleep rn vc. btw i have been rotating veinxiao in my head for most of my conscious hours since the pv teaser dropped i have minimal new things to say but also it is making me go crazy bc i simultaneously feel like saying So much. unfair. this is like a relapse to me,

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person who should be asleep rn vc. btw i have been rotating veinxiao in my head for most of my conscious hours since the pv teaser dropped i have minimal new things to say but also it is making me go crazy bc i simultaneously feel like saying So much. unfair. this is like a relapse to me,

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huuuuge fan of little phrases you can add to the end of your sentences just for fun. "if you even care" and "btw" and "I fear" have done sooo much for my vocabulary. if you even care

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good mourning

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tbh the thing is that i am lowkey horribly terribly biased in that one of my favorite things in media-i-love is characters from a prev generation to a younger main cast having intriguing and plot-adjacent backstories— characters who are middleaged to old and are primarily mentors and parents, now, who aren't the focus but come with their own messy and interesting history that shapes the present timeline. and i am horribly easy for this, which makes me sooo confused when people are not.

like. it's fun to me!! is it not fun to you!! i like it when characters make me sit and stare and go 500k plot-centric prequel when!! i like it when parents and mentor figures get to be interesting!!!!!!!!! i like viewing them as characters in their own right, outside of what their children/mentees/etc think of them, and i like it when the source material gives you something to sink your teeth in, and i like it when there's the allusion to a history that runs deeper than their children fully comprehend.

(i think there's a dismissal that comes in certain fandoms or sections of fandom both of older characters and of parenthood as something that can be interesting and nuanced...? but this isn't about that, though adjacent, this is instead about how older women with crazy backstories make me want 500k plot-centric prequels whereas fandom hates to see me win. do u see.)

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happy pride from my boy <3

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tbh the thing is that i am lowkey horribly terribly biased in that one of my favorite things in media-i-love is characters from a prev generation to a younger main cast having intriguing and plot-adjacent backstories— characters who are middleaged to old and are primarily mentors and parents, now, who aren't the focus but come with their own messy and interesting history that shapes the present timeline. and i am horribly easy for this, which makes me sooo confused when people are not.

like. it's fun to me!! is it not fun to you!! i like it when characters make me sit and stare and go 500k plot-centric prequel when!! i like it when parents and mentor figures get to be interesting!!!!!!!!! i like viewing them as characters in their own right, outside of what their children/mentees/etc think of them, and i like it when the source material gives you something to sink your teeth in, and i like it when there's the allusion to a history that runs deeper than their children fully comprehend.

(i think there's a dismissal that comes in certain fandoms or sections of fandom both of older characters and of parenthood as something that can be interesting and nuanced...? but this isn't about that, though adjacent, this is instead about how older women with crazy backstories make me want 500k plot-centric prequels whereas fandom hates to see me win. do u see.)

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i keep seeing that one post where its like what if SHAO YUANYUAN is the one FUCKING up the timeline leading to CHENG XIAOSHI'S death and its all HER fault for messing up LU GUANG'S plans. like okay. but why isnt it the other way around. im pretty sure its lu guang who's fucking everything up by saving cheng xiaoshi isnt it. like she dived back over a decade before he did and then he shows up and everythings fucked up and vein is after them. like im pretty sure lu guang is messing up everything for her

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Consolidating all the fics I wrote for @10daysto1k into one post. To make things extra fun, I challenged myself to do a different fandom for each day :)

Links to the fics are below

Day 1: 100 words

Fandom: Green Creek

Greeting

Ox goes to the beach.

Written for the prompt “Journey”

Day 2: 200 words

Fandom: Tian Guan Ci Fu

Denial

Quan Yizhen was a terrible kisser.

Written for the prompt “Sweat”

Day 3: 300 words

Fandom: Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System

Death

There is a boy destined for death, and he doesn’t know it yet.

Written for the prompt “Fate”

Day 4: 400 words

Fandom: The Devil Judge

Resemblance

“Do you still see him when you look at me?”

Written for the prompt “Obsession”

Day 5: 500 words

Fandom: Jing Wei Qing Shang

Memory

For three years, it was as though Qi Yan had her soul sucked out of her body.

Written for the prompt “Scar”

Day 6: 600 words

Fandom: Mo Dao Zu Shi

Backup

Two times Lan Yuan needed to call for backup.

Written for the prompt “Moonlight”

Day 7: 700 words

Fandom: Link Click

Hourglass

Time is sand grains slipping through figures cruelly separated by glass.

Written for the prompt “Dream”

Day 8: 800 words

Fandom: BBC Merlin

War

She dreams of kissing Gwen as Camelot burns around them.

Written for the prompt “Secrets”

Day 9: 900 words

Fandom: Erha He Ta De Bai Mao Shizun

Break

The first emperor of the cultivation world is the champion of the common people and the downtrodden.

Written for the prompt “Flame”

Day 10: 1,000 words

Fandom: All For the Game

Grief

He was laughing the last time she saw him alive.

Written for the prompt “Departure”

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[LINK CLICK | M.O.D. PV]

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actually obsessed with this. this will feed me for the next six months. he looks sooooo smug and at ease with the red puppets. they could be choking him and he doesn't care, because he knows they won't if he doesn't want them to. also, this is much more interesting to me than the cult vibes in manipulator. in manipulator, there is a distance or detachment with liu xiao's puppeteering. but with this one... there's something about how the puppets are so intimately touching him and you don't know if it's out of reverence or malice, yet they are all faceless and featureless puppets at the end. the blase expression on liu xiao'a face regardless. wine turning to blood and soaking the flowers. turning this in my head over and over.

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okay i lied put your clothes back on we're not having sex i'm fundamentally evil and i need you to kill me

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i need to press that man like a flower. get in the book boy

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for the ask game:☀️ /

im so sleepy rn so forgive me if im wrong or this makes no sense but after some deliberation i think i associate your stuff with explorations of control and autonomy? not necessarily always in a conventional way, i think sometimes more of a hey, im in a position where i have no perfect choices. i might not even have any Good choices. what does it look like to move forward from here. what kind of desires do those people have, how do they express them, how are they moving to fulfill them, etc. for better or for worse. often for worse. which is great for me since i love watching things get messy

also you are into link click so this naturally dovetails with themes of grief and the heavy shadow of the past. but who hasnt been there. lol.

ao3 user sunslants !! staring at this hello... it's not something i would've thought of independently but it does make a lot of sense and also i have been rotating this in my head for days. interesting. sends you a thousand heartemojis btw.

also: sun emoji !! and: the primary things i associate with your writing are (1) beautiful prose (2) symbolism/metaphors and subtlety. each word feels so precisely placed, and the imagery is beyond gorgeous (language as its own art and prose as something beyond a vehicle are always significant to me? i think your writing emphasizes that, and i come out of your works each time taken aback; genuinely always stunning). the symbolism makes me want to eat it.

re:subtlety, there's— suggestions, in your writing, if that makes sense. gestures at a concept, well-placed imagery and symbolism, allowing things to go unspoken and unstated. it makes me want to dissect it forever. (and fond of the way you do character voice: it feels fitting, but the dialogue feels like clean cuts to the bone and, again, precise)

ask game.