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They say you’ve got to quit while still on top.

I haven’t followed the wise advice of many, and kept on going until I couldn’t stop the fall.

I haven’t lived a long life; in fact, it was extremely short considering the fact that I had eternity ahead of me. But I’ve seen enough: I had fun, I felt pain, I made friends and lost some along the road… and I loved. Oh how foolish of me to keep it in secret, but I have and now he’s gone. He’s gone and left me behind in this cruel word with nothing to hold onto. The days have merged into weeks and the weeks would probably merge into years of grief and pain. Unbearable pain.

Now I’m numb.

“I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart.”

I should go now quietly, for my bones have found a place to lie down and sleep.

What a mess I’m leaving behind…

I know my friends will be mad for this but please, please take care of yourselves.

And don’t try to follow me… us.

Kisses, Kath

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Kathrin Faith Jung (24.05.13 – 27.09.14.)

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What is Kathrin Faith Jung?

An idol turned criminal, drug dealer, smuggler, murderer… vampire with a craving for humanity she can never have back again.

Who is Kathrin Faith Jung?

Daughter, sister, friend, lover. A shattered soul with broken hopes and dreams, a true fighter who managed to stand up from the ground even when I thought she was lying there dead.

But she won’t stand up this time…

She was born the day I joined tumblr roleplay and she’s leaving now, alongside with me. Wow, it’s been a long fifteen months.

I will never forget how I first started making friends with her just as I will never forget the Muses and Muns who took part in her story, and the way how they helped me to form her. The shy and reserved Lee Chaerin into a restless vampire.

Kibum, Jonghyun, Noma, Kibutt, Jongie, Yuri, Jared, Chen, Hoseok, Minzy, Hongbin, Hyori, Sera, Kiko, Mint, Sukyung, Naeun, Lilly, Taemin, JR…

And a lot more... All of them have left a fingerprint on who Kath’s become.

It’s been a pleasure to roleplay with you all, thank you for the fun.

xo,

Kath Mun.

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Hiatus.

I need a break.

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Kathleopatra ( @boobmonster )

So in the end I've bleached the fuck out of it...

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12.09.14. || Illusions

Shadows settle on the place, that you left. Our minds are troubled by the emptiness. Destroy the middle; it's a waste of time. From the perfect start to the finish line…

How long has it been since the first time the blonde haired walked into Kathrin’s life? How long has it been since this man graced her days with his presence and made her feel better with just a simple smile and a pun about how horrendous humanity really is?

A year? Maybe a little longer…

„What’s the time?”

“It doesn’t exist here…”

“Oh—“

The raven haired woman knew somewhere in the back of her mind that her fragile visions are far from reality and they might fall into pieces the moment her cold heart starts beating again. She knew that the illusion of human death will only give her temporary ease and unbearable disappointment, grief and pain once it’s gone but… she didn’t mind. As long as the fake visage of his arms loosely wrapped around her waist was standing strong, Kathrin didn’t care about what’s yet to come.

“Why—“

“Shh… we don’t have to talk about it now.”

He was right. It was pointless to look for the answers that were only made up by her own mind…

“Remember the first time we’ve met? It was in a crowded club and I swear to god I was about to walk out when you popped up out of nowhere. With that smug yet gorgeous smirk in the corners of your lips and the cheeky tone in your voice as you spoke… I loved it.”

“You didn’t have any other options but to love me, doll.”

The corners of her lips turned upwards upon hearing his words, and with a soft sigh she laid her head down on his bare chest. Kathrin didn’t exactly know what she was expecting, but definitely not the silence his ribs held inside. From the outside the view was peaceful; two youngsters, so close yet so far from each other… almost lovers but still too far from calling what they’ve had love. Yet it was something truly special. A friendship that shined brighter than any diamond, but still wasn’t enough to save them from the filth of this existence.

On the inside though… Kathrin’s thoughts were screaming; a rush of panic was flowing through her veins as she had to realize her time to live again is soon to come.

“You’ve been dead, lying here with me for about four days now doll…”

“Thought you said time didn’t exist here?!”

“Not for me, Kath. But it does for you. Your clock is ticking and it’s time to go now. You’ve got a party to attend.”

“I’ll come back though… I promise you Kibum, I’ll come back to you. L-word… Y’ know. ”

“Don’t rush, I won’t go anywhere. L-word back at ya doll.”

For a brief second she stayed silent before leaning on her elbows to turn her gaze at him, just to memorize every single inch of his features and the shine of his chocolate brown hues. Another soft sigh escaped her lips before she lightly pressed them against his plump lips for the very last time...

And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones. 'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone. We're setting fire to our insides for fun. Collecting pictures from a flood that wrecked our home, It was a flood that wrecked this home.

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Dear: bvni ; hyunado ; kjhx90 ; notaghostboy ; jongistic ; italyu ; ltmxin ; modelmjinah ; whxsica ; j0nghyunx ; mr and mrs kim, family, family friends and all those who wish to pay respects.

Kibutt has given (given, not left), me some instructions on how his party (party, not funeral), is to go down.

"There will be no black worn at my celebration party. No proceedings, no coffins, no flowers. I want only a little bit of crying as long as you're making way for the Vodka and Bourbon. There will be a photo frame of one of my hot selfies. Stories may be exchanged of my unorthodox ways and how great I was at knitting, but otherwise, this is a party. Celebrate for me."

When: September 13th, 8PM.

Where: The Octagon, Private Room 2. Free tab all night. { And at THIS tinychat. }

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I'm sorry for being still fucking slow on replies and everything, grief is completely blocking my brain from doing anything. 

I'll try to get myself together.

And my best friend is trying to put me back together as well, wish her luck.

Ok I'm out again.

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For some reason my muses just don’t want to work with me so I just sit staring at my dash reblogging things and I always think that people think I’m ignoring them, but I don’t do it on purpose. I just don’t know what to say or how to reply to anyone or anything. It’s frustrating and I get worked up over it, which makes replies even less likely. It’s a horrible Catch-22 of frustration and anxieties that I wish I could overcome, but I just can’t. I constantly feel like such a horrible RP partner.

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[ TXT TO: blckxnoise italyu kjhx90 bvni troublemakerjonghyun hyunado ]

Dolls.

It’ll be the last time you’ll be hearin’ that for a while. I texted to ask you a favour.

Please, for the love of god, no one wear black at my funeral.

You owe me.

I L-word you all. Take care of your pretty faces.

— Kibutt

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I don't know if I'll ever be able to roleplay with another Kim Kibum tho...

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{ Rest in peace to the two talented and beautiful angels of Ladies’ Code, Rise and EunB. Two lives that were taken way too soon. The skies have called for your presence and I hope you watch over us well. This is just so heartbreaking and I hope we can all band together to get through this tragedy with steady hearts. }

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