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( finally, gonna start putting together a playlist for ayano, so consider this a lyric-starter call?

like this post && i'll give you a 1-3 line starter using songs for ayano's playlist. )

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𝙊𝙃, 𝙒𝙃𝙊 𝙄𝙎 𝙎𝙃𝙀? 𝘼 𝙈𝙄𝙎𝙏𝙔 𝙈𝙀𝙈𝙊𝙍𝙔… 𝘼 𝙃𝘼𝙐𝙉𝙏𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙁𝘼𝘾𝙀. 𝙄𝙎 𝙎𝙃𝙀 𝘼 𝙇𝙊𝙎𝙏 𝙀𝙈𝘽𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙀?

indie, private, absolutely canon divergent ayano aishi of lovesick / yandere simulator using a.sa m.ita.ka of ch.ain.sa.w m.a.n as a faceclaim. IN NO WAY SUPPORTS YANDEV. sideblog to @foolsdeath. READ CARRD BEFORE INTERACTING.

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( guess what! i re-did ayano's carrd with about 80% more rambling by me. ( i added a more in-depth family history page. ) so....

here it is! I recommend going back over it because i have a much more robust triggers page && such now. )

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“𝙏𝙊 𝘽𝙀 𝙈𝙄𝙎𝙎𝙀𝘿” 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙏𝙎.

basically i was rewatching a load of shows while i was sick for the last two weeks, and it just dawned on me how beautiful a notion it is to miss someone, or miss something? so before i go headfirst into the emotional motivation behind these prompts, i’ll post them, and hope you’re all having a fantastic week, and that you enjoy these prompts as much as i enjoyed writing them!

“ i miss you. “

“ i’ve missed you. “

“ i’ll miss you. “

“ you’re coming back, right? “

“ when will i see you again? “

“ please don’t go… “

“ i could go with you! “

“ when will you be back? “

“ you know you can’t come with me… “

“ i didn’t wanna leave without saying goodbye. “

“ i hate goodbyes… “

“ i’ll always find my way back to you. “

“ hey… no tears, alright? this isn’t goodbye. “

“ don’t leave me. “

“ i’ll see you soon, okay? i promise. “

“ this isn’t goodbye, you know. “

“ this isn’t goodbye. this is… until we meet again. “

“ i have to go now… “

“ were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? “

“ i don’t think i’ve ever missed anyone, or anything, the way that i miss you right now. “

“ hey, where’d you go? i was starting to miss you! “

“ why? do you miss me? “

“ stay with me… “

“ you know that i can’t stay here… “

“ what will i do without you? “

“ look outside your window… you see the sky? good. so do i. because we’re looking at the exact same sky right now, okay? so no matter where we are, or how far apart we are… we’ll always be underneath the same sky. so we’re not that far apart at all. “

“ i’m gonna miss you, you know. “

“ i didn’t expect myself to miss you as much as i do/did. “

“ i wish you were here. or i was there. just… i wish we were back together again. “

“ what’s it like over there? “

“ i couldn’t leave without seeing you again. “

“ if… if this is the last time i’ll ever see you, i need you to know… i have loved, and will never stop loving, you. you hear me? i love you. beyond whatever happens next. i love you. “

“ no matter where you are, where you go, where they take you… i will always find my way back to you. i promise. “

“ stop! stop lying! you left, and you’ve taken a part of me with you, so i want to know! i want… i deserve an answer. i deserve the truth! where are you? and why did you have to go there? “

“ i’ll hold you in my heart, until i can hold you in my arms. “

“ in case you ever foolishly forget; i am never not thinking of you. “

“ my heart never knew loneliness until you went away. i am missing you. “

and a few ACTION PROMPTS !

[ HUG ]:     sender, upon reuniting with the receiver after being apart for a lengthy duration of time, rushes over to them and pulls them into a tight, desperate, emotional embrace.

[ KISS ]:     sender, having just reunited with the receiver after being apart for a lengthy duration of time, catches them and pulls them in for a passionate, long-awaited kiss that tells all the things they’ve been bottling up in their absence.

[ FOREHEAD ]:     before parting ways, sender rests their forehead against the receiver’s, a possible final touch as they go their separate ways.

[ BURY ]:     before parting ways, sender pulls the receiver in for what they privately believe to be their final hug, giving them an embrace filled with heartache, desperation, and unspoken apologies.

[ GRAVE ]:     after going their separate ways, the receiver learns that the sender has died. upon travelling to their graveside, how do they respond to this tragedy?

[ COLLECT ]:      sender arrives at the airport/docks/other location to collect the receiver after being apart for a considerable length of time.

[ INTERVENE ]:     sender surprises the departing receiver by intervening before they leave, in the hopes of changing their mind.

[ REUNITE ]:     sender and receiver reunite after being apart for a long length of time.

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( wake up, babe! new aishi family lore dropped! )

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Send 👥 for a headcanon relating to both of our muses

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( eh, consider this post an unoffical plotting call? like. if u like this i'll come into ur dms to chat about ayano, && it'll (most likely) come from @foolsdeath, bc sideblog && all. )

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INVISIBLE LIFE .. an assortment of quotes from the invisible life of addie larue by V.E. schwab .

perhaps an enemy's company is better than none.

never pray to the gods that answer after dark.

what is a person, if not the marks they leave behind?

there is a defiance in being a dreamer.

nothing is all good or all bad. life is messier than that.

don't you remember, when you were nothing but shadow and smoke?

the old gods may be great, but they are neither kind nor merciful.

do not mistake this kindness. i simply want to be the one who breaks you.

i do not want to die as i have lived, which is no life at all.

was any of it real?

you are not capable of love.

if you loved me, you would have let me go by now.

love is hungry. love is selfish.

want is for children. this is need, and need is painful but patient.

were the moments of beauty worth the years of pain?

it is sad to forget. but it's a lonely thing to be forgotten.

i confess, i do not want a master, and i have yet to find an equal.

you belong to me.. with me.

the rise isn't worth the fall.

you can't make people love you. if it isn't a choice, it isn't real.

it is easier to be alone among so many people.

i know your heart my dear, i know when it falters.

it will hurt and it will pass. all things do.

you move among them like a ghost.

you have called and i have come.

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( drops dynamic tag w/ @angelsflatline. )

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ayano knew the truth of what happened to that girl, found dead with no apparent murderer. soon enough, they'd find that forged suicide note ayano wrote in the bitch's handwriting, talking about how her bullying && horrid ways came from a deep place of depression, && how she was ending her pain && the pain she caused others by her own hand.

yes, ayano knew thanks to that 'evidence' they had yet to find, she didn't have to worry at all. besides, ayano had an alibi. she sits relaxed in the chair across from the detective, who was using the guidance counselor's office as a makeshift interrogation room.

"where was i?..." ayano fakes worry, pretending to try && recall where she was, "oh, i was on my way to pick up my sister from class so we could bike home together... our mom is out of the country, so she made us agree to always go home together." she fidgets with her hands, another invented show uncomfortableness, "but then yui had to talk to her teacher, so we were caught up for quite a bit as i had to play the role of her guardian for a bit. again, thanks to our mom being out of town and-"

she pauses, feigning an awkward laugh, "sorry, i was getting carried away, wasn't i? but yes, that's where i was."

"will i be here very long? it's getting late && if my sister && i don't leave soon, we won't make it home before dark."

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Saddening cries of anguish and regret, typical for a school classroom who saw the demise of a fellow classmate, ’ stabbed to death by a needle taken from the school’s nursery ’ .

Friends, family, or perhaps now guilty enemies mourned for her loss, as each individual answered the same set of questions as if it was an exam of their own, hoping all students passed with an ’ exemplary grade of an A+ and no below ’ . In order to fulfill the status quo of the classroom curriculum, Ms. Harris has to pass two more students, or rather, a pair of students ’ currently seperated for equal of personal time ’ .

In Ms. Harris’ current room is the oldest of the young girls that ’ goes by the name of Ayano Aishi ’ . Yet there is something about this student in particular, from her recent look into history, that seems sympathetic for her, almost curious to get to know her more than the ones who ’ attempted to talk her ear off to no avail ’ .

“ ..Ayano Aishi. ” She began with a soft breath, “ Just as I have told the others of your current class, I do mean no malicious harm when it comes to the questioning of the death of a fellow classmate. I only require a specific amount of information from you, just to see if you are or are not, a lead towards the culprit. ”

Ms.Harris keeps her distance from the table the girl remains sitting, staring at her facial ’ expression, ignoring her eyes on purpose ’ .

“ First.. where were you exactly five minutes before the murder? ”

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( i feel like ayano is actually quite awkward when actually romancing someone.

like ryoba in no way actually prepared her for an actual relationship bc ryoba is only married thru baby-trapping ayano's dad.

ayano has no idea what she's doing, a terrifying person in any other way, but you want to hold her hand? she's flustering so bad, what does she do. )

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PINNED .. an assortment of quotes found on pinterest .

i crave touch, yet i flinch every time someone gets too close.

how quickly the blade becomes you.

rage is a promise kept.

no one can hate me more than i hate myself.

you, who opened suns in my heart.

the word "father" rotted in my mouth.

i was born in an abundance of inherited sadness.

are you praying again? how raw are your knees?

can someone please be proud of me? like, fuck, i'm trying.

there are teeth marks on everything he loves.

i have done back things. i can't take them back, and they are part of who i am.

i am not a creature that was born. i am a fire that was set.

the best way to get your heart broken is to pretend you don't have one.

[he/she/they] is in my heart and i suffer.

do you love me enough that i may be weak with you?

in the crooks of your body, i find my religion.

i was a girl gulping a woman's grief.

i have pasts inside me that i did not bury properly.

i'll see you on the other side of the war.

you said i killed you - haunt me then!

i can't tell you how piercingly and endlessly i think about you.

i love you in vain, alone, in a terrible cold.

you will love [her/him/them] to ruins.

impossible loves. i am very much afraid they can become an addiction.

maybe we exist to bleed. maybe we exist to burn.

still, there is a terrible desire to be loved.

still, there is this horror at being left behind.

i come home - and i have a feeling of a ghost returning to its haunt.

my dear, i will always be this tender for you.

i'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees.

i'm ruined by your voice's deep dark lullaby.

i think we deserve a soft epilogue, my love. we are good people and we have suffered enough.

i couldn't touch you without ruining you, so i didn't touch you at all.

you laugh like a little girl, and inside you think like a martyr.

you are not my cure, nobody has that power.

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@angelsflatline wrote. ❝ we’re supposed to be a team here, you know. ❞

she's half ignoring roland as she reassesses her weapons, trying to see if maybe she simply needed a change of pace to make up for their somewhat... lackluster performance in the last battle.

"team?" she scoffs, examining her usual knife, making sure it hasn't gone dull, "whatever that was, it wasn't a team. so, why don't you just waste time with that doctor you've been so fond of recently, because i work better by myself."

"i don't know why you expected me to go along with... whatever rose-colored glasses you have about me." she can't help the frustration that rises in her voice, eventually setting aside && forgetting about her task in the first place. this frustrating conversation somehow gains her focus, "i've been upfront since we met that i go my own fucking way. being stuck in this stupid library doesn't change a thing, old man."

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cowboy bebop starters

❝ i can’t tell when you’re joking and when you’re not. ❞ ❝ you look ridiculous in that outfit. ❞ ❝ when we show fear, it jumps at us faster than light. ❞ ❝ go on, pull the trigger. ❞ ❝ guess you’ll have to chalk it up to bad luck. ❞ ❝ whatever happens, happens. ❞ ❝ how long were you there? i didn’t hear you come in. ❞ ❝ some promises are made to be broken. ❞ ❝ you’ve already caused me enough trouble. ❞ ❝ i’m fully aware of the danger. ❞ ❝ why do you do all of this? for money? some sort of revenge? or perhaps just for fun? ❞ ❝ the more you know, the shorter your life will be. ❞ ❝ let’s just say my past is catching up to me. ❞ ❝ go ahead and run. how far do you think you’ll get? ❞ ❝ i want to get out of this life. ❞ ❝ i’ll be with you. until the end. ❞ ❝ you’re lucky you got away with only this scratch on your arm. ❞ ❝ stick your neck out too far, and you’ll get it cut. ❞ ❝ i was starting to worry about you. ❞ ❝ i thought i’d say goodbye, since it’ll be the last i’ll be seeing you. ❞ ❝ you know the first rule of combat? shoot them before they shoot you. ❞ ❝ you’ve never told me anything about yourself. ❞ ❝ hey there, having a little trouble? ❞ ❝ do you have any idea what you look like? a ravenous beast. ❞ ❝ this is strictly business. ❞ ❝ are you pleading for your life? ❞ ❝ i love the kind of woman that can kick my ass. ❞ ❝ remember: a snake cannot eat a dragon. ❞ ❝ you came all the way here to see me? ❞ ❝ belonging is the very best thing there is. ❞ ❝ there was no place for me to return to. this was the only place i could go. ❞ ❝ they lead you like a lamb to slaughter. ❞ ❝ if we had met earlier in life, do you think that we would have been friends? ❞ ❝ i’m not a criminal. woah…that makes me sound more like a criminal, doesn’t it? ❞ ❝ you know what they say. easy come, easy go. ❞ ❝ no one can draw a clear line between sane and insane. you move that line as you see fit for yourself. ❞ ❝ don’t try to talk anymore. we’ll have a doctor in a few minutes. ❞ ❝ why do you have to go? ❞ ❝ i know who you are. i’ve heard about you. ❞ ❝ you should see yourself right now. ❞ ❝ so, you’re finally awake. ❞ ❝ either way, we were destined to end up like this. ❞ ❝ that threat doesn’t work on me anymore. ❞ ❝ a star just fell from the sky. ❞ ❝ we should’ve never taken such a risk. ❞ ❝ your heart is colder than any planet. ❞ ❝ of the days that i have lived, only those i spent with you felt real. ❞ ❝ what’s wrong? lost your nerve? ❞ ❝ hello there, my friend, welcome to hell. ❞ ❝ how long were you in there listening? ❞ ❝ i have no fear of death. it just means dreaming in silence. ❞ ❝ you’re kidding yourself if you think every person is like you. they’re not. ❞ ❝ you told me once to forget the past, but you’re the one still tied to it. ❞ ❝ before i knew it, the dream was all over ❞ ❝ angels banished from heaven have no choice but to become devils. ❞ ❝ having ourselves a little nap, huh? ❞ ❝ time never stands still. ❞ ❝ you are a part of me that i had lost. ❞ ❝ you’re a good shot. ❞ ❝ let’s go somewhere. just the two of us. ❞ ❝ so, there is no place for me after all. ❞ ❝ there is nothing in this world to believe in. ❞ ❝ when this is over, i’m getting out of it. all of it. ❞ ❝ shit. this whole thing gives me a headache. ❞ ❝ the same blood runs through both of us. ❞ ❝ if there’s anyone who needs pity here, it’s you. ❞ ❝ why are you still alive? ❞ ❝ so, how about it? you’ll have a little drink, won’t you? ❞ ❝ once you let your teeth in something, you never let go of it. ❞ ❝ i’m not in a great mood right now, all right? ❞ ❝ what, you think you’re too good to talk to me? ❞ ❝ everything’s broken around this place. ❞ ❝ didn’t your grandmother ever tell you to finish what you start? ❞ ❝ i’ll meet you at the end of this world. ❞ ❝ you were always waiting for me. and that’s all i needed. you. ❞ ❝ what are you spacing out about? ❞ ❝ what are you going to do? throw away your life like it was nothing? ❞ ❝ i’m watching a dream i’ll never wake up from. ❞ ❝ i’m not the type to be led around. ❞ ❝ it’s so like you to worry about things. ❞ ❝ come on out. you can’t run anymore. ❞ ❝ don’t give me that art of war crap. ❞ ❝ you’re a strange one, aren’t you? ❞ ❝ this could be a trap. ❞ ❝ for some reason, i didn’t feel sad. it just didn’t seem real. ❞ ❝ if i tell you, i’d have to kill you. ❞ ❝ now, don’t get hotheaded. ❞ ❝ there’s something you’re looking for, isn’t there? something you need to find? ❞ ❝ if you wanna know something, let me see some cash. ❞ ❝ hey, i said i was sorry. ❞ ❝ i don’t know who you are and i don’t really give a damn. ❞ ❝ if you want to receive, you must first give. ❞ ❝ i had a little trouble, but it’s nothing i can’t handle. ❞ ❝ tell me what you’re doing here. ❞ ❝ we either deceive or are deceived. we flourish or perish. ❞ ❝ you don’t give up, do you? ❞ ❝ if you want to survive, you’ll have to betray me at times. ❞ ❝ i had no idea the view from up here would be so breathtaking. ❞ ❝ damn…all that work and no reward. ❞ ❝ don’t come back. there won’t be a place for you. ❞ ❝ i haven’t committed any crimes. well…at least not bad ones. ❞ ❝ doing things like this won’t bring you any good. ❞ ❝ what happened to your generosity? ❞ ❝ i’ve never had anything good happen to me when i trusted others. ❞ ❝ little by little, i felt something inside of me go numb. ❞ ❝ thank god i can finally relax. take a little breather. ❞ ❝ come on, hang in there, you hear me? ❞ ❝ do not fear death. death is always at our side. ❞ ❝ you’re in a good mood today. ❞ ❝ i don’t know why i’m telling you all this. i feel like i’m in a confession booth. ❞ ❝ you’ve never listened to anyone in your whole life. ❞ ❝ we’re supposed to be a team here, you know. ❞ ❝ you’re avoiding the subject and you know it. what are you trying to hide from me? ❞ ❝ to our new alliance, and perhaps even friendship. ❞ ❝ when something goes wrong, someone must take responsibility. ❞ ❝ what’s your problem? you wanna fight? ❞ ❝ don’t try anything. ❞ ❝ you’ve got a bit of mercy in you, haven’t you? ❞ ❝ i want to be strong like you. ❞ ❝ what’s all this? isn’t this a little risky? ❞ ❝ it’s no use playing innocent. ❞ ❝ you have something beautiful deep inside you. it’s hard for some people to tell, but it’s there. ❞ ❝ you’re trembling. ❞ ❝ how do you know so much about me? ❞ ❝ i’m okay. it takes more than to kill me. ❞ ❝ ‘survival of the fittest’ is the law of nature. ❞ ❝ i want to live my own life, make my own decisions…even if they are terrible mistakes. ❞ ❝ hey, thanks a lot for the warm welcome. ❞ ❝ what makes you think you can do whatever the hell you like? ❞ ❝ you’re just walking trouble, so stay out of it. ❞ ❝ i said i don’t feel like doing this. ❞ ❝ you’re just afraid they’ll abandon you, so you abandon them. ❞ ❝ and you trust me just like that? ❞ ❝ i never did understand you, right to the very end. ❞ ❝ unfortunately, we quickly forget the lessons we learn, and then we have to learn them all over again. ❞ ❝ you’ll survive this. be strong. ❞ ❝ how many lies are you going to tell me before you’re done? ❞ ❝ remember: i will always be cheering you on. ❞ ❝ what do you get by running away? ❞ ❝ do people ever tell you that you’re the silent type? ❞ ❝ i get a strange feeling when i look in your eyes. ❞ ❝ this time, i hope you have sweet dreams. ❞ ❝ will you rescue me if someone goes wrong? ❞ ❝ do you want to know a secret about my past? ❞ ❝ even if you play by the rules, nothing gets solved. ❞ ❝ you’re gonna carry that weight. ❞ ❝ so, you were going to betray me? ❞ ❝ that arrogance of yours will be your ruin. ❞ ❝ you’re the only one i can turn to for help right now. ❞ ❝ i’m not the delicate cautious type. ❞ ❝ i…can’t come with you. ❞ ❝ my love for you burns strong. ❞ ❝ they say ghosts appear in places where they have regrets. ❞ ❝ in this world, people must cherish whatever ties they have. ❞ ❝ you’re the one person i could never forgive. ❞ ❝ serves you right. this is poetic justice. ❞ ❝ i’ve got no place to stay. ❞ ❝ we’ll leave here and get out of this. ❞ ❝ what makes you think that you know anything about me? ❞ ❝ i’m telling you this for your own good. if you’re smart, you’ll stay out of it. ❞ ❝ of course, i can see now how stupid i was. ❞ ❝ did you sleep well? ❞ ❝ keep dreaming. it’s never going to happen. ❞ ❝ sometimes it’s good not to ask ‘what’s in it for me?’ ❞ ❝ does it look like i’m joking around? ❞ ❝ all is fair in love and war. ❞ ❝ i’m just glad you’re safe. ❞ ❝ maybe this is the one i won’t come back from. ❞ ❝ it’s no use. there’s nothing we can do. ❞ ❝ what a smile. so sad…so beautiful. ❞ ❝ i know why you’re here. ❞ ❝ well, it looks like all my good karma is finally paying off. ❞  ❝ could you be a little quieter, please? ❞ ❝ if we do not show fear, it casts its eye upon us gently and then guides us into infinity. ❞ ❝ i’ll take care of this. you can go back. ❞ ❝ this is the real world. this is no place for pretty ideals. ❞ ❝ i’m just watching a bad dream i never wake up from. ❞ ❝ for once, just stick to the plan. ❞ ❝ this is the first time i agree with you on something. ❞ ❝ you haven’t changed, huh? ❞ ❝ maybe…or maybe that’s just part of the legend. ❞ ❝ if i get caught, nothing can save me. nothing. ❞

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If You Were a Deity, What Would Be Your Domain?

tagged by: @angelsflatline. tagging: you!

Trickery and Darkness.

You are the divine incarnation of darkness, trickery, and deceit, and of all things concealed and impermissible. You lurk in those deep-delved and far-flung places beyond the reach of inquisitive minds and prying eyes, and you shelter outsiders and empower those forced to dwell in the shadows.

Mortals often spurn you or brand you as an evil deity due to your association with criminals and plotters; however, it would be more truthful to say you represent a natural antithesis to the status quo. Those who most revere you—thieves, revolutionaries, forbidden cults, and secret societies—merely seek to challenge the established order and reveal its cruel imperfections.

Your mythological equivalents are Greece’s Nyx and Hermes, Scandinavia’s Loki, Eurasia’s Veles, and the Navajo’s Coyote.

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ayano grins, pleased that if she was stuck with traveling with this stranger for today, at least he wasn't boring. if they happened to get into a fight, then that'd just be their chance to put both of their claims to rest.

at his second comment, however... she pauses, her grin dropping. the previous snarky comment dies on her tongue, && it draws her back to why she'd even gotten into this in the first place. the "family business," her mother had said. simply contract killing, she was quick to learn. she sighs, crossing her arms.

she wasn't going to tell him the truth, that was for sure. ignoring her mother's voice in her head, she uncrosses her arms before finally speaking. though her tone as forcibly cold && uncaring as she could make it.

"look, stranger, i don't much care what you have to say about me or my life && i'm sure you care just as little as me. i have a job to do, && you are simply a means to an end in getting there. you didn't ask my name for a reason, i suggest you remember it." she moves to turn away && keep walking, but she pauses for a moment, "&& i'm eighteen. i'm not that young. my mother was even younger when she started... && i've been doing this for three years."

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the remark that he was old was as effective as a child splashing water at him. that is to say, not at all. roland had seen himself often enough in the mirror to know that everything had probably aged him a bit here and there.

of course, while this girl wouldn't have known anything about him, those quips still stung a bit. he wasn't that out of practice, was he? he couldn't afford to slack if it meant getting revenge.

"oh, trust me. not asking for anything." he managed a wry grin. "you might be the one begging me for scraps if everything goes smoothly."

he knew he didn't really have to prove anything to this high school girl, but at the same time, a part of him couldn't resist. was it the desire to ensure he was fit to complete his goal? or the desire to prove he still had his mettle?

"you're definitely not useless. you'd probably be a good fit for some of the places i'd worked at, but don't get me wrong...you're still pretty young for this sort of dirty work. got a whole life ahead of you."