blisscoretrash

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last time i made a text post, i was eighteen. now im twenty.

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just made a cute 2024 dream board on canva with photos from pinterest and made it into my laptop wallpaper. might make one with a phone wallpaper format for my phone :)

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actually there are feelings. i feel regret and hurt and disappointment

i can't wait til i download dating apps and go on dates this fall because it'll be fun and new for me but i'm nervous because i've never gone on a date before and i won't really know how to act on a date or what i should do because i'll want them to like me, but i won't want to look weird

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gave head to the guy and let him finger me. enjoyed both things, but theres no feelings anymore i think. and i'm okay with that. i just wish that i was ready enough to sustain a relationship at some point. i'm so damaged:(

i can't wait til i download dating apps and go on dates this fall because it'll be fun and new for me but i'm nervous because i've never gone on a date before and i won't really know how to act on a date or what i should do because i'll want them to like me, but i won't want to look weird

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hi guys. tmi but i gave head for the first time. i swallowed. i liked it

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i did this, went out with a guy, started to develop feelings, and now i'm crying because like always he didn't actually like me back like how i hoped. but its my fault, i set myself up. again.

i can't wait til i download dating apps and go on dates this fall because it'll be fun and new for me but i'm nervous because i've never gone on a date before and i won't really know how to act on a date or what i should do because i'll want them to like me, but i won't want to look weird

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i think i want to change my major. i don't know if business is what i want to pursue anymore

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why is it so easy to like someone you shouldn't like? its not even like i started liking him when he was nice, my feelings grew and blossomed when he was the rudest and most emotionally abusive. why would i develop feelings during that? it would be different if i had liked him before and continued throughout. even worse, he's the only person i want to have sex with. i don't feel sexual interest for anyone else, i can't. i've tried to talk to other people and to want to hook up with someone else, but i can't. i don't think anyone could touch my heart the way that he did, but i don't even know why i like him anyway.

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i think i'm done being horny and a freak nasty weirdo idiot, sorry guys 🫡

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wanna be spoken to in *that* dom voice and feel my brain melt away

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saw the guy that i want to cum in my mouth today at work. lord have mercy. i need therapy. like, wanting to have sex is normal but you mean to tell me... i *want* to have someone's big thick juicy cock down my throat????? i need to be put down and never spoken of again

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i masturbated twice today. the first time, it was kind of shitty but the second???? oh my god, it was so good but it only left me wanting to text *that* person but i know its such a horrible idea

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if someone massaged my feet right now, i would get so wet. like if they gave my feet a deep massage and they were using *that* dom voice and were telling me how much they want to take care of me and oh my god, i'm so wet

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i don't know if i'm just taking this whole "pisces rules the feet" thing to heart, but if someone rubbed my feet i would get really wet

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kitty cat by julie from kiss of life is so good. i'm so sorry i neglected you queen

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almost cried this morning because all of my old hs classmates are moving into their dorms and i'm here. not able to do any of that when i should be doing that too

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i can't wait til i download dating apps and go on dates this fall because it'll be fun and new for me but i'm nervous because i've never gone on a date before and i won't really know how to act on a date or what i should do because i'll want them to like me, but i won't want to look weird