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Hey guys. So, I realized I really need to save the money in my bank account for college and a car, so all my spending money is in my PayPal. Sadly, my PayPal only has one dollar in it. So I ended up creating a Ko-Fi account to hopefully help out with that!

Consider buying me a coffee?

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Ooc: Whoops. Hey, how about some asks? I finished school so I’ll hopefully be coming back, so it’d be nice to have some asks to answer!

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* AND NO ONE ASKS “WHAT HAPPENED TO PUDGE?” 

* HI. I’M STILL ALIVE.

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me-gallows-mania:

* i’m somewhere else at the moment. it wouldn’t be safe to go back to the house for me just yet. some shit went down. 

* i just feel like people have taken advantage of me a lot. i set myself as a sort of entertainer and then that’s all people see me as. and i guess it’s my fault for trying to sell myself like that but, it still hurts? 

* people only want me around when i’m funny. and it feels like i should just stop making friends because the only types of people i attract are the types who i can’t help. 

* that’s okay. lemme know when and i can come over where ever you are.

* and if they only like you when you’re funny and not when you’re at your worst, they aren’t real friends.

* real friends would accept you at your best and at your worst.

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me-gallows-mania:

* it’s not that i don’t. i do. 

* but sometimes it feels like the people i care about would be scared to deal with me. or just wouldn’t want to deal with me in general. 

* and when i wanna fix things, i’m scared that i might be in the wrong. 

* i’m not. here. right now? i’m not. i’m not. 

* … 

* gotta always leave that chance open. 

* but sometimes it’s okay to be in the wrong. you can face that fact and reflect and say “okay i messed up, what could i have done better?” it’s better to learn from your mistakes than hide from them.

* not everyone is perfect. no one has always been in the right.

* what defines a person isn’t their mistakes. what defines a person is how they fix them.

* now i can’t speak for anyone else but i definitely don’t feel that way! i care about you and want to help you. you’ve helped me a few times.

* right now, you aren’t in the wrong. i promise. 

* people were wrong for walking all over you and taking advantage of your niceness. that’s not okay.

* ... would you like me to come over? i can bring cocoa and cookies and we can just hang out on the couch and you can rant away about everything that’s troubling you.

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me-gallows-mania:

* i’m s i c k and t i r e d of being used as a shoulder to cry on. 

* at this rate i know i’m gonna hurt someone. 

* ahhh.

* well, that’s understandable! i mean...

* we all have our limits. they put pressure onto you and that’s not fair.

* and i assume you don’t have a shoulder to cry on when you need it? i might be wrong.

* but i’m here if you need, okay? i’ll be your shoulder to cry on! even if you might have to bend down to reach me.

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@me-gallows-mania

* is everything okay? 

* well no that’s a stupid question to ask but uh

* i’m here to listen if you need

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* pretty sure i’m going crazy hahahah

* can’t stop shaking and crying

* locked in a room curled up in the corner alone.

* ...

* iwanttobeheld

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M!A: You start passing out at random times. Be careful, or you might get hurt!

* zzz...

Well, that didn’t take long.

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text message starters pt. 1

[ text; ] this is a terrible idea

[ text; ] fuCK you f*ck your cartoon hotdog husband fuck his stupid sunglasses and FUCK the ketchup kids (and fuck THEIR sunglasses)

[ text; ] i need help.

[ text; ] i don' t know wh a t to fuckign do w i th myself a nymo re

[ text; ] i got a dog!!!!! I GOT A DOG!!!!

[ text; ] please let me come over and pet your dog?

[ text; ] anyway i'm bleeding, like, really badly. no worries though i'm good

[ text; ] i love death and dying

[ text; ] i fucked up. i fucked up really badly.

[ text; ] I BROKE EVERYTHING

[ text; ] AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[ text; ] don't freak out but i'm in the hospital.

[ text; ] leave me alone.

[ text; ] i said not to talk to me.

[ text; ] QUICK WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL SONG

[ text; ] some-

[ text; ] this might be the last text i ever send you.

[ text; ] i'm going to do it.

[ text; ] i'm sorry.

[ text; ] fCUK I PUNCHED MYSELF I NTHE FACE

[ text; ] i'm playing club penguin and you wouldn't believe the shit these 9 year olds are saying to me

[ text; ] you okay?

[ text; ] i'm so worried please text back please please please

[ text; ] 'i don't drink coffee,' i say, before chugging an entire pot of it

[ text; ] what would happen if i just, like, downed seven five-hour energies. does that equal 35 hours of energy

[ text; ] brb, descending into hell.

[ text; ] it's 3 am and i can't sleep

[ text; ] GO TO BED!!!!!!!!

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* EVERYONE’S TURNING HUMAN!!

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“You look lonely.”

* I GUESS I AM...

* I GET LONELY A LOT, HONESTLY.

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Questions/Comments to be sent anonymously!

(though off anon is fine too!)

“Is there someone you hold dear?”

“Don’t you feel any guilt?”

“You’re actually afraid to be alone, aren’t you?”

“There must be something you fear.”

“Do you have a home?”

“Is there someone you like?”

“Are you really expecting a positive outcome out of this?”

“Aren’t you ashamed?”

“Aren’t you happy?”

“Who do you despise?” 

“How do you sleep at night?”

“What do you think of kindness?”

“What do you think of hatred?”

“Why do you fight?”

“Why do you live?”

“How much blood have you spilled?”

“How much death have you seen?”

“Don’t you think your actions are reckless?”

“Don’t you know how much good you’ve done for others?”

“Can’t you tell they love you?”

“Can’t you see he/she would die for you?”

“Can’t you tell the truth for once?”

“You’re not tainted.”

“You’re not alone.”

“You’re awful.”

“You don’t think of anyone but yourself.”

“You’re an emotionless robot.”

“You’re just a lap dog.”

“It’s not over.”

“He/she needs you.”

“Stop lying.”

“Stop fighting.”

“Stop pushing others away.”

“You’re cruel.”

“You’re far too kind. Too kind for your own good.”

“You depend on him/her too often.”

“You’re overprotective, it’s stifling.”

“He/she is bringing you down.”

“You’re too timid, it’s easy to see you as a target.”

“You need to listen.”

“You need to speak up more often.”

“You’re weak.”

“You’re too proud.”

“Quit blaming others for your mistakes.”

“You won’t always be around to save him/her.”

“One day, he/she won’t need you anymore.”

“You can’t cheat death.”

“You can’t hide forever.”

“They’ll find out the truth eventually.”

“That person is only holding you back.”

“They’re too good for you.”

“You’ll be rewarded for your efforts if you keep trying.”

“It will get better.”

“You look lonely.”

“You look bitter.”

“You look tired.”

“You’re hiding a painful burden.”

“You’re perfect.”

“You’re beautiful.”

“You will always be worthless.”

“Your hands are too dirty, too tainted to be clean.”

“You’re lost in this world. Wandering without a purpose.”

“You’ll rise above them all.” 

“You’ll find your place in this world.”

“Eventually, someone will knock you off your pedestal.”

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“If I was your lover”… Finish it in my ask.

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On a scale from 1-10, your a 9. I'm the 1 you need

* THAT’S NICE AND ALL, BUT...

* I DON’T REALLY APPRECIATE BEING FLIRTED WITH BY STRANGERS.

* PLEASE STOP?

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Do you have a map? 'Cause I keep getting lost in your eyes

* MMMMN...