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Lmao recently I’ve been writing a lot but it hasn’t really been Homestuck. Dare I say I’m falling out of the fandom. 

Just barely. 

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Mike Munroe aesthetic !!

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Guess who forgot this blog existed 

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Ashley Brown, Beth Washington, Chris Hartley, Emily Davis, Hannah Washington, Jessica Riley, Joshua Washington, Matt Taylor, and Sam Giddings aesthetics !!

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Me: Can I borrow a pencil

Student artists: A pencil✏️😩 Sorry I only have🙅🏻‍♂️🤚 A superstick color maker👏🌈 They cost 700 dollars each 💸💰 Its okay though 💪 Someday my Steven Universe fanart ⚡️ Will be in MOMA💫 Van Gogh 🌛 Frida Kahlo 💡 Claude Monet 💐🌿 Starry Night is actually called ❌ MY DEPRESSION 🚨💫 I work every day every night 🌙🌞 But passion lasts forever ❤

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me at 9 pm: got a big day tomorrow. better hit the hay 

me at 2 am: 

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Until Dawn Edits ➤ Couple Aesthetic [Josh x Chris]

“i was born sick, but i love it”

[requested by @daughterofthieves]

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I thought I would post this little drabble here since I have clearly opened the door the hell and let this fandom consume me.This is in the point of view of Josh Washington, much Climbing Class and hints of ChrAsh. Much inspired by Satisfied from Hamilton.

To Pacify Or Satisfy.

Year Five. I've been exorcised, and left with scars that may never be repaired. Mentally and physically. You know, I would say "It was just a prank" and blame it on being oblivious, but the fact is it wasn't just a prank. I missed my sisters. My sweet, and adoring twins who deserved nothing but happiness. I never wanted to admit they were dead, so I let myself sink into insanity until I wanted revenge. Clearly, I'm an idiot. We're all about twenty four, a few at twenty five, and at a wedding. Chris's wedding. Chris and Ashley's wedding. I've supported the two for years, and now I'm the best man. But I fear if I go out there, I'll vomit all over the carpet from anxiety and just disorders in general. Just a year or two before we met Ashley, I imagined myself in her current place. ​​Sixteen years old, secluded to all but my sisters and Chris. I was too short, too fragile, too shy. Too oblivious to heartbreaks and game overs. That's when I realized three fundamental truths at the exact same time. The first truth; ​​​​​I'm out of my league. Tall, handsome, dorky. Pure, funny, adorable. If given a shot, I would've done everything in my power to win him over. I wanted him to return my love. When I introduced him to Ashley, the second. For one of the first times in my life, I realized that everything I worked towards was in danger within a split second. She could take him away from me at any given moment and Chris would go with it. She was pretty, nerdy, and kind. Matching his type perfectly. Third, well, it appears I'm not the only one trying to get in on some action. I already said he's oblivious and pure. He would never notice anyone trying to take a bite out of him unless they were direct. Even then, Chris would question. My sixteen year old self panicked and search for solutions within my sisters. Beth wanted me to tell him before it was too late. Tell him everything I've kept inside. She was right, I should've. Hannah told me she was in the same situation with Mike and Emily. She called it "Romantic Attacks," a play on panic attacks. She couldn't help much. So, I confined in Ashley. I told her the deal, prayed to Gods I don't even believe in that she would understand. And she did her best to. She asked for at least a shot with him, if she missed she'd give up. I want to say she missed and I threw my shot towards it, my whole heart practically. But she didn't miss. Ashley and Chris hung out more and more as my heart cracked in two right before my eyes. I introduced them and then I started crying in the basement because I missed. I threw away my shot. All I could do was sit and support them endlessly. Ashley and I had a lot of fights over him off screen, until I learned she was close with Beth. I stopped fighting with her, I stopped talking to her all together. I decided to try and talk to people like Jess or Emily, who get dropped or drop people themselves. Jess couldn't offer much advice other than trying to forget and move on. Emily said that if he didn't acknowledge my attempts, he wasn't worth my time. She said to keep moving, keep my mind off of it. I just constantly reminded myself of how it felt when I first met him. I’ll never forget the first time I saw his face. I have never been the same, intelligent eyes in a small and weak frame. And when he said “Hi,” I forgot my own name . . . He set my heart aflame, every part aflame. I wish this was a game. Around this time is when Hannah and Beth went missing. I ignored him and focused on them, my worry and grief. When I started working on the prank and seeping into insanity, I just wanted to see who he would really choose between us. His best friend or crush? I don't remember much between those years in between.

Snapping back to reality, I stare back at the ceremony.

“If anyone has any objections to this couple getting married, speak now or forever hold your peace,” said the preacher.

His voice was hollow and monotone, he reminded me too much of “Dr. Hill,” whoever he may be anymore.

I held my breath, watching my life flash before my eyes before making a decision

He was right, I’ll never be satisfied.

“Wait!”

Watching it all play out in the back of my mind as I watched multiple pairs of eyes stare towards me. When I first met Chris, introducing him to Ashley, planning the prank, falling in the mines.

There is a twist in my stomach, butterflies that don’t know that it’s their time to die.

“I hate to say it but, Ashley, I’m afraid I loved him first.”

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Ask Starter for Kin

Here’s an ask starter; sorry it ended up being geared more towards spiritual polykin! Answer in whatever way is truthful to you, modify the questions to fit you. 🆔 How closely do you usually identify to your kins? 🎅 If you could receive anything from a past life, object or not, what/who would it be? 💇 Do you look like any of your kins? 👣 What steps have you taken to grow closer to your kins in some way? (Past life regression, taking up old hobbies, etc.) 👀 Have you ever seen a kintype and just though suddenly, “that’s me?” 💔 Heartbreaking memory? 👍 Theories about your kintypes that you enjoy? ✋ Theories about your kintypes that you hate? 👖Do you ever dress like your kintypes in some way? 🔮 Have you ever used divination to find or understand your kintypes? 📒 Do you keep a kin journal? 👪 Have you told anyone in your family about being kin? ⌚ When did you discover you were kin? 🎂 Do you celebrate or honor your kin’s birthday(s)? ✏ Do you write about your experiences? 💭 Ever had a memory in the form of a dream? 🏠 Do you miss home? 💎 What does being kin mean to you? 🚫 What topics do you disagree with regarding kin?

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Kin List

I’ve been meaning to make this for awhile, so here we go. I’ll list my kins, who I’ve found as them, and who I really want to find as them. Some kins have more than one timeline. Message me if you want more specific memories. 

I.D. Kins: 

Karkat Vantas [Homestuck] (Found Dirk, Nepeta, Terezi, and Eridan. Looking to find Dave and Kanaya. Please do not contact me if you are Gamzeekin, it brings back severely bad memories.) 

+Karkat Maryam [Bloodswap] (Found Dave Lalonde, looking for Kanaya Vantas and Rose Strider.) 

Josh Washington [Until Dawn] (Found Beth and Hannah, looking for Chris, and really anyone who wants to see me again. Warning, though, I did not have a very good relationship with Ashley and may be hesitate if she’s looking for me) 

+Good ending 

+Bad ending 

+Exorcised Josh 

Main Kins: 

Yuno Gasai [Mirai Nikki] (Found no one, looking for no one, really, except maybe Yukki.) 

Castiel [Supernatural] (Found no one, looking for Sam and Dean.) 

Roxy Lalonde [Homestuck] (Found no one, looking for Rose, Dirk, Jake, Jane, and Calliope) 

+GrimDark Roxy Lalonde [Homestuck](Possibly found Dirk, looking for Rose, Jake, Jane, and Calliope) 

Mom Lalonde [Homestuck] (Found no one, looking for all Strilondes except Bro, maybe Dad Egbert) 

+No-SBURB AU 

+SBURB 

Mangle/Meg [FNAFHS] (Found my Foxy and Springtrap, desperately looking for Joy)

+Mangle [FNAF] (Found literally no one)

Secondary Kins: 

GAMEOVER! Kanaya Maryam [Homestuck] (Found no one, looking for Rose and Karkat)

Puppet [FNAFHS] (Found Mai, looking for Chica and Bon)

Akame [Akame Ga Kill!] (Found no one, not really looking) 

Jayfeather [Warriors] (Found Hollyleaf, looking for Lionblaze and Leafpool) 

+Jay’s Wing (Found no one, not looking) 

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if ur lgbt+ im curious: if u can remember, what was your first major Gay Ship?

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send me a 🌚 and a character from my canon and I'll tell you my opinion about them!

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you know what’s cute.. homestuck kins that type in their quirk..

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i see your ‘rose and kanaya going out on romantic candlelit gourment dinners’ date and raise you ‘rose dragging kanaya out to a graveyard to summon the spirits of the undead, eating cold lunchmeat on a tomb with paper plates, and making out behind a tombstone’ date

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