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My first glasses.

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tes THDPSSSSPS 💜

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IT'S HERE!!

This is my piece for the Dead Boy Detectives charity calendar! If you like DBDA and want to help a good cause, consider getting a digital copy. I am so grateful that I got to be a part of this, everyone did an amazing job, artists and organizers alike. Thank you for making this calendar possible <3

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Erm quick Good Omens interlude

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

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It needs to be said: any ploy involving someone impersonating Charles is doomed from the start, because sooner than later Edwin’s going to wordlessly stick out his hand expecting Charles to hand him the thing — and the doppelgänger will be like 'the fuck he wants?'

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...what is the "sex is just rock climbing" category

It was kind of a joke between me and a friend ("you wouldn't judge someone for having gone rock climbing with a bunch of different people") but honestly the more I thought about it the more I bought into it unironically because:

It is a physical activity done with one or more partners

You should only go rock climbing with people you trust to not let you fall

You should not go rock climbing with someone who is drunk or currently incapable of rational decision-making

Some people get super super super into rock climbing and do not shut up about all the places they have climbed and how many are left on their bucket list and these people are usually men between the ages of 20 and 35 and like it's fine dude I'm glad you're happy but I don't know what most of those mountains even are

While many consider it a fun activity, pressuring someone into climbing when they don't want to (or ignoring their feelings and just dangling them off a cliff,) could cause both psychological and physical trauma

There is no moral value to it whatsoever. Who you have gone rock climbing with (or whether you have rock climbed at all) has no bearing on who you are as a person. Imagine telling someone "it's not that heights make you nauseous, it's just that you haven't found the right person to belay you!" or "you need to save your first time rock climbing for someone special." That would be absurd.

For some people it is a deep and moving personal experience.

historically I have not asked myself "will this aggravate my hip flexor injury" before participating when perhaps I should have 😔

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dead boy detectives + text posts part 4/?

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still trending heck yeah

take this cute gif to celebrate

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Controversial take here, but Charles is as much a product of his time as Edwin is. I’ve seen people say that his argument with Crystal in the case of the two dead dragons is “out of character” and no? It’s not? Charles very much has this idea of himself as a lad’s lad. It’s partially why he’s attached to the idea of being like Brad and Hunter. He spent all his time with a bunch of jocks growing up, of course he saw himself in them, of course he picked up some of their toxic masculinity. And yeah, I fully acknowledge that Charles died because he stood up for a Pakistani boy, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t play off some of their less explicit bigotry with a laugh, especially in regards to women. Charles is largely defined by his desire to keep the peace after all, and he tends to see the best in people because of that.

I mean, what’s more likely? That this group of boys from the 1980s never made a single homophobic/misogynistic comment in front of Charles, or that he grinned awkwardly through most of their boys will be boys bullshit until they took it too far. There’s a reason Charles doesn’t clock Edwin on the hysteria comment, and it’s because he doesn’t know better either.

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Edwin Payne Really Fucking Cares: A Short Essay

Was re-watching ep 1 and something stood out to me like never before:

Edwin Payne cares. Like, he cares *so deeply*. He tries his very best to remain calm, cold, and collected, but there are moments where truly visceral emotions slip through the cracks in his facade.

(Please excuse the obvious, distracting play button in the middle of the pics; there's only so much I can do with my pirating app 😂)

But this- this is just as he catches his first glimpse of Becky Aspen, under the piles of discarded clothes and bones. You can see the way his heart drops, how affected he is at the prospect of finding this little girl's corpse.

This is as he starts trying to unbury her. He is so viscerally distraught- just LOOK at that face. He is terrified that they were too late to save her. Terrified that he didn't do enough. Terrified that he has failed to save an innocent life.

While he's listening for her heartbeat, you can just see how desperately he is begging for her to still be alive. Look at him!! That is a boy that is fucking *scared*. He is so worried about Becky, and he doesn't even know her! All he knows is that she is innocent, and all he can do is pray that he is not the reason she is dead.

And this? This is when he's screaming at Charles, telling him that Becky is here, that she is alive, that they were not too late. Look at his eyes. Look at his brows. That is the face of someone who is desperate - to save her, to keep her safe, to get her away from the imminent threat of Esther Finch.

As if that wasn't enough to think about, there's a little voice in my head that is telling me something else: while he's down in that snake pit, Edwin is not truly seeing Becky Aspen as just another case. He's seeing himself.

Think about it. He's surrounded by heaps and heaps of bones, torn clothing, the memories of lives so cruelly and unfairly snuffed out.

He looks at her, covered in the disjointed remnants of death, and he sees himself back in the dollhouse. He sees himself being torn apart by the spider demon, covered in his own blood and guts, the terrible reminders of the inevitability of his pain.

It is in these brief moments where his facade falls that we can see Edwin's actual motivation: he is looking at Becky, but he can only see himself. Edwin Payne is a good person, but I don't think he was thinking rationally right here. He was thinking through the lens of his own trauma.

He wants to save Becky, not out of a conscious desire to do good, but a base, instinctual need to protect her in the same way he never was. He is doing this for her because no one ever did it for him.

After Charles pulls him out of the void, we can see that Edwin is well and truly shaken. It even takes him a good minute (and Charles' help) to get back on his feet! He blames it on the snake, but I wonder how much of that was to save face and keep Charles from asking questions.

Edwin doesn't like to talk about Hell, and for good reason, but he cannot hide the fact that he was rattled by what he saw down there. He knows that Charles knows him well enough to clock that immediately, so he brushes it off with the reference to " ... a very large snake."

Idk I'm just rambling at this point. But there's something so incredibly *real* in his expressions during this scene. For a few brief moments, we see him display emotions that very painfully parallel ep 7, where we once again see him acting through the lense of deeply ingrained trauma.

Just. Mhhhh 🤌 Chef's kiss, and hats off to George for playing such a real character 👏

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i know netflix hates to see the dead gay blorbos winning

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I have decided that Edwin is in fact an ABBA girlie and I have nothing to back this up except he seems like it and so many songs could apply to him

in the s2 musical episode (which look. I have thoughts about musical episodes. I would only accept it if it were a curse for a case or something but anyway) edwin sings Name of the Game to charles through a cinematic music video of him watching charles at different moments or I riot

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very important information from the manga

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🏳️‍🌈 Pride 🏳️‍⚧️

Pride horns & halos, protecting their community and each other 🥰

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Glad everyone is getting so much joy from early Quaker names! Looking forward to seeing any future pets/children/bands/drag acts named after stuff on this list.