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im ready for the end

It’s more than likely that by the time this is read I’m dead or fucking close to it. It may not even kill me. I do my best in school, I try to get a job, I’m trying to do better as a person, but it’s not enough. I know no one in my family is going to mourn me. Maybe my sister. The rest aren’t even in the same state as us and don’t contact us to begin with. I’m going to take all my medication tonight. I won’t delete these accounts because they show I existed in the first place. Hell, maybe I’ll meet God and ask him why the fuck he did this or even see if reincarnation is a thing. This abomination is your image? Well, God, you fucked up. Children are supposed to bring joy to their parents, not misery. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of being screamed at despite doing my best. I’m tired of going to college and have nothing be shown for it. I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of feeling. I’m tired of caring. At Midnight I’m going to do it. I’m checking my online things one last time to even get some joy before I go. Maybe I’ll email my professor that I won’t make it to the online class meeting tomorrow. Goodbye, life. You were a worthless 22 years and have nothing to show for it.

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Commission for swishbuzzroar!! Their OC, Rocket the Pyrokinetic Tiger

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Finished modeling Mitzi! I’ve really enjoyed making these models of the Lackadaisy characters and I’ll continue to do more when I have the time.

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via @waffleon_moon

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i love him

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Finished commission of @thatcmonster’s (twitter) character Lalita, The Fox!! They are beautiful and were such an absolute blast to paint!! 😭🙏💖💖💕💕✨✨

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them……. I love them…… 

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The adventures of Crow-ley and Aziradove: Chapter Honeymoon part 4

part 1 - part 2 - part 3

The next part of chapter honeymoon is already up on my Patreon page, where you can get previews of all my content with just 1$ a month! : D

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Werebear Russia werebare Russia

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day 9, favorite asian nation! it's china, i love this jaded and bitter old man so much and he deserved so much better than what he got. i wanted him to have more of an authoritative stance over the others just because he's so damn old but oh well. anyway he's also trans!

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Tried the six fan art challenge, just forgot to post it because I draw at the dead of night when should be asleep

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My oc for Hetalia Capital Powers project!

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A wild Kiku appeared

And as always please don’t remove ma credit.

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might be OOC might be historically incorrect but I don’t care. This is something I wanted to draw since I was like 14 and today I was finally able to Q___Q

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Warming up with the other baby I haven’t drawn in an even longer time