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bluesfm · 4 years

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𝐬𝐯𝐞𝐚 !

◟ @bluesfm· *

𝓲. MULTIPLE TIMES BEFORE HAS SVEA gotten photographed being a night owl . it’s not something exclusive to the hair or the actress , it’s just who svea is . a lover of the night , comforted by a shroud darkness , she’s always found solace in the moonlight convinced that she’s a daughter of artemis . in the blackout , she’s found glee , ditching any bodyguards hired by her company to go walk to a couple of convenience stores for a night with the stars – or , just a night with one of her closest friends .

she has to climb the stairs to her floor , her hands clasping several plastic bags some stan on twitter will tear her apart for using . the halls are dark & she can’t lie , there’s a part of her that wishes hotels were ALWAYS like this . why dim lights when they could just be turned off ? her hair’s up messy thanks to the wind , her makeup a little bit smeared from hugging a fan or two on the way & her pink dress has been traded for sweatpants and a fitted t-shirt; in other words , she looks like she’s having the time of her life .

entering the room with her stuff , she tosses a couple of bags onto blue’s bed . ‘ so , the 7/11 was supposed to be closed because of the blackout , but i convinced the manager to let me get some snacks . ’ she throws herself on the bed , crushing some of the snacks underneath her . ‘ i didn’t know what you wanted , so i just got you everything . the hotel bar said i couldn’t get anymore MARTINIS though , so i also got alcohol at one of the corner stores in the area . ’ she rolls over , a signature , dramatic sigh falling from her lips as she stares at the darkened ceiling . ‘ this is great , don’t you think ? at least we don’t have to be at some dumb party anymore . ’

there’s a scented candle she was gifted from a fan a few hours ealier dangerously balanced on the bed , and everytime blue shifts her body to try and find a more comfortable position , a little bit of hot wax falls right down into messy covers . maybe she should feel ashamed about turning into just another famous person who thrashes a hotel room , but she really didn’t care as much as she thought she would , back when she daydreamed about this sort of thing . there are so many words scribbled down into her notebook by now that blue is almost entirely sure they won’t even be recognizable by the light of day . still , the darkness seems to only spark her creativity , and there was never a bad time for a writer to write , her music teacher had once told her , about a million years ago .

her head barely moves from where it rests in her hand at the sound of the door opening and closing , she is used to friends and acquaintances making themselves right at home in her supposedly private space , and she loves it . alone is too quiet for her state of mind , and blue always felt the need to be surrounded to feel like herself . the swishy sound of bags of snacks hitting each other , however , does take her out of her trance , and reddish lips , still stained with the lipstick she had on earlier , curve excitedly . “ man , oh , man . you sure do know how to spoil a girl , don’tcha , darling ? ” she sits up quickly as svea joins her on the bed , and the candle struggles to remain upright while she rummages through the bags . “ boo . all this fancy hotel stuff and they can’t even make martinis in the dark ? ” she rolls her eyes , still looking for something that could momentarily tickle her fancy .

“ tell me about it . everyone’s so judgy and boring and they all dress so weird . so many dumb label people . ” she hums . celebrity fashion was something she’ll never get . she giggles at how many times her stylist turned purple at the sight of her outfits . besides , she loves spending time with svea , so this definitely doesn’t feel like plans gone wrong . “ sour patch kids ! ” blue raises her voice in excitement , quickly shoving a handful of gummys in her mouth , eyes twitching and face scrunching immediately after . “ sour . ugh . i’m gonna drink something to wash it down . ” it seemed like a good idea , after all . what else seemed like a good idea ? “ hey , should we try to make those vodka gummy bears ? ”

#ohsvea #* ⠀⠀ ♡ ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀ 𝙄𝙉𝙏𝙀𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉𝙎 ⠀ ╱ ⠀ you wrote a hundred letters just for me .#um did i not match ?#i feel like this didnt match and im Very sorry about it #as u can See i tend to go overboard sometimes i do apologize #pls dont feel the need to do the same jsdsjd

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bluesfm · 4 years

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𝒃𝒐𝒅𝒉𝒊 !

fuck . she’s here — of course she’s here . beautiful as ever , stunning like she knew they’d face each other for the first time in months and impressions were everything . ( look at what you gave up , you dumb fuck . look . ) but that’s ego talking , and bodhi won’t let himself linger on that a second longer . standing on the red carpet with his hands in his pockets , his date mingling wit the crowd , bodhi’s even more aware of the cameras . the flashes , the bright pop , POW ! of eyes drawn to the reunion . he’s heard the song . fuck , everyone’s heard the song . “ blue . ” god , he can’t think of anything to say other than her goddamn name . “ i—— you look nice . ” and he even tries to smile , a weak , fragile thing . already thinking of the hashtags , the twitter blow back . anonymous faces with a shitton of bravery ready to aim and fire . “ yeah . ” ( @bluesfm· )

a loud , uncontrolled giggle escapes as men and women holding cameras yell at her from all different directions . she can barely hear her own thoughts , but if she could , blue knows they’d be screaming in delight . there’s still laughter on her lips as a publicist ushers her to the end of the carpet , but as she looks around the area , searching for familiar or maybe just interesting faces , the laughter dies out abruptly . what was he doing at the golden globes , anyway ? who brought him ? suddenly , the loudness is gone , and her brain is working a thousand miles per second . should she just ignore him ? he was the one who’d ditched her . no , she should probably be nice , let him know she doing was much better without him . maybe throw a shoe at his face . “ hi . ” that’s right , blue . be cool . her eyes squint as she stares him down , all of a sudden wishing he wasn’t still so freaking cute . “ yeah . i can rock dumped like no one else . ” she finally replies , lips pursued as everything else seemed to fade into background , echoes of their last conversation ringing in her ears .

#* ⠀⠀ ♡ ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀ 𝙄𝙉𝙏𝙀𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉𝙎 ⠀ ╱ ⠀ you wrote a hundred letters just for me .#um this got out of hand a lil ?#pls dont feel the need to match im Sorry #sinwoes

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bluesfm · 4 years

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hey u guys !!! sorry for not being on last night but i TRIED to go to bed early bc i have a job interview (!!!!) today ! it v much didn’t work bc my anxiety only allowed me an hour n a half of sleep , but i tried at least . but YEA i’m gonna try to be on when i get back bc i dont wanna sleep the day away n mess up my sleep schedule ? but wish me luck yall we gotta get that coint !!!

#i hate mobile posts i promise it will look cuter in the future

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bluesfm · 4 years

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* ／ i’m blue , if i was green i would DIE

“ — i found this monkey at my door when i was leaving for south korea , and i found out that our contract says i have to take her EVERYWHERE i go . contract i didn’t even knew i had says that i can’t leave her or else she would be ten times more chaotic ( which i found unlikely , but okay ) and that she would miss me too much . please pray for this unpacked lunatic and my sanity for the next fifteen hours . “

#* ⠀⠀ ♡ ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀ 𝙎𝙊𝘾𝙄𝘼𝙇 𝙈𝙀𝘿𝙄𝘼 ⠀ ╱ ⠀ i just need everyone and then some .#did it take me 30 minuts to find a song lyric that had nothing to do w social media ? yes #BUT LOOK AT THEM CUTIES #my heart is SO full we love CUTE n PURE

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bluesfm · 4 years

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( park chaeyoung , twenty two , & cisfemale ) who ? these days , it’s all about blue hyong, who comes from los angeles & ca and is making headlines as a singer . she currently has a fan count of 42k , no thanks to the rumors of them being inflexible ! but , on the other hand , their most devout fans say they’re actually imaginative . last i heard , they caused quite a buzz when she publicly dissed her new record label and the misogynistic treatment she was receiving from their reps ! it’s no wonder they remind me of long rants in the notes app being posted to her twitter account , empty bottles of wine laying at recording studios’ floors & notebooks upon notebooks filled with lyrics she might never use but refuses to let go of .

well hello human friends !! n also hello to the non human friends too , wassup . i’m angie a dumb noodle from the middle of the south american jungle , and i’m here to introduce yall to this mess i call blue who’s a muse i have had for yrs now n carry w/ me wherever i go , with some minimal changes but she’s still the same messy bitch on the inside don’t worry folks ! so i will provide u w/ some background info on her n some possible connections under the cut . issa lil messy but we’ve been away for a while pls bear w me

blue is the only daughter to a couple of south korean immigrants that came to america when they were in their very early 20s n already expecting blue in order to chase the american dream n create a better life for themselves n their family . their life was pretty hard for a big part of blue’s childhood , while they were both studying n working odd jobs to pay for their education all the while taking care of a child . so blue didnt have the best childhood , not that her parents were bad or anything they just didnt have time for her . nowadays , they are a lot more comfortable in life , since her dad became a lawyer n her mom is a nurse , but they definitely didnt have an easy beginning .

ok so maybe bc they werent present durant most of her childhood they didnt notice a lol of signs that might have made things a lot easier for them , bc by the time they were available to emotionally be there , during her early teenage years , blue was already kinda a mess . she had grown up w very lil structure n refused the rules they tried to instill on her n was already used to doing things her own way . that lead to a lot of conflict between them , since they expected her to study hard n do well for herself in a nine to fiver when she was already sure art was the only way to go n while she did ok , she definitely wasn’t as good as her parents expected her to be .

so ... u know her teenage yrs were basic girl angsty she fought a lot w her parents n rebelled frequently n ran away from home like ... weekly , but she never rly had any real hardships . life was reasonably good but she always had something to complain abt ... just as she liked

[ MENTAL ILLNESS TW ]

but then she reached her late teens they all realized there was something going on other than the usual teenage angst she displayed all the time when she had her first manic episode . her parents thought it was a “ blue thing “ at first bc she was usually a very impulsive person n she rly didn’t have a habit of thinking before acting on her impulses , but her mom quickly noticed the signs of a manic episode when she realized how aggitated n restless she was , specially when blue described an hallucination she seemed to be having . they took her to a psychiatrist , she was admitted to a hospital n diagnosed w type 1 bipolar disorder n very quickly medicated . while the medication brought her out of her episode , n she was allowed to go home after her mood seemed to stabilize , blue also noticed it stunted her severely emotionally n decided ( against medical n parental advice [ pls dont do it fam !! take ur meds ] ) to quit her medication , falling into her first major depressive episode a few weeks afterwards . n for abt four years she’s been living w her disorder , n she doesn’t medicate at all . she’s super open abt her struggles n she has a Lot of them , specially w how much drugs n alcohol she consumes . i never said she was smart yall .

[ END OF TW ]

ok so as u probably assume , blue is an emotional mess . she has a very chaotic personality , n most of it isnt even from her illness or anything she just is a very chaotic person in general ? she is one of those artsy ppl who forgets to wash her own clothes so she ends up wearing the same dress for like , 3 days . she’s super outspoken n outgoing n rly easy at making friends if u can get past the dumbass energy she exudes 24/7 ? but yes just a very outgoing person n a outright mess most of the time . she is also soooo stubborn u will never get her to change her mind abt smth she believes to be right about in any way . u just cant . she loves a good time n loves partying n is the lack of impulse Queen soo if u got any bad ideas she is the one u should go for if u need any company . also .... so dramatic . she makes a big deal of everything n has 0 apologies abt that . just catch her crying over high school musical 3 or smth like that .

but yea on the bad side tho , blue takes up n gives up on projects so easily n she can be super fickle abt things in general . like , she will defend an idea for 7 hours but 2 days later she’s already onto smth else n doesnt even remember being so obsessive abt that other thing ? a mess . is also Quite abrasive ? if she thinks ur acting dumb shes not gonna be scared to call u out on it . can also have a Reaally explosive temper . not usually but specially during manic episodes she can be quite easy to annoy ngl . is very unreliable , especially if ur not too close .. tbh that is something connected to her disorder . when she’s on a manic episode , she will be too busy planning things she will never get around to doing or painting her entire house or spending 3 days awake n drunk writing 17 songs by herself . n during her depression is very hard to get her to do anything n even if she feels terrible , she rly cant be an available friend .

in regards to her sexuality , she’s an open bisexual and also is a crazy romantic n falls so hard for literally no reason . but like ... doesnt have the healthiest mentality for relationships ? not like in a toxic way but she will usually give 145% of herself at all times n honestly believes all of the ppl she falls for are the one (1) just wants to make things work no matter what . she’s v impulsive w/ meeting n falling for ppl tho so things dont rly end up working n she always ends up heartbroken over it . Well . At least she’s trying right ?

in regards to her career n art , she’s posted youtube covers n original songs for a couple years and gathered a decent following ? she wasnt huge or anything but she did get a record deal w an actual big label out of it a few months ago . blue was pretty happy abt it but then when the recording process started she realized they werent treating her as she thought she deserved at all ? which resulted on her taking her thoughts to some reps of the label n when she didn’t feel any difference in the way she was being treated she took it to the public ? which definitely caused quite a sitr bc she wasn’t a huge name but she was big enough ? so now she’s in some considerable trouble w her label but Also more famous than ever so they are choosing not to bury her for now ? she’s in some definite trouble though so it’ll be fun to see what happens next n what her moves will be ? spoiler alert : it’ll prob be smth dumb.

i still have so much to say but i’m so lazy wow . dont start ur intros so close to opening time folks thats my tip as an old internet auntie . OK SO ONTO SOME CONNECTIONS NOW

some label mates who she may or may not get along with ?

hookups !! she prob has a few she regrets too bc who doesnt am i right

best friends !! ppl who actually support her n she loves w no restrictions just love all around friends

exes </3 not gonna lie i have some sad ideas abt this one

good influence bc blue is a mess she needs one of those pls someone slap her head n make her drink some water

a fling she has feelings for but may not be requited ... i like my romantic connections to be angsty did yall notice

artistic soulmate !! someone her artistic bitch side just vibes with ? could be a songwriter or singer or anything tbh

some indecisive romantic shit where blue rly knows sh’s too messy n this person is too amazing ? but they still have feels so ... now what ?

this is p mcuh it ?? it has taken so long to finish this i hate myself but HEY if u like blue or dislike her u should hit me up so we can come up w some plot ideas ? i wish i had a quirky goodbye idea but my brain has just quit working guys so u get nothing from me other than a good old fashioned goodbye thanks for ur attention i love u

#cala.intro #sometimes i surprise even myself w how unorganized i can be #i am sorry this is so messy im trying to keep it on brand tm #also i cant believe i actually finished this

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