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it's 2024 and I have a super, super hard challenge for the txtfiction community.

the challenge? stop the annoying beomgyu trope. it is literally the worst thing to see, especially when you actually pay attention to what the members have said about him AND what he's said. stop surface level writing him like some obnoxious, annoying child. as someone who has BEEN called annoying, it's actually ☆ fucking hurtful ☆ whether it's a 'jOkE' or not.

k, bye ♡ anyway, my requests are open.

• let me clarify before someone decides to be stupid and get rude in my inbox. yes - on camera, he is a very playful, silly little dude - we know this. but keep in mind this is the same guy that will ask for praise. reassurance. he's mentioned depression before but said he wouldn't talk about it in front of fans. the same guy who will stare at yeonjun until he compliments him. the same guy who taehyun has, more than once, had to make sure people will listen when he talks or he gets silent. yeah, he's a happy, playful person but don't discredit the information for off camera that they give you. idols don't often get to show how they truly are because that's the business.. and txt is actually pretty honest about a lot of things and given a lot of hints about how they are off camera. please don't take away the information that makes beomgyu, beomgyu. stop just downgrading him to some annoying, loud person when he is so, so, so much more than that. and this goes for all of them. yeonjun isn't a shallow, selfish narcissist. kai isn't emotionless. taehyun isn't boring or prudish. soobin isn't disrespectful. you're going to sit behind an account, claim to be such a big fan that you're writing stories ( and I mean nonau based. ) that represent them to new fans and other fans.. and this is how shallow, surface level you're going to be about them..? i get not being a 'hard-core' fan but.. it doesn't take much to just pay attention and listen to them. do not advocate for 'they're human too!' if you aren't going to fucking listen to them about being FUCKING HUMAN.

and if you have a problem with something I've said, you're most likely part of the problem im mentioning but my dms are open. go ahead.

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hi hi! your works are amazing! i read ‘damn skirt’ for the nth time and i absolutely cannot get over how well written it was, your writing is absolutely beautiful & the wording was so on point.

again, your work is amazing & i can’t wait to read more from you! <3

Hello ♡

Thank you so much (': I was honestly terrified to post it since I don't write things like that but all the feedback is making me so soft. Hopefully my other work is considered just as good. ♡

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Hi 👋🏼

I just finished reading “damn skirt” and it was my first time reading one of your works and omg I love your writing. Truly, it was one of the best thing I’ve read in a long time ! And I HAD to leave a message. I’ve read other things from you and I love your style 😉

I’ll definitely keep an eye on your future works !!

Have a lovely day ☺️

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Hello ♡

Aw, thank you! It was my very first time posting something fully rated and not shadowboxed like my Church and Eros posts (': I'm happy to see it didn't fail miserably. But thank you so, so much 💕 it means a lot!

💕 hopefully the others suit your taste just as well! I've got plenty coming up.

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( ♱ ) pending. ⁰⁷⁰²²³

( ♱ ) i'm sorry. ♡ some things are said, some things are done; you work it out after some choice words.

( ♱ ) waiting. ♡ txt coming home to you waiting/trying to wait for them.

( ♱ ) little details. ♡ you do something that makes them realize just how much you pay attention to them.

( ♱ ) miss you. ♡ tour phone calls.

( ♱ ) soothing pt2. ♡ happy endings.

( ♱ ) my youth. ♡ you remind them that sometimes, you need to relive your childhood - or, live the childhood they didn't have.

( ♱ ) rough. ♡ you ask your boyfriend to manhandle you.

( ♱ ) boo. ♡ teasing txt over being scared and trying to hide it.

( ♱ ) love. ♡ your boyfriend finds an idea on tiktok while you're pregnant.

( ♱ ) aftermath. ♡ having bpd makes having a relationship a challenge.

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REST IN PEACE, DEAR MOONBIN (1998-2023)

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+ considering i just blocked five accounts with minor ages in the bio ( likes on my 'damn skirt' post, not in general ), i just want to say something real quick. ( ofc if you age isn't in your bio, there's nothing I can do there. )

what content you intake is not my business as i am not your parents or responsible for you; my responsibly ends when i put 'mdni' and use every tag possible that protects my page from getting shit.

however, all of the children - because yes, if you're under 18, you're a child to me. don't argue, i won't listen. - that DO bypass all of the warnings and requests of a writer; do you know what all of you are? it's a super easy answer and i don't care if this comes off as harsh.

you are disrespectful.

i genuinely don't care what your argument is about it. when someone makes clear requests on their work - be it a book, a fanfic, art, etc. bypassing those requests makes you disrespectful as hell. i know a lot of people don't care and only put these requests to save their own ass but i personally don't like it. considering my age and my generation ( gen z ) is desensitized, fucked up, and full of trauma because of all the warnings and requests we ignored when we were younger - i hate it. the amount of 'I'm going to do it anyway' ive seen in response to people my age being like: 'hey, you shouldn't do this bc look how we ended up' drives me insane ♡

at the end of the day, all i can do is block you and you make a side account to bypass that, too. i can't stop you in any way, shape, or form. but try to be respectful to the writers who genuinely don't want minors interacting with certain posts.

following me, i don't care. i very very rarely ever write rated things. my content is 99% of the time for any and all ages.

but learn at least a little respect. my page has a shit ton of content you could be reading - don't blatantly disrespect me and read the, like, THREE posts that I have that are specifically marked away from minors. rude asses, i swear.

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your writing is so good thank you for feeding moas 🫶🫶🫶🫶!

Aw, thank you 🥺💕💕 and, you're welcome 💕 it isn't much but (': as long as someone is enjoying it!

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( ♱ ) relief.

muse: ot5, txt rated: 18+ [ crude comments ] requested: mhm a/n: enjoy, don't enjoy - i don't really care ♡ beta'd ♡ your boyfriend helps you get some weight off your chest. ( fem reader, specifically for the big chested girlies. )

you didn't bring it up

he saw you trying to study

squirming and shifting around every few minutes and got concerned

he watched to see if he could figure it out

he gave up when you leaned back on your palms

'you okay, princess?'

he expected it to be your back

your head

anything within the range of being 'normal'

when you said it was your chest and joked about him holding it up, it wasn't something he was going to turn down

yeonjun never let an opportunity to touch you go to waste

whatever he was doing or watching was forgotten

he was quickly behind you, legs at your sides and hands under your shirt

'jun, i was kidding-'

you didn't manage to get far in your faux complaints or teasing

only breathing a sigh of relief when he cupped under your breasts and lifted them up a bit

it felt like you could breathe again and you melted back into him

did you really need to finish studying?

'feel better, angel?'

you didn't really have anything to say at that point

just nodding and nuzzling back to him

you weren't sure how to put into words how it felt

how relieved you were

considering you were 50/50 on if he'd understand

but he was just content to be the reason you felt better

of course, that also came with some consequence;

him kneading and squeezing them occasionally

he just loves you so much

and you're probably having one of your quiet times together

you're playing something on your computer

in his lap

while he's on his phone doing something

when you ask, he's going to become super super flustered

and he's going to stare at you

wondering if that's really what you said

however, soobin is more than happy to have his hands put to work any chance he could

considering he had fingered you more than enough while you were gaming or working on something

you weren't surprised that he was more than willing

he enjoyed using his hands

simply because he knew you liked his hands

he would end up putting his chin on your shoulder

hands easily cupping your breasts to hold them up

watching you play whatever was on the screen

he would occasionally knead and massage them like it would help

pressing random little kisses to your shoulder here and there

'is.. this helping at all?'

'you have no idea.'

sighing, you relaxed further into him, almost dropping the controller at one point

when he noticed your attention failing, he would pause your game and move you both to the bed

considering his favorite spot was between your legs

resting over your abdomen, that's where he would be, chin on your stomach

he would just watch up at you while pushing your breasts up a little

holding them from pressing down/resting over your ribs

a smile would light up on his features seeing you doze off

he would just be content being able to help you

beomgyu never reacted to things how you expected

considering how often he liked being under your shirt, you were surprised at his calm reaction

he would be so happy to tuck you on his lap in bed

pulling blankets around you both

watching a movie or watching things on your phone

he would bundle you both up and relax back against the headboard

hands under your shirt to act as a resting place with your breasts

he wouldn't try anything

wouldn't tease or make jokes

he would just be happy to be with you

especially knowing you were comfortable enough to ask such a thing of him

he thrives on intimacy, sexual and nonsexual

he would see it as some type of bonding thing

you'd tease him for that later on

at one point, when you fell asleep

he would lay you down and settle at your side

arm resting against you to keep your breasts up still

he knew it probably wasn't as helpful as when you were sitting

but anything was better than nothing

he was used to it

he couldn't count to amount of times he'd done it for you

watching movies, playing game, just existing

he considered himself your own person arm rest at that point

he didn't mind, though

it often came with questions

'does that feel okay?'

'do i need to adjust?'

'are you comfortable?'

'what does it feel like?'

'is there anything else i can do?'

he liked to make sure you knew he wanted to help

and would do anything else to help

whatever you asked for, honestly

sometimes it escalated

sometimes it didn't

you still giggled at how awkward it was when he ate you out

arms stretched up your abdomen to hold your breasts up

as good as it felt

you both ended up laughing a bit in the end

he liked giving you massages and pressing kisses all over your frame

he liked to pamper you and it was no secret

like beomgyu, he would consider it something intimate

he wouldn't do it anywhere considered a public place

not unless it was at your place

the dorm was too much of a risk

upon asking kai, you got the exact response you expected

his eyes widened

his features flushed

and he asked you to repeat yourself

you knew your boyfriend was pretty shy

he'd still been getting used to touching you

that didn't stop him, though, but he was still hesitant

he agreed, of course, understanding how much of a burden it could be

you settled back into his chest, his frame leaned back against the arm and you between his legs

what you expected was him to just go for it

in return, you received a question;

'where.. do i put my hands?'

you wanted to snort and laugh but bit back the urge

instead of telling him

you decided to pull your shirt off, letting it fall to the floor

taking his hands, you guided them where they needed to be

and he got the hint, cupping under your breasts and carefully holding them up

you sighed and tipped your head to look up at him

he was surprisingly calm

'hi.'

'hi, love.'

he pressed a kiss to your temple and nuzzled you the best he could in the position

it didn't take long for you to fall asleep

he followed pretty quickly

mimicking beomgyu in the manner of an arm settling under your breasts

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( ♱ ) masterlist. ⁰⁴¹⁶²³

♡ this masterlist only counts what has been written as of 2023 due to the revamp of the page. the older posts are here but it is not updated with the new name.

♡ yeonjun // — damn skirt.

♡ soobin // — boyfriend things.

♡ beomgyu // — everything.

♡ taehyun // — it's okay.

♡ hueningkai //

♡ ot5 // — someone else. — don't be scared. — soothing. — relief.

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the soothing post🥺 would it be bad if i wanna request a happy ending to it please?

♡ Not at all. Im assuming by happy ending, you mean ending up with the other one?

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( ♱ ) soothing.

muse: ot5, txt rated: pg13 requested: yes a/n: enjoy, don't enjoy - i don't really care ♡ beta'd i hate it, she didn't so, you all get to have it. ♡ your boyfriend cheats; another member helps.

( ♡ ) yeonjun //

the idea of yeonjun cheating on you sounded insane and it had never crossed your mind, not even once. the boy you grew up with was always so sweet and soft, you didn't think he could do something so vile. the pictures and texts on his phone said otherwise and he couldn't defend himself, just standing in front of you with the look of a man who got caught. you could barely even form a word and it was almost scaring you how you didn't react, feeling calmer than you ever had. you just had your heart torn to pieces and you couldn't find it in yourself to scream and cry; where was your anger?

quietly, you just held the phone back out for him to take. soobin, who had walked in on the mess, seemed a lot more angry than you did at that point, looking as though he was ready to tear his best friend and member a new one for being so cruel to you. yeonjun didn't say anything and just lowered his head as he took the phone, not feeling like he could stomach making eye contact with either of you.

'i'll.. be at the studio,' was all he said, mostly as a comment to the leader in case anyone on their staff went looking for him. as he went to leave, said leader turned on his heel to follow and finally, you found your voice.

'it isn't worth it, bin.. let him go.'

to your surprise, another voice came into play, an awfully familiar one from behind you. 'it's worth seeing him as hurt as you are.' it was beomgyu this time, coming up to settle a hand on your shoulder, 'you shouldn't let him off the hook so easily.. how dare he?'

you agreed with the sentiment but only slightly and ended up chuckling weakly at the loyalty of your two friends against their groupmate. 'my revenge will come in the form of him sitting in silence, alone.'

neither of them wanted to agree but they didn't want to argue either; it was your situation to handle, so they let you. did that mean soobin wasn't going to rip into him later on? not at all. but, you'd let him do whatever he wanted on his own time. instead of rushing after him, you just got up from your spot and took beomgyu's hand, squeezing softly. 'can i just.. stay with you for right now?'

he nodded, offering you a soft smile. the beomgyu in front of you wasn't willing to make jokes or raise his voice, knowing you needed someone different for the moment and you appreciated it. shuffling your way to his room with him in tow, you bid farewell to soobin, not planning on seeing anyone else for the rest of the evening.

when you crawled into the familiar bed and tucked under the blanket, you immediately pulled the latter's pillow close and nuzzled into it, letting your thoughts roam wild. why weren't you mad? why did you feel so calm? shouldn't you be crying your eyes out and screaming at him to tell you why? why were you so content to be curled up in someone else's bed while your, now ex, boyfriend was out, probably talking to the girl he cheated with? you couldn't answer any of those and you were positive you never would.

interrupting your train of thought, beomgyu had joined you on the bed and wiggled his way to lay in front of you, hand reaching out to wipe a tear you didn't know had fallen. you wondered if you were more stressed about not having an emotional response than you were about the falling out.

'are you okay?'

'i want to be,' you chuckled weakly, looking back at him with a weak smile, 'i feel weird.. like i feel nothing at all.'

frowning a little, the brunette moved closer and draped an arm over your waist, attempting to offer some comfort. 'anything i can do to help?'

you shrugged a little, not really knowing what he could do to make it better. technically, you were fine, so there was nothing to make better. however, as you stared back at him, maybe he could but you wouldn't do that to your best friend. he was apparently on the same page though, his lips on yours before you could even react.

the right thing to do was push him away but for the moment, you would take whatever he wanted to give you and let the rest of the day fade away. you returned the kiss, easily tangling yourself up in him.

( ♡ ) soobin //

'you.. what?'

you could already feel tears burning at your waterline the moment soobin confessed what he'd done and you were hoping you heard wrong, hoping it was some type of prank. when he looked away and didn't say anything, that was all you needed for the flood gates to open.

'after.. everything we've been through..? the shit i've put up with because of you? and, and you cheat on me?' your voice was getting louder as you moved closer, a hand coming up to jab your finger into his chest. 'you cheated on me with some.. random fan.. after everything i've given you?'

before you could fully lunge at him in the fit of rage going through you, arms caught around your waist. 'hey now, i know you want to kill him, but that's not the best option.' it was taehyun holding you back as you screamed and cried, trying to squirm out of his hold to continue giving soobin a piece of your mind. you felt broken and your mind was telling you the only way to soothe it was to let it out in the form of the pent up anger you had.

taehyun offered the older a glare and gestured to the door. 'you need to leave,' was all he said, knowing nothing was going to get better with him just standing there.

'y/n.. i'm so-'

'leave, soobin.' the silver haired latter wasn't going to give him the opportunity to give some half assed apology, he could do that later when you weren't trying to rip his eyes out. when he was out the door, the grip on you loosened and by then, you felt yourself fully sink. you slowly dropped down to your knees, sobbing so hard your body shook.

taehyun knelt beside you, carefully rubbing your back; what was he supposed to say? there was nothing for him to say. he couldn't give the usual 'it'll be okay' speech because he was sure you'd go for him, next. instead, he stayed quiet and let you work through it until you needed him.

he stayed on the floor with you for ten minutes before you were getting up, shakily walking towards your bedroom; he was quick to settle at your side, helping you along so you didn't end up on the floor again. he didn't need you injuring yourself.

'his stupid shirt..' you mumbled and it took him a second to realize what you meant, only getting there when you pulled your shirt off and tossed it at the corner of the room. he immediately looked away and cleared his throat. he didn't want to just leave you alone though, just stayed by the door and let you go about your business, mumbling and crying. his steps only changed when you went to the bathroom, but only to stand outside the door, staring into your room.

'i feel like he's all over me and i hate it,' you cried and he could hear you tossing things around in the bathroom, 'h-he.. he really had the nerve to sleep with me last night.. and touch me.. then..'

taehyun frowned as he listened, clenching his jaw rather tightly as he went over what he was going to tell the elder when he got back to the door, whether he got in trouble or not. his thoughts were cut short when he heard the shower cut on and he sighed, knowing there was only so much he could do until you managed to calm down. after a few minutes, he heard his name.

'yeah?' he called, head turning to glance into the bathroom, doing his best not to glance at the outline of your frame behind the frosted shower door.

'can you.. stay with me, please? i don't want to be alone.'

his eyebrows furrowed. 'i'm right here, i don't plan on leaving.'

you went quiet for a few seconds. 'no, i mean.. will you come in here? with me? join me?'

'y/n.. I don't-'

'please?'

could he really say no to you? he didn't want to unintentionally take advantage of your fragile emotional state but he couldn't say no and leave, not when you were asking something of him. taehyun hesitated a little but stepped into the bathroom, looking up to see you had cracked the door to the shower. he wasted no time in stripping his clothes, nudging them aside for later and stepped in with you, your back to him.

he shuddered when the warm water hit him but as he watched your frame tremble from crying, he couldn't help but wrap an arm around your shoulders and pull you back into him, ignoring how intimate the gesture seemed. 'it's okay,' he finally commented, feeling your hands reach up to hold his arm as it settled across your collar.

'i hate him,' you mumbled, sniffling and holding his arm tighter.

'i know.. but, you will be okay,' he mumbled, head dipping to press a soft kiss to your shoulder blade, 'i'll make sure of it.'

( ♡ ) beomgyu //

'well, it's not rocket science! if you can't handle your alcohol, you don't fucking drink! so don't you dare pull the i'm drunk bullshit on me, choi beomgyu,' you hissed, making sure he heard you over the bars commotion. 'you sobered up pretty damn fast when i got here, didn't you? oh, maybe! it was a fucking lie and you just cheated because you felt like it.'

part of you wanted to break with how he looked at you, a look he'd given you several times. 'y/n, i..' he barely knew what to say, knowing nothing could possibly make it any better.

'no. you don't get to "y/n" me right now because i don't want to hear a single thing you have to say,' you barked back, looking over to soobin who was standing quiet, patting his hands on his thighs, 'thank you, bin. i really appreciate at least someone being loyal.'

the taller just offered a nod, knowing either way he was going to be stuck in the middle. you would hate him for not saying anything and beomgyu would hate him for saying something - it was a damned if i do, damned if i don't situation for him.

'that's not fair!' beomgyu finally commented, eyebrows pulling together as he stepped closer to you, 'i've had multiple drinks tonight and i didn't think about it! it was a mistake and i'm sorry!'

you narrowed your eyes at him.

'all i did was kiss a girl, drunk.. it's not like i was bringing her back to the dorm or anything!'

nodding slowly, you pretended to think about it for a moment and smiled. 'well.. how about this? you go get some more drinks and kiss and screw whoever you want,' you chimed, pushing past him, 'and i'll do the same.. better yet, i'll do it without the drinks!'

you weren't sure what came over you when you reached up for the back of soobin's neck and pulled him into a kiss, you just knew that 1. beomgyu was fuming and 2. soobin wasn't pulling away. you were sure the brunette gave up on his argument when the older's hands found your waist and he was dragging you closer, kissing you like it was the only thing on his mind; you were kind of curious.

when the kiss broke, the raven was panting. 'i- i don't.. think this is..' he began to get out but you pat his cheek, shaking your head.

'don't, bin.. we can talk about it in the morning. if you really want to discuss it,' you commented, 'if you don't want to do anything, tell me now and i won't do a single thing.'

his eyes flickered and you could only assume he'd found beomgyu behind you but it didn't last long, shifting his attention back to you. 'dorm? no ones home right now.'

all it took was a nod and you were both out of there, leaving behind any drama. when you went to confront your boyfriend, you didn't expect to end up in the leader's bed but you weren't complaining.

( ♡ ) taehyun //

you had found out taehyun was cheating over a month ago and had already decided you were through with him; you were positive he was aware of this but no one said anything. when he posted on his private page that he was out, you took the opportunity to show up at the dorm, deciding to visit someone else.

that someone else was thrilled to see you, hugging you close and pressing a kiss to your forehead. you remembered the first night you came over when you found out, finding solace in the arms of kai who was nothing but comforting words and affection, doing whatever he could to soothe you over what was happening. you became numb to this situation, putting all of your attention on the younger, his works echoing in your head.

'you can use me for a distraction as long as you need.'

you didn't like it. you didn't like the idea of using someone. you'd fallen out of love the moment your heart was broken, whether it was just from hurt or not, you didn't know; had things gone differently, you would have held onto those feelings for taehyun but he threw that possibility out on his own.

settled on the couch, in kai's lap as you shared sweet kisses and little touches, you couldn't help but feel like nothing else in the world mattered. pressing your foreheads together, you sighed and looked at him despite the distorted view, brushing your hand over his cheek.

'i'm tired of you being a distraction.'

you could see the panic that settled on his features, eyes widening a little and that sad, heartbroken look started to appear; you were quick to fix that. 'no, no- not.. kai, i want to be with you, dummy. i'm not saying i don't want to be with you.. but when this started, you told me to use you as a distraction and.. i can't do that anymore.'

before he could answer, the door opened and you both looked over, knowing the confrontation you were waiting on was finally about to unfold.

taehyun stood with crossed arms, looking between you; you were content knowing he didn't think he had the audacity to get angry. 'so, when did you find out?'

kai was painfully confused at how nonchalant you both were being.

'over a month.. two, i'm pretty sure. why? how long has it been going on?'

he shifted his weight. 'three.'

it hurt, of course it did but at least he had the nerve to be honest when confronted instead of making up excuses. you decided that was all you needed to know and turned back to the younger, dipping down to hide your face in his shoulder. the bridge was burned, the feelings were void and there was nothing left to be upset about; it was more closure than anything else.

'take care of her and don't be stupid,' was all he said in acknowledgement to the latter, walking past to his room; you couldn't help but laugh when kai stiffened, not even sure if he should reply.

you just pat his head, head tilting just enough to look at him. 'so.. what i was saying previously.. is that a yes oooor..?'

'i.. yes?

( ♡ ) hueningkai //

kai cheating, for some reason, didn't come as a surprise to you. he was easy to touch, melted with ease and probably wasn't going to turn down the euphoric feeling you'd introduced him to. when he told you, you just looked at him and nodded slowly. you'd never seen kai cry before and you were more astonished by that, hardly bothering with his confession.

reaching across as he sobbed, you lightly cupped his cheek, brushing your thumb over it. 'you're stupid and.. terrible and one day, you'll face the same thing. we're all young, we all do stupid shit but.. cheating isn't a habit you want to get into. do you really want to be that guy..? because, i don't think you /are/ that guy.' you meant everything you said, looking at him closely as he bit down on his lip. 'it's alright but.. no one is going to be as lenient as i am, you know? plus, if i find out you've ended up cheating on someone else.. you can expect i will be back at this dorm to make sure you know you fucked up.'

you shooed him away, not wanting to hear his apologies and excuses and just sat back down at the table, sighing deeply. you, yourself, hadn't had a good reputation with relationships but you realized why girls generally didn't date younger than themselves; boys were stupid. shaking your head, you just rubbed over your face and ended up staring at the wall.

'handled that like a mother would,' came yeonjun's voice as he finally decided to make his presence known, having watched the awkward scene unfold from his spot by the couch.

his comment earned a laugh and you looked over at him. 'this is why we never dated,' you pointed out, getting up from your seat and leaning your hip against the table, 'we were also young and stupid. who knows what would have happened.'

he shrugged. 'i don't think either of us would have cheated, not when we've both dealt with it more than once,' he sighed and you nodded a little, agreeing with his point. 'but, you never know, i guess?'

turning from the couch, he made his way back to his bedroom door and held it open. 'you seem stressed. why don't we relive some of our old young and stupid days?' he grinned, raising an eyebrow. you couldn't help but snort at the terrible line, pushing off the table to make your way over.

you nudged him as you walked past, into his room.

'are you wearing my shirt?'

looking down, you pulled the hem of the shirt and ended up nodding. 'pretty sure you left it last time we had a little look back at the past.. want it back?'

he waved a dismissive hand as he entered the room, closing the door behind him with a smile. 'left it on purpose.. always liked seeing you in my clothes,' he chimed, making his way over to settle his hands on your hips, 'you know.. with as much as we do this, with as well as we fit together, we could always..'

you smiled softly, leaning up to nudge your noses together. 'haven't we had this discussion before? i just broke up with your groupmate, Jun.. bring it up to me again in a couple weeks.'

with that, no more words were exchanged. when you showed up at the dorm on kai's request, you expected to be having a movie night with terrible take out. what you didn't expect was for him to confess to cheating and for you to end up screaming, yeonjun's face buried between your legs.

you were bad at relationships, after all.

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( ♱ ) don't be scared.

muse: ot5, txt rated: pg13 + trigger warnings, i suppose. requested: yes a/n: enjoy, don't enjoy - i don't really care ♡ beta'd but she's real biased towards my writing. ♡ txt when you're triggered.

( ♡ ) yeonjun //

listening to your boyfriend rant about practice, you were simply watching and nodding along, letting him vent. he didn't realize how into it he was getting or how angry he seemed, so when his hands came up in a dramatic gesture, you flinched away. his rant came to an abrupt stop and he stared at you, eyes wide and lips still parted from the last part of his rant. he was trying to register what happened while you straightened and cleared your throat, trying not to make it so obvious.

'did.. did i scare you?'

the was his voice came out made your heart break a little and you didn't want to nod but you did, you wouldn't lie to him. 'you were just getting a little into it and i could see how mad you were and.. it's not you i'm scared of, it just brought up a lot of bad memories.'

whatever he was mad about was entirely wiped from his memory and he was quickly moving to wrap you up in his arms - of course, after he made sure you were alright with him touching you. the idea of you ever feeling unsafe around him didn't sit well with him at all but he knew it wasn't specifically because of him; that didn't make it any better.

'i'm so sorry, baby,' he mumbled, squishing you tight into his frame, 'i should have paid more attention to what i was doing. you know i would never even think of thinking of doing that, right?'

he was sure you'd probably heard the same from the person who caused this but he hoped one day you would be able to fully believe it.

you just hummed in response, head tucking against him to find solace in the thoughts suddenly swarming in your head.

( ♡ ) soobin //

soobin did his best to remember the things that made you uncomfortable and he prided himself in being good at that, never wanting you to feel such icky things because of him. however, as you were trying to get a cup down from the cabinet, that slipped his mind for a moment.

he didn't make much noise as he came up behind you to grab it, doing it in a nonchalant manner like he'd done for the members before and that was his mistake. you weren't one of his members and he should have remembered you weren't good with people behind you.

the moment you registered his frame, you jerked and pushed him back, an automatic response learned from your ex; you never felt safe with someone so close behind you. as soobin stumbled, he coughed a bit from the shove to his chest and furrowed his brow, hands up to show he wasn't trying to do anything.

'sorry! i should have said something and checked if it was okay,' he got out, straightening himself.

you, having finally cleared up reality, rushed over to make sure he was okay. 'shit, bin, are you okay?' you asked, gently touching his chest with a small frown. 'i'm so sorry.'

he shook his head and showed you a smile. 'don't be sorry, it was entirely my fault. i forgot and you had every right to react that way.' soobin couldn't let you take the blame on how it unfolded, despite the dull ache in his chest, he knew it was something you were struggling with.

when he saw your lips parting to argue, he shook his head and offered a pat to you own. 'do you need help?'

( ♡ ) beomgyu //

despite how aware he was ninety percent of the time about what was going on around him, beomgyu became absorbed in videos, games or reading quite easily and became oblivious to the entire world. this time, his attention was being held by some weird crafting video on youtube that he'd stumbled upon in some way or the other.

you, on the other hand, had been trying to get his attention for a good ten minutes before it started to bother you. your ex had a tendency to ignore you when he was angry, punishing you by making it seem like you didn't exist to him and a lot of those moments were flooding back to your mind. you tried telling yourself it was okay, you'd done nothing wrong and your boyfriend wasn't the type. was he? had you done something wrong?

biting down on your lip, you decided not to try and bother him anymore, sinking out to the living room. yeonjun was settled on the couch, watching some drama you'd never heard of and his head lifted at the sound of you shutting the door behind you. it only took a couple of seconds for him to register the hurt expression and teary eyes, causing him to get up and move across the room to you.

'y/n? what's wrong?'

his hands settled on your upper arms, looking over you to make sure you were okay as you took a breath so you could speak.

'i-i was trying to talk to gyu but he wasn't paying attention and i know he's watching something, we all know he can get a little oblivious when he gets into something and i know he isn't doing it on purpose but it reminded me of.. you know.. him.. and i started to panic and i didn't want to bother him and--'

yeonjun cut you off from your rant, taking a second to process what you'd even said before furrowing his brow. 'hey, it's alright,' he smiled, patting your arm, 'i know it's hard to deal with and adjust after.. those types of things but outside of that, which i know sounds worse, you know he would never do that. he's just dumb.'

chuckling, you reached up to rub your eyes. 'i know, i just feel like a broken record when i get upset over things.'

'no one sees it that way, trust me. everyone's been through one thing or the other,' he waved a dismissive hand and stepped past you to open the door, 'gyu? get off your phone and pay attention to y/n before i beat your ass.'

you watched as he leaned into the room and bit back a giggle, beomgyu pushing past him after a moment to get to you. 'my baby,' he chimed, automatically hugging onto you and nuzzling into your cheek. 'i'm sorry, i wasn't paying attention.. you didn't have to have him threaten my life, though.'

your eyes rolled. 'threaten your life..? i just.. didn't want to bother you with it.'

the brunette smiled, layering a couple kisses over your lips. 'it's not a bother! nothing that upsets you is a bother.. just hit me next time, okay?'

( ♡ ) taehyun //

'i don't see why you're so upset.. it was only like, two hours.'

taehyun stared at you blankly for a moment before taking a deep breath, thinking before he spoke. 'you mean the fact i didn't know where you were..? i didn't even know you were going out. i got home and you were gone, not answering your phone. how was i suppose to react?'

you frowned. 'i'm not a child, i'm allowed to go out, tae.'

'for fucks sake, i'm not saying you aren't! but it would be nice to know where you are now and again, don't you realize how dangerous things are nowadays? or am i in the wrong for caring, now??'

he hadn't seen the way you flinched when he pinched the bridge of his nose, eyebrows pulling together in frustration. you didn't realize you were crying until you had to sniff, hands coming up to wipe away the tears quickly. that, he noticed.

'i didn't..' he began, realizing he'd raised his voice at you but he didn't move, knowing he would only make it worse if he got too close, 'i don't care about you going out, love.. i'm not trying to make you feel like a child or like i need to know everything, i didn't even care where you went.. i would have just liked to known you were going out at all. i'm sorry if that came off some other way, i was just worried and the world is a shitshow right now. you weren't answering and i started to get worried.'

he took a minute before he spoke again, reaching out to offer you his hand. you looked at it, debating on if you should or not before taking it, moving to hug around his neck tightly. you didn't have to say anything for him to realize he'd fucked up, your frame having the slightest tremble to it as he hugged around your waist.

'i'm sorry for raising my voice, i didn't mean to and i should have thought it over before i even opened my mouth. i was scared and.. i shouldn't have taken that out on you.' he mumbled, pressing a couple kisses to the side of your head.

( ♡ ) hueningkai //

roaming around the kitchen to prepare food for everyone, you hummed to yourself, setting a stack of plates on the counter next to the glasses. it didn't take long before your boyfriend strolled in to catch your waist from behind, just wanting to watch as you worked.

the cute, domestic scene didn't last too long though as you stepped back and he didn't register fast enough to follow; this ended with you bumping one of the glasses and it crashing to the ground. you were oblivious to the way he sidestepped and kind of lead you away from the glass, only focused on the comment he made.

'ah.. y/n~ clumsy as ever.' of course it was a joke, especially coming from the clumsiest person in the house. he could breathe and something would break. this didn't register to you at all as you began to tear up.

'i-i'm so sorry, i'll clean it up!' you finally got out, clearly panicking as you crouched to pick up the bigger pieces, 'i'll replace it, i promise!'

it only took your raised voice to get the others attention, soobin poking his head into the room. 'is everything okay?' kai couldn't react fast enough at that point, quickly catching your arm to help you stand back up. soobin had fully entered and was looking between you both and the glass.

'i was distracting her while she was cooking and a glass got broke because i didn't move,' kai answered with a frown, taking the big pieces of glass from you to set on the counter. 'but.. i'm not sure..' he trailed off, not entirely on the up and up about your react. 'baby, it's just a glass.. it's okay,' he finally said.

'go talk to her and i'll clean it up,' the leader nodded, already making his way to the broom, 'and he's right, it's just a glass.. pretty sure we got them at the dollar store.' he shrugged with a small laugh in hopes to make you feel better.

kai seconded the comment and lead you to the living room, onto the couch before crouching in front of you. 'you okay, baby? what's wrong?'

your hands were covering your face, trembling a bit as you tried to calm down and make yourself realize you weren't in that situation anymore. when you finally looked up, you were met with the pitiful view of kai looking lost, confused and a little panicked.

'when, uhm.. my ex and i were together.. i accidently broke one of his bowls because i slipped,' you began, mumbling, 'he got really angry with me and.. and that was the first time he hit me so, i just, i panicked and all i saw in my head was him getting angry.'

the latter's eyebrows pulled together as he frowned. 'that bastard,' he answered much to your surprise considering you'd never heard him use such words in the time you'd know him. 'he'll get what's coming to him one day.. but, that's beside the point. i know it's scary when you've been through something like that but i doubt i could even get angry at you, i'm pretty sure it's impossible? i know you can't just tell yourself that and it'll make it better, but! i'll do everything i can to prove that to you, okay? mistakes happen, things get broken. it'll be okay and no one.. no one will ever have the chance to treat you like that again, okay?'

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but can reader get railed by taehyun in his skirt too? we all love green sweater jean skirt/pants tyun🤤🤤🤤 it can be the shadow style!! if youre uncomfortable!

Crying - is my page just going to turn into x reader works of getting pleasured by txt in the more feminine clothing? 😂 is cysm Soobin next?

But, I can surely try. I appreciate that you read my info before requesting (': I'll add it to my list and if I can write it, I will gladly.

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( ♱ ) someone else.

muse: 05, txt rated: g requested: yes a/n: enjoy, don't enjoy - i don't really care ♡ not at all beta'd. ♡ txt when you've fallen out of love with them for someone else.

( ♡ ) yeonjun //

sitting across from you, yeonjun was confused, to say the least. part of him wondered where he'd gone wrong and the other part was angry at you for looking at someone else. could he blame you though? no. he was usually pretty verbal about how he felt but kept everything in a tone that never caused a confrontation - he didn't want you to have secrets, regardless of if they'd cause something. over the last two years, he thought he was doing a good job and you would have agreed; arguments with him were settled easily because neither of you wanted to fight. this though, this made him want to scream and cry and yell - he wanted to fight about it, fight for you but he couldn't.

he didn't want to admit it but he could see in the way you looked at him that there wasn't anything to fight for at that point. he could easily recall how it looked when you were both deeply in love but it wasn't there anymore; why would he make you miserable fighting you on something you didn't want?

'as long as he takes care of you.'

( ♡ ) soobin //

soobin wasn't sure how to react. he was pretty good at handling his emotions most days, not much bothering him, but this.. broke his heart. his response came with questions and the urge to make promises. was he not doing enough? had he failed to show he loved you? in the end, it wasn't something you could control. he thought you were his soulmate while you had fallen out of love not long ago. he was thankful you didn't try to lead him on and were honest; he would never get mad at anyone for being honest with him. he would absolutely cry, looking down at his hands while he listened to you and he would, he would listen to every word trying to reason with it in his head.

he would fight it the best he could, trying to counter what you said but it was a state of denial; no one wants to be told there's someone else taking the person you love from them. he would accept your comfort, hugging you tightly as you apologized - he wouldn't accept it.

'how can you apologize for being in love? just because it isn't with me.. doesn't mean you should apologize. be happy.'

( ♡ ) beomgyu //

the first thought in beomgyu's head would be the thought that haunted him most of his career, throughout all of his relationships; am i not good enough? he would think back to every date, your first kiss, the first time you slept together, etc. he would play all of it over in his head trying to find where he messed up and it would take a while for you to semi convince him that it wasn't his fault; he would never one hundred percent believe it wasn't him. he wouldn't fight you, he wouldn't have the will to. as bad as it sounds, he would end up caving in on himself and blaming himself for letting someone else take you away.

you weren't heartless and would sit with him, like you always did, and reassure him that those terrible thoughts weren't true. it wasn't that he didn't believe you but sometimes, he couldn't get out of what his demons told him. he wouldn't become cold or hateful but he would become quiet, offering your hand a soft squeeze before you left.

'i'm sorry i let you down.'

( ♡ ) taehyun //

taehyun knew before you ever got the courage to tell him and eventually, he sat you down to speak about it. he knew you weren't cheating but he knew you didn't feel the same; he could see it all over you. you would explain that time had gone by and you found yourself in the company of someone else and at one point, your heart changed; he would understand. he knew that love wasn't something to be controlled and it was the fault of neither of you; you didn't just decide not to love him anymore and he wasn't going to blame himself or you for that. he could see that it was bothering you with every word of your confession and smiled, quieting you.

it hurt, of course it did, he was in love with you but there was nothing he could do. there could come a day in which you returned to him, considering how fickle love could be, but if what made you happy and kept you healthy was letting you leave, he would do that.

'i'll always be here, okay?'

( ♡ ) hueningkai //

kai was confused. he would be a mix of everyone and not really know how to handle it in the proper manner. he wouldn't yell or scream at you, he wouldn't get aggressive; everyone was quite positive he didn't even have the wiring to become aggressive. he did tear up however but he'd never let those tears fall, he didn't want to seem like he couldn't handle it but he'd never been in such a situation before. break ups were one thing but having the person you thought you'd be with forever, look at you and say they had fallen in love with someone else? he didn't really know how to process it. he would accept his fate and honestly,

he wouldn't really be able to hug you this time, he didn't think he'd make it if he did and he wanted to let you go without causing more stress to either of you. he just gave you a small smile and a wave.

'i hope you're always happy.'

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( ♱ ) it's okay.

muse: taehyun, txt rated: g requested: yes a/n: enjoy, don't enjoy - i don't really care ♡ not at all beta'd. ♡ taehyun finds you upset over one of soobin's mangas.

taehyun had checked his phone just about every thirty minutes throughout the day or when he could get his hands on it, something that was unlike him. it earned the attention of the others but no one said anything; he would speak up if it was something they needed to know about. he, on the other hand, was growing more and more concerned as the next few hours went by without a single text back.

were you okay? had something happened? he had a million questions racing through his head by the time practice was over and he barely got out his 'goodbyes' before he was out the door.

see, taehyun is very rational and very intelligent; he could think of many reasons you weren't answering your phone but that wasn't like you. what made it worse was his quick check of your social media, trying to find some type of answer. on your instagram story was a black screen that only said 'i can't believe him.. how could he?' and for some reason, his heart sank.

did he forget something? he hadn't forgotten a single thing since you got together. he knew it couldn't have been something he said because you weren't the type to back down and stay quiet on anything that bothered or upset you. was it him being busy? you'd never been upset over that before, you liked your space and honestly never seemed to mind.

he was raking his brain the entire walk to your apartment, preparing to apologize not only for possibly hurting you but for also being dense enough not to know why. pushing his phone into his pocket as he made it up to the door, he pulled out the spare key to unlock and open the door, immediately ready to do whatever it took to make you feel better; he still didn't know why but he didn't really need a reason.

now, he expected to show up to your place and either be met with the cold shoulder or an accusation; he wasn't even one hundred percent sure you'd be home. what he found was you sitting on the floor in front of your couch, crying your eyes out and surrounded by an awfully familiar looking set of manga. the same manga he'd found soobin in tears over. he did his best not to sigh and roll his eyes because honestly, how sad could it be? maybe he was just broken in that sense.

setting his bag down, he made his way over to you and crouched down. 'hey, honey,' he cooed, reaching to lightly pull the blanket cloak down so he could see you, 'what's going on? you haven't answered your phone in.. eight hours?' it was a guestimate but close enough.

you were sniffling and wiping at your eyes, mumbling something incoherent that he couldn't even begin to decipher. he just nodded and decided neither of you were moving from the spot, so he got comfortable. settling down beside you, he managed to untangle your blanket to tuck around his frame, pulling you closer. he was going to just hold you for the time being but he didn't mind when you decided how you wanted to be; he was more than content to have a lap full of his lover.

'men are stupid,' you finally muttered, tears stopping but he could tell it would only take a single sensitive word to have you back to sobbing.

'thanks,' he mused, reaching up to lightly brush a fallen eyelash from your cheek, most likely from the aggressive rubbing you'd done to them; he would save his teasing over your cute, puffy features for later.

you deflated a bit. 'shut up, you know i don't mean you..' you commented, 'he did all of this grand stuff and said he loved her in the most beautiful confession i've ever heard, he promised to do anything and everything f-for her and then just..' as tears began to form again, you threw your hands up in a dramatic expression, 'decided she wasn't good enough and left!'

taehyun listened, like he always did and brought both hands up, thumbs gently wiping away the tears that fell. 'hey, hey.. it's okay,' he smiled a little as he spoke, 'sounds like she deserves better anyone.'

'but you should h-have seen the things he said to her!' you frowned and as much as he didn't want to, he let out a gentle chuckle. 'you're so mean, you know that?'

he shook his head. 'baby, i'm not mean.. and, i'm not going to be stupid and say 'it's just a book' because i know it's not but.. at the end of the day, whatever happens on those pages.. isn't real.'

you frowned deeper at him and he knew this wasn't what you wanted to hear. 'what if you do what he did? what if.. you make all these promises and then find someone better..?'

there it was. your real reason for crying came to light and he had been waiting for that. he knew people got emotional over books and movies and shows but normally, you didn't hang onto things like that for too long. 'is that why you've been crying, love?'

you looked down and played with part of the blanket, shrugging slightly. 'it.. just seemed like a familiar situation,' you answered and he could see a tear slide to drip from the tip of your nose and his heart wrenched, 'two people, one in a higher position than the other.. they fall in love, the higher up one makes all these gestures and does all these spectacular things and says all of those sweet words but then finds someone in a similar higher position and suddenly, the other one isn't good enough.'

taehyun wasn't exactly fond of how it was worded, not considering himself to be in any higher standing than yourself, but it wasn't the first time you'd brought it up to him.

'first of all.. anyone who thinks so highly of themselves is gross,' he pointed out, 'that shouldn't matter in the long run, honestly. sure, one may make more or have more opportunities, I guess that depends on who is doing what. however, thinking someone is good enough or not good enough based on their standing just makes you an asshole, don't you think?' he sighed softly and moved one hand to the back of your neck to gently guide you closer to him, the arm circling to hold around your midsection, 'i believe if he let her go for that shallow reason.. she will find someone much, much better. someone who is going to mean all of the things that he didn't.'

you let out a small whine that made him laugh a little and squeeze your frame, hand shifting from your neck to pat your head. 'in our situation, i disagree. i've meant everything i've ever said to you and i have never done a single thing that wasn't backed with how i feel for you - i've never gone above and beyond with meaningless gestures. i surely don't plan on going off and trying to date another idol just because we're in the same position.'

he could feel you relaxing the more he spoke, arms loosely sinking around him and he moved the blanket to tuck you in your spot, balled up as much as you could manage against his chest.

'i know somedays it may get to you and hey, it's gotten to me before.. but, we are nothing like those characters, okay? if i ever let you go.. it's because you wanted to be let go and i won't do that without a very, very long talk. i love you, more than anything.'

pressing a kiss to your head, his eyes closed as he hugged you close, rubbing your back. 'you okay?'

after a few minutes you finally nodded. 'i love you, too.'

'now.. stop letting soobin give you things to read.'

your only response was to weakly hit his back before settling again, content to dose off in his hold.

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What is your least favorite trope? Or writing style that youve seen? or like your least favorite type of anything when it comes to fic writing? I see a lot of people ruin characters i like so im curious about writings pov!! + could i get txt reacting to you being in love with someone else?

♡ if you get offended by this, just remember, you don't have to interact. scroll away, don't cause shit for someone else, etc etc. be kind and all that fun stuff! ♡

1. My least favorite trope is one that gets so over used and for no reason. It's the 'I apparently didn't know what I signed up for when I began dating an idol so now I'm going to be angry/upset with him when he doesn't spend time with me because he has this excessive job that I KNEW he had going into this/ I cheated because he doesn't give me enough attention.' It's so annoying. Like - it's always the excuse of 'I thought I could handle it' - no, you didn't. When you got into this relationship you knew the schedules, you knew the sacrifice, etc etc. You wanted to think you could handle it, I'm sure we've all been in the situation of 'I thought I could' but at the end of the day, you really didn't, you just wanted to hope you could. But, I've seen it so many times when the idol is on tour or busy or doing some other things and the reader gets super angry with them and I'm like: you willingly got into this relationship, they probably feel bad enough and you're going to have the AUDACITY to get ANGRY at them? No. Control your emotions, discuss it like civil adults and either stick it out or move on. This trope is annoying as hell to me. Others may love it! It's totally opinion based, I'm aware of that.

2. I don't think there's really a style I don't like? Everyone writes differently. I mean, I don't know if it counts but I don't like people who don't seperate paragraphs. Like, I'm not the best at it but when the ENTIRE scenario is one whole paragraph with zero breaks, I can't read it. Or, the people who write without quotes, so you can't actually tell when anyone is talking. Or, scene changes and timeskips with zero indication. And, I'm not trying to be rude at all 🤷🏻‍♀️ there are people who probably sit and criticize my writing but I'm pretty sure everyone has at least something they don't like. I know several people who can't stand intentional lowercase writing.

3. I don't know if this would be a style or a personal preference? But, I have a weird thing with 'he's so hot when he's jealous' type of comments or 'his jealousy is so sexy' - it really isn't. Jealousy is not sexy or hot, etc etc. Jealousy turns into death, assault and a lot of other shit very fast. Plus, generally jealousy is based off of distrust, insecurities or being overly possessive; none of those things are supposed to be romanticized or found sexy. If your s/o is doing it because of distrust or insecurities, it's time to sit and talk and try to help them or find the cause of it. If it's because of that type of possession? You are not their s/o - you are their property. In a BDSM manner, that's all fine and dandy, but outside of that.. you are not property to be owned ( like I said, unless it's in certain manners. If it's a consensual thing, obv it's different. ). Now, if you find it attractive that your s/o is getting bent out of shape for someone else touching you - hopefully that isn't jealousy, that should be the sheer understanding of 'hey, maybe you shouldn't touch people without asking' or 'they look uncomfortable, knock it off.' Cause if your s/o is getting 'jealous' and raging over a friend touching your shoulder, you need to leave. Take it from someone who knows a lot of narcissistic, jealous people who can go from jealous to angry and violent very, very fast. And yes, there's a difference in possessive 'they belong to me' and loving 'this person is mine ♡'. Once again, personal opinion - everyone will do as they will with their lives. It's just something that's a bit of a pet peeve for me.

♡ As someone who also runs a Tokyo Revengers page and a DC page, I can totally agree that I've seen people ruin characters but it's all perspective. Even on my page, I'm sure people have questions on how I write people because I over analyze. Like my issue with 'Beomgyu is the annoying boyfriend' - hate it, this type of writing ruins his written, fic persona for me. Because watching them, I don't consider him annoying and clingy - I consider him someone who needs reassurance and if you watch, the members often notice and give him that assurance. But, everyone who has ever read fics has had an idol, actor, character, etc. ruined for them by someone.

+ I will absolutely get on that, dearest! Thank you for the request! ♡

++ my inbox is still open for requests, theories, questions. pretty much anything ♡ I lost all my anons when I went on hiatus so friends and anons are also welcome.

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crying @ the yeonjun skirt fic bc i too felt the same feelings seeing him in that fit…thank u for writing this ♡

👐🏻 glad to know it was a universal feeling. you're more than welcome ♡♡♡