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i can't breathe. i feel like i've lost everyone i care about

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why can't i breathe. why does it feel like it's getting bad again. why do i feel like cutting. I'm on meds now, I thought this wasn't supposed to happen

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so tired.

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WHAT DID YOU SAY? "chinatown" by girlpool / "the record player song" by daisy the great / "play it again" by ada limón / "laments" by hop along / "honeydew" by small talks / "my darling, my hamburger" by paul zindel / "take off ur pants" by indigo de souza / journal excerpt, april 22 2025

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just watering the plants - Alexander Anthony Mar

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apocrypha

day three: apocrypha

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i dont want to talk to you. i dont want to talk to anybody. you exhaust me.

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Im now convinced :)

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Kim Addonizio, from "'Round Midnight'", What Is This Thing Called Love

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I enjoy the feeling of the sting afterwards rather than the actual cutting of the skin.

Like the sleeve rubbing against an open wound is fucking heavenly.

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One minute you’re recovering so well, feeling like life is worth living and you are worth loving. The next you are alone again, feeling 13 years old and harming yourself, reminded of why no one could ever like you in the first place. I fear I will always return back to that person…

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unable to live, to talk. i have nothing to communicate, ever, to anyone.

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am i the only one who genuinely doesn’t think sh is as bad as society makes it seem? like for example smoking, is kind of seem as ok, or at least mire ok than sh, from our society, but it destroys our longs beyond healing, sh on the other hand, heals and only leaves scars. maybe i am just stupid

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My life was supposed to end at 16

Idk what im doing now

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i dont know how to ask for help without feeling like a burden