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For Old Times' Sake 🌙

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Listen, you know why Andrew loves Neil? Why Neil Abram Josten was the one Andrew would allow into his inner space, to allow growing roots where Andrew keeps the remaining fragments of his heart?

Because hardly anyone respects Andrew's boundaries. Renee does. Bee does. Wymack does. Andrew respects his own boundaries to the point of enforcing them at knife point.

But Neil? Neil Abram Josten?

He views Andrew's boundaries as sacred.

Renee, Bee, and Wymack would view crossing Andrew's boundaries as disrespectful at best and a violation at worst. They earned his trust that way.

But NEIL???

Neil views crossing Andrew's boundaries as a fucking sin. As blasphemous. A devoted disciple would sooner spit in their God's face than Neil ever conceiving of crossing Andrew's boundaries.

Some people would look at you erecting brick walls covered in barbed wire and would start looking for a good crack to aim a sledgehammer. Some people would watch you lock a door and try knocking, just once, to see if you'll open it for them. And some people would watch you draw a line in the sand and never dream of stepping over it.

Neil parked his ass on the other side of Andrew's barbed wired multi-layered brick wall surrounding his concrete bunker and stayed there, running his mouth. And when Andrew revealed the hidden door, Neil smiled, stayed put, and kept talking.

Andrew didn't fall for Neil because Neil wouldn't come in.

He fell because Neil waited for Andrew to come out, waited for Andrew to extend his hand, and waited for Andrew to lead him inside by his own volition.

And that's why Neil was the one who earned Andrew's "Stay".

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agust d. d-day:

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the miracle of being here

invitation, mary oliver// @arthoesunshine // when death comes, mary oliver//to be alive, gregory ott// the dead poets society(1989), quote: walden, henry david thoreau// joseph campbell// the aeneid, virgil// @babyangel-jpg // @rawjoy //sweet, charles bukowski// that it will never come again, emily dickinson// bjenny montero// ? // ? // moments, mary oliver// madness a bipolar life, marya hornbacher// wild geese, mary oliver// letters to a young poet, rainer maria rilke// on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong// @ashstfu // i thought on his desire for three days, linda gregg

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Franz Kafka, the metamorphosis / Jane Austen

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The Shared World, Vievee Francis

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"𝖶𝖾 𝖽𝗈 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗈𝗌𝖾 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗂𝗇 𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗅𝗂𝗏𝖾𝗌 𝗐𝖾 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗇" 𝗌𝖺𝗂𝖽 𝖬𝖺𝗍𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗐. "𝖨𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾𝗌 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗂𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾𝗌, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗐𝖾 𝗍𝗋𝗒 𝗍𝗈 𝗋𝖾𝗆𝖾𝗆𝖻𝖾𝗋, 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗐𝖾 𝖼𝖺𝗇𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗂𝗆𝖺𝗀𝗂𝗇𝖾 𝖺 𝖽𝖺𝗒 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗋𝖾𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗌𝖾 𝗂𝗍𝗌 𝗁𝗈𝗅𝖽 𝗈𝗇 𝗎𝗌, 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗇 𝖿𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗌. 𝖠𝗅𝗅 𝗆𝗂𝗌𝖾𝗋𝗒 𝗉𝖺𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗌. 𝖧𝗎𝗆𝖺𝗇𝗂𝗍𝗒 𝗂𝗌 𝖽𝗋𝖺𝗐𝗇 𝗍𝗈 𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍, 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝖽𝖺𝗋𝗄𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗌."

-𝖬𝖺𝗍𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗐 𝖥𝖺𝗂𝗋𝖼𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖽

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Will Herondale: if you hurt one hair on her head I will end you and your entire blood line. Do you understand me?

James Herondale: dad, I'm your child, not Cordelia...

Will:

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i dont think i’ll ever be truly happy unless matthew fairchild is happy

his happiness means my happiness

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How dare you?!

I don’t think anything fucks me up like the fact that one day Alec and Jem will both be dead and Tessa will be sitting on the couch with Magnus crying together

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One must be careful of books, and what is inside them, for words have the power to change us.

Cassandra Clare, The Infernal Devices (via books-n-quotes)