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Something amazing will happen to you in May 2019.

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jon, the whole battle:

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if ur feeling desperately sad this summer, wait until it gets dark and half quiet and then open a window. cool air and passing cars are gonna heal ur heart. i promise

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I have to bring this one back 🔥

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Well this is just disgusting and terrifying and reprehensible all rolled into one.

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I’m fucking crying. Pt. 2

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#curly boy

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When someone asks you where you see yourself in 5 years and you’re like buddy .. im just trying to make it to Friday

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not to be dramatic but my whole soul hurts

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i wish someone understood what i am going through. no one understands and i know this for a fact because of their responses. if someone tells me to just get over it and move on or if they tell me just be strong and move on, i know they don’t understand because if they felt how i felt right now, they’d know that is the absolute last thing i need to hear. 

i need to know how to stop it. how to stop feeling like i am drowning over and over and how to stop the pressure on my chest because it makes me feel nauseous. it makes me feel like i can’t breathe and that i am going to throw up. i’m tired of feeling like i cannot allow myself to feel happy. every time i feel a little happy, i stop myself unintentionally, i literally stop in the moment and i can feel myself getting sad again, i can feel it taking over my entire brain within a second, and i’m back to feeling like i cant breathe and no one gets that, no one sees that i am drowning

im tired of people telling me i shouldn’t take it out on anyone and i should just be strong and be happy. do you not understand that i am not worried about your feelings or what you think i should do, i am just worried about myself right now because right now, i am losing it

i am losing my sanity i am losing my conscious i am losing myself i am losing everything that makes me me 

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ig: @roomvibes

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paramore can keep making all that depressive pop about hitting rock bottom and how shitty it is to be an adult and i will eat it up every time help me dance through that depression hayley

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